(chapter 2 A Tear Drop)
(I do not own, Black Butler)
(ps. I do not own Black Butler or its characters except, Emily and her family.)
I felt like I was laying on a cloud as I opened my eyes to see nothing but darkness. I felt numb as I couldn't look around and just floated in the darkness. It was silent as I started to feel lonely but a small tiny light got my attention and I wondered what it could be.
I felt my feet touch the smooth floor, surprised. I did not know that I had descended or there was a floor at all. I slowly walked towards the light as I felt calm near it and soon found myself going throw a white tunnel. The floor soon turned white as I kept walking towards the light. It got too bright, as I got closer. I had to close my eyes. I felt a warm breeze brush my face as the grass that I was now standing on, tickled my feet. I wondered where I was and opened my eyes and gasped. 'Home?'
I was standing in front of my home. No, not the place where the grandmother lives. My real home. I saw My mom, sitting down at the dock, reading her book as she used to. I wanted to run to her but could not, I could not move at all. I was confused and scared as to why my body stopped moving when it hit me.
I was dreaming or more like seeing old memories. The world around me got fuzzy and dim when I realized that it wasn't real. I could hear my mother humming a song.
"haha! Emily, get back here you little thief!" I heard my dad yell from behind me. I ran throw the front yard as I had no control over my body. my younger self Laughed cheekily as she stuck her tongue out playfully.
I had stolen my dad's round glasses and decided to run around wearing them that late summer. My mother sat in her lawn chair watching us, she was wearing her favorite yellow sun dress and big flimsy hat to bloke out the sun. She smiled warmly at us.
"AAH! No!" My younger self yelled out playfully as My dad grinned triumphantly. He eventually got her, tickling her to the ground gently in revenge, as she tried to get away. I never could back then. I scuffed a cry as my younger self surrendered and my mother laughed as she too joined in, as she started to tickle me too. I had turned ten that summer.
'No! I don't want to see this, stop it!' I cried in agony inside. The pain in my chest grew worse as I could feel my throat burn, and my stomach twisted painfully inside. I could not take seeing them alive and not being able to touch or feel them near me. It was killing me but as everything started to fade and change. I felt a little bit relieved but also agony. I didn't want to lose them yet.
I was forced into another memory.
"Emily! Come on it's okay, just keep... that's it!" I heard my dad behind me yell in joy and out of breath. I could now feel the bike underneath me move jaggedly as it went forward when my dad let go. He had been pushing the seat of my bike as I rode it forward for the first time.
I could hear my dad cheer for me in joy. I loved that bike and the feeling of its freedom as I rode it at full speed happily.
"I'm doing it, daddy!" I yelled cheerfully. I was six then and was going to start school that spring.
"stop it!" I screamed again but this time out loud. The memory shattered and I fell to my knees. I could not see a thing as my eyes were squeezed tight together in frustration and I wrapped my arms around me, until I heard a kind familiar voice call to me faintly. "Honey come here... tell me what happened?"
I turned around to see that I was sitting in the living room of my old home and my mom talking to my younger self, who was at the door crying with our mom kneeled down in front of her.
'mom...' I thought sadly as I stiffened a cry and struggled to watch the memory. I had come home covered in snow from playing with the other kids crying, they had pushed me into the snow to roughly. I had run home to my mom. I told her about what the kids had done and my mother picked me up gently with love, as she soothed me lovingly. "Ignore them dear... they are not worth your time...!"
I tried to force myself to look away but something in me wanted to watch the last memories I had with my parents. my five-year-old self smiled in thanks as she had no idea how long those words kept us going. My dad had gone out to get me the biggest Christmas gift ever to cheer me up and came home wearing a Santa suit bringing it in. "Ho-Ho-Ho!"
I only rolled my eyes sadly and smirked in irony as I remembered how crazy he used to be. I frowned in irony. It hurt but felt nice at the same time. Why cannot the pain just go away?
"...You're not Santa, your daddy!" My younger self giggled as she ran into our dad's open arms. It had been a great Christmas that year.
'that's it! no more...' I thought miserably as I ripped my eyes away from the scene and got into the fetal position with my forehead on my knees and wished it all to stop before I lost my sanity. Well, whatever that was left of it that is. The memory changed again and I feared what memory would be next.
"mommy, why do you blow dandelion's, when they are fluffy?" I heard a young voice ask and knew it was "that" memory as I caved into myself when my mom spoke. "So that my wish can come true sweetie. A wish is a powerful thing that a dandelion can grant, but you can still get your wishes granted even without a dandelion."
my mother's answer was playful and loving as I covered my ears trying to not hear her. It hurt too much. "Really! But, how?"
I could still hear me and my mom talking happily and slightly opened my eyes. I looked up as I heard my mom chuck at how innocent I was then and pulled a stray hair behind my younger self's ear smiling cheekily. I smiled too without realizing it, even if I felt awful. My mother could make anyone smile. "If you wish hard enough for something Emily... it will come true"
My younger self and I looked at her mom in wonder. We sat under our favorite cherry tree. We were surrounded by dandelions with their seed's ready to fly away as I watched my mom blow her dandelion seed's in the wind. I concentrated on how to do it. It was my third birthday and like our mom. I Made a wish. 'I wish all my problems would disappear... and that I will be happy with my family Forever!'
The memory started to fade. I watched my younger self-blew away the wish happily as I slowly closed my eyes sadly reminiscing. The memory faded away, but that one memory got me to hold on to something. I wished for that wish to come true hopefully.
"As you wish my lady, but be careful about what you wish for, those who wish unwisely may have misfortune shined upon them..."
I snapped my eyes open as I head the deep voice whisper in fright. I was laying on a cold wet floor. I noticed that storm had completely disappeared and that I was now sitting on a body of water. It was crystal clear like the glass and reflected the bright purple sky above me. I saw there were no trees or land in sight just water.
It all seemed... calm and Nice... was I in heaven? I hoped it was...
' this place is gorgeous, but where am I? and why the hell can I stand on water?' I thought mildly in shock as I got onto my feet and looked done at where the water rippled as my feet touch it with a blank face, but only to have it start letting me sink into it.
"AH!" I yelled panicking as I slipped on the water falling head first into it but before I could hit the water a bunch of vines came out of it, and surrounded me. I closed my eyes shut in fear.
(thump!)
'...ow...that hurt why did I have to hit the ground so hard...wait! ground?' I thought confused as I had landed on a hard surface on my face and pushed myself up off the ground, opening my eyes to see that I was now inside a gazebo. I pushed myself up onto my feet from the floor and looked at... Daisies? that had magically grew under me and hooked onto my feet.
"what the hell!" I yelled in fear and jumped away from the flowers but soon ignored them as they left me alone. I look at the gazebo around me that had somehow appeared to save me; it had white lilies that made the poles which held the ceiling of it, which was made out of sunflowers and the fence around the gazebo was made out of green vines.
'okay...back up Emily, let's think. I was in the forest park the last time I checked, how did I get here? and most importantly why the hell is a gazebo even here in the first place?!' I thought trying to calm myself but only to get more upset. hell I even wanted to go back to the grandmother's house.
"hehe, you're very cute when you're panicking you know?"
A deep voice said with a chuckle that echoed around me out of nowhere which scared the crap out of me and making me flinch a little. I looked around to find that there was no one around me and scratched my head in confusion.
'my mind must be playing tricks on me this may all be a dream hell I bet a magical butterfly will magically appear... really?' I thought blandly as a glass blue butterfly that was hiding in the pocket of my shorts and flew out in front of me. I Looked at it curiously and put my hand out to touch the butterfly, so it could also land on it.
'what a pretty little thing you are; you look just like the butterfly that use to be on my hairpin...' I thought sadly as I looked at the butterfly fondly. it had landed on my hand with a flutter of its wings.
"thank you, my lady," said the same deep voice as before. I jump out of fright again and look for where the voice had come from, only to see the butterfly looking at me innocently in my hand.
"is that voice you?" I asked with an uneasy look at the butterfly with a raised eyebrow and leaned my face closer to it skeptically.
"yes it is my lady, it is very nice to finally meet you!" said the butterfly as it glowed a bright yellow transforming into a man. who was kneeling on the grass floor in a dark purple tailcoat and matching dress pants as I jumped away and tried not to faint. I Looked at the kneeling man in front of me in shock as I slowly pull myself together because there was more going on than just this man, so I relayed what he had said to me.
'he might know what's going on and he doesn't seem bad?' I thought calmly as I calm down when he didn't move. I asked the man with a strong voice "sir do you know where I am and what's going on?"
I look at his kneeling form with discomfort asking myself why he had to do that when there was no one around.
"my lady you have grown a lot since your mother left you with that hag! pardon my language miss but I wanted to save you from that place and I'm sorry I couldn't sooner please forgive me," the man said sadly and lowered his head more in disappears. I relay what he had said and made a sweat drop.
'he really feels sorry for not helping me at my godmothers... wait what? how does he even now about that? who is this man?' I thought angrily and glare at the man As he kneeled in front of me with an era of depression around him. I knew something was not right about him.
"who-are-you? I do not like liar's sir, so tell me the truth" I spat out in anger which made him flinch and grow even sadder. I wonder how he got that information about me.
"in order to keep you safe. madam, made me your guardian or butler, whichever you want to call me but because she didn't want you to know about me until you turned 16 in that world, she put me onto your hairpin to look after you, which is why I know everything about you! my lady" the man said standing up with a bright smile as he lifted up his half-moon glasses with his index finger which had fallen down the bridge of his nose, when he kneeled down.
I look at him with a blank stare for a while and didn't know how to react to his mood swings as he started to fix his long hair into a very loose samurai ponytail that came down onto his right shoulder. Was this man serious?
"okay, I didn't get that? one you didn't tell me who you are seconded who is this madam you speak of? and Can you explain what's going on? that's what I'd like to know" I said angrily as I was losing my patience when he sighed in annoyance at my question.
"Madam, your mother made me, your caretaker or butler for short in order to keep you safe, as you go through a journey to discover something. I'm afraid I cannot tell you anything about why madam did this or what is to happen. I can only give you clues, and protect you, my lady" the so-called butler simplified for me with pride written all over his white face, as he put a baby-blue-gloved hand over his chest like a soldier and bows.
'hmm, so my mom made me a butler huh... wait! how the hell can my mom even do that?' I mused looking at my butler in fascination as I second guessed myself. It could have been a lie or it could have been true, as I will, never know but by the why he smiled and how he said it earlier. I knew that he wouldn't tell me even if I asked, so I didn't and trusted him which turned out to be a bad mistake in the future.
'what is this place?' I wondered as I let out the air I had been holding in without knowing and turned away from my butler to look at the place around me, which was still the same, minus the fact that there was now a gazebo floating in the water.
"this place is your mindscape, my lady. it's where all your memories and thoughts are stored," my butler whispered from right beside my ear as I almost had a heart attack in fear.
"would you stop doing that? it's creepy! can you read my mind?" I yelled annoyed at my butler for sneaking up behind me.
"ha-ha, I'm sorry but I can't help it. yes, I can because I'm simply one hell of a butler, my lady," my butler said with a grin when he answered my question and I gulped as a shiver went down my spine. He had a very crazed look in his eyes that disappeared as fast as it came. I felt the air around me thinking as he stared at me unblinking with his bright green eyes until I remembered something he had said.
"oh my god! how do you know black butler mister... um, by the way, what's your name?" I said to my butler, with a small uncertain smile as he grinned back showing his sharp, white, teeth to me. I wondered if he was bipolar...
"oh! while I was on your hairpin I could see and hear everything you did and please Forgive my rudeness my lady for not telling you my real name. it's too hard for your human ears to comprehend, so if you wish to call me by a name so be it. I will love it! if you gave me one, my lady" said my butler happily as he bowed deeply to me which made a mischievous smirk come across my face.
I thought about what I should call him and then a nice name hit me.
"I shall call you! Luke, Washington!" I yelled triumphantly as it was hard to find a good name for a butler, and seeing how Luke Washington forced a smile on his face I could proudly say he was my butler. I noticed I was happier around him maybe staying here was good for me?
"it's lovely my lady, I'll cherish it forever-" Luke said cutting off at the end when he saw that I was starting to disappear before He grabbed onto my right hand making a dark-blue, glowing, butterfly tattoo appears on his right hand, underneath his glove.
"my lady, before you wake up I have to tell you one last thing, you cant let them find you their-!" but before, Luke could finish what he was going to say. everything went dark and I couldn't feel or hear anything anymore again. I panicked and didn't want to be alone again, not after finding a friend, even if he was weird and possibly not real. He made me feel like I had someone but now I was alone again.I hated that a lot.
'What did he mean by them?'
Was the last thought that went throw my mind, until it too went blank.
A/N- if anyone wants the name of the butler to change then I would like suggestions for what name I should give him cause I don't know any good ones other than the one I gave him here, also please comment bunnies for it is awesome chow ;p