A/N

This is what I think is the real reason for their fight. The voices have made it bigger than what it should be, because their love is too strong to generate hate.

This is set sometime in the future after all the crap that is currently going on with Lex and all, is stopped.

It was 7:30 PM, Kara lay in her bed, clutching onto her covers as she held them close. She hadn't been herself lately, she had never felt so much pain. She struggled to enjoy anything she loved. She wasn't sure if she loved any of it anymore. She had loved Lena, and she had hurt Lena. Nothing else mattered. The tears came in waves. She felt disgust at what she had done. That feeling mixed with her deepest sorrow was all she could feel. It seemed to grow in intensity each day. She missed Lena so much. The next wave of tears escaped her eyes. She missed her warmth, her smell, the sound of her heart beat. Lena's heart beat was unique. It had become a familiar sound which would calm Kara. She missed it.

Suddenly Kara sat up straight in her bed. She hadn't been imagining her smell and her heart beat, it was real. Lena was headed up the stairs of her apartment building. Kara panicked. She couldn't move, all she could focus on was Lena. Her heart beat raced a little faster as she hurried up the stairs. What was she doing? Floods of tears escaped Kara's eyes now, she couldn't contain her feelings. Lena was headed for her apartment and for a second it felt the way it had before Lena had broken her own heart and Kara's at the fortress. It felt familiar and warm. The second passed quickly and Kara's brokenness returned. Lena hated her.

Lena had reached her apartment and knocked loudly on the door. Kara tried to control her breathing. She wanted to open the door but she was scared of what would come with it. Another round of heart piercing words? Lena knocked again. "Kara, please open the door…"

Lena's words were quiet but Kara could hear the brokenness in them. Instinctively, she flew off of her bed, through her apartment and opened the door. There was silence as they both stared at each other. They both noticed each other's puffy eyes and tears that ran down red cheeks.

It was a moment frozen in time. They both saw each other for the first time in a long time. Really saw each other. The broken and raw part of each other. They had nothing left to give and nothing left to hide. They had both reached their rock bottom. They had nothing left to break.

Finally, Lena broke the silence. Her words were shaky, if she spoke to fast, she might break over again. "I… uh… I miss you. C-Can I come in?"

Lena's words sent a spark throughout Kara's body. It felt as though she had felt light for the first time in months. The darkness inside of her seemed to rush toward it and fight for its warmth. Yet, Kara had too much darkness inside of her that it quickly put it out. She couldn't stop her tears, and she didn't care to. She cracked the door open a little more and allowed Lena to walk in.

Lena headed straight to Kara's couch. She sat down and waited for Kara to join her. She'd sat on that couch so many times before and felt an overwhelming amount of love for Kara, an overwhelming amount of joy because of her. Now she felt unbearable pain and terror at what she was about to say. She played with her hands nervously as she waited for Kara. Kara moved slowly, like a mouse creeping past a cat, bracing herself for an attack. She sat beside Lena and looked at her. Green eyes met blue once again. Lena hated seeing Kara cry and she hated more, that she had seen her tears more often in recent months and she couldn't be the one to hold her and wipe them away, because she was part of the reason they were there.

"What are you doing here?" Kara asked quietly.

Lena breathed in deep then let it out slowly. "I have realized a lot of things. A lot of my flaws and a lot of yours, but I am not here to use them against you. I am here because I fucked up, and it was followed by more fuck ups. Kara, I have never felt so low. I have never hated myself more. I have never wished my life would be over so much. I just can't handle this pain."

"I am so sorry I hurt you, Lena." Kara's words were sincere but they seemed powerless, she'd said them too many times.

"That's the thing, Kara. You didn't hurt me… well, not all the way. I hurt myself, Lex hurt me, your friends hurt me. You were the one who decided to keep your secret but your motives were valid- up to a point."

"I don't understand."

Lena's voice was no longer small, she spoke at a normal volume, with some aggression in her voice, but Kara could tell that the aggression was directed at herself, rather than at Kara. "All of the voices in my head fucked it up for me. They had my decisions already made before I came across them. I let myself be a puppet. Everyone had a string except myself. My mother and Lex have been manipulating me my entire life, they know my weak spots and are clever in the way they dig at them. It made me want to push everyone away and when that didn't work because your purity got through to me, it made me try to protect my name as much as possible, to prove to the world that I am good. I didn't realize how much bad that good intention could do to me. It drove me to a point where I could not accept weakness or mistakes from anyone, every betrayal hurt me to the very core. I don't excuse any of them, but I regret how much of a victim I convinced myself I was. Lex and Lillian led me to believe it was me against the world. I forgot that there were always other sides to the story. I was trying to prove to myself and to the world that I was a good-hearted person, yet I never allowed others to be either, not all the way. Except you. You were always different. There was something pure in you that I could sense. Your warmth lit up my soul. You never had ulterior motives, you just wanted to love me."

Lena wanted to reach out and touch Kara, but she couldn't. It pained her. Kara nodded slowly, trying to understand Lena's words.

Lena continued, "You are pure, Kara. Unfortunately, you have voices too. The people who love you and want the best for you, without intending to, they put you against yourself."

"What do you mean by that?" Kara asked, feeling a little frustrated at the accusation.

"How many guys have you been on dates with after you expressed you didn't like them?"

Kara stayed quiet.

"You didn't go out with them because you wanted to, or because you liked them. You did it because everyone else wanted you to. They wanted the best for you. They wanted you happy. But they put you against yourself. You neglected your intuition because maybe they were right."

Kara sighed. "You're right, Lena. Fine. But what does that have to do with everything else?"

"You sacrificed what you really wanted in hopes that these people who cared for you, but ultimately couldn't feel your feelings, were right. Can I ask you a question?"

"What is it?"

"How long into our friendship did you want to tell me that you were Supergirl?"

Kara bit her lip in thought. "I- I don't know, Lena."

"You're lying, try again."

"Fine! It was a few weeks. I think our second lunch date."

Lena shook her head in disbelief, "A few weeks…"

"There were so many risks!"

"Is that something someone convinced you of as well?"

"It is true, Lena, c'mon!"

"It may have been true, but once again, it went against your instincts."

Kara felt annoyed with Lena's accusations but as Lena spoke, she couldn't help but feel that her words were true, they made sense and Kara couldn't deny it. Her family and friends meant a lot to her, and they were constantly looking out for her, but there were many times where Kara felt as though she was suffocating in their expectations and lack of understanding. Suddenly, she seemed to gain a better perspective of so many of her past experiences. Her voice had slowly become less important to herself.

Lena didn't speak, she watched Kara carefully. Finally, she spoke, but she didn't seem annoyed anymore. "There was a time when I fought hard for the things I truly believed in. I fought and I lost, my instincts weren't always right, I hurt people because of it… So, I guess I allowed myself to be silenced, to submit. They are my friends, they all had good intentions… but it wasn't always what I felt was right. But Lena, you have to know that I fought so hard for you! It may not have been hard enough to save our friendship, but I fought and I will never regret standing up for you."

"When it mattered the most, you fought. That is what matters. You didn't fully betray yourself if you still fought. You have saved me so many times, Kara, by fighting for me, be it my life or my soul. Thank you. I am not as strong as you, I allowed myself to be manipulated and became a villain while trying to be a hero. I knew what was happening but I was too naïve. I messed up and I blamed you for a lot."

"So, we have both been manipulated by the people we love, regardless of if they are good or evil, it has impacted our personal decisions negatively, but we can't blame everything on them, Lena. They are our personal decisions. We have to take responsibility for that."

"I am not saying that we should blame them, just that we should be more aware. The thing is, everyone is impacted by those around them, it's whether you stay true to yourself or not. The impact you have had on me is different. You carry light and I have never once, felt that you were turning me against myself. You have supported me and loved me through everything. You have stopped me from making mistakes but those were the mistakes that somewhere within me, I didn't really want to make. This is why I am here, Kara. I miss you and my feelings toward you have not changed, I was hurt by you, yes, but I was taught to hate you. I tried, but I can't. I am so sick of the voices that never let us be ourselves. When I am with you, I am the best version of myself and I don't have to put on a mask, you'd see through it. I came to this realization about an hour ago. Realizing how many of my feelings had been influenced, helped me strip them away. My real feelings resurfaced and the distance between us was too far, I had to see you again. So, I am here, telling you that I am sorry, I am so-so sorry, Kara. I forgive you and I am sorry that I made you feel that I hated you for so long. I don't want to be influenced anymore, I want to do the scary thing and follow my heart."

Kara's tears had stopped during their conversation but they started up again, quickly. "I forgive you, Lena."

Kara moved closer to Lena and held her hands. "But what if it happens again? I don't know if my heart can take it, if I hurt you or if you hurt me again. I feel so weak, Lee."

"I won't let it! Kara, I am never going to let anything like this happen again. I am going to be true to myself, and true to this friendship… But I don't want to become one of your influencing voices, this is your choice. Follow your heart, Kara."

Kara's hand slowly moved to cup Lena's cheek, touching her felt like a million sparks were lighting inside of her, beginning to destroy that hungry darkness. "My heart will always choose you, Lena Luthor." Kara stared into those green eyes and for the first time in a long time, she saw hope, she saw a light. "I love you…"

Immediate tears rushed out of Lena's eyes at those words. "I love you, Kara."

Kara couldn't handle the space between them anymore. She wrapped her arms around her friend's waist and held her tightly as they both sobbed. They both felt the warmth of one another's touch, begin to mend their broken hearts. Neither of them could doubt in that moment, that the words that had just come out of their mouths were referring to their friendship. Their love had grown beyond that. If they were truly going to follow their hearts, that confession needed to be made. But not tonight. Not yet.

"So where do we go from here?" Kara asked, after a long silence, as they held onto each other tightly.

"Away from the voices…" Lena whispered.

Without wasting another second, Kara began to float. She held onto Lena, tightly.

"Kara, what are you doing?" Lena asked in panic.

"Let's go, Lena! I am serious. I can take us anywhere in the world. We could be there in a few minutes. Let's go somewhere quiet?"

Lena giggled softly. "Pack a bag, Kara, then take me to my apartment, I'll book us a place and we can go."

Within a few minutes they had hit the sky. Kara held onto Lena tightly as she flew through the sky. Lena had worn a gigantic coat for the trip and although it was smart, Kara couldn't help but smile at how cute she was in it. A lot had happened in the last hour, it was almost unbelievable. Kara had her best friend back and she was not going to lose her ever again. Her life depended on it. Lena tried to focus on the beautiful view below her but all she could do was stare at her best friend. They still had a lot to work through, but they had taken the first steps. Lena felt so much joy, knowing that things were going to be okay. They would spend as long as they needed in Norway. They would ski and watch the Northern Lights, cuddle while drinking hot chocolate and talk about what needed to be talked about, away from the influences of the world. Away from the voices that had ultimately led them to their own destruction. They had spoken about making this trip once but never got to it. Lena had planned it out, waiting for the perfect opportunity, and it had arrived. They were going to heal. They were going to fix what was broken and they would come out with a stronger friendship because of it. They could no longer spend any time apart, they needed each other.

Let me know what you think? Do you agree or am I wrong?