Of course not. It was way too important to Sophie. If anybody knew this, it was Kate. "So you are going to do what my father asks you to do?"
"I'm going to do what I told you back in the storehouse: there can't be another time. We both have to make sure there won't be another time when you need to be freed because if there will be another time I'm going to...do the same again and then I'll lose my job."
She'd help her again? Despite knowing it was the end of her career? Kate's heart felt like it was about to burst. If this was the truth, if Sophie really picked her over her job, then they had a chance. And it also meant Kate had to be more careful so she wouldn't be in a situation again, that required Sophie to risk and lose her job.
"Then I better make sure I'm more careful."
"Yes." Sophie smiled.
Kate pulled her into her arms. There were still so many questions on her mind. Some more important than others, some easy to ask, others that scared her.
"Does this mean, you are going to date Batwoman or me?" Was she hiding or would she stand up to others? Was Kate allowed to hold Sophie's hand when they walked side by side? Or was she supposed to act like they were only old friends?
"You are Batwoman, when I date you, I date her and vice versa."
"Well, nobody is allowed to know you and Batwoman are dating. Does this mean, nobody is allowed to know we are dating?" More hiding? It had been hard back at Point Rock, when they had to continue hiding here in Gotham it would make life more complicated. Kate already hided so much and she hated hiding. She sucked at hiding.
Sophie lowered her eyes.
She had known it. More hiding. Sophie was not ready to stand up for them. To show the world what they felt for each other. She wanted to keep everything between them, hide it from the world.
"I'm not sure I can be out and proud. I mean...it shouldn't matter, but...I don't think I can do it. Right now. I'm sorry."
"Right now means, you can? One day?"
"I want to but...I'm still married. At least on the papers. Tyler should know we are...back together, it's the fair thing to do. He knows...he knows I've never been over you and when you came back, all these feelings came back. Before we let anybody know, he should know and not learn it from somebody at work."
This was fair. It meant, Kate had to be patient for a while, she didn't expected Sophie to walk over to Tyler and tell him, they were together tonight or tomorrow. Surely, her girlfriend needed some time to get used to them being together, to get the courage to tell Tyler about them. And then there was her mother, her family.
"Okay."
"Are you really okay with this?"
"I'm not a fan of hiding, you know that. Yet, I understand you want to tell him and not want him to find out accidentally. Also, I understand you won't do it today or tomorrow. But...in a near future, I hope."
Sophie swallowed. "I hope I can."
"Sophie, there is no reason to hide. You won't lose your job because we are together. Dad might get the idea of asking me to join the Crows now that things between us are...better. Or, he thinks it's great you're not there because he doesn't like the idea of us being and working together."
"He had no problem with you and Tyler working together." Not that Kate would ever work for her father. No, the time when she wanted this, when she wanted to be a part of the Crows, was over.
"No. I'm not sure what the others will say."
"Screw them, they should mind their own business."
"They need to have my back. If they don't have my back, I'll get killed."
"Batwoman has your back."
"I know and I'm glad she does." Sophie pulled her arms around Kate. "I wish there was a way I could have both. Or at least don't have to worry about what my colleagues think about us."
"It's the twenty-first century, people are cooler." It was easy to said, yet hard to believe when your family acted like being a lesbian was like being a murderer.
"Not my people."
"No dinner with your parents."
"Oh gosh, no. Not...in the near future."
If ever. Kate was not surprised, she hadn't expected Sophie to change her complete life in a blink of an eye.
"But, how about we have dinner tomorrow? I mean, I'm still off work and if you don't have anything going on, we could..."
"I'd like to."
"Thanks."
Step by step. Kate knew, she had to take it slow when she wanted to be with Sophie. And she had to be subtle, low key. Not her style, but who said you can't adjust your style?
