A/N - Another longish chapter. We are getting into both of their feelings now. A little more for him in this chapter. He is fighting with himself.

Enjoy!

Chapter 5 – Him

Princess Serenity

We had rode camp late in the night. Nephrite and Zoesite were by the fire and Kunzite joined us after. I explained that Jaedite and I had a plan of the route we would take home. We would not have to alter course unless a problem arose. Which could happen at anytime these days.

I slept a little as did the rest of the guard. I was used to being up early enough so I moved away from the fire before the sun rose and mounted Helios to scout the path. I passed the Princess and her courts tent and it was as if something had drawn me to go inside to look. I dismounted and stood in the doorway to the tent. She was asleep on the cot. Silver hair fanned out in every direction. The feeling from my dream was very much the feelings I had now. I had to shake it off. I could not go in any further. I had orders to protect and deliver her to my brother. I had searched for her. She was right in front of me asleep so peaceful and beautiful. I so wanted to reach out and just touch her. I had to keep this under control. I could not show my feelings that I was currently feeling. I was mad that I couldn't just go her and tell her who I was. Show her what I had given her.

I left the tent doorway and remounted Helios. "Come on boy lets go before I get myself into trouble." I said as quietly as I could.

Jaedite followed me shortly after and caught up as I had slowed to a walk with Helios.

"You peeked didn't you?" He gloated all proud he figured it out.

"So what of it?"

"She is your brother's. She is Royal like you."

"She has a full court with her. They were all sleeping."

"What were the rest of them like?"

"Why Jaedite are you planning to get involved with one or more of them?"

"Maybe. I haven't been fucked in a while. I haven't stopped at Beryl's recently. Maybe just maybe." He mused to himself.

"Should I send you to Beryl's now?" Jaedite was quirky when he wanted to be. He was loyal but had his needs and he loved to play with fire.

"No I will be fine." He laughed.

"Good because I have a feeling that this trip and escort service we are providing is going to go south very quickly. I just have a feeling."

"Well it wouldn't be the first trip we all have been assigned too that went south."

"I know."

"It will pan out. It always does."

We went for about an hour each way before returning back to camp. I was atop my horse when the crash of the food tent came down as camp was being torn down for the day so we could travel. Out of the corner of my eye I could see the sleeping ladies all come out of their tent. I didn't like that we had made so much noise but we were so far out from any town either way it was fine but it could not happen again. I heard her gasp and watched as she covered her mouth with a quick reaction of her hand. Her perfect hand. Silver hair draped out behind her. Big blue silver eyes that were starting to draw me in. It was her. The same pull I had in the dream was happening again. I could feel my whole body just gravitate.

I scowled at myself for letting my emotions get the better of me right now. I stayed on my horse and continued to watch as she went inside the tent and covered up. I could still see the silver hair and her eyes through the cloak. No one would ever have that look. No one would ever have the look I have for her.

"So Endymion what did you think of the 'awake' Princess." Jaedite asked as he dismounted his horse.

"She is a Princess. All she needs is a crown and a change of clothes." I lied. I had many comments. But all I had to keep hidden.

"Usually you have a comment. This is mild for you. You feeling okay?"

"Yes I am fine. Just have a lot on my mind."

I travelled with Kunzite to get the remainder of how travelling from the Moon went. I advised him of the area we would stop for the night and when we should stop for lunch. We caught up some on other things. His family and his brothers. They were going to be entering the guard just like he did. I smiled everyone had their family and then there was my dysfunctional brother who controlled my father. Just thinking of it put me in a bad mood.

We finally made a stop for lunch and Nephrite was going to get the ladies from the carriage. I stopped him. I wanted to meet them. I had to know for sure if my feeling was right. I walked up to the carriage and knocked and no answer. I could hear them inside so I opened the door. Her court exited first. All in travel clothes but in a muted colors of red, green, blue, and gold. Then there was her. The Princess. She was trying to hide her silver hair under her cloak. She didn't want to come out at first but I wanted to reach out and touch her. I wanted to feel that feeling I had on the Moon when our hands had touched. I surprised her and took her by the waist and it hit me. The feeling was there when I saw her sleep last night but the feeling was more prevalent now. It was her. It was definitely her. She had started to squirm as I put her down. I lingered a little longer than I should because I didn't want the feeling to end. The only thing I could do is talk to her to break my pull. "Lunch will be soon. Don't wander Princess." I let her go and as I did I noticed the golden crystal around her neck. It was glowing. It had come in contact with me. Was this the crystal that father had been talking about? She realized very quickly that I was starring at it and covered her self back up. I had to get out of here. I had to think. I gave off a smirk to hide my emotions that were running rampant and mounted Helios. I took off looking back only once and tipped my head to the princess. I didn't know her name then but I did now. But I found my self using the name Princess as it rolled out of my mouth before I could stop it.

I shouldn't feel this way. She is my brother's bride. Yet I somehow knew she was to be mine at one point. The dream told me so. Father had said so before he had changed his words. I had feelings for her and she had no idea I had been looking for her for so long. I got into so much trouble for years just so I could see her in my dreams once more.

I walked up to her and handed her the rose

I could visually see my dream running in front of my eyes as I stopped Helios. She was about to speak when I was called by my father. I hadn't dared to disobey him at that time. He had been in battle mode for some time. It was before my mother had died.

I shook my head. It was definitely her. I had that feeling. I just wanted to scoop her up and tell her it was me. I wanted to tell her I had been looking for her and only her but I couldn't. I couldn't tell her. It was my secret to keep.

I don't know how long I had gone for so I turned back and at a full gallop and returned to camp. I could see everyone packing up so lunch was done. I galloped past as the Princess entered her carriage and decided not to stop. We had to get going or we would not get to were we needed to be for the evening.

By time we stopped for the evening we were all exhausted. Being on edge and waiting for something to happen takes a lot out of you when it is not happening. My feelings were all over the place. I was trying to distance myself from her but on the other hand I was drawn to her. I needed to be where she was.

I picked up an apple and headed to Helios he always was my go to for talks. When I arrived I realized we would not be alone tonight. The princess stood with Helios and was talking to him.

"You are beautiful. I am sure you must gallop like you are free when you are not restrained." She had his nose in her hands. He does gallop beautifully Princess.

"He gallops beautifully." I said out loud. I was thinking about saying it but it left my mouth before I could stop it. I was leaning against the tree watching her with them thinking of her in hind sight. Now that she knew I was there I could not just turn around. My curiosity had got the better of me "Have you ridden a horse before Princess?"

"Yes once. We don't have horses on the Moon. I was on Venus as a child when I rode one." She was speaking very quietly. Like she was not proud she was not an avid rider.

"That is my horse. He is a stallion. Harder to handle if you don't know how to ride."

"I was not going to try and ride him." She had retorted back. "I just think they are wonderful animals." She turned to leave me standing here with him. "I'm sorry I bothered him."

"You don't have to leave on my account. I just don't want you wandering off. You are betrothed to my brother. I don't need him knowing that I lost you in the woods. He will hold me accountable." The words were just spilling out of me now. I didn't want to push her away but if I got much closer I would not be able to give her to Diamond to marry.

"I was not wandering. I was curious."

She had turned to face me and then left me standing there. She obviously didn't know where she was heading because she was going deeper into the forest and not back to camp. I followed her as my eyes had adjusted to the dark. It was when she pulled her cloak hood off and the bright shock of her silver hair shone in the dark that I realized she was falling. I quickly caught up and grabbed her by the waist. I liked holding her. It was as if she fit perfectly against me. I shook my head and removed the memory for the time being. I loosened my grip as she turned and got her footing. "Be careful Princess. You are going the wrong way. Camp is that way." I pointed back the way we had come. I turned and started heading that way. "Are you coming? Like I said I don't want you lost in the woods." She followed me and blew past me in a huff but she still turned to see me watching her. She was curious. I smiled but it more came from my eyes as she watched and left for her tent.

I got a little sleep but it was not restful. It was full of my dream I had had over and over again. She was right here yet I still I had them. I got up and checked on her tent. They were all sleeping again like last night. I had an urge to wake her but she was sleeping peacefully.

The following day was just a regular travel day. Nothing had happened. I stayed away from the Princess to quell my thoughts of her. Helios needed a rest. He had been going non stop for 4 days almost. Today was a slower day. We were ahead of schedule.

I reached out and Helios came to me as he always did. "She has no idea what it is like here." I said to him. "She is my brother's yet I have this urge to protect her. She will see what it is like with him. It is like he is from another planet. He will take over Father I can see it. Not without the crystal my brother needs the Crystal before he can fully take over. Father entrusted me to find it. How am I going to find it when everyone on Earth can not be trusted? I can feel the War is coming again. There are uprisings in the towns. Can I trust you to keep my secret my noble steed? Helios" I patted his neck as he nudged me in agreement. He usually was my sounding board if no one else was around. I had turned to go and I felt her presence. She was watching us. I am sure she had heard everything. Now she knew about the crystal.

I stepped away from Helios like nothing had happened and headed back to camp yet did as she did and slipped behind a tree. I watched her pat each horse and quietly without a word head back to camp.

I was restless and I took over standing guard for part of the camp. I found my self wandering though. I found myself drawn to her again. I wanted to see her. I couldn't help feeling this way. I had to give her to my brother yet I didn't want him to have her. I was about to step towards her tent when I saw movement. She had come out side in her night clothes. I could see everything. Her hair, her outline and curves. Her breasts as they complained at the cool night air. I had a slight stirring which I pushed aside. She would find me watching her if I didn't direct her back inside her tent. "Go back to bed Princess." I said from the shadows not daring to move at that moment so I would not startle her any more than the words had.

She looked for where my voice had come. "No." She had said forcefully. "This is my new home I want to see it at night."

"Not dressed like that you don't." I stepped out of the shadows and before she could see my lower half and the state that it was in I pulled my cloak off and had it around her before stepping back into the shadows slightly.

"Why are you watching me? Following me?" She had put her foot down a little like a child does when they don't get their way. I know this from my brother he did the same thing.

"I am to look after you. Besides you can't go out looking like that. Someone would steal you away. You are glowing." Among other things. If I didn't get a handle on my current feelings I would take her myself and then there would be no going back.

"Arrgh." She cried out. She turned on her heel and headed inside her tent. The movement made me see more than I needed to and I could feel the strain getting tighter and tighter as I wanted to show her every pleasure I had wanted to show her over the years of trying to find her. She returned covered up in her own cloak denying me the visual pleasure of looking at her. "Here I do not need it."

"It is okay Princess. It will not bite. It is just a cloak" She handed it to me as I took it from her. Her scent was prevalent on it even though it was just a moment it had been on her.

"I don't want to owe you anything."

"You are going to be family."

"Are you always like this? So pushy so arrogant. So entitled to everything." Oh I don't want to be this way princess. I am forcing it. I don't want you to see how much I want you.

"I am Princess. I wouldn't say I'm always arrogant," I was not always like this. I am trying to hide my feelings from you. This is the best way I know how, Pushing you away when I want to scoop you up and take you away from here. "But I grew up entitled yes. I was born into this life. My brother has taught me to go after what I want. He always said I was too soft."

"And what of your Father? What has he taught you?" She asked.

"My Father is grooming your future husband. I am the spare."

"That is an awful way to think of your self."

"It is what it is."

"Is this why you smirk all the time? To try to hide the fact that you care what others think of you?" She's noticed that I am trying to hide my feelings. Fuck. This is not going to end well.

"I smirk do I?"

"Your smirking now. I may not be able to see you since you are in the shadows but you are. I can hear it in your voice."

My body was not behaving. I was trying my hardest to not feel what I was but she had caught me to some degree. I stepped slightly out of the shadows. Hiding my waist line with the cloak. I smiled slightly showing her I could. "What about you?"

"I want to make my Mother and Queen proud. My Father died here on Earth when I was young."

"You don't have any other family?"

"I have my court. They are like sisters to me. But I am an only child. Royal child."

"And that doesn't sound entitled?"

"I guess I never thought of it that way. I'm sorry I said what I did."

"No apology needed Princess. You should get some rest we have a long day tomorrow." I needed to take care of the growing strain I had on my pants at this moment. I watched her head back into the tent with a small glance backwards. Once she was safely inside I quickly released my member and within a minute or two the pressure was gone. This could not happen again like this. She was to close to finding out I had been watching her.

Once everyone was up and awake breakfast was made. I wanted everything cleared like we had never been here. Kunzite was helping take posts down and I had tacked up Helios.

"I am going to scout out the road. Make sure it is still clear." I saw her enter her carriage to wait for the rest of her court. She was well covered today and yet I could still see her as plain as the sun in the sky and the moon at night. The image of her was etched into my mind. The young girl and the rose to the young woman entering the carriage.

The group had left while I was out scouting and the town that was close by was burning. I could smell it. I headed that way only to be stopped by some young children.

"Please sir. Our homes the evil ones have come. Please help us."

"Take me."

"It is that way. Our parents sent us away. They are trying to stop the evil."

"I will go. Stay out of sight okay. Stay safe."

I circled on Helios and went the way they pointed. The town's homes were burned or in flames. The women and children crying out at the destruction. Men trying to put out the fires.

"What happened here?"

"The evil one rose from the street took my husband and marked him. He killed him for fighting back." She cried. "My children I sent them away so they would not see their father that way."

"Can you show me?"

She pointed to the middle of the town square. A crater the size of a field was ripped into the ground with nothing but dirt that remained. The children I had met in the street had come back and headed to their mother.

"I will leave some of my guard to assist with you. Please know we will stop this evil. No more men, women or child should be taken."

"But how will you stop it?" Someone cried out. "There has been so many taken already."

"We will find the Wise One and stop this evil and magic. It is not of earth. It must stop." I claimed.

I told them I would send my guard but I must go and get them. They made me promise to be back. I said I would. This had the worst timing ever. It was too close with us traveling not to far away. I took off at a gallop and headed back to the group. I took a different route in the case someone had been watching. I kept circling as I arrived back to the caravan. I took Jaedite and Zoesite and met with Kunzite and we split the guard by a few men and told them to head to the town to assist with a rebuild.

"Kunzite I didn't want to do this. I have a really bad idea but it is going to keep her safe. The Wise One is close. Too close."

"Last resort?"

"Yes the last resort plan we had discussed if it ever should happen."

"Alright I will have Nephrite tell them. I will prepare some horses."

"Jaedite and the others will go with them. She and one of her court will come with us. I have a feeling she will not like this. But it is what it is. This is the last resort. She can not be found and taken. My father once told me she was a key to stopping this as was the Moon King when he was here."

I didn't want to do this. I didn't want to take her there. She would be hidden there. I hid there. I would hide there again till the area cleared. This time however I would stay away from the water.