I definitely didn't anticipate how scary the Survey Corps Headquarters looked from outside. To everyone else, it was just a building. But I…I knew what was inside of that building. I could feel my legs starting to go numb as I just stood there, staring.

"Can I help you Miss?" The random voice broke my train of thought. I looked over at the young brown haired boy with the turquoise eyes. I recognized him almost immediately. Eren Yaeger, the half titan.

"Um…I…um…" Ahna for the love of all things holy stop acting like such a wimp and grow a pair! "I need to speak to Captain Levi and Commander Erwin, do you know where they're at?" Eren smiled warmly and nodded.

"Yea we're having a meeting here pretty soon, so we'll all be in the mess hall, follow me I'll show you where it's at." I nodded nervously. "I'm Eren by the way. What's your name?"

"Ahna…" He nodded once, still smiling. He was oddly nice for being half titan. We walked in silence until we reached the mess hall. I couldn't help but stop and stare at the door. The big…wood…scary door.

"Are…you okay?" Eren stared at me confused. I laughed nervously, scratching the back of my head.

"Ha…yea…sorry I was just lost in thought." He nodded pushing through the door. Here we go. The mess hall was somewhat noisy with people chatting, waiting until their meeting would start. I stared around at all of the new faces. There were so many, I could barely point out a few that I still knew. It took a minute for me to realize the entire mess hall stopped talking and were just staring at me now. I felt like I was stark naked in a pool of unfamiliar faces. What a shitty feeling.

"You have got to be kidding me…" Our eyes met, and a sharp pain hit my stomach. I wished I could run for the hills right now. I would much rather brush a feral titan's teeth than be here.

"AHNA!" A loud female voice rang out…and I almost didn't realize who it was. Before I knew it was I brought to the ground, hard I might add. Hange hugged me tightly, practically screaming in my ear. "WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN? HOW HAVE YOU BEEN? WHY HAVEN'T YOU COME SEE ME? YOU COULD HAVE WRITTEN AT THE VERY LEAST!" I felt the air leaving my lungs as she suffocated the life out of me.

"Hange, maybe you should let Ahna up and let her explain why she showed up." Oh Erwin I could kiss you right now. Hange giggled letting me gather my bearings and get up. "So why have you decided to grace us with your presence?" I could hear the smile in his voice. Erwin and I were always good friends, ever since I had joined the Survey Corps. He was like a big brother to me.

"I uh…have some paperwork for you." I said quietly, walking towards them, fighting the nerves in my stomach with all my might.

"Paperwork? 6 years…and all I get is paperwork? You better give me a hug at least." I giggled lightly hugging Erwin before handing him one of the papers in my hand.

"The other one is for Levi." I stated, handing the paper to Levi. He stared at me blankly, as always, before taking the paper and reading through it. Both men were completely quiet for a moment, making me fidget with my hands.

"So…you want to come back? Why?" Levi's voice was mono-tone, making it difficult to tell how he felt.

"I miss the action for one….for two I was kind of forced back." Erwin stared at me confused.

"Forced back? Why?" I laughed nervously.

"I'd rather not talk about it right now." I'm so thankful Erwin knew that meant I'd tell him in private later, just not in front of spectators.

"Well…that's a lot to ask…you know that right?" I nodded, knowing full well nothing would ever be the same. I left on somewhat bad terms with everyone, and now I'm here having to ask to come back. It was quite embarrassing. Levi suddenly tossed the paper he had at Erwin, walked straight past me, and right out the door of the mess hall. I could hear the whispers behind me of all of the confused people. It literally made the hair on the back of my neck stand up. Erwin stared up at me over the papers. "I'll accept you back under one condition. You need to turn around, walk out that door and go talk to him. Otherwise I'll refuse to sign." GAHHHH damn you Erwin! I sighed loudly hanging my head.

"Can I please talk to him another day?" Erwin shook his head, his look very serious. I groaned loudly. "Okay fine…I dislike you so much right now." Erwin smiled mischievously.

"He has to agree to you coming back, otherwise you're stuck in the Garrison." He didn't sign the paper. I nodded and rolled my eyes. "Now get out so I can have my meeting with everyone else." I turned on my heel and quickly walked out the door to find Levi. Little did I know, Erwin set both papers down on the table in front of him, Levi's signature clear as day scribbled across the line.

The Survey Corps HQ was much different than the Garrison one. But knowing Levi, I knew exactly where he'd be. Leaning against the back of the building, he stared out at his surroundings. It was so weird seeing him after so long. He still looked the same…as if time did nothing to him. He still wore those tired eyes and that ridiculous serious expression. I could almost hug him…as if nothing happened. I knew better than that though.

"Levi…can we talk?" He stayed silent, his eyes not wavering from whatever it was he was looking at. "Okay, I'll just talk. I'd like to apologize, though we both know it won't fix anything. I truly am sorry for any hurt I've caused and I really would like us to at least get along. I screwed up leaving…we both had a lot on our minds, and I'm sorry it ended the way it did. I don't expect things to be okay and go back to what it used to be, but I really to want to be a part of the Survey Corps…and I really do want to start over with you." He stayed silent for quite a few minutes, his arms still crossed over his chest.

"Nothing will be the same between us. Understand that now. We can start over, but I am your superior you will treat me with that respect. We're not friends, and we definitely are not lovers. There's a lot of wrongs that we both need to make right before we try to be friends, but there's a lot of hurt still widely apparent for the both of us. Don't you dare mistake that I didn't deal with what happened any better than you did." I nodded silently, knowing he wasn't going to get any further into the conversation.

"Thank you. I'll go tell Erwin you approve." I turned to walk away.

"He should already know, I signed your transfer papers." I stopped short, completely surprised.

"You signed them before I even came to talk to you? I…damn Erwin…" I mumbled angrily rolling my eyes.

"Also do us all a favor…put your hair up, you look weak with your hair in your face." Levi stood up from the wall, walking past me, not looking at me once as he went inside. I swear I will never get used to his mannerisms.

I walked back inside slowly, heading to the mess hall, only to find it empty. I wandered my way through the building, finally finding Erwin's office. He quietly sat filling out papers in the dimly lit room.

"So are you going to tell me why you were forced into coming back?" He asked not looking up from his work.

"My ex proposed." Erwin chuckled, shaking his head.

"He must not have known you very well." I couldn't help but smile as I sat across from him.

"He forced my transfer because I told him the truth." Erwin finally looked up surprised.

"You told him about you and Levi?" I nodded. "Did you tell him about what happened?" I nodded again, feeling the sting in my chest again. I took a deep breath forcing myself not to cry. "Did you love him?" I shook my head. "Then why are you about to cry?"

"I don't know. I care about him a lot; I just…don't love him. His reaction after I told him what happened, he didn't even show remorse, he was just so ice cold." A few tears escaped involuntarily.

"Do you honestly blame him? You told him you still loved Levi. No one likes Levi outside the Survey Corps. On top of that, you told him you were once pregnant with Levi's baby. What guy would be okay hearing that? Did you tell him you were in a relationship before him, prior to dating him?" I shook my head no. "Well…he probably thought you just didn't care about love because in his eyes you probably never felt love. It's a hard situation to be in for anyone." I nodded, my lip quivering and the tears pouring now.

"I just feel so bad, you know? I may not care for love, but I don't like hurting people." Erwin sighed lightly.

"You hurt Levi pretty bad, you know that right?" I looked down at my hands in my lap. I could always count on Erwin to be utterly honest. "I know you were hurt and shaken up too but look at it from his view. You both found out about the baby after you miscarried it, you both were hurt and shocked and you both were not very understanding or nice towards each other afterwards. You both took out that pain on each other emotionally…and then you just up and left and someone else literally brought the transfer papers to us. He took it really hard Ahna. Obviously he never showed it, but it doesn't take a genius to know when someone is torn up on the inside." My lip continued to quiver as I really began to cry. I needed to hear it…but damn it hurt so much. This was the pain I tried to run away from, but it just bit me in the ass pretty hard. "I don't like seeing you cry Ahna, but believe me, the way you both handled it was wrong and you both had to deal with the pain on your own. Hopefully now you can work on moving past all the pain. You both deserve it." I nodded now a complete blubbery mess.

"I love him so much still. It's killing me to even look at him Erwin. I don't know how to move past it all and deal with it. I don't know how to get along with him anymore. I feel like my heart is going to explode when I'm around him and it sucks. I just wish the pain would go away already. I miss the way it used to be." Erwin smiled warmly at me as I wiped my tears.

"I know you do, but it's going to take a lot of time for that pain to start to recede. Just keep pushing forward. You know I'm here for you. Now go unpack your things, take a hot bath, drink some tea and go to sleep. Honestly you look like you've been through enough hell for one day." I nodded standing up.

"Thank you Erwin. I really missed you too. I'm sorry I didn't keep in touch." He shrugged and laughed.

"I knew you'd come around eventually." I smiled the best I could, walking around the desk and hugging him before I made my way to my room.

Erwin PoV

"I know you're there Levi." I chimed from behind my desk. Levi walked in slowly, his arms crossed and his brows furrowed. "Did you hear what you needed to?" He didn't respond, only sat down thinking deeply. "She loves you more than you'll ever understand." His eyes met mine finally.

"Don't try to play cupid. We don't have the funds to buy you a toga uniform and a little bow and arrow." I chuckled at his smart ass remark.

"You love her too. Don't try to force the feelings out the window; it's only going to make it harder to be around."

"I'm not forcing anything, nor did I ever say I didn't love her. But I refuse to get over it suddenly just because she showed back up. If her ex didn't propose, I guarantee she'd still be with the Garrison. She's only here because she got spooked and he got pissed. She's not here to work things out and you know it. She's feeling guilty because she can't handle facing her problems."

"Don't be so hard on her. Regardless of why she's here, she's here now and that should be all that matters. She just signed her death certificate for the second time with us; make sure holding a grudge is what you really want to do. We all have time limits here." He rolled his eyes, standing up from his seat.

"You know better than anyone that I'm not oblivious to our time limits. I'm human too, believe it or not, and there's only so much bullshit I'll deal with. Don't try to push us together, it'll only turn out for the worse." Levi turned walking towards the door.

"Just talk to her. You both have much more to say…I can't always be the mediator for you two to eavesdrop on each other with."

"Then don't be."