"Care to dance…Ahna?" My stomach knotted immediately at his voice.
"L…Levi." I stared at him surprised, my arm still attached to Damien's hand.
"Unless you want to keep arguing with your ex, that's fine too." Levi lifted his hand, grabbing a strand of my hair and tugging it gently. He was intentionally trying to piss off Damien. Levi you asshole.
"I thought you weren't going to be here." I stared at him curiously.
"Hange said you'd be in a dress, had to see for myself." I stared at him cautiously. Damien finally let go of my arm and cleared his voice. Both Levi and I glanced at him.
"I thought you said you and Levi weren't together." Damien's voice was shaky and low.
"We're not." Levi's voice chimed before I could answer.
"Then what are you doing here? This is a private conversation." Damien was getting mad, his face getting redder by the minute. Levi's cold stare and natural frown stayed in place and his voice still was its normal calm sounding self.
"Nothing's ever really private. Again, Ahna would you like to dance?" Levi turned to me completely ignoring Damien. I stared at Levi confused. Levi doesn't dance, nor would he show up to a ball just because I was in a dress.
"Um…I..."
"If you go with him now, Ahna, willingly…I will never forgive you." Damien said coldly. I looked over at Damien surprised.
"Yet you expected me to forgive you after you remorselessly heard about my past and proceeded to throw me out?" He looked surprised now. "How dare you expect me to come running back to you after that." I turned to Levi, pissed off. "Yes Levi I would LOVE to dance with you." I practically yelled, grabbing his hand and stomping off, leaving Damien stunned. As we neared the dance floor, Levi grabbed me, pulling me into him.
"Relax. You don't make a good dance partner dancing like a pissed off ogre." I stared at him angrily, nearing tears.
"So I'm an ogre now?" He rolled his eyes forcing me into the slow dance that was going on.
"If you keep pouting and stomping around, yes. Act like the lady you dressed like." I huffed, forcing myself to calm down. "Your ex is a dumbass by the way." He spoke quietly as we danced.
"He's not a dumbass. He's just hurt and probably a bit lost." Levi shook his head in disagreement.
"Hurt yes. Lost, definitely not; he definitely is a dumbass." I groaned irritated.
"Can we please not discuss this."
"You don't get it do you? He saw me long before he talked to you." I stared confused now. "He saw me walk in, as he made his way to you. The death glare he gave me made me realize who he was instantly. I didn't have to walk too close to hear anything either, you both talk pretty loud." I blushed embarrassed.
"So you think he was asking me back to make you jealous?" Levi nodded, twirling me out and back in.
"Absolutely."
"Did it work?" I teased.
"Nope." I pouted as we continued to dance. "I don't need to get jealous of anyone. I know where your heart lies, there's no point in fretting over dumbasses."
"So you think…that because you know where my heart lies, you would get what you want?"
"Not necessarily. It would be much easier compared to anyone else trying, but you ultimately will make your own decisions on what would make you happy."
"Are you wanting us back together?" I looked at him nervously, not sure what I should be hoping for.
"I don't know."
"How can you not know?"
"I want you back because we both would be happy, but if we have a second run around with what we've already went through, I don't know if I want to deal with that again…I don't want you back because it would save me from all the bullshit of 'what-ifs'." We stopped dancing now. My heart clenched tightly.
"I don't know what I should say." I whispered after a few moments. "I don't know what to do at all at this point."
"Do what will make you happy." His expression softened ever so slightly.
"I don't know what will make me happy. I want to be with you Levi, but I feel the same as you. I don't want to go through that hurt again. I don't want you to be hurt again."
"Don't worry about me, worry about you."
"Levi, sorry to interrupt, can we talk?" Erwin stood by with a few other gentlemen. Levi nodded once, moving quickly towards them, not even looking back at me. To hell with the drink, Hange should've bought me a bottle. I made my way far from the dance floor, to the bar again.
"Whiskey again miss?" I nodded, slouching against the bar.
"Leave the bottle this time, please." The bar tender chuckled and nodded pouring me a glass and setting the bottle next to it. Tonight was turning to shit…thankfully they didn't actually fight though. I sipped my glasses of whiskey rather quickly, not realizing how much I really was drinking. My vision began to blur as I thought about what Levi had said. What would make me happy? Being with him would make me ecstatic, but like he said…there is potential hurt there. Maybe that should be a risk we take? Could I handle having a real life with him? What if I got pregnant again? What if I miscarried again? Could I really go through that again? Would he stay if that were to happen? Ugh this feeling kills me. I lifted the whiskey bottle to pour another glass, but nothing came out. I drank the rest of that bottle…that was half a bottle of whiskey. It was a pretty big bottle to boot. I felt the room start to swirl around me. Yep, I'm drunk. With the swirling came the numbness. Oh sweet numbness how I missed you today. I slid off my chair, swaying my way to the wall to brace myself. If this wall wasn't here, I'd have been on the floor already.
Slowly I made my way outside, only to see a giant crowd of people staring in the same direction. What the heck? I made my way to the front of the circle only to see Levi and Damien facing each other. Levi's hands were resting casually in his pockets while Damien, on the other hand was furious. Oh Levi, what did you say this time? I swayed a little into the guy next to me by accident.
"Ahna are you okay?" Eren! Yay someone I know!
"Defrinately not." I slurred.
"You are drunk aren't you?" I nodded holding on to his arm to keep me steady.
"What's going on?"
"Levi and that Captain Damien guy are having a pretty heated argument about some girl. That captain keeps accusing Levi of stealing his girl, and Levi told him he didn't have to steal anything since she was his to begin with. I didn't know Levi had a girlfriend." He stared at Levi surprised and confused.
"I'm going to kill them." I managed to say, swaying forward into the middle of the circle with the guys. "Guys stop please." I begged, but apparently not loud enough as Damien yelled at Levi.
"Why couldn't you just die you piece of shit? How much are you really worth to humanity? You may be good at killing titans, but I'm sure there's someone out there better than you, and I'm sure she was better off away from you."
"I see that, seeing as she got dumped and kicked back to us because you can't handle the fact that she was with someone else before you. Boo fucking hoo go cry somewhere else, the military doesn't need pussies like you." Damien growled as Levi honestly looked bored.
"Fucking stop please!" I yelled, making both of them turn towards me.
"Ahna, get out of here, you don't need to see this." Damien said. Levi rolled his eyes.
"She can handle it. She's dealt with worse. I mean look at you, the rebound." I stared at Levi like he was nuts. Why would he call Damien the rebound? Did he have a death wish? Damien was through, he pushed past me, knocking me back slightly. Thankfully Eren stepped forward and caught me before I fell.
"Ohhhh," the crowd yelled in unison as their fight started. Levi kicked Damien hard in the stomach, making him hit the floor.
"Look at you, you're weak. You dare call yourself the heart of the military when you can't handle your emotions, let alone a petty fight? I bet you're a real killer with the titans." Levi mocked him sarcastically, kicking him harder in the face, sending him reeling. Holy crap…I knew Levi was a phenomenal fighter, but I didn't think Damien would get his ass kicked this bad. All of us stared in awe as Levi gave him a few more kicks, before backing off. Not once did Levi's calm expression waver. "Don't you ever even look at her the wrong way…otherwise, I'll embarrass you worse than I did today." Everyone stared in awe, whispering about what had just happened. Levi turned to me as I leaned against Eren. Somehow I was sobering up; I wasn't swaying nearly as bad as before. Levi walked toward us, stopping in front of me. "I told you your ex was a dumbass." With that he walked past us and into the ball. I turned back to Damien, who was being helped up by his fellow soldiers. His face was swollen and bloody. My heart twisted at the sight. Levi really did a number on him.
"C'mon drunkie lets get you outta here!" Hange's drunk voice rang dragging me backwards to a nearby carriage.
"You're the drunkie," I replied getting in the carriage with her and Erwin. The carriage door swung open and Levi stepped inside. We set off for the HQ, both Hange and I completely drunk.