Oh the comforts of the HQ…it's priceless. Erwin, Hange, Levi and I sat around one of the mess hall tables with our hard liquor in hand playing cards. It felt like it did before, all of us smiling and laughing…before all of the chaos of the titans breaking in. Back when the thought of a titan breaking through the walls was just a joke. I missed this, this homely feeling.
"Shiiiiiiit." I giggled as Hange slammed her cards onto the table. "You always win Levi it's not fair!" She whined taking yet another shot.
"That's because you suck at this." He didn't sound drunk at all, even though he had been taking shots with us just because he would have been sober otherwise.
"God damnit." I groaned laying my cards on the table as well, knocking back my shot. We were all past tipsy. We could still function, but we definitely should not be fighting if titans came this very moment. Erwin and Levi both stared each other down over their cards intently, waiting for the other to call the other's bluff. Levi always had the best poker face; no matter what, he'll kick your ass even with shitty cards. Erwin finally called Levi's bluff, betting him double the coin. Levi set his cards for Erwin to see after what seemed like forever.
"Son of a…" Erwin rolled his eyes throwing his cards on the table angrily. Hange and I giggled as Erwin took another shot, and Levi scooped up his money. "I think that's it for me." He sighed standing up a little unsteadily. "If I drink another shot, I might puke."
"I'm right there with you." Hange stood up and walked over to the door. "Although, I might just throw up anyway." I giggled as they both swayed as they walked.
"Now play nice kiddies, and don't forget to pull out!" I blushed like mad as Hange laughed loudly at Erwin's remark.
"Go away asshole." I grumbled as they left. Levi leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes, putting his arms behind his head. "You done too?"
"Yea, I'm tired of playing cards." I chuckled lightly, grabbing everyone's cards and piling them in a stack neatly.
"I've drank way too much today." I giggled sitting back in my seat. "Tomorrow is going to be hell with this hangover."
"You know what cures hangovers?" Levi asked. I stared at him curiously. "Sex."
"Oh haha you are just so funny." I retorted rolling my eyes. "That is definitely not happening."
"Why? You scared or something?" Levi's eyes were open now, and his expression, almost humored.
"Please, it's not like I haven't seen it all before. I just don't want to go that far…especially not tonight." I grumbled, standing up. Swaying a little, I grasped my chair for support.
"You did drink too much." Levi's voice was calm, as he stood up and approached me. He lifted my arm around his shoulders, positioning his other arm around me tightly. I hadn't realized I was swaying so bad that I nearly fell before he stood up. "Let's get you to bed." I nodded, feeling the room spinning around me again. Levi practically carried me up the stairs seeing as my legs could barely move.
"Levi…you just passed my room." I groaned, trying to resist him walking me farther.
"I'm taking you to mine." He stated as a-matter-of-factly. I rolled my eyes.
"I said no sex Levi; let me go to my room!"I whined.
"I'm not taking advantage of you, shut up already." I pouted as he brought me into the room, kicking the door close rather loudly. He brought me over to the bed, standing me up right, holding my shoulders to keep me from falling over. He grabbed the back of my corset with one hand, unbuttoning it completely, pulling gently until the dress came off and fell to the floor. I blushed as I was 95% exposed at this point. He cleared his throat, avoiding my gaze, sitting me back on the bed, before moving quickly away from me and to his wardrobe. He grabbed something out, walking back over to me. Quickly, he slipped a shirt over my head, grabbing each arm and sliding them through the long sleeves. His shirt was rather long, surprisingly seeing as he's only an inch taller than me. He lifted my bare legs, tucking them under the covers.
"Why are you being so nice?" I mumbled, holding the blanket tightly to my chest.
"Don't ask questions you already know the answer to." He moved to the bathroom, running the water in the sink for a minute, before coming back, laying a cool, wet cloth on my forehead. I couldn't help but watch as he slipped his suit jacket off, folding it over the chair, followed by his shirt and cravat. I couldn't take my eyes off of his extremely toned body. He sat on the chair, pulling his shoes and socks off next, before standing back up and slipping his suit pants off. I didn't look last time because I was more preoccupied with hugging the bed, this time…I felt so heavy that I couldn't look away. That ever too familiar sting in my heart hit me like a freight train and I forcefully pushed my tears back. That was the man I was head over heels in love with and our relationship was ruined, by our inactions so to speak. In all honestly, I longed to have him back all to myself, I just wasn't sure I could handle it. I hadn't realized my staggered breathing caught Levi's attention. He turned and looked at me over his shoulder while he finished organizing his clothes. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing." I whispered, forcing myself to turn away from him and stare at the wall.
"You're a shitty liar." He stated, sliding into the bed, laying on his side and facing me.
"Don't worry about it." I mumbled, feeling myself choking up. He sighed loudly, forcing me to face him.
"What is it?" He asked, his gaze piercing through to my soul.
"I just keep missing you." He rolled his eyes, taking me by surprise.
"So stop missing me and be with me." That nervous twinge in my stomach came back full force, making me shudder.
"I…are we even ready for that?" My voice was soft, avoiding his eye contact.
"Does it really matter at this point? We both can't stop how we feel."
"But it's only been 4 weeks since I've been back." He rolled his eyes again and sighed.
"Do you want this or not? I'm tired of hiding from what's really in front of us." I took a deep breath, looking up at him.
"I do want this….I'm just scared okay?" Levi lifted his hand, stroking my cheek gently.
"I'm just as scared as you…" A single tear escaped my eye, leading the way for the rest of the water works. He pulled me close to him, hugging me against his chest. He pulled the damp cloth off my head, throwing it to the floor, before kissing my forehead gently. This man…
"So…" I began quietly, after my crying calmed down a bit, "does this mean we're back together?" Levi pulled my face back away from his chest, looking at me intently. Instead of answering, his lips crashed against mine roughly, surprising the hell out of me. They were soft against mine, but with clear motive. His lips parted, mine following suit, and he began to deepen the kiss. Both of his hands grasped my face, his thumbs lightly stroking my tear stained cheeks. I let one of my hands rest on his chest, the other holding onto his exposed arm. His tongue pushed its way forward, wrestling against mine. A soft moan escaped my throat as we continued to make out. His exposed hand ran slowly down my neck, over my shoulder and rested right on my chest. This was going to be too much too fast if I didn't do something quickly. I pulled back from our kiss, Levi looking at me confused, both of us panting from limited air access. I smiled at him and shook my head.
"You want to wait?" His voice was rough, and overly sexy. Enough that I almost said screw it.
"Yea, please. I know it's weird but I need a little time for that." He nodded, his hand still resting on my chest.
"We won't do anything til you're ready. I'm refusing to move my hand though." I giggled, leaning back towards him and kissing him softly. Eventually his hand left its spot, and moved to the middle of my back, pulling my body directly against his. He kissed me back lightly, before pulling away and resting his chin on my head. "Go to sleep." I smiled, kissing his neck lightly before cuddling into it and drifting off to another amazing night of sleep.