Author Notes: Hello! :) Welcome to one of my first FanFiction that I'm probably going to finish. I actually love to write. It's very fun to do, so I hope you enjoy this first chapter. Sorry if I do something you extremely dislike. You can comment and tell me and if I'm okay with it, I'll change it.
As always, I'll probably be posting this story on another website as well. I'm using Wattpad too.
Chapter 1: Bad Thoughts.
Thinking. I seem to be doing that a lot lately. Well actually people are always thinking. I alway wondered why people think and get voices in their head, but it sure gets damn annoying when you think about it, having your own voice in your head 24/7. Unless they love the sound of their own voice, which makes them crazy obnoxious. Anyways, other than obnoxious people, I was thinking about thoughts. If someone saw me, they'd say, 'wow, he must have good thoughts.' Well that is very wrong actually.
If you actually knew what thoughts I had, you would not want to even look at me. They're dirty thoughts. Bad thoughts. Well.. that's what my mother always says, so I could never tell her I have those thoughts.
I'd get hurt.
Whenever I go home. I think, think, and think about what it's like to have someone touching me. In 'that' way. I'll look at a porno and pretend I'm the one being touched. Not the by the girl, but the man. I want to be the one that's getting slapped, getting called a slut, I want that. It's painful. When you can't get have what you want.. but it's okay, since I know one day we all get something we want.
Well look at the time, 6 o'clock. Guess I didn't get sleep again. It's fine, I'm used to it. I don't walk over to my mirror, my curly hair going pretty much every, brushing it was a hassle, but I still did it. Once it was tamed I just hid most of it with my hat as the rest was falling out from the amount of hair. I got a hair cute not that long ago and it's almost back to its normal length, fuck, it's so annoying.
I swung my heavy as fuck bag over my shoulder.. what is even in this? Rocks? I just huffed at the weight and walked out of my house, waving away from my family. Away from my room where most of my thoughts surround me. My bad thoughts.
Shit, I'm really fucking messed up.
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Sorry this is so short. I rushed really ducking fast since I don't wanna lose interest. I wanted something short in the beginning kinda to let it grow asI write more chapters. There's not much to write for the first one due to the lack of drama in this chapter.
It took me a while to actually get something for a plot and title, even if this is so short, writing takes a lot of time and concept! Also don't worry, if you like smut, I usually don't wait ten chapters for it, I take about 3-5 chapters. If I write a lot in the next few chapters that is.