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chapter | eighteen

I'm in my bed, late at night on my phone, scrolling through my Flitter. All of them are from celebrities and random accurate accounts I follow.

Some tweets are funny to chuckle at and some are weird to read but enjoyable. After getting bored, I put my phone on the nightstand to let it charge overnight.

I lay my head back and thought about a lot of things. My last final is tomorrow, and I did some practice worksheets after Freddie and I finished watching The Heat. He said if I wanted to pass, I had to do some exercises.

Speaking of Freddie, I was worried that something was on his mind while we were watching the movie. He looked calm, but I knew he was upset about something; he hasn't told me anything.

I don't know what I'm doing...what we're doing. I haven't stopped thinking about our friends with benefits. We've been doing it for a while and for some reason I think there's something behind that.

Our intimate events are usually the same and how we experience new things along the way. Moreover, how Freddie and I would gain the confidence towards each other and not feel awkward.

The other thing is how we would make each other feel good during the process. Sometimes I would make him feel good and he would do the same for me.

It just feels right...

I could feel his fingers run through my body every time we would do it, and I felt wet each time. My nipples are getting hard and my pussy is getting soaking wet. I run my hands all over my body, imagining his hands taking my place. One hand cupping my breasts, playing with my nipples.

"Ooh..." I moaned feeling aroused.

I run my other hand down to my shorts, through my underwear feeling my underwear damp.

God, I am soaking wet.

What is happening to me?

I go under the covers, taking my shorts and underwear off to spread my legs apart fully. After I had taken those off, I can feel the small breeze touching my clit, making me aroused quickly. I ran my hand over my pussy and started to rub my clit slowly.

I closed my eyes and pictured Freddie rubbing my clit like he always does. Then I started to pace my hand, rubbing it faster and I can feel my nipples getting hard, sending my hand to cup them tightly.

"Oh god..." I moaned quietly.

I can feel his hands roaming over my body so gently and his fingers going inside my entrance. I stick my fingers inside me, and I arched my back feeling the pressure and pleasure at the same time."

"Oh yeah," I thrust my fingers in and out feeling my g-spot. I can see Freddie staring at me with lust in his eyes and sparkle in them, his incredible eyes are staring at me with something I still haven't figured out yet, but they make me feel so happy and safe.

His hands are now thrusting my pussy so fast, I can hardly stand it. "Oh fuck," I whimpered. I thrust myself faster and feel wet sounds as I moan from the sexy sound.

Oh, god I can't stop.

Why am I doing this to myself? Why do I think about Freddie and feel myself so horny? God, what is he doing to me?

My feelings are always still when Freddie and I are together as friends, but for some reason when I look at him now, it's like my feelings have changed and are turning into something wonderful.

I don't want that feeling to stop. I want that feeling to continue; I don't want the feelings I have to go away.

I can feel his hands on my body as he thrusts me inside and I couldn't stop the moaning. He just feels so good...

I shove my fingers in more until I could feel my clit throbbing and tingling, the beautiful feeling I like is warning me that I'm about to come.

"Oh, Freddie..." I thrust inside more and more hitting the g-spot. The tingling feeling is getting worse as I feel my stomach heating up and my heart racing; my legs are going numb from the fast pace, and I love it.

I'm getting close...I'm getting close.

"Oh, fuck. Freddie right there...right there." I cried as I remain thrusting myself quickly feeling my body getting hot.

After a few seconds of masturbating, I feel my body vibrating feeling myself coming.

"Oh my god!" I cover my mouth with my hand, moaning inside of it feeling myself squirt in the bed.

Once the squirting stopped, I pulled my fingers out of me and looked at my wet hand including the wet spot on the bed.

I uncovered my hand away from my mouth and breathed in and out. My body is completely numb, and my clit is still throbbing; what I did was just confusing.

Why would I masturbate after thinking about Freddie? It happened so fast I didn't know I could be horny so quickly.

Freddie and I have nothing going on I'm sure of that, but half of my brain is saying something about him catches my interest. He's my best friend and I love him to death with all my heart, but do I love him like in a relationship type? I can't be...I've already dated someone in my life, and that didn't turn out well.

He had sex with girls behind my back and I couldn't stand being hurt again. And Freddie and I making the fuck buddy contract thing was just something to get my mind off of my ex.

Something about this doesn't seem right. I don't know if Freddie considered this because he felt sorry for me or he just wanted to have sex with me for fun. Either one, I don't like the thought at all.

I don't like being used...I don't want him to think I'm some charity case.

I know Freddie wouldn't do something like that to any girl, but I can't be sure since I'm his close friend. I don't know what to do...

What I can do is change these sheets.

Since I'm starting school, I am going to update the chapters every Friday. So this is the last time you'll see me for a while...or five days. Anyway! I hope you enjoyed my quick updating chapters, but that will sadly come to an end today. Like I said, I'll try to publish every chapter on Fridays when I'm done with classes. If you guys started school or are about to start like me, good luck on your classes and stay in school!

I love you guys! *kisses* 3