chapter thirty-six

It's been two days since I've seen Freddie. The last time I saw him was in the living room where we had that confrontation, and he left by saying I needed space. I was so worried about where he went to again, and then I remembered him saying he was going to see Gibby before he left to check on him.

So being curious, I called Gibby and asked him if Freddie was there with him and he replied "Yes". Gibby also said Freddie was going to stay over at his place for a while and left the conversation at that. I felt so wrathful hearing him explain where Freddie was because I caused that to happen. He told me he needed to give me space, and he did that by going to Gibby and staying there for who knows how long.

He probably told Gibson about our argument and he's siding with him. I feel trapped thinking about being stuck in this situation and not having a solution to end all this. Freddie told me to make an answer to what I want when the time is right, but I don't know what is right.

What's on my mind right now is getting Freddie back so we can be together again!

It feels lonely without him here and how quiet it is. I miss hearing his lame jokes and seeing his dorky smile at random times. I miss how we would hang out together like we've been doing for years. It feels like we're man and wife getting separated by the amount of time given.

This occurred because of what happened months ago.

Fucking Jonah and his break up. Then Freddie and his suggestion on fucking each other. Me starting to have feelings about Freddie which made everything more confusing. How am I supposed to get through this if I don't have someone to talk to about this when he says I need to figure out what I want?

I can't make this decision by myself! All these emotions are making me go crazy I just want an answer already.

It's a Monday morning, and I'm in my pajamas putting the ornaments on the Christmas tree that is located in the living room. I'm hanging the shiny colored balls on the tree until I hear my phone ringing on the sofa.

I dropped an ornament inside the plastic container and ran to the couch to pick up my phone seeing I'm getting a call. My heart leaped at the thought of Freddie calling, but my smile faded looking at the screen to the person who is actually calling me.

Carly Shay - incoming call...

I totally forgot I have Carly's number on my phone. I wonder why she's calling me...

Without hesitation, I tap my thumb on the green button to answer the call and I put the phone against my ear hearing static.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Sam? This is Carly!"

Even on the phone, her voice is still perky as hell. "Uh, hey. What's up?" I said motionless.

"I was wondering if you wanted to hang out with me today! I'm making hot chocolate because the weather is unbelievably cold and I'm trying to make my myself warm. Do you want to join me?" She asked brightly. I stare at my feet standing on the carpet thinking about going over to her house and join her for "hot chocolate". That's not my type of thing, but this girl seems to do it all the time.

Also, I am lonely in the house without Freddie around... maybe leaving the house and going over to her place wouldn't hurt. "Sure, why not?"

"Yay! I'll text you my address and I'll meet you here!" She said as I hear shuffling in the background.

"Okay, great. I'll meet you there."

"Bye!"

The phone went dead while hearing three beeps. I pulled the phone away from my ear and looked back at the Christmas tree I started on before she called me. I looked at half of the Christmas tree covered in ornaments while the other half is empty.

The tree can survive without me for a couple hours, right?

I walked to my bedroom and turned on the light switch causing the light to activate. I rush to my closet to find an outfit for the cold weather since it's about forty degrees outside. I hate Seattle.

As I'm scanning through my clothes, my phone dings signaling I have a text message. I look at my phone and saw it's a message from Carly.

From: Carly Shay
Here's my address!
Bushwell Plaza apt #8-C

Huh, I never heard of this place. This should be interesting to find.

I push the lock button and the screen shut off to pitch black. I threw the phone on the bed with a small thud and turned back to my closet to search for my outfit.

After five minutes of searching, I found a red sweater with black polka dots that make me look like a lady bug, blue jeans, and black combat boots. It's not fancy but I don't care to look cute just to get out of the house in the fucking cold.

I grabbed my leather jacket and slipped it on while walking to my bed to get my phone that I threw on the bed before. I look at the time on the top center and saw it was 11:54 am.

My day wasted...

My feet walk over to the door and left the room while I close the door. I walk to the front door and grabbed my keys on the nightstand next to it and opened the front entrance to leave the house.

Lord, I hope Carly won't blow my brains out.

Is Sam listening to her gut as she's about to hang out with Carly? :o

If you want an extra chapter today, you need to beg on how much you want it :) (I'm such a tease)