Once we were done with our food, we were back in the living room. I had my bottle of vodka and Daryl had a bottle of whiskey. "Do you get mad when I say stuff like that?" I asked him.
He looked at me. "What do ya mean?"

"You know, earlier? When I was saying about you and I getting married?" I smiled. "Does that make you mad?" I asked him seriously. I was just thinking about it and I wondered.

"No." He shrugged. "It doesn't make me mad, but…" He trailed off.

I looked at him more closely. "But what?"

He looked away and sighed, then back at me. "I don't know how…how yer dad would feel about that."

"Well…it doesn't matter how my dad feels about it. It matters how you feel about it. How we feel about it…and each other." I stared at him. He looked down. "Daryl…" I moved closer to him. "You know I like you." I stated. I don't know if the alcohol was making me this confident? "And I think you like me too."

"Shh." Daryl held a finger up. He glanced towards my dad and Michonne's room.

"It's okay." I rolled my eyes. "They're probably knocked out." I spoke quieter anyway. "So, what are we gonna do about it?"

Daryl hesitated. "…maybe we should talk about this some other time." He suggested. "When there's not other people—

"No." I snapped. "I'm not avoiding this conversation anymore. I want to know if you want to be in a relationship with me. I want to know now." I stared at him waiting for an answer.

After what felt like an eternity, he lifted his head and slowly looked at me. My eyes widened. This is it! His answer is going to determine whether or not we will be together! He cleared his throat. "I…" He trailed off. "Yeah." He nodded. "I do."

That's all I needed to hear. I moved forward and kissed him, he didn't pull away. I sat on his lap facing him while still kissing. I started to unbuckle his belt and he grabbed the hem of my shirt but then stopped. "Do you want me to—

"Yes." I said before he could even finish the sentence. He lifted my shirt up over my head then threw it aside. We continued kissing.

Just then, we heard a commotion like someone got up. My eyes widened and I gasped. I immediately got off of Daryl and grabbed the blanket covering myself. My dad walked out of his room. I was sitting there panting and I bet my face was so red! My dad finally looked at us. "Hey, what are you still doing up?" He asked me.

"Nothing." I said too quickly. "We're just talking."

"Oh." My dad said stupidly. He must be really tired. It looked like he was looking at me more closely. "Why's your face so red?" He asked me again.

My eyes widened and I swallowed hard before answering. "Uh…I don't know." I tapped my fingers together nervously. "Must be the alcohol."

"Huh." Was all he said. He walked passed us and into the bathroom. I fumbled for my shirt and hurriedly put it on. I noticed Daryl had a pillow on his lap. It took me a few minutes to realize it was to hide his erection. I wanted to laugh but I couldn't at the moment. My dad got done in the bathroom and walked back out. "Don't stay up too late." He said then went back into his room. I waited until it got quiet again to react.

"Oh my God." I breathed. "I can't believe what almost just happened."

"Yeah, you cain't." Daryl said stupidly. "Ya know how bad that coulda just been?"

"I know." My put my hands on both sides of my head. "We should move into my room." I suggested.

"No, that cain't happen right now." Daryl shook his head. "Too many people here."

I looked at him sadly. I really wanted to have sex with him right then. "Daryl, it's okay. No one will walk in on us."

"I ain't doin' this right now." He said roughly.

Tears welled up in my eyes. I have been waiting so long for him. "Can we at least cuddle?" I sniffled.

He looked at me. "You ain't cryin' are ya?" He spoke softer.

"No." I lied and put my head down wiping at my tears.

After about a minute, I heard him sigh. "Alright. Let's go cuddle." He gestured.

I looked back up at him and smiled. "Okay." I grabbed his hand and we went into my room locking the door behind us.

Daryl and I looked at each other for a moment, we could only see from the moonlight illuminating the room. Then, I looked down at my attire. I don't want to go to bed in my clothes. So, I lifted my shirt above my head and started to take off my bra, I saw Daryl look the other way. "You can look." I said to him. "In fact, I want you to."

"No." He cleared his throat. "It's okay."

Really? I almost huffed. I changed quickly into my sleep clothes. "Okay." I told him. He turned back to me, I walked closer and wrapped my arms around his neck slowly kissing him. I'm surprised he didn't pull away. We let go and just stared at each other. I wasn't quite sure what to do next because I wanted to have sex but I know he doesn't want to. So, I just grabbed his hand and led him to bed. "Come on." I said quietly. I climbed into my bed, then watched Daryl take off his shoes and vest. He stood there for a few seconds, then finally got in next to me. We adjusted our positions, then he put his arm around me. It was nice, too nice. I felt something in a certain area and my breathing quickened. I tried to relax so I could go to sleep, but there was no way that was happening. I really have to have sex with him, I wanted tonight to be when I finally lose my virginity. I'm ready and I want it to be with Daryl Dixon. He doesn't want to though. However, I decided that…I'm going to get what I want for once.

I slowly turned over so that I was facing him, he gave me a questioning look. I took a deep breath. Just do it! Do it, Abby! I almost nodded to myself. My hand slowly moved down until I was right where I wanted to be. I put my hand on Daryl's dick. I think I saw his eyes widened for a second. "Abby." He said. I smiled at him lasciviously. I love how he says my name.

I shook my head. "No." I said. "No." I quickly climbed on top of him. "I want to have sex."

"Abby." He said again.

"I want to have sex right now." I quickly threw my shirt off.

"Abby, we cain't." He yell-whispered.

"Yes, we can. The door's locked and everyone's asleep." I breathed. He was staring at me. "You know, you want to. You can't resist me." I grabbed his hands and placed them on my bare breasts. I felt him get hard under me and smiled. I'm winning.

Suddenly, I saw something change in his expression. He sat up quickly grabbing me and practically throwing me aside taking me by surprise. I was scared that he was mad at me. Then, he quickly got out of bed and started unbuckling his belt. My eyes widened. It worked! We're going to have sex! I knew the breast trick would work! It was a booby trap. I almost laughed.

His pants were now off so I took my shorts and panties off as well. "Wait, I have a condom." I said to him. I quickly dug it out of my bag and handed it to him. He practically ripped it out of my hands and opened it with his teeth. Whoa! I just got back in bed and waited for him. He was about to get on top of me but I stopped him. "Daryl, wait." I breathed. "I've never done this before." He stopped and just looked at me. I smiled leaning up to kiss him. "Just…be gentle, okay?"

He nodded. I positioned myself better, I was becoming nervous. I honestly didn't know what to expect. I suddenly felt him slowly easing himself into me. I winced. It actually hurt pretty bad. "Ow." I said. "Ow ow."

"Should I stop?" He said.

"No." I answered too quickly. "It's okay. This is just new to me."

"Yeah, well…I ain't exactly that experienced neither." He said roughly.

"I don't care." I breathed. "Just do it." After that, he started slowly, then all of sudden, it was like he forgot everything I just told him and he began fucking me very fast and hard. I winced again. "Hey, whoa." I stopped him. "What'd we just talk about?"

"Sorry." He slowed down for a minute then he started going faster again. I didn't stop him this time, though, because I think I was getting used to it. I kissed him slowly but he started being rough even with that too. And then, if things couldn't have gotten any weirder, he bit my shoulder! My eyes widened. It was only just not painful. I don't know if I liked it or not though?

Suddenly, Daryl stopped and made kind of a weird face. He looked down and breathed out. If I'm not mistaken, he looked a little embarrassed. He lifted off of me a little and rolled over to the other side of the bed. My eyes widened. Don't tell me that's it! I didn't even get to cum! I looked at him. "Um…Daryl?" He just turned his head and looked at me. I didn't know what to say at first, so I just gave him a stupid look. "What the hell?"

"Oh yeah." He said and got up. He took the condom off and threw it in the trash bin. "Imma go out fer a smoke." He slid his pants on and then unlocked and went out the door. I sat there with my jaw to the floor. I didn't even know what to do. I was extremely angry but I also had an urge to cry.

"Jackass."

The next day was our last night in the cottage so we were cleaning up a little so we wouldn't have to do that in the morning when we leave. I didn't know where Daryl was. My dad told me he went outside and hasn't come back yet. He probably just went hunting. Not that I cared or anything. I was feeling so frustrated because of what happened last night. I feel like my first time was ruined. He's selfish.

I got a box and was cleaning out the fireplace. I didn't want to leave all that soot in there. It wasn't that hard but it took longer than I thought. I could have stopped but I wanted it to look nice.

When I was done with that, I took the box outside to dump into the big fire pit out there. Most of it came out when I dumped it but some of it didn't. I tried shaking it but it kept getting stuck under the sides. "What am I doing?" I said out loud. I just threw the whole box in the fire pit. I squirted a little of the liter fluid inside then lit a match and threw it in. It was cold outside but not as bad as the other days. Plus, the fire would keep me warm.

I got bored after a while and just started walking around. I stayed out of the woods but just walked around on the perimeter. Just then, I felt arms wrap around me. "Hey." It was Daryl. He kissed my cheek and moved down to my neck.

"Hey." I said flatly. I was suddenly annoyed with his presence.

"I found a place." He whispered in my ear, his face was touching mine. "We could sneak off tonight."

I didn't know what to say so I just didn't answer. "Abby." I heard my dad call me. Daryl let go of me so fast that I almost fell. I steadied myself, then turned around, he was standing on the porch. "You out here?"

"Yeah, right here." I said coming into view. "I was just walking around."

"Well, can you please come help your sister pack?" He asked me.

I glanced at Daryl, he was giving me a disappointed look. I almost laughed. I have an excuse to be away from him now. "Yeah, coming." I called and quickly walked away. When I was on the porch, I hugged my dad. "Thanks, daddy."

"For what?" He kind of laughed.

I let go of him. "Just…thank you." I smiled and went inside to help my sister.

Judith started playing and throwing her clothes up in the air. "Hey, what happened to you helping me?" I asked her with raised eyebrows. She ran over and sat down in front of me on the floor. She was trying to fold things and wasn't doing very well. I wanted to laugh.

"It's easy to fold pants but not shirts." She complained.

"Yeah, I know." I yawned. "Well, how about you fold the pants and I'll do the shirts?"

"Okay!" She said happily. "That way we'll be done in no time!"

I smiled. "That's right." There was a brief pause. I looked at her just then. "Hey, Judy. I'm sorry about last night. I didn't mean to yell at you like that. I was just…" I trailed off.

"It's okay. I know you were just upset and miss Carl." She said nonchalantly.

I gave her a small smile. "Do you remember Carl?"

She shook her head. "Not at all."

I looked back down at her clothes. That's so sad. I finished the last set, then grabbed the ones she folded and stuffed them all in her bag. "Alright, why don't you go get some breakfast?" I said to her.

"Okay!" She ran out of the room.

I joined the others after that. My dad looked at me. "She's all packed and ready to go." I gave him a thumbs up.

"Thank you." He said. "Grab some breakfast. It's leftover everythang." He laughed.

"Alright." I got myself a plate. "I guess that's going to be dinner too."

"Yup." My dad said. "We're just gonna eat all day until everythang's gone."

"Sounds good to me." I smiled. I heard laughs from other people. Once I got my food, I headed into the other room to sit down and eat. Daryl was in the hallway when I passed. I didn't even look at him.

We all sat at the table eating. I did not make eye contact with Daryl once. He's going to figure out sooner or later that I'm pissed at him. And that's just fine with me. "When we're done eating, can Abby take me down to the water?" Judith asked my dad out of nowhere.

"I hope you don't mean to swim?" Michonne asked her.

"No. No way! Too cold!" Judith shivered. The others laughed. "I just mean…take a walk."

My dad seemed hesitant. "…does Abby want to go down to the water?"

I looked up from my food at everyone while shoving my last bite into my mouth. Before I answered, I glanced at Daryl. Of course he was looking back at me. I can get more time away. I looked at my dad. "Sure. I don't care." I shrugged. "I mean…might as well. It is our last day here."

"Alright, you two just be careful, okay?" My dad said to me. I nodded.

"Yay!" Judith jumped up. "Come on, Abby!" She grabbed my hand and was pulling me.

"Okay okay, jeez." I said. "Calm down, kid." I heard the others laugh. Judy and I were in the living room now. "Put your jacket on." I told her while I was getting mine on. "And hey, this is quite a walk down. So, don't think I'm carrying you if you get tired."

"I won't get tired." She said defensively.

I raised my eyebrows. "Yeah, we'll see." I looked back before we walked out the door. I got an odd feeling, just then, that Daryl was going to follow me.

"Why'd you wanna come down here so bad?" I asked my sister. She was looking around in the water like she was searching for something.

She shrugged. "I wanted to see if we could find any crabs."

I gave her a weird look then laughed. "Well, if we do, you know what's going to happen, right?" I smirked. She just looked at me. "We're gonna cook 'em up and have some crab legs." I poked at her belly.

"Ew, nah uh!" She said.

"What do you mean? It's yum, not ew." I laughed. "Seafood is the shit."

"Yucky." She made a face.

"You'll see." I smiled. "Seafood his great."

"Seafood is great." I heard Daryl say from behind me. I knew he was going to follow me.

"Hey, what are you doing here, Uncle Daryl?" Judith asked him accusingly.

"Just wanted to make sure you two were okay."

"You didn't have to." I looked up at him. "We're fine."

"Yeah! Abby can keep us safe!" Judith yelled.

"Judy, keep your voice down." I scolded her. She muttered an apology.

"Okay." Daryl said. "I really came to talk to ya." He cleared his throat and sat down on a rock next to me. He was quiet after that.

"Yeah?" I finally said stretching the word out.

"You didn't say nothin' when I mentioned the place I found."

I didn't respond right away. "What did you want me to say?"

"I-I just thought, ya know, you'd be happy." He said. I didn't say anything, it was quiet. "So…do ya want to?"

I hesitated. "That was the only condom I had." I whispered. It was a lie, I had several in my bag.

"Well, we can go on a run and get more." Daryl suggested.

"Yeah, if you want to go through the trouble?" I said nonchalantly.

"The trouble?" He questioned me.

"That's what I said." I sighed and pushed my hair out of my face. There was a brief pause so I decided to look at him. He was giving me a weird look. I became nervous and looked away.

"Yer mad at me." He finally said. It was a statement not a question.

I glanced at my sister, she was playing and not paying any attention to our conversation. I looked back at Daryl. "Damn right I'm mad at you." I said not too loud. I got up and stood right there.

"Okay. Why?" He mimicked my movement.

I gave him a disbelieving look. He cannot be that stupid! "Are you kidding?" I almost laughed. It wasn't funny at all, though. I glanced at my sister again, this time she was looking at us. I turned away from her and faced Daryl. "You stopped." I said through gritted teeth. I climbed up the short hill and stood next to a tree. He followed me a moment later.

"What do ya mean?"

"I wasn't done." I said a little louder. He looked taken aback. Part of me felt bad but I didn't hold back, he needed to know. "When that shit happens, you keep going." I pointed a finger at him. "You don't get to get your rocks off and then leave me hanging. That's not how it works. It's not fair." I finished. I was just looking at him. He kind of had his head down and looked a little embarrassed. I suddenly felt bad. Maybe he really didn't know.

"Sorry." He finally said. He kicked some dirt on the ground. "I…I don't have…much experience neither."

My expression softened but I was still mad. "What do you mean?" I crossed my arms in front of me.

"I only…did it once." He sounded uncomfortable.

"You only had sex one time?" I whispered. I couldn't have my sister hear this conversation.

"Yeah, I really don't want to talk about it." He said and leaned against the tree. "I'm sorry, though."

I suddenly felt really bad. He's almost as unexperienced as me. It would be like someone being mad at me. Somehow, it made him more adorable to me. It's like he has this innocence about him. "No, I'm sorry." I touched his arm. "I didn't know."

"Don't ya patronize me, little girl." He said roughly and shoved my arm away. He started walking.

"No, I wasn't." I followed him. "Daryl, stop."

"Oh, ya want me to stop this time?" He spun around. I gave him a look. I thought about what he just said and the situation we are in and I felt nervous. Suddenly, I giggled. "Oh, ya thank this is funny, huh?" He said. "Ya laughin' at me?"

"No." I stopped. I put my arms around his neck. "But you're right. I was patronizing you and I'm sorry. I'm sorry for getting mad too." We just looked at each other. I glanced around him to make sure Judith couldn't see, then I stood on my toes so I could kiss him. I'm glad he didn't pull away. We stopped and stared at each other.

"So, what do we do now?" He finally asked. "Ya don't wanna have sex no more?"

I almost laughed out loud. "Uh, no, Daryl. We need to do it again so we can get better at it." I giggled.

He nodded and maybe looked a little uncomfortable. "Okay."

I smiled at him quickly then went to get my sister. "Judith, time to go."

"What? But we just got here." She complained.

"And it's time to go." I said seriously. She made a sad face and trudged up the hill.

I wanted to hold hands with Daryl as we were walking back, but I figured I probably shouldn't with Judith right there. Speaking of her, I noticed she was kind of lagging behind. I don't know if she was doing it on purpose, though. Like maybe she was trying to be on her own or something. What I do know is that, I couldn't wait until later when Daryl and I could be alone again. The thought of us sneaking around was so hot to me for some reason. "Abby." Judith suddenly said. "I'm tired. Will you carry me?"

"No." I answered immediately. I knew she was going to do this. "I told you it was a long way before we left and that I wasn't carrying you if you got tired." I said sternly.

"Please!" She whined.

"I said, no, Judith."

She whimpered and complained. "You're mean." She huffed.

"Stop it. You're not a baby." I scolded her.

"Uncle Daryl?" She said to Daryl. "Will you carry me?"

He looked at me. I widened my eyes. "You can say no."

He sighed and cleared his throat. "Com'ere." He told her.

"Yay!" She yelled and he picked her up.

I shook my head at the two of them. "Pathetic." I let out a small laugh. "You're a wimp and you're a pushover." I nudged Daryl.

"Yeah, yeah." He said.

I laughed. Just then, I thought about Daryl with our kids while watching he and Judith. I wouldn't mind having kids someday. Definitely not right now but I could see it in the future. The FAR future. I laughed again. Daddy Daryl. I smiled.

Hello everyone! Your reviews, favs and follows are much appreciated! I feel like Abby and Daryl's first time together was more realistic in this way because we all know that Daryl doesn't have a lot of experience when it comes to that stuff. Norman Reedus even said so himself and that it would be very awkward. And who knows Daryl better than the man himself? ;) Hope you all enjoyed! Please leave a review and tell me what you think!