Hey! This chapter is based straight after the last one and is till based on season 11 episode 22- hope u enjoy!

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'It's okay Freddie!' Teddy cooed while hugging the screaming baby. She'd just had the day from hell. She had only just accepted that Derek was dead. She was never close to him but the fact that one of her colleagues could be taken so quickly scared her. She thought about how unfair Derek was to die, what did he do to deserve this? And what did Michelle do to deserve to die?

Michelle had been obsessed with looking after Freddie recently but both Teddy and Owen knew she was struggling. She looked ill now. Her face was thin and pale and her clothes hung off her thin skeleton and her arms and legs were no more than sticks. She now spent most of the time in bed wrapped around with hundreds of blankets with a knitted woolly hat, that Teddy got Michelle for her birthday, constantly glued to her head. Teddy wasn't sure this was because she was cold or that Michelle's hair had started to fall out. She'd reached the finishing line and she was approaching the end increasingly faster but Michelle was a fighter and she clung on to every second being with her family. But the end was coming and she didn't want to accepted that.

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The weeks passed and Amelia continued to work, despite both Teddy, Arizona and Owen trying to reach out to her. Ever since Meredith had fled with her kids, it hit everyone really hard that Derek was dead but day by day, week by week people recovered from the shock and life moved on.

Everyone except Amelia.

Amelia had been avoiding Teddy for months now and Teddy although tried to reach out continually was struggling to. Amelia didn't want help. She isolated herself and threw herself into work. Just like Teddy did with Henry's death. She wanted to tell Amelia to reach out and everything will pass but she was also trying to balance all her work and Michelle.

'Teddy!'

Avoided shouted and turned around to see Arizona.

'Hey, I don't feel like I've talked to you in ages!' Arizona smiles while hugging Teddy.

'Yeah I've been doing lots of nights at the moment so I can be with Michelle during that days and they days I'm here I seem to be in back to back surgery!' Teddy solemnly smiled while looking at the beaming Arizona. 'I'm actually free if you want to grab some lunch actually?'

'Yeh that would be great! Nothing beats the cafeteria.' Arizona laughed while the two headed over to the cafeteria.

The line was long so the two spent the next 20 minutes catching up while waiting for food. Normally they would complain but Teddy hadn't felt this happy for such a long time taking to Arizona that was until they reached the front of the line.

'The board needs to get off their asses and hire another neurosurgeon.' A voice announced to another doctor in front of Arizona.

'Arizona don't make a scene just walk away.' Teddy warned but Arizona had just started to make a scene by shouting at the oblivious doctor.

Teddy had to drag Arizona from the canteen and so the two went outside to a nearby burger van and talked. The two friends talked for nearly a hour, they needed to talk and lay there feeling on the table. Arizona was still going through a messy relationship and Teddy was struggling with Michelle and both were worried about Amelia.

And things weren't going to get sorted until 2 weeks later until.

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Teddy's phone vibrated- it was a text from Owen.

Maggie's been clearing out Meredith's house and has found some of Bailey's old clothes and said Freddie can have them. Do you mind popping to the house after work to get them? O x

She felt guilty about her lack of communication with Owen. He had organised their shifts so one of them was nearly always home with Michelle and when both of them were working Michelle had a carer come around but they both knew she didn't like that and although she hated having to rely on her sister and her sister's best friend to look after her but she hated a random stranger caring for her, no matter how nice they were. Never the less, this meant Teddy and Owen still hardly saw each other. Teddy missed speaking to her best friend so she was looking forward to going home and having the first meal together in about 2 weeks with Owen.

She was just walking up the path to the house when she saw a figure by the back door.

'Amelia.' She whispered to the distraught looking doctor. 'Are you okay?'

She knew it was a pointless thing to ask as Amelia never healed from Derek's death and refused to reach out.

'I'm just going to grab something that Maggie left. So I'll see you at work tomorrow and remember you can always text me.' Teddy announced while just about to open the back patio door to get into the house.

'I have a bag of black market oxy in my coat pocket and I'm deciding whether I should take it or not.' Amelia spluttered our with a tear

'Amelia...'

'I've got the dead Derek thing completely managed. I know people have been looking at me expecting me to fall apart.' Amelia started to rant. 'Every man I have ever loved has died. Including my baby. Thank you universe.'

'Amelia something awful happened to you. You are allowed to be hurt. You are allowed to be upset.' Teddy spoke kindly while holding Amelia's hands.

'I'm fine, I'm doing great, I'm handling this dead Derek thing great.'

'Amelia...' Teddy whispered while Amelia started to panicky pace around.

'I have been sober for 1,321 days' She said nearly shouting while breathing more intensely and faster.

'Amelia, you don't have to handle this on your own. You're in pain, you're upset and you're hurt. There is nothing you could of done about Derek, his death was a freak accident and you don't have to be together. You can fall apart.' Teddy whispered while holding the distraught Amelia. 'Sometimes life is unfair and there is nothing we can ever do about it so you don't have to keep it together. You have loads of people who are here for you so you can let people in. That bag of oxy is not going to be you're last and people manage with pain in different ways but you don't have to have that bag if oxy. When my husband died, I threw myself into work and blamed everything on Owen because I refused to accept that Henry was dead and I was hurting. So hurt as much as you want it's okay.'

Amelia slowly got the small white bag of oxy out of her coat pocket and handed it to Teddy.

She cried. She clung onto Teddy and collapsed onto the ground and let out all the pain. Amelia hung onto Teddy on the patio floor and the two sat there on the floor until Amelia was ready to move on.

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I really wish on the actual series Amelia and Teddy didn't have all this trauma between them! So on this fanfic they will be a lot closer!