After a while, Hailey looks to her partner, "Jay, I know you don't want to, but you need to talk to Voight."

"No. I can't- my job," Jay tells her, mind scattered.

"Right now, I think you need to talk with Voight," Will sides with Hailey. "He's going to find out eventually and it would be best coming from you."

Jay just looks between Hailey and Will, looking like someone kicked his puppy. "But what if I can't be a cop anymore?" Jay whispers. "I don't know anything else."

"We take it one step at a time," Will tells him. "It doesn't matter what happens next, Hailey and I will be with you every step."

"He's right," Hailey reassures. "I will always have your back."

Jay looks at her for a moment, trying to figure out if she is lying. "Okay," Jay finally answers.

"I'm going to let you change. Do you want me to call Voight now?" Hailey asks.

"He's probably busy."

"Call now, and let him know he can come by when he has a chance," Will tells her. "Just have him text or call first in case they move Jay."

"Okay," Hailey answers while pulling out her phone.

Will turns his attention to Jay, "You need help with the IV," Will tells him.

"Can you just take it out?" Jay asks, not liking the needle in his arm.

Will looks at the almost empty IV bag, "Fine, but if you start to feel off, let me know," Will agrees.

Will takes out the IV and helps Jay change into the clothes that Hailey brought. "What are you thinking?" Will asks when Jay rests back against the pillow.

Jay sighs, "Dad would be mad. I can't do anything right- I'm a failure."

"Forget about dad. If you failing means I still have my brother, then I'm okay with that. Jay, you deserve to live your life."

Hailey walks out of Jay's ICU room and goes to an area where she can use her cell phone.

"Voight," she hears over the line when he picks up on the second ring.

"Voight, Jay is willing to talk to you about what's going on," Hailey tells him.

"Okay, when would be good for Jay?" Voight asks, not knowing if he was going to be taken for testing.

"Whenever works for you. Just let me know when you are here, they might move him to a different room."

"Okay, I'll check in soon."

"Hey," Hailey greets the two brothers as she walks back into Jay's room.

"What did he say?" Jay asks.

"That he'll check in soon. You look more comfortable," Hailey notes, seeing him relaxed now that he has on long sleeves to cover the scars on his arms.

"I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"I messed up your day- for both of you."

"No, you didn't. Our plans changed, but … ," Hailey pauses. "The important thing is that you are here."

Before anything else can be said, Ethan comes into his room, "Good news. It looks like the pills are out of your system," he tells Jay. "You got lucky, it doesn't look like they caused any damage, but we will keep an eye on that for a while and Will knows what to look for."

"So I can leave now?" Jay asks hopeful, but at the same time knowing the answer.

"No. We're going to transfer you to the psych ward for three days and then we can reassess what happens after."

"What is the visitor policy?" Hailey asks.

"It's locked and visitors have to be escorted to and from rooms."

"Okay," Hailey answers, placing a hand on Jay's arm.

Ethan leaves and two orderlies come in to bring Jay to his new room. Forcing Jay into the wheelchair, they make the short trip to the psych ward.

"Why were there two of them?" Hailey asks once Jay is settled.

"In case he fought," Will answers.

"What happens now?" Jay asks.

"You still need to be evaluated and then we will have a better idea of a long term plan."

"I'm not crazy."

"We don't think you are, but we don't want anything to happen to you. Seeing a therapist doesn't mean you're crazy."

Before Jay can replay, Voight is escorted in by a nurse.

"Halstead, Upton. What's going on?" he questions.

"Jay, do you want us to leave?" Will asks.

"No, I don't know some of the …" Jay trails off.

"It's okay, I know." Will and Hailey move across the room, trying to give Jay as much space as possible.

"What's going on Jay?" Voight asks, tone softer.

"I made a mistake an-and do I still have a job?" Jay asks.

"What? Why wouldn't you have a job?" Voight questions.

Jay remains quiet. Hailey sees her partner go quiet and decides to help him. She gets up and goes next to him. "Sarge," Hailey takes a breath. "Last night, I went to Jay's because I got a weird feeling. I found him unconscious on his bathroom floor- with empty pill bottles."

Voight takes only a second to process this, "You tried to kill yourself?" Jay remains silent giving him his answer.

"When I got him to Med, Ethan pumped his stomach and told Will and me that Jay has been participating in some self-harming behaviors."

"Jay?"

"I've been cutting myself since I got back from Afghanistan."

Hearing this shocks Voight, not expecting this from his detective. Sure, he knows that Jay has his fair share of demons, but his detective is one of the better-adjusted soldiers coming back from overseas.

"What happens now?" Voight asks.

"They have me on suicide watch, then I don't know."

"He's on suicide watch for three days. He will be evaluated during this time, hopefully sometime today, and a long term plan will be made," Will fills in the gaps.

"Jay, the team is your family too. Don't forget that. You can decide what you want to tell them when you want to tell them, but they will support you."

"Sarge, he's been worried about what this means work-wise," Hailey tells their sergeant wanting to alleviate one of her partner's worries.

"I don't know what the higher-ups will say, but this is my unit. You're a good cop, Jay. Just worry about getting yourself better right now. When the time comes we can work your way back: start you on desk duty and have a probationary period until you're back in a good headspace."

"Thanks, Sarge," Jay whispers.

"I'm going to let you get some rest before you have your evaluation," Voight pats his shin before going to the door.

Will volunteers to escort Voight out, since he is technically staff, leaving the two detectives.

"What do you think?" Voight asks the older Halstead brother.

"I think it will take time, but he will be okay. He just needs to know he's not alone."

The two me go their separate way, Will back inside the hospital to his baby brother and Voight back to the 21st district, hoping that his team doesn't question Jay and Hailey's absence. Voight wants Jay to have control in his life, but at the same time, his team are cops in an elite unit- not much will get past them.

A/N: Sorry if Voight is OOC, he is not someone I am sure about writing. Again, let me know where you want this story to go. I am trying to work in the suggestions that you leave.

A/N #2 July 20, 2020: By posting the Deaf Jay Fic and the Prompt that I was given, I am going to put "Rock Bottom" on Hiatus. I will come back to finish it at some point, but I started this Fic not knowing where I was headed with it. This is still the case, where I don't know what direction it is going in. Mental Health is an important topic and I want this Fic to represent the importance and do it justice by not make light of that situation and/or people suffering from mental health challenges. I also don't really like what I have so I'm most likey going to be doing heavy editing to give it the justice that it deserves.

With that being said, Mental Health is especially important in times like this (Pandemic), even with social distancing check in on your friends especially those fighting mental health challenges via calling, text, video chat, e-mail.