Jacob
I entered the house to find Billy and Sam sitting at the kitchen table. They both turned their attention to me when I entered the house. I was sure that Billy knew something wasn't right, so he called Sam to play big brother.
"Jacob,…son." Billy said.
I grabbed a coke and a bag of chips from the fridge. This would most likely be my last snack as a human for,... well with my luck for-ever. My heart knew that Bella wouldn't choose me over that damn bloodsucker, that I was sure of. Maybe that's why I chose to go wolf. Maybe I was hoping that being in that form I could forget her. Forget the pain of knowing her.
"Is everything okay, Jake?" Sam stood up from where he had sat.
"Everything is great."
"It didn't sound like it earlier. We heard what you were thinking in the woods. You were thinking about leaving town in wolf form. Then Edward approached you. What happened?"
I tossed a few chips into my mouth and washed them down with a swig of coke. "My personal life has nothing to do with the pack."
"Yes it does. When you're in pain, so are we. You know that."
"Son,… I know how you feel about her. I know that it hurts. But you can't run away from the pain. Away from me." Billy's voice trembled and I thought I saw a tear fill his eyes.
I placed the bag on the counter next to the coke can, and knelt down by my dad. "I love you, dad." I pulled him in for a hug. "But I can't live like this. It hurts too bad." I stood up and ran out the front door, feeling my body begin to shiver, I busted into my wolf form in mid-air and dashed into the woods before Billy could stop me.
Bella
I laid in my bed staring at the darkness outside my window. I wondered what Billy had said to Jacob. If he had talked him out of leaving, but I knew there was no chance of that. I wondered where he was now and just how far he would go. My tears raced down my cheek and my stomach laid in knots. Edward still sat in the corner of my room. We hadn't said a word to one another. He knew I needed to be alone, but he couldn't leave me there. Part of me didn't want him too. Part of me Jacob's part wanted Edward to disappear. To leave and never come back. I hated feeling this way. Being torn into.
Jacob meant more to me than I was ever willing to admit. I couldn't close my eyes without seeing his face as he told me goodbye, so I decided not to sleep. I wanted to scream into my pillow and let out all the pain and sorrow I felt inside, but Edwards Bella wouldn't let me. She wouldn't put Edward through that.
"Bella,… I…" Edward said lightly.
"Edward, please not tonight." I moaned. I couldn't think as it was. Conversation was something that I was not going to be good at.
Jacob
I had no idea where I was going, and I didn't care. I wanted away from Forks, away from La Push and away from the voices in my head that beg me to come back. I was almost near the Canadian line and I wasn't alone. I knew that. I paused turning to see Leah as she stepped out from behind the tree. Her wolf eyes were just as mesmerizing as her human eyes.
Leah, I have been patient in letting you fallow me thus far. But it's time for you to go back. I said sternly.
She seemed to smirk at me through her teeth. Back to what? Back to watching Sam feel guilty about him and me. Watching how he looks at Emily. No thanks, Jake. Besides who says that you're the only one that gets to run away?
I do. You have your mom and Seth.
And you have Billy. She snapped back.
I felt a pull at my heart. I loved my dad and I definitely didn't want to hurt him. But it was a sacrifice that I was going to have to make. If you follow me, you have to stay on your best behavior. There will be no pity party, and no talking trash about… I couldn't make myself say her name.
Fine. And you won't think about how sorry you feel for me, being a girl werewolf and the whole Sam and Emily thing.
Fine. I made a dash at the line that would separate us from the world we knew. As bad as it ailed me, maybe having Leah to talk to wouldn't be so bad.