Jacob
I watched the fur on Leah's back rise and fall as she slept beneath the tree. I couldn't sleep. Not even in wolf form. How did I ever think that I would be able to forget her. Bella meant to much to me. I would never get over her. I stood up and turned around flopping down on my other side so that Leah wasn't in my sight. I felt bad for her too. She became a wolf a week ago and now she had to deal with being in Sam's head. Knowing how he saw her. How he loved her but they were forces bigger than either of them, that stopped them from being together. Forces beyond our control, forces that cause us heartache and pain.
Your thinking is deafening. Leah moaned.
Go back to sleep, Leah.
Is it going to be like this every day?
I didn't ask you to come. I growled a low growl.
Jacob, listen to my mind. I can block out all the bad things so that you don't see or hear it. You need to learn to do the same.
You keep watch, it's my turn to sleep. I knew it would be hard, but maybe I could get a couple of winks in, just to get Leah out of my head.
Bella
I dosed off sometimes during the night. I know this, because I had a dream. I was standing in a doorway, Billy's doorway. The wind gently tossing my hair back and forth in my face. The smell of the woods all around me. Then slowly out of the woods, he crept out for me to see. His russet fur blowing just like my hair, behind him was a little wolf. His fur the color of Jacob's. The little wolf made a dash at me. I knelt down to him, allowing him to lick my face.
"You don't let me do that." Jacob said.
I looked up to see Jacob's human form. "It's cuter when you're younger." I stood up and kissed Jacob with such hunger and passion, I didn't want to let go.
"Momma, I beat daddy." The little wolf said, now standing in front of us, with his coffee skin, and his dark hair. He was a splitting image of Jacob.
"Wow,… I am impressed." I patted his head and nodded towards the house. "Grandpa Charlie is in with grandpa Billy."
The little boy fled into the house screaming grandpa, grandpa. Jacob smiled. The smiled that touched his eyes. The smile that I loved more than anything. He wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me into him. He stared into my eyes and I woke up.
I sat straight up in the bed, screaming out Jacob's name. My body soaked with my own perspiration. I searched the room for any sight of him. But there was none. I looked at the corner that Edward once sat to find it empty. Edward probably left afraid Charlie would enter to check on me. It was ten-thirty in the morning. I jumped out of bed and threw on a sweat shirt and a pair of jeans. I hurried out of the house, and into my truck.
Billy was sitting on the front porch when I arrived. His long hair pulled back, his face filled with worry. I hopped out of the truck and ran to Billy. I knelt before him, taking his hand into mine. My tears fell from my eyes.
"I love him, Billy. It's always been him."
"I know." He smiled.
"Where is Sam? I need him to find Jacob."
Billy nodded towards the edge of the woods. Sam, Paul, Jared, Embry and Quil all slowly made their way towards us. They weren't their happy selves. It was like something was missing. Like a part of them and I knew what part. The part that I missed too.
"Bella,…" Sam said a little shocked.
"Sam, I need you to find him. I need to tell him something." I pleaded making my way over to him.
"We tried, Bella." Paul said. "That's what we've been doing all day. Searching for him and Leah."
"Leah?" I asked confused.
"She followed him last night. They both disappeared before we could catch up to them." Embry looked sad.
I took a deep breath. He had taken Leah with him. He thought there was no way I would choose him, so he took a backup plan. A way to try and forget me. I felt my knees give way, I started to fall to the ground, as Sam reached out and caught me. I had lost my soul and it was all my fault.
"We won't give up, Bella. We will find them." Sam said.
I felt the world around me start to spin. I had felt pain before, felt like there was no air to breath. Like I had no reason to live. But that fell in comparison to what I felt now. I had no reason to live, I had no air in my lungs, and I felt the worse pain as my heart was ripped, not in part, but in whole out of my body. I was no longer Edwards Bella, and Jacobs' Bella. Those two parts had joined together and I was now just Jacobs Bella. I would die if he found love in Leah. We had to find him before that happened.