Well, I certainly never intended for it to take a half a year to update this story. I'm sorry about that. And I did get your comments and I'm sorry that I stopped replying. I actually thought I was going to stop writing altogether but I think doing it helps me work through my own feelings. I'm a lot like my Mike in that regard I guess. I'm too in my head...to analytical. Too insecure. Maybe I'm too trusting. Anyway, I'm going to finish this though I can't say when the next chapter update might be. I can't force it or it'll suck. But I will say I'll forever love the Magladin Tales and while the team may have disbanded (I won't bore strangers with my life) I loved every second of what went into creating these stories. It just sucks that sometimes life gets in the way of things and things have to change. But for me, some things will never change.
Anyway, thanks for sticking with me and thanks for reading. Sorry I made you wait so long. I hope I made it worthwhile.
The air seemed to shift and a strong breeze blew as El's voice lifted and crescendoed. Mike's hair whipped in the wind.
"You said you'd tell me if something was bothering you! I have to find you here looking like you're going to jump?" El was mad. Adrenaline was coursing through her body. Seeing Mike so close to the edge and not seeming to care made her stomach hurt.
"When could I talk to you, El? You're always busy. Something always comes up." Mike shrugged and took a few steps away from her.
El's brows furrowed and she grabbed him, once again pulling him away from the edge. Her fingernails dug into his arm hard enough to get the point across that she was pissed.
"What do you mean? You can always talk to me. I thought you knew that." Still tugging his arm, El managed to get the two of them off the high rock and to a safer location.
Mike was stoic as they stood in a small thicket of young evergreens next to an even higher stone wall of the quarry. They were secluded. Pine needles carpeted the forest floor.
"Mike? Talk to me." El's anger intensified but she wanted to know what was going on with him.
"You don't love me. You're just saying that to talk me off the ledge and be a hero to no one. Did you finally find some time for me? I don't believe you love me. Sex isn't love. I'm off the ledge. You can go." Mike wouldn't make eye contact.
"Sex isn't love? I've just told you that I am in love with you and yet you act like I'm the worst person ever. Why?"
As she talked, El's hands moved from Mike's wrists to his forearms. She could feel the lean muscle underneath his sweater and it only made it more difficult for her to remain mad at Mike, although she was aware that he had never seen her this angry before anyway, at least not at him.
Tears formed in her eyes as she furrowed her eyebrows and demanded an answer. Shaking Mike's arms didn't seem to make him keen on offering one to her.
"Why?!" Her tone was raised this time, causing Mike to flinch a little. "And why are you so selfish? You would've just jumped...just like that? What's wrong with you?!"
"You say a lot of things, El. But we prioritize what's really important." Mike turned away from her, arms crossing over his chest.
"What's that supposed to mean?" El was starting to feel hurt instead of anger.
"You know, actions speak louder than words. You say you love me, yet you can't call me, even just to say goodnight. If I could just feel like you made a little time, just carved a few minutes into the day for me, I'd feel completely different. But these last weeks, fuck, these last months I've felt like you just took what you wanted when you wanted it and my needs or feelings didn't matter. And I'm not even talking about sex right now. You know more about me than anyone else does. It sucks to miss someone and they're not even gone. It sucks to feel used. So what's wrong with me? I'll tell you." Mike took a deep breath. His heart was pounding in his chest, not only because of the current argument, but mostly due to the underlying fear of telling El his feelings.
"Everything is wrong with me!" Mike yelled. His voice echoed throughout the deserted landscape. "Can't you see that?! I'm petty and selfish, you just said it yourself. Maybe you could even go so far as to say I'm toxic, even though I'm always only trying to be caring. And I'm insecure and weird. Isn't that enough? You're like, perfect, and deserve way better than me. Why would you want to cheat yourself by being with me? I'm sure there are lots of guys who could fill my shoes and wear them better." Mike sulked against the stone wall, crossing his arms and pulling away from El. He looked at the ground.
"I dream about you. Not even sex dreams either. Only…dream El always makes time for me and I always feel safe and warm. Then I wake up and realize I haven't actually heard from you in weeks. Dream El isn't real. It makes me even sadder. I really miss you and it makes me mad that I can't just walk away and that I'm such a fucking pussy that imagining my life without you makes me want to jump into the quarry. I know that's dramatic but I'm a dramatic fuck."
"You're not!" El disagreed. "But you definitely are a dumbass. You're always in your head, and while I love your mind it messes with you, Mike. I don't want you lying awake at night wondering if I care about you. I don't want you to think I use you." El's voice trailed off a bit, getting quieter.
"You're the only person who accepts everything about me even though you're also dumb." El felt her emotions rising again.
"Mike... please look at me. You're an idiot. You're so stupid it's disgusting! Because you're not any of those things you've mentioned! I like you, no fuck that, I love you, and you're too stupid to even realize or care. Or maybe you do realize it and now you're just saying these things so I'll leave you alone. Maybe you just wanted to h-have sex with me and then get rid of me. Is that it? Because otherwise I don't get it."
"Why would a loser like me want to get rid of you? I'm dumb but I'm not that dumb. I'm just trying to help you see that you can do better because I'm afraid, El. I'm afraid you'll suddenly realize all these things and I'll lose you. And if I miss you when I technically still have you, I don't think I could deal with actually losing you. Would I miss touching you? Yes. Would I miss how you smell? Yes." Mike was moving closer now, causing El to walk backwards. "Would I miss kissing you? You'd better believe it." El's back finally hit the stone wall opposite where they started. Mike closed in. "Would I miss fucking you?" Mike leaned in. El just stood in place. "More than anything," Mike whispered. "I just want you to know how I feel. I can't help it. I'm closer to you than to anyone. Like…not just sex. Like everything."
"But w-why do you think of missing it?" El traced her fingers over his sharp jawline before her thumb rubbed circles on his cheek.
"Why can't you just have it? All of it. Anytime you want. You know you can do that, right? Having me..."
Her voice was a whisper over his mouth, their lips barely touching as her gaze alternated between his sad piercing eyes and his plump lips.
"Why would you love me?" Mike asked, his anger or annoyance or whatever it had been draining away. Feeling El's fingers on his face seemed to have a calming effect. Their faces were so close he could see their breath mingling in the cool air. It had been weeks since they'd been this close and Mike's body was reacting. Still, as much as he wanted to take her against that rock, he needed to know why.
"Because...I don't know. I just do," El confessed with tremor in her voice.
She hated being so vulnerable in front of someone, but this was Mike, the boy she had trusted in an instant and the boy who made her the happiest.
"You're smart. And cute. And funny, too. Not right now, though. Now you've scared me and it breaks my heart to know that you don't trust me enough to realize that I do love you. Who wouldn't love you, Mike? You're amazing. You've always made me feel like I found my home."
Her eyelashes fluttered closed as their lips sealed. Even though El was the one to close the gap between their bodies, Mike didn't hesitate to wrap his arm around her waist and pull her even closer. It was short and breathless and when they pulled for air El continued.
"You've seen me like nobody else has because I trusted you so quickly. Because I felt like I could. And yet you don't trust me," El whispered.
Mike had a sudden moment of clarity. Maybe El was just as weird as he was and that's why everything was so easy for them. But he couldn't not be Mike Wheeler, so he was stubborn as usual. Mike stepped away from El.
El's anger returned, wanting to punch him. Instead, she pushed him against the stone wall of the quarry. Hard.
"Do you even care what it would do to me to lose you?" El's voice raised, her words coming out as a slight scream. "You're going to make me hate you. You're going to break my heart because you're too in your head," El choked, her tears spilling down her cheeks.
"No! Not gonna cry." El wiped her tears with the back of her hand. "Not gonna cry because you're dumb!" She was starting to break.
"I'm dumb?!" Mike almost laughed, not because anything was particularly funny but because she was fighting so hard for him and he didn't know how to react.
"Yeah, you suck!" El pushed him again, her hands balled into fists, collapsing into his chest and trying to hold back sobs. Mike caught her wrists and pulled her even closer.
"You were the one who started this," Mike whispered. "Mike, could you make me cum? If all you'd wanted was to be friends, I'd have done that. I just wanted to make you feel loved and wanted."
With his arms around her, El suddenly needed to be even closer.
"Make me feel that way right now then." El nuzzled under Mike's chin, her head tilted so that she could kiss his neck as he held her. The kiss quickly traveled to his lips and the two of them sank into each other.
"I am an idiot," Mike growled, his hands fumbling frantically. "Why would I ever want to push you away more? I've been going crazy these past few weeks missing you." Mike's hands went to El's skirt, starting to hitch it up over her hips. "I...I love you too, El. I love how you do everything. Mostly I love how I feel when I'm with you. It's so much better than when I'm not with you." He kissed her again, his fingers roaming over her tights. The skirt was around El's waist but the tights were still a barrier.
"I'll buy you a new pair," Mike breathed into her neck as he ripped her black tights at the crotch, pulling them until he created room. El seemed to understand and was freeing his cock from his pants as Mike started to lift her up.
"We can be quick so you don't get cold. I'll make you warm." With one hand Mike slipped her panties to the side as El wrapped her legs around his waist. He could feel her heat radiating on his naked dick but he was going to let her sink herself down on him.
"We don't have to be quick. Or we can if you want to. But we're spending the night together. This is not over," El murmured as she struggled to grab a hold of Mike's dick. When she finally did so, she positioned it at her entry and slid down on it in one go.
Mike was fully enveloped by El's warmth and they sighed in unison, their foreheads glued as El tried to lift herself and drop her pussy on Mike's dick.
"I'm not leaving you until you realize how important you are to me. But I need you to fuck me now, okay? Help me ride your cock. It's all the way in. Can you feel when I'm squeezing you?"
"Fuck yes. Oh God you feel so good," Mike's mind was spasming. It was like the first time all over again. He held on to El's ass, helping her lift herself and then letting her drop back down.
"You need it? Need my cock? I'll help you ride it. Fuck, your ass fits so perfectly in my hands. Like my hands were made to hold it. Made to lift you up so you can slam back down and make me go deep inside you." El clung to Mike's neck, not letting her face move too far away from his. Mike felt himself lift her, her smooth ass tight in his big hands, then he felt it as her pussy swallowed him again. El's face had almost connected with his when he lost his footing and began to fall backwards. His first instinct was to hold on tightly to El and to take the brunt of the fall himself.
Hitting the pine needle covered floor, Mike heard El yelp and knew it was because the fall had sent his dick extra deep and now he was more than buried inside her. She straddled him now.
"Oh fuck, are you okay?" Mike asked, still holding her upper body close. He kissed her forehead while she caught her breath.
"Y-Yeah. But do it again."
Mike seemed confused and El smiled, aware that she had to be more specific. Supporting herself on her knees and lifting her hips up just slightly only to drop all the way down on Mike, she whispered. "Fuck yourself into me. Really hard. I liked that. I want to feel you so deep I can't breathe. I want to feel all of you, Mike. You're perfect," El said through kisses, her lips going from Mike's cheek to his lips and then to his neck.
Mike wanted to please. She had pulled him from the ledge when he knew he was probably going to jump, having spiraled with his dark thoughts. She had confessed her love when he was being an ass, she offered herself to him freely and wanted more. Mike could give more. For El, he knew he would give anything.
El started to sit up to ride him but Mike pulled her back down.
"Need you close. I'll do the work," he whispered as his lips once again found hers. He lifted his hips repeatedly, giving in to El's wish and fucking up into her. He could feel her skin against his stomach where his shirt had ridden up.
"Is that good? Need more? I'll do anything, El. Anything."
"Any...thing?" El struggled to stay still, but Mike was pounding her so hard from below all she could do was gasp and squeeze her eyes shut.
Mike hummed in approval at her question and she decided to meet his thrusts, her hips forcing his cock to go even deeper inside her womb. She moaned into his neck and lapped at the sensitive skin.
"Then let me love you. I want...o-oh...I really want to love you Mike. Will you let me? Will you accept that I do?" As she talked, her face hovered over his and they made every effort to keep eye contact while still fucking each other so hard.
"I said anything. You really wanna spend the night?" Mike asked, lifting his hips with gusto to meet El's continuous mounting. She nodded, licking his neck. "I want to sleep with you. Like hold you and sleep. Nancy's home so you'll have to stay in the basement. I'll come down there." Mike gazed into her eyes, her pupils blown even in the light of day.
"I love fucking you outside. I love that you let me. Maybe sex isn't love but ours is." Mike kissed her again.
"It…is. I want to do...everything with you. Not just this. Even though, oh fuck...this is so good," El cried out, her pussy quivering around Mike's dick as he never ceased the exertion.
"P-Promise me something."
Her lips pressed over his and he nodded eagerly. El admired his splendor - how the sweaty strands of hair stuck to his temples and how he kept his eyes shut and his lips into a thin line. He was beyond beautiful and El couldn't stop herself from pressing her lips all over his face while they still fucked.
"Promise we're gonna...do this again. Tonight. And you'll let me show you...how much I love you. Promise." All the while Mike was gripping her ass tightly as they joined again and again with furious passion.
Mike opened his eyes. El was looking at him with a mixture of love and lust, but he thought it was mostly love.
"I promise. But I feel like I need to show you. Can you turn around without me pulling out? I'll help you." Mike arched his back, holding El's legs as he spun her on his cock until she was sitting backwards on him.
Then he sat up.
"Is this nice?" He asked, rubbing her breasts as he pushed her gently forward so that her clit would rub on his shaft. He liked how it felt to have her ass on his thighs as he fucked her from behind while she sat on him. Before long El bent her knees more, straddling him backwards and using her legs to fuck herself back and forth while Mike sat still.
"Oh fuck yes, fuck me just like that. Oh God! It's so good." Mike couldn't help himself. He pushed her forward more, somehow getting to his knees without removing his dick from El's pussy. He knew she'd get dirty this way but he didn't care. The sounds she was making told him El didn't mind.
He lay on top of her on the soft pine needles. Mike could feel her ass against his pelvis as he kept banging his cock deep into her. He moved his hand underneath her.
"Gonna keep my hand on your pussy so it feels good. Gonna make your pussy feel as good as you make me feel."
"Feels...the best," El mewled, a string of saliva hanging from the corner of her mouth as Mike didn't cease the rough pounding.
She could feel the pine needles digging into her flesh now that Mike had her trapped underneath and drilling into her so hard she could only cry out in pleasure. The hand he kept on her pussy only increased the euphoric feeling and she found herself pushing her cunt back and forth on his cock, her ass sticking to his pelvis with every deep thrust.
"You ripped my tights...and you're fucking me...fuck, don't...stop, please! You're fucking me here...where anyone could see. But I don't care. I love you so m-much. Please don't stop!"
As she begged, she made sure to rub her clit on Mike's fingertips. Her whole body hurt and cramped from being pressed into the rough carpet of needles but all she could think of was how Mike was going to make her cum outside after ripping her clothes off.
"You're the best," Mike panted as he kept his fingers close enough to touch her but far enough so that every time he thrust into her she'd press against them harder.
"Cum for me, El. Cum all over my fingers and my cock. You feel so good sliding on it, taking my dick here on the forest floor, you're gonna make me fucking shoot inside you. You like it when I do, right? Like to feel my cock throb and pulse as I spurt my load into you? Like to feel it drip back out afterwards? I'm really close. Squeeze me like you do," Mike said, his tone more commanding. He swirled his fingers on her clit in the opposite direction as he'd been moving them and kissed the back of her neck.
"Oh yeah, I feel it. Cum all over me. Oh fuck! Jesus so tight! I'm cumming too. So hard in you..."
Mike let go, feeling El cum and hearing her cries of pleasure. She was crying his name and he thought he'd never heard any more beautiful sound.
While still spasming uncontrollably under Mike, El succumbed to the pleasure of having her insides filled with cum. It was warm and seemingly never-ending with Mike breathing heavily on top of her as his hips thrashed a few more times before he was finally empty.
They lay there for a few more seconds before he rolled over and lay on his back next to El while she pushed herself on her elbows to look at him. His eyes were closed and he had a silly smile plastered on his tired face. A smile that El couldn't resist kissing and that was what she did after clinging onto Mike's body. When her leg wrapped around his she could feel the warm cum seeping out of her cunt and she sighed, contented that Mike was the one who did this to her.
El lay her head on Mike's chest, feeling his heart beat on her face.
"Don't ever scare me like that again. Being scared about losing the one you love most is the worst." El's small hand moved into Mike's much larger one.
"I'm sorry I scared you. You'll probably need to kick my ass occasionally."
El laughed, then became more serious.
"It's okay if you don't believe that I love you right now. I'm going to show you. I promise."
A/N: I'm thinking maybe three more chapters to this story, though at this time they are merely transient ideas floating through my head. I know a few things I definitely want to happen but not necessarily how I'll make them happen yet. After that, there is only one more Magladin story. I keep pushing it aside, not wanting to work on formatting it because reading it will take me back to when we were writing it and that was just plain the best ever. I thought it would go on forever. But I'll get to it. It's very long. I just want to make it perfect. If anyone cares, I have another account that has some stories that are somewhat in this vein but I think they're way tamer. It's MonsterSquad (formerly Calpurnia011-I made that name before the band got big because I like To Kill a Mockingbird but I'm not really into the band so I changed it) and I'm proud of them, even if they aren't all smutty.