AN: I wrote this a million years ago; or maybe it was last summer. I don't remember.
I might continue this and make more Sonadow garbage out of this barely-visible storyline. Please tell me what you think. I greatly appreciate your feedback.
"blur"
Somehow, it's begun snowing. It's a wonder that I didn't even notice. Then again, with the ever-present darkness in my head, I can't pay much attention to anything lately. In an effort to get away from the things that were driving me insane, I decided to go for a walk.
The town before me is dyed in white, drifts of ice-cold fluff blowing past me here and there. Several feet ahead of me, a beaming couple darts into a coffee shop and slams the door behind them. The warmth that they left behind falls at my feet and circles around my solitary existence. With a sigh, I kick it aside and venture on.
As if to remind me of how pathetic I am, a gust of wind teases my quills and sends shivers running down to my toes. The unwelcome embrace of the cold gives me the same feeling that I had when I last talked to him.
"Why don't we meet up sometime? You know, outside of work?"
"I can't do that."
"Why not?"
My face twists in frustration and anger, as such a recollection was exactly what I'd wanted to get away from. As I continue to walk, the stirring of the wind in the trees and the snow makes it clear that I'm not going to be able to run from this.
"Come on, Shadow," it urges, spitting its frozen tears in my face, "You know you want to make things right. Call him up right now and apologize for acting the way that you did."
I can't. Furious, I kick an ashen pile on the side of the road. He's already gone.
"It's not too late, you know. He still loves you."
No, he doesn't. The hum of despair begins within me, soon to grow into a screeching demon. No, no, no, not here, not now, not when I've tried my hardest to get away.
I break into a run, holding my head in my trembling hands. Leave me alone!
"You still have a chance to make things right."
Shut up. Shut up! Get out of my head!
"Shadow, listen to me."
The wind has her voice, and it's pulling on my heart harder and harder with every flake of snow that touches my freezing skin. I grit my teeth, fighting my own mind with everything I have.
Block it out, block it out, shut the damn voices up...
"Don't you care about him? Don't you want to show him that you love him?"
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, it's all lies. I hate it all! Lies, lies, lies, lies, lies.
"Don't you love him like you loved me?"
I still love you. I will always love you. He can never take your place.
"Is that why you refuse to let him be close to you?"
No, no, no, no, NO, NO, NO. I won't have any of this. Shut up. Shut up NOW. You're nothing but a pack of lies built to drive me insane.
"Is that why you're here tonight? Because of me?"
NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. BLOCK IT OUT. TEAR IT DOWN. LET IT GO. STOP THIS IMMEDIATELY.
"If you insist, Shadow."
As if it was never even there, the howling wind vanishes without a trace. I finally stop running and take a look at where my feet have carried me.
I'm standing in front of his house, and he's at the door.
"Shadow?" He blinks several times, as if I seem unreal to him. "What are you doing here?"
This time, the stirring of the wind inside me will not be silenced.
"Sonic, I..."
~End~