A/N: Sorry for the huge delay! I had pretty much the whole chapter written for the longest but of course school got in the way. As a recap, Tyler went out of town leaving Tiara, and her frustrations, alone for a week with Mr. Smolderhalder. Christian and Ana are on the rocks because Christian isn't opening up to Ana about anything which is weird after living under the same roof for about three weeks. Christian, Ana, and Tiara get on the jet to head for Seattle to spend Thanksgiving break there and nooooow we are here! If you haven't noticed my titles have been song titles most of the time so if you want to listen to Crazy by Daniela Andrade that fits the chapter very well.

Chapter 8: Crazy

Point of View: Anastasia Steele

"We're here sir."

I practically break my neck from whipping my head around to Christian so fast. "Excuse me?" I whisper.

"You heard Taylor. We are here Anastasia."

I open my mouth to go clean off but shut it when I see Tiara get out of the car behind us. Christian walks around and opens my door about to say something but I walk past him. He follows me into the elevator and we turn to see Tiara stopped at the door.

"Um I'll wait for the next one."

I let go of the button and press for the top floor. We ride in silence until I simply can't take it anymore and pull the emergency button. "What the hell is wrong with you?" I bellow. Christian looks confused for a second giving me the time to continue, "I live in town why the hell would I stay with you for any longer than I have to? I've been with you practically attached to you, upon your request, for two weeks and I still have no clue why! I don't know why you wanted me to stay and don't you dare say any of that crap about it just happened that way! No! My flight ended up full, my ticket was somehow not correct, then my flight was full again... Three more times! I know the almighty, great, and powerful Christian Grey did that because for some damn reason you can't say you want me with you! You can't say that you're at least interested or enjoy my company oh no you have to go above and beyond fucking with the airline! I remained a straight A student after a two week hiatus so I know you're behind that too! Are you kidding me? I've never ever demanded anything from you I never questioned you I simply shut my mouth, because if I didn't I got a glare of disapproval or a short line to cut me off, and followed you around like a good dog! I don't give a fuck who you are I'm sick of this! It has been the longest two weeks of my life because of you! I finally get my ass back to Seattle, on your big fancy jet, and now you take me home with you as if I'm some gift? Oh you have really got to be fucking kidding me! I'm going home to my apartment with my best friend and I dare you to stop me!"

I stare into Christian's eyes as my breathing slows and adrenaline leaves. The slight moment of empowerment I felt scurries away as something changes in the air along with his demeanor and stance. He looks more... powerful maybe a little darker especially with the change of his eyes to a darker grey. He moves closers to me until I'm looking straight up and barely have any room to breathe.

All of sudden he picks me up by thighs and holds me up pressing his hips into me then forces my hands down against the cold metal. Every nerve in my body goes up when his lips barely graze over mine. He pulls back slightly and looks in my eyes further bringing me under his spell. The little bit of space he left between us I close up when I press my lips against his igniting a make out session. A slight whimper leaves my lips when Christian holds my hands with one of his and uses the other to roam freely on my body.

Out of nowhere Christian pulls away and whispers, "Does this tell you loud and clear that I'm interested and enjoy your company?"

I feel his manhood rub me in the right place making me only able to nod.

"Good now don't forget it Miss Steele."

Before my mind can process it I'm standing up and the elevator is going up again as if I just imagined everything. The doors open to luggage being taken through a grand room and Tiara sitting on the couch.

"Bout time y'all joined us." She looks back and forth between us and bites her slight smile away, "Christian I didn't know you wore lip gloss." Tiara shakes her head laughing a little as she follows behind the men bringing her stuff in. I look down at my hands to avoid laughing too.

"Taylor!"

He comes from the direction where Tiara went, "Yes Mr. Grey?"

"Would you please take Miss Steele home?"

"Yes sir."

Taylor grabs my bags that conveniently hadn't been put up yet. We get in the elevator and turn around. I wave goodbye to Christian and he gives me a curt nod. He runs his fingers through his hair just as the doors close.

Point of View: Tiara Green

I wake up reluctantly then roll over to get out of the massive bed. I walk to the equally massive bathroom and begin the usual morning routine. I quickly dry my hair and wrap a towel around me when I go back to the bedroom.

Just as I enter, there's a knock at the door and Christian pops his head in. "Good afternoon."

"Same to you and Happy Thanksgiving. When do we need to be out of here?"

"In an hour. Wear something dressy but not too dressy. Wear a dress that should work since it's a hot day. I'll be in the study if you need me."

I nod and he closes the door. I make my way to the closet and grab a large white box with a turquoise ribbon around it. It was one of the gifts given to me for my birthday but I never opened it because I knew whom it was from. There was no card but somehow I could just tell.

I place the box on the bed and tug on the ribbon slowly making it fall apart. I pull off the lid and get nervous when I see the lone card on top of a sheet of turquoise tissue paper that covers the contents. I pick up the nameless card and open it.

I knew you wouldn't want a gift from me and I intended to accept your unspoken wishes but when I saw this I thought of you. Yes I know cliché but it's the truth. As much as I hoped that some miracle would happen where I get to be there to see you open this or see you in it I knew once again that it wouldn't happen. I know certain things happened today and I have to say that I didn't want you to leave... I never want you to leave. This indescribable connection I have towards you will be the end of me I'm sure but I'll enjoy every minute of it if it means I'm with you. If I never get the chance to be with you, platonic or not, I'll cherish the one moment I did get. I'll remember the feel of your body, how warm it is, how you exude natural beauty, how you make me feel as if there is no one else in the world but me and you I'll remember it all. Happy Birthday my sweet Tiara and I hope you enjoy your gift.

-Ian

I put the card down and push back the tears that wish to be shed. With a deep breath I take the tissue paper off to see light blue and an ivory pattern on the left and right side. I pick it up and it falls down to a dress but also reveals in the box matching accessories, purse, and black undergarments. I take it all out and lay the items out on the bed before placing the box on the ground. I drop my towel and begin my transformation.

I knock on the door before walking into Christian's study. He looks up at me then slowly rises out of his chair, "You look beautiful."

"Thank you. You look pretty handsome too."

He smiles slightly before grabbing keys off his desk and walking towards me, "I gave everyone the day off so I'll be driving."

We are soon speeding away in a fancy car to Bellevue. I look out to the passing cars feeling Christian look at me every now and again. "Don't be nervous it's not like this is your first time meeting them. There will be other people there too since my parents love to have gatherings."

"Yeah you're right I just have other stuff on my mind."

"Like what?"

"I'm confused and I miss someone but I can't call them."

"Why is that?"

"I don't have their number."

"Want me to get it for you?"

"No!" I can't help but laugh. "You can't do that to people Christian but thank you anyways."

"You know I would do anything in the world for you right?"

"Yes I do to the point where it scares me."

[x]

Before I have the chance to ring the doorbell the door swings open to a giddy Mia. Is there really any other kind? She pulls me into a rib-crushing hug while squealing in my ear.

"You've grown up so much! Wait I have to look at the outfit." She holds me out at arms length to examine me, "Yes my fashion sense rubbed off on you. You look gorgeous! You look just like..." Her eyes begin to water then she pulls me into an even tighter hug. "I miss him too," She whispers in my ear before composing herself and moving on to crush Christian.

"Christian!"

"Hello to you too Mia."

She finally let's us come in and leads us through some people to Grace and Carrick. "Here they are!"

Grace smiles at Christian then looks at me and places her hand over her heart. "My god... You're so beautiful you're all grown up now." She pulls me into a tight hug that barely ends before Carrick gives me one as well.

"How are you doing Tiara?"

"I'm very good all thanks to your son."

Carrick looks up from me to Christian and smiles at him. "We always knew he was a caring person even if he doesn't show that side too much."

"Well I'm glad to see it everyday. Happy Thanksgiving to you all this is quite the shindig. Where's Elliot?"

"Oh he's around here somewhere. Feel free to explore and mingle even though most of the people here are quite older than you."

"Hmm I'll take you up on that offer. I'll be back I want to go get reacquainted with some memories."

"Don't go too far I don't want you to miss dinner," Grace says and I nod before weaving through the crowd.

I end up outside looking out towards the water. A gentle breeze makes my hair flutter on my shoulders. I close my eyes trying to push down all the emotions that rub against my skin from underneath. The nonstop need and want fueled for one man is torturing me every second of every day. I want to cry and scream from frustration because I can't have the only thing I want. With a deep breath I swallow the lump in my throat. I turn around to go on and get distracted by the many people inside but stop when one stands in front of me.

"I... I was going to say something but I didn't know what."

"What are you doing here?"

"I was invited I came back home for Thanksgiving."

I nod and wrap my arms around myself as we sit in silence. "Did you know-"

"No. I thought maybe you would come to Seattle but I wasn't sure."

I nod again unsure of how to act when in reality I want to be in this man's arms.

"I see you liked your gift." I nod again. "Tiara talk to me."

"What do you want me to say?"

"Anything."

"We shouldn't be standing here Ian anybody could see us."

"I don't care."

"Well I do so I'm going back inside and you can..." I don't even have the strength to push him away. I wipe away the useless tear that has fallen. Ian clenches his jaw and stuffs his hands deep in his pockets I'm sure in an attempt to keep himself from touching me.

"Damn you. You manage to completely throw me off and break me down with just your presence. You're driving me crazy I'm going completely insane without you and there's nothing I can do. Everyday it gets worse everyday day I need you more everyday I want you more every single day the pain in my chest grows. Now you have me standing in probably the most beautiful place in Seattle crying with my family inside. I can't I really can't." I pat the tears away as I walk back inside just as Grace's speech ends and food is served.

"Hey there you are. Ready to eat?"

I look around to avoid Christian's eyes, "Um I'm not too hungry I'll catch dessert."

"You need to eat something Tiara."

"Fine I'll eat a roll and then some pie later on. Really Christian I'm fine I just don't really have an appetite."

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm good now go eat." I feel his eyes look me over before walking away.

[x]

I sit on my bed with my head in my hands trying to relax a little bit but I can't. I know if I try to sleep my mind won't follow suit and I'll end up tossing and turning. As a last resort I grab my purse and head out to Christian's study.

"Christian I need to leave for the night I'll come back in the morning." He raises an eyebrow at me, "Look I'm sorry that this sounds so rude but I'm not asking your permission. I need to take care of this on my own."

"Well then I expect a call or something when you're on your way back, take the R8, you better not wreck it, and be safe." He throws me the keys, completely shocking me, and then goes on with his work. I begin to walk out but turn around. "Oh Christian you should call Ana and invite her over. You miss her." I continue on my way leaving him dumbfounded.

Once I'm sitting in the car I go through my purse for my phone but end up finding a napkin with a number written on it. I hook my phone up to the car and dial the number before driving off.

"Hello?"

"What's your address?"

"1101 32nd Avenue South, Seattle, WA."

"Do you know where Christian lives?"

"Yeah about twenty minutes away."

"Expect me in twenty minutes then."

"Oh... Okay uh well when you get here just park in the driveway and honk so I can open the door for you."

"Okay will do."

I hang up and turn the music up until I feel the bass completely shake me. I have to keep my adrenaline up or I'll end up talking myself out of this. All too soon I pull up to a white house with at least two stories. I round the corner then once again to drive up in the driveway. I gather my thoughts before getting out the car and locking it twice so the horn goes off. I stand at the door for barely a second until it swings open to reveal a shirtless Ian with pajama bottoms that hang deliciously off his hips.

"Hey."

"Hey." Everything in my body tells me to kiss him and hold on to him as if my life depends on it. Probably at this point my life does depend on it because I'm about to lose my sanity. "May I come in?"

"Oh... Yeah c'mon." He moves to the side letting me in before closing the door and locking it. "Christian let you out this late?"

"He didn't have a choice because I didn't give him one."

"Why did you want to see me at midnight?"

"We need to get everything off our chests because this is consuming my thoughts."

"The feeling is mutual. Living or dining room?"

"Living is fine." He leads me through the hallway and motions me to a cream couch that looks as if no one has ever sat on it. I sit down and Ian surprisingly sits on the couch opposite of me. "When did you write that letter?"

"Right after I came back from going after you."

"What?"

"Just as the elevator closed I had reached it. I sat there for a moment contemplating what to do then convinced myself that you probably never wanted to see me again since that was the point of that um interaction."

"Why did you go after me?"

"Didn't the card say it all? I never want you to leave when I'm around you."

"I didn't want to leave you. Even before that day I never really enjoyed leaving you either."

"Then why did you? If you don't leave you push me away with your words so why do you that as well?"

"Because of what I've been saying all along Ian. We can't be together no matter what we want or think we want."

"Oh that's bullshit and you know it. You managed to get away tonight when it would be hard to give an explanation since you don't have friends in town so I'm sure you can do it in San Antonio."

"Yes I can make up excuses but I don't like lying. I don't want to lie to people when they ask where I'm going and with who. I don't want to lie to you by saying this will work. I don't want to lie to myself and think that somewhere you truly want me. Jesus why are we even talking about this I have a boyfriend?"

I begin to get up ready to go but not before Ian says, "Sit down. You came here to finish this and that's what we are going to do because if we don't we will keep going in the same fucking circles so Tiara sit down." I look at him for a moment and realize that even if I wanted to leave he wouldn't let me so I sit back down. "Why are you even thinking about Tyler when you want me more? You already cheated on him there's no going back now."

"Low blow."

"I'm being truthful! You don't want to lie to yourself well you are when you think that somehow you will go on dating Tyler and everything will be the same. You're lying to yourself every time you fall asleep talking to him because you know you'd rather it be me. You know you'd rather fall asleep with me in your bed. If you want to end all of this nonsense you have to be truthful with yourself. I'm being truthful with myself hence why I simply couldn't keep my part of the deal by leaving you alone."

"I am being truthful with myself! You know why can't do this with you. I can't live with myself knowing that at any moment of us being together you could be hauled off for the rest of your life."

"I told you that's my choice. If I want to risk being with you then I will. You can't stop me. Honestly I could be arrested for the things we have already done. Let's not forget the fact that I'm twenty-eight, almost twenty-nine, and I had sex with a newly seventeen year old which is here nor there because you're still a minor. Also do not forget that you are my student I had sex with my student, which could result in me never teaching again as well so the protecting me boat has shipped and sunk Tiara. It's too late to go back and change things I wouldn't even if I had the chance to."

"I would go back and change it because I care about you! I care about you so much that I'm willing not to be with you so that you can remain free and doing what you want. I don't care how frustrated you get with me I'm not changing my mind!" I get up again and so does Ian, "The us being together boat has shipped and sunk Ian. Let it go."

He walks around and grabs me by the arms, "You expect me to let you go after all of this?"

"Yes! You let me go you forget about me I'll even transfer schools if I have to!"

"You can't do anything Tiara! You could go around the world and I would be right there with you! I can't forget you you're all I think about!"

"You have to! Please... You have to." The held in tears slowly begin to trickle down my face, "Just let me go Ian you need to because I can't lose you forever if we get caught. I can barely last the weekend without you. Please let me go. Do it for me… to make me happy."

"I love you damn it! I refuse to let you go before I even get to have you! The quicker you get that through your thick skull the quicker I get to hold you in my arms so let that simple fact sink in deep through your brain." Ian places his hands on each side of my face, "I can't let you go because I love you. It won't go away so I need you to please stop thinking so much and give into what you really want. I'm not letting you go now or ever accept it."

Silence engulfs us for a moment it feels like hours have passed but it's barely been a minute. "We have to be careful," I murmur.

All of a sudden my legs are wrapped around Ian's waist as our lips make up for lost time. We're soon going up the stairs and to his bedroom. I hear the ceiling fan going creating a wonderful contrast to the increased heat of my skin.

"You… bed," I manage to get out between kisses and Ian is quick to obey.

I take off my heels, unzip my dress, and then drop it to the ground only being left in the black lace lingerie. I notice Ian's breathing speed up and I smile, "Tell me what you want me to do."

"Get your ass over here."

I take my sweet time walking over to him then push him back on the bed. I get on top of him and he goes for my hips but I slap his hands away. "Not yet." I kiss his perfect pink lips, that special spot on his neck, down his chest, the muscles of his stomach, and then pull his pants down. Ian's manhood springs up and I brush my fingers over the velvety steel then look up at him. "I know what you want but I'm not going to do it until you tell me. You have to say it Ian."

He practically growls, "Suck until I say stop."

I drag my eyes away from blue and down his body until I reach my new focus point. My tongue twirls around the tip before I fill my mouth to the brim. Ian's fingers are soon deep in my hair as a breath whistles through his clench teeth. I slowly enjoy my favorite type of Popsicle somehow keeping eye contact the whole time.

All of a sudden Ian pulls me off with a pop, "I need to be inside you." I get on my knees making him lean up and rip my panties off. As our mouths become one he grabs my hips, picks me up, and lowers me onto his length. We both let out our incoherent approval. After throwing my bra to the side Ian leans back and admires the view. "Go ahead baby."

With a deep breath I start moving my hips deciding to take my sweet time to enjoy all the pleasure flowing through me. Ian's hand's explore my body as my hands do the same in my hair as I move my hips back and forth. His hands slide down to my hips, "You're torturing me."

Ian flips us over and kisses me as he begins to do all the work. My hands make their way to his back, my new scratching post. My nails sink deep once he finds that spot to make my body completely fall apart. Every part of me trembles as he settles on slow hard deep thrusts as if he has to be as close as possible to me in every way.

"You feel too good," I groan feeling myself coming to my end.

Our lips begin their dance and that's it; my eyes clench together along with the rest of my body before I become lax.

Blue meets brown once again and perfect pink lips part, "The feeling is mutual."

[x]

I feel a light breeze on my shoulders then flip over and open my eyes to see the sun a little bit above the horizon. I get up and the night comes back to me when I feel the soreness of my body. I turn around towards the bed and realize I'm all alone. I start to open a drawer but stop not wanting to invade Ian's privacy. I go to the bathroom and stop again when I realize I don't have a toothbrush. I find mouthwash and settle on that before leaving to explore.

I peek around the corner once downstairs and see Ian making breakfast. Just as I'm about to run back upstairs he looks up at me and smiles, "Good morning beautiful."

I can't help but smile, "Good morning. Um did you need your shirt?"

He raises an eyebrow, "No."

I walk around the corner exposing my lack of clothing and hear his intake of breath. "Can I use it?"

He looks me up and down for a moment, "You're lucky I'm making your breakfast because if not you would already be on the counter."

I feel my face heat up and he takes his shirt off to give to me. I pull it on quick then kiss his cheek, "Thank you kind sir."

Ian pulls me back and plants a world-stopping kiss on my lips, "You're welcome."

Once I regain my balance I finally take the time to look around, "It's surprisingly neat in here."

"I'm not your typical messy man as you can see."

"Do you usually cook for people?"

"By people you mean women that I've been with who didn't leave until morning. Well it truly hasn't been that many 'people' and no I don't. I can't serve my girlfriend breakfast in bed?"

"I mean if you like but I didn't know your girlfriend was here. What's her name? What does she look like? I'm guessing she's a supermodel."

Ian looks at me, "Well excuse me for assuming." He takes one last look at the food then back at me before grabbing my hand and dropping to one knee. "Tiara Alexandria Green will you do me the honor of being my girlfriend? I want you to be the only one I end up cooking for in the morning and if you haven't noticed you are so much more beautiful than any supermodel."

I try to bite back my smile but miserably fail, "I'd love to."

He gets up and kisses me, "Now pancakes or waffles?"

The drama isn't too far away. Review and all that good stuff please and thank you.