That night i was tossing and turning in my bed. I had hoped that my little adventures with Jace would remain undiscovered. We had been so close today! And we had also almost been discovered. That couldnt happen again. I would need to think of another plan.

My brother also had been a little to close for my liking. What was he doing snooping around the gardens? Surely if he knew about Jace he would stop us. He had hinted at seeing someone else but he hadnt said for sure. I was worried. I hadnt stopped to think about the consquences. I hadnt wanted to think of them. Why couldnt i just be left alone? Why couldnt i just be allowed to do what i wanted? Why couldnt i love who i wanted to love?

The next morning i scrawled a note onto a piece of torn parchment. I would have to find a way to get it to Jace. It was killing me that i couldnt meet with him anymore in the same spot. That had been our secret haven. I could have discovered all of lifes secrets there.

I stuffed the note into my bodice. I had to find out where exactly Jace was. I figured i could try near the stables. I opened my chamber door and almost ran into my father. He was standing there silently staring at me. Oh no! Could he possibly know about Jace. He pushed past me and entered the room.

"I dont like this one bit. Why would you move your lodgings Clarissa? Especially way out here?" he asked. I could tell he wasnt happy.

"Just for a new surrounding father. I will miss the castle when i have to leave so i figured i would get started now. Being here makes me feel homesick but every day its easier to get over." i lied effortlessly. He looked at me for a few moments and then looked around.

"If this is where you want to be then fine. How is your betrothed? I havent seen him much around the castle. Last night at dinner he seemed far away. You have been doing what i asked?"

"Yes father, i was thinking of seeing him today." i said simply.

He looked at me to try and detect a lie, and found what he wanted.

"Okay, i shall leave you to it. But make sure that things are okay between you two. Its only a short few weeks before the wedding and we dont want anything messing that up." he said coldly. He gave me one last parting glance and then left my chambers. I was relieved that it was all about Alec and not about Jace.

I exited my chambers and went out onto the grounds. It was beautiful outside. I breathed in the fresh scent of grass. I loved being outdoors. I walked casually towards the animal pens. No one there would think it weird that i was visiting. Everyone in the castle knew i had a thing for animals.

I walked over to the wooden fence and peered over. I couldnt see Jace anywhere. I walked around the perimeter of the fence. I kept a sharp eye out for anyone with golden hair. I was about to give up hope when i seen him near the horses.

Such beautiful beasts horses were. They could carry a man half their weight. I had always loved horses. I pretended to not get excited and strolled nearer. He was bent over fixing a horses shoe. I could see him scraping the gunk out of the hoof. I scared him a little when i got close enough to speak.

"Jace, i dont have much time. I cant be seen talking to you." i whispered, i walked closer to examine the horse. I ripped the note out from my breasts and slipped it to him. I pretended to then scratch the horse behind the ear. I had hoped no wandering eyes had seen me slip the note to him. He looked at me and nodded. The bruise was starting to lighten on his face. He looked as handsome as ever. I felt my groin stir with desire.

"Read the note then destroy it." i murmered. I could see the stable master coming to see who was messing with his stable boy. I said a loud compliment about the horse and turned away. I saw bewilderment in the stable masters gaze. He obviously wondered why i was out in the stable yard. I gave him a regal nod and went back to the castle. I had an appointment with Alec i need to keep if i wanted people to think things were normal.

Jace couldnt believe it. Clary had actually left the castle in search of him. I didnt care what happened to him. I didnt want to see her hurt. My fist curled tight around the little scrap of paper. I stuffed it into my trouser pocket. The stable master was coming close.

"I wonder what the princess wanted." he asked giving me a look.

"She was inquiring over the horses, sire" i lied effortlessly.

He gave me one last hard look and then grunted, "Well finish up there. Theres a lot to do before sundown." I gave him a respectful bow and he went back into the wooden building that served as our quarters. I finished cleaning and repairing the horses shoe. I gave it one last gentle pat and i picked up my tools. I put the tools back in our tool chest, and went to do the other tasks my stable master asked of me.

When at last the day was finally over, i rejoiced. I still had the note in my pocket. It had been too risky looking at it with the stable master so close. I could not risk her like that. I had waited til it was time to end the day. The stable master usually headed to bed early most nights. I ate a quiet supper and then retired for the evening. I needed privacy.

"Master, i am off to bathe some of this muck off me." i shouted at him through the house. I was already out in the yard heading to the small creek that was by our pens. That served as our bathing area. When i reached there, i looked around for any unwanted eyes. I sat down in front of a tree and uncurled the note. It was simple and sweet.

My Jace,

Meet me at my bedroom tonight. Its located along the east side wing. It will be the only one with a candle lit. I can not suffer anymore without you...

Yours forever, Clary

I could almost leap for joy! It had been a wonderful mistake that night he had bumped into her at the celebration. I had not expected to catch a glimpse of the beautiful princess. I had not expected to fall in love with her. She was so beautiful and the way a lady should be. And she created warmth that required no flame.

She stirred in me feelings that i had never known before. With every touch, my mind was blown to pieces. With every kiss, i needed more. She was like a drug. A sweet mind altering drug. I knew the risks of being seen with her. I knew the punishment i faced but i couldnt stay away. I loved her. It was as simple as that, i love her.

I took of all my garments and submerged myself in the cool water. I scrubbed myself the best i could. I didnt own anything nice anymore. The fancy clothes i had, i left for my father. My father would be able to sell them for a good price at the market. I felt at peace, for tonight i would see her. Everything else would fall into place in time.

I crawled out of the lake and shook my hair. I scrubbed the clothes as best as i could. They would not be fit for a princess but i felt that she wouldnt care anyway. She loved me. I could feel it. She kissed me with such passion that i couldnt believe that she was still pure. She felt the same desire for me as i did for her.

Oh god how i wanted her. I had wanted her that first night in the grass. They way she had laughed and her breasts moved with each breath. I almost lost it then. And in the bushes when she had pressed herself against me, i had almost taken her then and there. Each time i felt as if i would combust with all this desire. I want her and i hope to have her.