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I paced anxiously around my chambers. I couldnt stand still. Would he come? Or would he figure it was too risky? I couldnt take this waiting around.

After i had given him the note i had went to see Alec. He had appeared the same as ever when he saw me. I talked of trivial things the entire time. I had to make it seem as if we were normal man and wife. I noticed he had markings on his neck. I didnt inquire over how he had gotten them, or who had given them to him. That was none of my business.

After a short time, i decided it was time to leave. I gave Alec a mock kiss at the door and went back to my lodging. I had been pacing back and forth ever since. I worried about him. I worried that he would get caught. I worried that he would suffer some penalty for risking to see me. I didnt want to see him hurt. But i had to see him!

I had changed out of my dress from earlier and put on a night gown. It was modest but showed a little skin. I wanted him to be excited to see me. I felt that this was the night. This was the night to see all our careful bridges burned down. I didnt want to worry anymore. I didnt want to feel as if our love was bad. Because it wasnt! It was the most beautiful thing in this world. It kept me happy when i felt like crying. How could that be bad?

I paced until i couldnt pace anymore. I sat down in a huff on my bed. Maybe he wasnt coming after all. I looked to the window and seen night had already fallen. He should have been here by now. I was almost to tears when i heard a noise! It sounded as if someone was scrambling up the stone walls. I ran to the window and threw my head out. It was Jace!

After a few seconds of climbing he was standing in my room. I ran to him and threw my arms around him. He hugged me fiercly back. I broke apart, "What took you so long? I didnt think you were coming?"

"I had a little trouble sneaking away from the stable master. Clary i had to come! I cant stand this anymore. I want you. I need you. I love you." he said all at once. I felt overwhelmed. He loved me? But surely i knew that.

"I love you as well, now come here..." i whispered seductively. He responded to my voice and came closer. He kissed my lips with urgency. I kissed him back twice as hard. He wrapped his arms around me. He kissed me until i had to break for air. Then his kisses trailed down my jaw and down my throat. I could feel the heat beginning to rise.

His lips kissed twice above my breasts. I had had enough. I ripped his shirt right of his back. His lean muscles fully displayed. I kissed him hard and ran my hands down his body. I could feel him tightening his muscles to my touch. He pushed me until my knees hit the bed. I let him lay me down. He laid on top of me and continued to kiss me. His hands slowly crept up my nightgown. I blushed deep red but let him have his way. He started rolling the nightgown up until my breasts were free. He looked me in the eye as he took one hard nipple in his mouth.

I cried out softly and watched him continue his trails of desire. He flicked and sucked delicately on each nipple before returning to my lips. I could feel myself getting wet. I wanted him and i wanted him now. I ran my fingers down his back, gently grazing. He arched to my fingernails scratching down his spine. I hooked my fingers and pulled his trousers down. His cock was rigid and hard. I was impressed at the sight of it. How in the world? It looked way to big to fit inside me. He saw my stares and kissed me gently. He could tell i was nevous. I had never been this close to another man before. I reacted instinctively and reached over to take it into my hand. He reacted instantly. He groaned and his cock throbbed hard with need.

I stroked him until he too couldnt stand it. He ripped his pants off and threw them to the side. My nightgown was torn off me and thrown away. We were both so maddened by this insatiable lust. I couldnt wait any longer.

He spread my legs and positioned himself above me. I loved the view i got of his taut muscles. He slowly started to push himself inside and i arched to meet him. He was slow at first. I was shocked at how much it hurt from his initial thrust. He slowly loosened me until his cock fit deliciously. He then thrusted so deep and hard i found myself losing control. I pushed my lips up to meet his and i kissed him with all the passion i had. He slammed inside me, harder and harder each time. I moaned so loud i feared the whole castle could hear me! He moaned and groaned right along with me.

He thrusted one long last thrust and i could feel his warm hot seed spill inside me. We were both out of breath. He laid his head down on my breasts. I felt happy. I felt whole. This was what true love was supposed to feel like. This was how a man and woman made love. I was so weak and tired. I didnt want to move for hours but i knew we didnt have hours. I pushed him and he moved off of me. I managed to roll over and off the bed. I picked my discarded nightgown off the floor and put it on. Jace was struggling into his own clothes. I laughed. He laughed too and i could see the love in his eyes. This was meant to be.

I looked at the sheet in dismay. It was covered in blood. I had now lost my purity. I balled it up and went to the fireplace. I threw it in without a thought of regret. I had given myself to the man i loved. If anyone can condemn me for that, then so be it.

I went back over to Jace and put my arms around him. I leaned up and kissed him. He tightened his grip around me. I could feel his cock harden against my thigh. I didnt have the energy to do it again. And we didnt have the time.

"Next time my love, you must get going. I cant bear the thought of someone finding you where your not supposed to be. Til next time..." i said giving him one long last kiss. He pulled away and looked at me. I could see thousands of emotions running through those eyes. I could gaze into them forever.

He went to the window and climbed back down to the ground. I watched him as he walked away. His form fading into the night. I had never felt this good. I had never felt this alive. Even though he was just here, i missed him just the same. I ran a hand over my body. My body was claimed now. It would not go to Alec. It would not be claimed by Jonathan. It now belonged to Jace.

I smiled and laid carefully in the bed. I was sore in places i had never been before. I had always imagined what love making felt like, but nobody had told me it would be so fantastic. I had never known the pleasure of a man. My body was sensitive to the touch. It wanted more of a mans touch. It would get it. I laid back and i was so tired. My body needed time to recuperate. I closed my eyes and dreamed of my golden haired beauty. He was the last thought i had for that night. I gradually drifted off into the land of dreams. Where Jace and i could be together, forever.