~MIDORIYA~

The day after the USJ attack school was closed. Honestly, it was hard to relax just with the fact an attack happened, but because of what happened with me... I was restless.

My head was spinning and I couldn't think straight. It was like I was having a scrambled conversation with myself, fighting back and forth with opposing thoughts.

I should not have relied on my blood back at the USJ...

But it really was fun, I'm glad I did.

Was it fun... I shouldn't have hurt them that much though...

What else would've made me carry out those actions?

Nothing, that's just it.

Did I really hurt them that badly just for the heck of it? I couldn't have...

But I did, and I loved it.

No... I refuse to believe-

No.

What...?

I said no, so stop it.

What's going on?

Are you dense, or just downright stupid?

You asked yourself if the blood awoke something deep inside you...

However, it was your foolish attempt at rejecting me.

Foolish?

I'm trying to-

Protect everyone? Yeah right...

You already know that no one has ever been able to control their demonic blood by rejection, especially if they're a goody-to-shoes like you.

But what about-

Awe the villains... Villainy is such a great path for our demonic blood-line!

If you would just give in, you could dive headfirst into-

I tried to plug my ears but it didn't help, I can't block something out that comes from my head...

"Would you just stop talking..."

I know you loved that feeling, I can't blame you, no one can...

"No... I didn't..."

Stop lying to yourself!

"But I..."

Look...

I don't understand why you bother trying. The more you fight it, the more pain you'll be in. So, just give in to the addiction.

"N- no... I- I can't..."

I know you want to...

I know you need it...

"Stop, you're wrong!"

All you need to do is let go of the ledge and dive in...

Immerse yourself in the sea of pleasure...

I felt a cold sweat run down my forehead as I tried to block out the voice in my head, "What do you know?! You're not me!"

That's just it...

I know everything about you...

Every thought, every feeling, every want, every need, anything and everything I know...

I fell to my knees, "No... You're wrong..."

Am I? Am I really? Cause I don't think so...

I know you want to feel the pleasure of another's agony...

I know you need it... You're craving it...

Just give in...

"I won't give in... I can't..."

Why not? It's pointless to resist...

"Because I can't let All Might down..."

This is sad...

He'll turn his back on you, and you know it... You've doubted him before, and didn't he just try to hide the truth from you?

"Well... yeah but..."

The same goes for everyone else, they'll all turn on you eventually...

You know I'm right...

You know this is the truth...

"Just stop it..."

How many times are you going to make me repeat your thoughts back to you...

Just let go of that little bit of hope and drown in the pleasure...

You know it's what you want...

If you would just stop resisting, you'd be able to control your blood effortlessly...

Just admit that it's what you want and I'll help you...

Your sanity doesn't have to get torn apart in the end...

Just stop resisting and let me in...

~AT UA~

Eventually, we all were able to come back to class.

But, I just wanted to hide in my room for the most part.

What the heck happened with me yesterday?

It was like I was having a conversation with myself...

I've never felt that way before...

The twisted voice in my head, it was twisted and hypnotic. The way it spoke to me, it's like the words were embedded into me. Repeating over and over in my head after they vanished...

I spaced out most of our classes and lunch was fast approaching, but my head kept swirling with thoughts.

They had to be lying... Messing with my head... and the way I feel...

They had to have been...

It really can't just be me, could it?

I really can't feel that way...

I don't want it...

But...

If I could control my blood, no one would get hurt, right?

What am I thinking!? I must be nuts to even consider it...

But it might be the only way...

The only way...

To protect the ones I love...

I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to trust the voice in my head, but it might be the only option for me.

They only said I had to admit it and stop resisting... But what if that isn't all?

He said, "let me in."

I'm worried about the outcome but...

If you're worried about the actions you might take... Then don't be...

I can tell you for certain... As long as you let the feelings flow throughout your body and mind... and stop resisting, you'll be able to control yourself...

After all, the one time you didn't resist... You were able to control yourself... but the abilities you had, they were only a small sliver of what you could control...

You are a pure-blood...

Didn't it ever come to thought why your kind is so rare? There are special abilities our kind carry... ones that make the Angel's cower...

Bakugou isn't afraid of you just because of what happened that day... There is more to you than you think... Something much more dangerous if you don't have control...

All the other pure-bloods are dead... You are the only one...

You may be alone for now... but the others WILL find you... They'll listen to you... But...

There is one in this school who can make you bend to his will if you're not willing to admit... and allow me to show you... what true control feels like.

If not...

When the time comes... when you two meet in near future... if you fall to his ability... his quirk...

I WILL be waiting to grasp control... and I WILL show you... what I said before was true...

Believe me... I don't with to end up in a grave either...

"Midoriya?" I felt a hand on my shoulder, "It's time for lunch, are you alright?"

I shook my head, "Yeah, I'm fine... Just kinda spaced out."

Iida, Uraraka, and I headed to lunch together but All Might wanted to speak with me so I ended up with him.

I should tell him what's going on...

Ehem... No, no you shouldn't...

Why not?

You know what he'll say... even though I know it'll be safe for you to gain full control rather than trying to force it away...

I don't know...

I guess I'll have to force you out of speaking...

Me and All Might can meet eye to eye for once...

No!

Then stay quiet...

"Young Midoriya, is every alright?" All Might asked me.

"Um... y- yeah..." I shuddered.

"Are you trying to hide something from me?" He asked.

"No... I'm not at-" I couldn't speak anymore.

He looked at me curiously, "What is it?"

"I can't say..." I sighed.

"Midoriya... You can tell me if something is bothering you," He assured me.

"No... I literally cannot say it..." I explained.

"Well..." All Might seemed to be upset by that.

Does he think I'm lying?

I bet you he does... Trusting someone like you must be hard after all...

I placed my hands over my ears without thinking and yelled, "Would you just stop talking!?"

All Might seemed to be taken back by me yelling for no reason, as it appeared to him.

You already know you can't block me out... stop trying too... You look extremely foolish...

"Midoriya, what is it? Tell me," He demanded.

Don't you dare speak a word about this to him...

But I-

Have to... yeah right, you just want to.

"All Might," I paused, "Do you trust me?"

"Yes, you know that..." He told me.

"Then trust that this isn't important... please," I begged him, "For me..."

He seemed upset by what I said, and it was quite obvious he was. He looked at me with disappointment and left the room.

Why...

I already told you... Lies... Lies and false trust...

No one believes you...

Just accept it...

No... Uraraka-

What... you think she trusts you...

You saw what you did to her arm...

Even though she says that it wasn't your fault, you're clearly to blame...

I know I am but...

Stop letting them fill your head with lies...

Everything will be better if you stop believing them...

You know I'm right...

If I make a decision... can I go back?

That is for you to decide... If you choose not to trust them, there may be a way back... But...

If you want to protect everyone... you can't just forfeit control without consequences...

Then...

Yes... go on...

Show me...

Show me what it feels like to be in control... Just for... a small moment... But not now...

If now now, then when...

The time before the UA sports festival... when are able to prepare...

Then it will be done... Just... one thing...

DON'T wear the monitor... You can trust me... there is no need...

But what if I run into All Might? Or anyone else...

Does it really matter, you're doing this to protect everyone...

Yeah... yeah I am...

This is to keep everyone safe...

It doesn't matter what I have to do...

But...

What if I slip up... What happens then...

If you slip up... even if you have control or not... just like at the USJ... I'll be WAITING...