Author's Notes:
I don't own A Certain Scientific Railgun or any of its characters, no copyright is intended.
Italics - Means the person is thinking, just so you know.
Rating for chapter: T
Pairing: Mikoto x Saten
Warning: This contains yuri (girl x girl) pairings. Don't like? Don't read simple, otherwise enjoy. :D
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'Something weird has been going on with Saten lately and I'm not sure why, but for some reason she keeps…avoiding me,' Mikoto thought as she looked over to the younger girl who was sitting opposite from her right now, as she raised her eyebrow towards her, seeing the dark haired girl glance to her slightly, only to sigh a little when her eyes instantly shifted back to looking into another direction once they had caught the elder's gaze.
'Even now as we're sitting opposite each other, she's not looking at me, and if I even try and include her in a conversation she'll shut down, that's all she ever does when I try and talk to her now. So there's no point in trying again, she'll just go completely silent on me no doubt,' the Railgun sighed again, slouching in her seat as she didn't know what to do anymore.
Folding her arms across her chest as she leaned back in her seat, lost in thought over the younger girl's actions, as she still gazed over to her, keeping her brown eyes locked on the young level 0, watching for when she would glance to look back at her, knowing that she will immediately turn away again once their eyes make contact.
'She's been like this for weeks now, saying no to going someplace with us if she knows I'm coming too, coming up with countless excuses of why she can't hang out with us, when really it's all just because I'm going to be there. She won't talk to me, heck she won't even look at me for longer than a second. is she mad at me? And if so why? Just what did I do?'
Mikoto questioned as she tried to go back in her mind, thinking and trying to remember if there was anything that she did which could have caused Saten to act so cold towards her. But as she thought about it there wasn't anything that she could recall that would make the younger girl suddenly not want to have anything to do with her anymore, it's almost as if she just didn't want to be her friend anymore and would try everything and anything to get away from her. The only question was why? Why was she acting like this all of a sudden?
'Well I guess it's something that she at least agreed to come and have lunch with us today, but by my guess Uiharu most probably left out the fact that I was coming along too, so she must have said 'Yes' thinking that I wasn't going to be there most likely. But still she's ignored me all this time like I'm not even here, does she hate me or something?' Mikoto asked herself, before she was then snapped out of her thoughts when her roommate called to her,
"Sissy!"
"Huh? What is it Kuroko?" Mikoto asked now looking to her roommate, while she pushed all her thoughts to the back of her mind, choosing to just not pay them any attention for a moment.
"Are you okay Sissy? You seemed like you were miles away just then," Kuroko stated looking to the elder girl with a slightly concerned expression.
"Plus you haven't spoken much since we all got here, is something the matter Misaka?" Uiharu asked looking a little worried for the older girl as well, while Mikoto just forced a smile.
"Ah no I'm fine really, just thinking I guess,"
Mikoto nervously smiled as she shook her head, being just about able to convince the other two that she was okay right now. Narrowing her eyes a minute later as she looked back to Saten, and noticed that she was gazing out the café window at the moment, now not paying attention to any of them it seemed.
'The other day when Kuroko and I went to meet up with her and Uiharu, she left saying that she had some homework she had forgotten to do, then last week she said she wasn't able to hang out with us at all because of some extra classes she had to take at her school, when in reality both of those times she was just making excuses to not be around me. And I know it's something to with me because if I'm not there she agrees to go, but as soon as my name is mentioned she refuses, saying she's busy and can't make it. Just what is going on with her?' Mikoto wondered as she let another heavy sigh leave her lips, gazing to Saten still, before she cleared her throat and spoke up.
"Saten, can I ask you something?"
"Huh? I…Sure I guess,"
Saten nervously answered as she glanced back to Mikoto for a moment, before turning away again, looking down to the table, but still trying to act like her normal self, hoping that it seemed like there was nothing wrong with her, when Misaka could easily see through her mask.
'She actually answered me, that's surprising,' Mikoto thought as her eyes widened a little, "Do you hate me?" she asked leaning forward now, as she looked to the younger girl with a confident expression, surprised that she had even talked back to her, but she was sure she would get shut down soon enough.
"What? Of course not, what would make you think that Misaka?" Saten asked her nervous smile growing weaker as she obviously didn't want to keep talking to the elder girl right now.
"Then why won't you look at me?" Mikoto shot back, raising her eyebrow again, waiting for the younger girl to answer her, only to get silence in reply from her now.
Saten's lips quivered a little, as her eyes shifted and she struggled to find anything to say, choosing to now look down to her trembling hands, while she stayed silent and didn't speak another word to the elder girl, causing Mikoto to just look slightly annoyed with her now.
'She's completely shut down on me again, is she afraid to talk to me or something?' Mikoto questioned as she continued to stare at the dark haired girl, guessing that she wasn't going to talk to her any longer.
Uiharu and Kuroko looked to the other two with worried expressions, wondering if they should cut in or not, since there seemed to be an awful lot of heavy tension between Saten and Mikoto right now.
"Hey Sissy I'm feeling awfully perched, come on let's go get another drink,"
Kuroko quickly suggested as she grabbed hold of her roommate's arm and pulled her up and away from the table, dragging her off to the juice bar in the corner of the café, deciding to pull the older girl away from the situation before things got any worse.
"Kuroko you just had a drink didn't you, and why do I have to come with you?"
Mikoto asked with a groan, reluctantly following Kuroko, as she was pulled by her arm up to the bar, rolling her eyes as she figured she might as well leave it for now, after all it wasn't like Saten was going to talk to her or anything after she came back to the table.
Looking to Kuroko and Mikoto with a slight smile of relief, Uiharu turned back to her classmate for a moment with a concerned expression, seeing the other girl now looking almost in pain, as she gazed down to her shaking hands and clenched her teeth together.
"Are you okay Saten?" Uiharu asked resting a hand over Saten's, and causing her to snap herself out of her thoughts and look back to her classmate.
"Huh? Yeah I'm fine Uiharu, thanks," Saten smiled slightly to the girl sitting beside her, as she took a deep breath, and calmed herself down.
Uiharu just smiled in return as she squeezed Saten's hand a little and nodded to her, letting go of her a moment later while Saten just sighed deeply, before she glanced over to their two friends standing at the juice bar and looked to the Railgun, feeling her heart beat a little faster as she gazed to the elder girl, and was glad that she was saved from talking to her, kinda wishing that she could just go back to her room right now, instead of being here.
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The next morning Mikoto wasn't all that surprised at the fact that Saten hadn't shown up at the place that they said they were all going to meet up to go shopping together today.
"Where's Saten, didn't she say she was coming today?" Kuroko asked, while Mikoto already knew there was no point in asking, as she knew that Saten would most probably like to be anywhere as long as she wasn't there with her.
"She did, but I got a text from her earlier saying that she doesn't feel too good, so she decided to stay in her room for today," Uiharu explained, feeling a little worried for her classmate as she sighed slightly.
'So she's sick, that's her excuse for today? Obviously she's hiding from me, what happened yesterday must have scared her off, and so now she's saying she's ill and can't make it, so that she doesn't have to worry about the possibility of me trying to talk and get some answers out of her again,' Mikoto thought as she guessed that what Saten had said about her being sick was all just an excuse to not have to be around her again no doubt.
"Oh no, she's not coming down with something is she? She was a little quiet yesterday after all," Kuroko stated sounding worried, as she wondered if what happened between Mikoto and Saten had played a part in the dark haired girl not being able to come out shopping with them all today.
"I hope not, hey Misaka?"
"Hmm?
"Did something happen between you and Saten?" Uiharu asked as she looked to the elder girl, wondering about the same thing as Kuroko was it seemed, as she now raised an eyebrow to the Railgun.
"Why, did she tell you something?" Mikoto asked, wondering if Saten had maybe given Uiharu the answers that she had been looking for.
"No, it's just yesterday, you two seemed so tense around each other, plus there's the fact that you hardly ever talk to her now," Uiharu explained wondering if the two had had a fight or something, that they hadn't told her and Kuroko about, and maybe that was what was making them act so cold towards each other now.
Mikoto sighed deeply as it seemed that Saten hadn't said anything to Uiharu about why she was suddenly acting the way she was either, "To be honest, I'm not sure what it's all about, but for some reason Saten just doesn't seem to want anything to do with me anymore. She won't talk or even look at me for very long, and it seems like she'll do all she can to avoid me at all costs, and be as far away as she can get from me,"
"Don't say that Sissy, I'm sure Saten isn't avoiding you on purpose," Kuroko tried to reassure her roommate, hoping that she could cheer her up a little, Uiharu nodding in agreement as she didn't want to see the Railgun looking so depressed either.
"Yeah well it sure feel like she is," Mikoto sighed before she turned and started to walk away from the other two.
"Wait where are you going Sissy?" Kuroko called to her roommate moving to run after her, but stopping when Mikoto turned back to them with a small smile.
"I just remembered that I forgot something back at the dorms, I'll be back soon you two go on ahead of me," the elder girl replied as she waved to the other two, before turning on her heel and running off.
Uiharu and Kuroko looked to each other as they both sighed, and gazed off into the direction that the elder girl had ran off in with worried expressions, wondering just what was going on with their two friends all of a sudden.
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"Damn it," Mikoto whispered out, as she had stopped to catch her breath now, standing hunched over as she panted a little, before she stood back up straight and looked around her with a heavy sigh.
'Why? Why is she avoiding me like this? Just what did I do to her?' she questioned, feeling like she had to know just why Saten wouldn't talk, look or even want to be around her, wishing that the younger girl would just tell her what was wrong already.
'Maybe I should go round and see her, I doubt I'll get any answers and who knows if she will even let me in and actually agree to talk to me. But I just want to know why she keeps ignoring and avoiding me. I don't care if it turns out that she's mad at me for something, I don't even care if she hates me right now…I just want to this silence to end already…it's killing me,'
Mikoto felt like crying as she could feel a slight pain inside her chest, and bit her lip deciding that standing around here thinking to herself wasn't going to help anything, as she now swallowed slowly and built up all her courage to go to Saten's and try to finally get some answers from her, determined that she wouldn't leave until the younger girl told her the truth this time.
Starting to head in the direction of where Saten lived, Mikoto quickly began to pick up speed as she was certain that she would finally get some answers this time, however as she started to walk faster something suddenly caught her eye, and made her stop in her tracks. Looking over to the thing that had caught her attention and sighed slightly, smiling when she looked out to the grass bank and saw the dark haired girl that had been on her mind so much lately.
Slowly walking up to her as she came and stood beside her, while Saten, not having noticed the elder girl yet continued to sit and stare out into the horizon. Sighing heavily as she shook her head and pulled her knees up hugging them to her chest tightly, as tears welled up in her eyes, biting back slight sobs as she refused to break down and just hung her head low, running a hand through her long black hair as another heavy sigh left her lips.
"Saten?" Mikoto called out in a calm voice, looking down to the younger girl with a slightly concerned expression catching her attention, as Saten turned and looked back up to the elder girl.
"Misaka, what are you doing here?" Saten asked quickly standing up, and wiping her eyes with her arm, pushing all her thoughts and feelings to the back of her mind, while she stood uneasy and tried to stop herself from looking to the other girl.
"Couldn't I ask you the same question?"
Mikoto asked not expecting an answer, and unsurprisingly she didn't get one, all Saten replied back with was silence. Having opened her mouth to speak, but then just bit her lip and stayed quiet a moment later, turning her head away from the elder girl, while she could feel an aching pain in her chest.
'Gone silent on me now? That was fast,' Mikoto sighed slightly, seeming worried for the younger girl, before she shook her head, and decided that she had done enough beating around the bush, and she should just ask the question that she had been wanting to ask for weeks now.
"Saten why are you avoiding me so much?" Mikoto asked, causing Saten's eyes to widen, as she now turned back to the Railgun, but kept her eyes directed away from her's.
"What? I'm not,"
Mikoto just raised an eyebrow to the younger girl, clearly seeing through her act, 'Her voice sounds anxious, plus her eyes still aren't matching mine, she must be nervous right now…wait…is she backing away from me?' Mikoto questioned as she now noticed that Saten had actually started to recoil and step back, almost like she was trying to slowly escape from her.
"Then why are you backing away from me?" Mikoto asked.
"Well you see I think I'm coming down with something, and I just don't want you to catch it, we can't have you getting sick as well now right?" Saten explained after a short pause, smiling to Mikoto as she continued to step back slowly, wanting to create as much distance as possible between her and the Railgun it would seem.
'So she's still going with that sick excuse I see,' Mikoto sighed as she ran a hand through her hair, "I'm tired of this," she whispered out, having clearly had enough of asking and then not getting any answers from the younger girl, so now she was done asking, and she was done trying to go about this calmly.
"Did you say something Misaka?"
Saten asked, not hearing the other girl's whispered tone well, while she was still taking small steps backwards, looking to Mikoto, but her head slowly beginning to turn away as well, looking as if she was about to turn tail and run from this situation.
Mikoto realized that this may have been exactly what the younger girl was planning to do, that was if she allowed her to do so, which she was determined not to let happen right now. Suddenly noticing something Mikoto's eyes widened as she saw slight tears run down Saten's face now.
"Saten, you're crying," Mikoto stated as she slowly stepped towards the younger girl.
"Oh umm…" pausing slightly Saten quickly wiped her eyes, "I must have gotten something in my eye, I'm fine see," she smiled hiding that her eyes were still welling up with tears, and the fact that she was still biting back slight sobs.
Mikoto took a deep breath a moment later, as she quickly walked over to Saten and grabbed both of her wrists, holding them up, before she pushed the younger girl down onto the grass bank, and pinned her arms to the ground either side of where her head now lay. Saten's eyes going wide as she looked back up to Mikoto, seeing the elder girl staring back down to her with a confident, and slightly threatening expression, as she still held onto her wrists tightly.
"Misaka…" Saten whispered as she lay still, not refusing, but also not reacting as she bit her bottom lip and her eyes shifted down to look away from the elder girl.
'She's not resisting me, did me pushing her down surprise her?' Mikoto thought, looking down to Saten with a wondering expression, expecting the younger girl to fight back and try and get away, but instead she seemed to completely surrender to her now.
"I'm tired of you constantly lying to me, just tell me what's going on with you already, and tell me the truth this time," Mikoto looked down to Saten with a demanding stare, letting her know that she wasn't going to take all her lies and excuses anymore.
Not replying Saten just stayed silent, refusing to answer, while she also continued to keep her eyes downcast, and not on the elder girl. Causing Mikoto to become slightly annoyed as she tightened her hold on Saten's wrists and leaned down to her.
"Tell me the truth, or I'll shock it out of you,"
Mikoto warned, threatening to use her ability on Saten if she refused to speak, or answer truthfully. Saten now looked back to Mikoto again, and could see that she wasn't joking about this, as she felt that the elder girl would no doubt shock her if she continued to stay quiet right now.
"What do you want to know?"
Saten asked after a short pause, finally giving in as she sighed slightly, and lay her head back onto the grass bank, not struggling one bit as Mikoto still leaned over her, pinning her down, while the elder girl looked a little surprised for a moment, seeming to be taken aback by the fact that Saten had actually given into her.
Taking a deep breath, Mikoto's expression now softened into a concerned one, while she loosened her tight grip on Saten's wrists a little, "Saten, do you hate me?" she asked, repeating the question that she had asked the younger girl yesterday in the café, wondering if she would get a different answer this time.
"No, I…I could never hate you Misaka," Saten answered in a low voice a slight blush creeping onto her cheeks, as she could feel her heart beating faster from being this close to the elder girl.
"Then are you angry at me or something, and if so what for, did I do something to make you upset?" Mikoto asked trying to stay calm, while she spoke in a slow tone, wanting answers right now, but knowing that scaring Saten and forcing her to talk wasn't how she had wanted any of this to go.
"No, no…it's nothing like that. You…you didn't do anything Misaka," Saten stated her eyes still averting the elder girl's as she bawled her hands into fists, feeling like there was no point to fighting and hiding now, the only option she had was to tell the truth as Mikoto had said.
"Then why are you avoiding me so much? What can't you talk, or even look at me anymore?" Mikoto asked her voice raising a little now, and her grip on Saten's wrists tightening again, as she was beginning to get impatient, and was confused as to why the younger girl didn't want to be around her if she hadn't done anything to make her angry, or caused her to hate her.
"Because I don't feel the same way about you as I once did,"
Saten finally confessed now looking straight at Mikoto, and actually keeping her gaze for longer than a few seconds this time, looking confident and less anxious now, as she knew that she was tired of all the lying as well, and she didn't want to keep hiding what she had really been wanting to say all this time to the Railgun.
"What do you mean?"
Mikoto asked her expression forming into a puzzled one as she really had no idea where Saten was going with what she was saying right now. She could clearly see that Saten wasn't lying to her right now, but kept holding onto her wrists tightly just in case the younger girl decided to try and get away from her once her guard was down.
"Stay still for a moment okay Misaka,"
Saten said, as she reached up slightly not giving the other girl anytime to react or reply to her, as she closed her eyes and lightly pressed her lips to Mikoto's, blushing deeply as she let out a slight sigh into the kiss.
While Mikoto went wide-eyed and stayed as still as a statue, her mind now asking her a million questions as she had no idea how she was meant to react to something like this, but then Saten didn't give her much time to respond, as she broke the light kiss a few moments later.
"Saten?"
Mikoto questioned looking down to the younger girl, not knowing if she should say anything as she felt her heart starting to beat faster, and slight heat beginning to raise upto her cheeks, 'Did Saten just…kiss me?' she questioned her head feeling dizzy from the sudden rush, while she continued to stare down to the younger girl and waited for her to give her some sort of expiation for why she had just done what she did.
"Listen Misaka I'm not exactly sure when it was or why things started to change, but I know that I don't see you as a friend anymore…I see you as so much more now. I know I've been avoiding you for weeks now, but whenever I'm around you my head spins, my heart starts to race, and I feel like I can't breathe. I know it's not right, I know I'm not supposed to have these sort of feelings for you so I've been trying to keep it all hidden, and I thought if I didn't spend as much time with you it wouldn't be as bad…but it's gotten to a point now where I can't talk, or even look at you without wanting to either tell you how I feel, or let my desires do the talking for me and just kiss you instead,"
Saten finally confessed all that she had been feeling for the older girl lately, and why she had been acting the way she had towards her, her eyes welling up with tears as her voice grew lounder, pouring her heart out more and more to the Railgun, all while she was speechless, not knowing what to do or say in return to any of what Saten was telling her right now.
"I know this is wrong, I shouldn't feel this way about you. I shouldn't love you! It's not like you would ever feel the same way about me anyway, I know I should have told you sooner instead of bottling it all up like this, but I…I didn't want to go through the pain of you rejecting me. I just…I didn't want to ruin our friendship like that…I…I couldn't…" Saten trailed off as tears now streamed down her face, and slight sobs started to escape he lips, biting back cries as she broke down right in front of the girl she loved so much.
"Saten…"
Mikoto whispered out her eyes still wide, as she looked down to the weeping girl laying beneath her, letting go of one of her wrists and resting her hand against her cheek, wiping away her tears, as she slowly leaned down, letting her own desires guide her now, as her eyes closed and she closed the small gap between them, letting her mind go blank and feeling her heart racing in her chest.
Gasping into the kiss Saten looked to Mikoto with a wide-eyed stare, her not believing that the elder girl was actually kissing her until she felt Mikoto's tongue licking at her bottom lip, asking her for an entrance, which she soon parted her lips to giving her one. Letting out a small moan as she felt Mikoto's tongue starting to explore her mouth, and play with her own tongue, her eyes now only half-open as she blushed deeply, and could feel her heart pounding in her chest.
Mikoto letting go of Saten's other wrist now, as she slowly moved her hand up and grabbed hold of Saten's own hand holding it tightly, as she interlocked their fingers and deepened their kiss a little more, 'Her lips are so soft,' she thought sucking on the younger girl's tongue, as Saten's slight moans urged her on more. However she soon felt her breath running short, while her and Saten were now both beginning to gasp for air between their deep kisses.
Their loving kiss soon ending as their lips parted, leaving only a single strand of their shared saliva still connecting them. As they both panted heavily, their lungs desperately begging for oxygen as Saten lay blushing deeply, slight tears still running down her cheeks slowly, while she lay not knowing what to say right now, trembling slightly as she felt Mikoto squeeze her hand.
Mikoto blushing just as much as Saten right now, as she rested her forehead against the younger girl's and sighed deeply when she was able to get her breath back, lightly caressing Saten's cheek with the back of her first two fingers, while she waited for the younger girl to recover.
"M-Misaka?" Saten questioned still awfully surprised as she caught her breath, and looked upto Mikoto with a wondering expression, feeling a little anxious for what the older girl might do next.
"Don't go deciding things like that by yourself. I thought…I thought I had done something to make you not want to be around me anymore, I thought…you hated me, and didn't want anything to do with me…" Mikoto started to cry as tears streamed down her cheeks now, and heavy sobs began to escape her lips, wishing that she had known about her own feelings for the younger girl, which were now clearly making themselves known.
"Hey, hey, don't cry," Saten collected herself as she came back to her senses and sat up, taking the older girl into her arms and holding her tightly, as she stroked her short brown hair and rubbed her back in a comforting way.
"I'm sorry Misaka, I should have told you how I felt sooner, instead of just keeping it to myself," Saten stated as she felt Mikoto nodding into her shirt in reply, while she buried her head into Saten's shoulder and griped onto her back tightly.
Saten embracing the older girl, as she waited for her to calm down, and for her tears to stop. Waiting a few more moments, before she heard Mikoto's sobs turn into slight whimpers, quieting down now as she still held onto her tightly.
"So what are we going to do now huh?" Saten asked looking to Mikoto with a caring expression, as she lightly kissed her forehead and wiped her remaining tears away, smiling to her slightly while Mikoto just sighed heavily as she looked back to her.
"I'll talk to Kuroko, it may take some time but I'm sure I can get her to be supportive," Mikoto spoke after a short pause, her voice low and quiet as she rested her head on Saten's shoulder and nuzzled into her neck, still holding onto her tightly, not seeming to want to let go anytime soon.
"She's going to kill me," Saten sighed as she hung her head to the side, and couldn't bear to think about just how Mikoto's roommate would react to her precious 'Sissy' being confessed to, and going out with someone who wasn't her.
"No she won't, because I won't let her," Mikoto stated looked to Saten with a serious expression, as Saten looked surprised for a moment, before she just smiled and brought the older girl into another loving embrace.
"I love you Mikoto," She whispered out, as she continued to rub Mikoto's back and stroke her hair, wondering if the elder girl would reply to her or not.
"I love you too, Ruiko,"
Mikoto replied in a whispered tone, it being so quiet that Saten barely heard it, but she knew she had said it, as she smiled and moved her hand to Mikoto's cheek, cupping it as she pressed her lips to her's again, kissing her deeply.
Mikoto moaning in reply as she kissed Saten back and was glad to finally know what the younger girl's reason was for acting the way she had been towards her, and also for finding out what her own feelings were for her close friend, realizing that she had been falling for Saten all this time and not even knowing it until now.
'No wonder she was on my mind so much,'
Mikoto thought with a slight smile, feeling their kiss deepening as they sat embracing each other lovingly, wanting to never let the other go as their racing hearts beat in sync, and their hands lay on the grass holding onto one another tightly. As their fingers intertwined and a blissful feeling washed over them both, feeling the cool breeze flow around them, while they melted into this perfect moment together.
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I know these two aren't a very popular pairing, however I really like them together. ^_^ And I know I haven't updated this collection of one-shots in a while, but I didn't have any ideas for new chapters sorry.
Thank you for reading. ^_^
Killerchainsaw ;)