To quench this thirst, this ever burning fire thats lodged in my throat begging for release. How long can I fight it? So many days it occupies my mind and fills all my senses, slowly driving me mad. I force the monster back and try so very hard to fight it. It tires and wears me down, breaks all the defenses I build. Its a war I dont think I'll win.

Looking out and watching all my friends, I can't find myself joining them anymore. Days turn into weeks and weeks fade into months, I've tried to fit back into the mould that once held me. Yet it feels like I don't fit into the puzzle anymore,simply an outsider. Them again maybe it's just wanderlust seeping into my bones, that I'm over analysing everything and maybe just maybe it's all my imagination. It might just be me trying to find a justable conclusion for me to vanish.

It confuses me, cause a small part of me also wants to stay, to never abandon my surrogate Home and family. Yet as with the passage of time they'll grow older, age and pass on to the next great adventure leaving me here. Eventually I'll be alone again no one there to name, or to hug my cold dead body like I'm normal still.

"Hey..." I dont turn around to look at the him, he's been coming The last few days. "Look, I'm going to talk and you'll actually listen and you won't give me all your angsty teenager crap, got it Potter". I turn to look at him mustering the coldest glare I could give. "Newsflash Malfoy, I am a teenager and I'll be one for a pretty damn long time. So do forgive my so called angsty crap, if I don't deem it worthy to smile in the presence of the great Malfoy heir" I turn back around "so fuck off Malfoy".

"We'll that's still the most reaction anyone's got out of you, you've been frozen like that not talking or moving. Jeez it's like looking at a statue, and that is no way for an heir to two great houses to be talking."

I'm tired of fighting, of giving it my all. I'm sad and angry and all I wanna do is die, face something else. This eternal hell I call my life is too much now, it's more than I can handle. I hate my freinds and I hate the people around me too. I'm so full of anger I can't think all I want to do is rip someone apart, I see red and no matter how I wish that I could let go of my humanity and let the monster go, I keep hearing Remus's words play in my head stuck on repeat. "Fuck...off" I shout, simply siting here I don't move again, not when he starts shouting at me, nor when he's thrown all the sharp objects he could at me he could. Its better this way, better that I just forget it all, forget the memories, the feelings we shared.

After awhile the scent hits me, like all the school feasts No! It's so much more, like the most sweetest and delicious scent I've ever smelt before, so shocking and so tempting.

Turning around I see where the source of it came from, there.

I see malfoy with a cut hand and the red that flows down his palm is like some sweet ambrosia, taunting me, calling, So much sweeter than any of the blood I've smelt before. Gulping I can't take me eyes off the red as it drips to the floor, its a waste such a waste.

Falling to the ground, "Why? Why are you doing this?...please" My voice comes out sounding so weak. "No, I want you to listen...Harry I didn't go through the crap I did for you to go hide away, fuck why did it have to be you" he says as the tears start falling down his face. " it doesn't have to be...just forget me, there's no way anymore" I say as I try to back away from him and yet so desperately wanting to bite, to suck and drain away all the sweet smelling Liquid.

I hear the footsteps of a few people as they come closer. Please hurry I beg I Don't know how much longer I can take this madness, fight the urge. Sitting bunched in a corner, I try not to look, try not to smell "listen to me, we...we promised we'd finally talk after it was all over. That we could finally give this a try, that we would stop denying what we felt, You said we could fight everyone who didn't agree" he laughs a little " and like a fool I believed we could do it, So why aren't you?" He starts getting closer as the footsteps finally arrive at the door.

Thank you! Thank you! Please someone hurry. Begging in my mind, I hear the doors open. "Stop! What are you doing malfoy!?" I hear Remus shout. A few others gasp at the scene before them. It must look funny, or maybe its more frightening. Me cowering before Draco as he holds a his blood coated hand in front of me.

Draco looks up at them his face morphs into a sneer, "leave us alone, I want...have to talk with potter, we promised to..." He turns to me now "Why aren't you talking anymore, Fuck it all, both my family and the stupid wizarding world. I threw it all away, what was left of it" falling to his knees he looks so defeated. " I...I tired to ignore it, tried to forget you. Shoved all thoughts I had to the back of my mind. Yet they resurfaced evey time I heard your name." He looks at me And smiles a sad brittle thing.

I can't stop it any more the feelings I numbed, I tried to forget to Hide. "Why did you have to come back" I sigh " I would have understood if you left me" I say as I reach out slowly. He smiles " Oh shut up potter", he holds his hand out to me. What my eyes widen "please I want you to drink from me." Turning my head " No I don't trust myself enough..." putting the hand in front of me again "Just let me do this for you" I don't stop myself as I hesitantly open my mouth and latch on to his hand. The burst of flavor in my mouth is like something I've never tried before now. involuntary I moan as its like a symphony is playing in the background, So addictive. Very slowly and so unwillingly I pull away and gently wrap my arms around his neck "I love you Draco" his arms follow suit and I feel them tightly hug me back " I love you too Harry"

Welp there's the next chapter took me awhile to come back to this