Clare and I were sitting on the couch inside her old house, it was like Deja Vu, the best kind. Adam was supposed to be staying with Clare's mother for the night, but in the recent change of event's Clare thought it was best that we picked him up. As we waited for Mrs. Edwards to bring him out I began to become agitated and nervous, I could feel the sweat dripping down my for head. Clare looked over at me, and grabbed my hand to reassure me.

"Eli, it's going to be ok. I promise you, don't worry. He's only five, stop freaking out."

Her words gave me little comfort, and I could feel my blood start to boil. "Clare, what does he know about me? I found the note in his room, and the painting. I need to know this stuff before I see him, and I need to know why. Why did you have to steel five years from me! What did I do to deserve that!" Clare let go of my hand, and her face became twisted with hurt. I got off the couch and walked outside to compose myself, how could I have already yelled at Clare like that? We had only been back together for a few hours, and I was screwing everything up. I sat down on the steps and put my head in my hands, I was ashamed. Part of me thought I should leave, meet Adam another day when I was more calm. In my deep thought I heard the door open, I turned my head around to see Clare, and she had a half smile on her face with her arms crossed. I turned away from her again to face the street, and she came and sat next to me.

"Eli, I'm not going to get scared away. Not by anything." Her tone was light and casual, as if I hadn't even yelled at her.

"How are you not angry? I just went off on you Clare, that's not ok. I'm crazy." My hands began to shake, and I had another Deja Vu moment as Clare clasped her hands over mine to stop the shaking.

"Eli, don't ever say that. Do you hear me? You are not crazy, you are bi polar. It's not your fault." She was looking at me with squinted sad eyes, I hated when she looked at me that way. I never wanted to be someone she had to feel sorry for, or pussy foot around.

"I know that Clare, but it isn't an excuse to go off the handle like that. Not on you, especially not on you. What if Adam had come in at that exact moment? The first thing he would have ever seen of his father was him yelling at his mother, I don't want that for him Clare. I don't. You were right to have kept him away from me." I closed my eyes as a tear ran down my cheek.

"Elijah stop it! Look at me, I know you. You wouldn't normally have an outburst like that for no reason. I know you, and I know that you haven't been taking your pills have you? Tell the truth." Her voice was stern, and her grip on my hands became tighter.

I ashamedly admitted it, "No, I haven't. I was just so stressed out, I thought I was going to have to marry someone I didn't love. You wouldn't answer my calls...I was just stressed out, the pills have been the last thing on my mind Clare."

"See, I knew it. This is just a result of you not taking your medication, as soon as you get back on it everything will be fine. We will be fine." I looked at her and nodded, still unsure. "Eli, what you said really bothered me, I want you to know I didn't keep him from you because I thought you'd be a bad dad, I did it for you. I thought that a child would ruin your chances of your dreams coming true, I just wanted you to be happy."

"Clare you make me happy. You and our son are my dream. That's why I turned down Broadway, they called me when I was running to your house to find you. They wanted to offer me a position as an assistant director on their new play, but it would have taken me away from here. I told them no, and I hung up. That's how much you two mean to me, more than life its self. I hope you know that." I brought Clare into my arms, holding her tighter.

"Eli, you didn't have to."

"Yes, I did. I have one focus now, this family."

Clare took a deep breath, I could feel her relax again. "Are you ready to go back in there?"

"I am, I'm ready to meet my boy." We both stood up walking to the door, but before I could open it Clare grabbed my arm.

"Before we go back in, I think you deserve your answers." I had almost forgot I had even asked questions. "Adam knows he has a father, and he knows his name is Eli. I told him one day we'd see you, that you had a job that took you away from us, which wasn't a complete lie. I gave him your note, I have read it to him every night since he was two. He's even seen pictures of us, he was so excited when we were leaving New York, because I told him we were coming to Toronto to be with you. After things didn't turn out the way I had wanted he became very depressed, and angry. He's almost six, and he's beginning to understand things a lot more. That painting you saw was one of many, I made a mistake by keeping you two apart. He needs you, Eli. We can't wait anymore."

My face dropped in sadness that Adam had been having such issues because of my absence, I wasn't going to let him wonder about me another second longer. "I need him too, I have always needed him. Thank you for telling him who I was Clare, It means everything. I'm ready now, really ready." I opened the door, and Clare called out to her mother.

"Mom send Adam out!"

I immidietley closed the door behind me, and I could hear the sound of little footsteps coming from down the hall. It was the best sound I had ever heard. He rounded the corner jumping into Clare's arms, screaming "Mommy, mommy I missed you!" Clare said she missed him too, and set him down on the couch. He had a huge grin on his face, and a sucker in his mouth. He had black wavy hair like me, and green eyes. His skin was pale like Clare's, but his facial features resembled mine, all the way down to the button nose. I felt like I was staring at tiny version of myself, it was, for a lack of better words, trippy. He was staring at me like he wanted to say something, but wasn't sure he could, and Clare noticing began to speak.

"Adam, you remember the reason we moved baby?" He nodded. "Well this Is Eli, you remember who Eli is right?"

He nodded again, "Daddy." My heart caught in my throat.

"Yes sweetheart, Eli is daddy. "Clare wiped away a tear, and smiled at me. "Eli do you want to say anything?"

I walked to the couch to sit by Adam, I was amazed at this little person. He was made from Clare and I, he was literally a person made up of our love. As I sat down beside him he looked up at me in amazement, still sucking on his sucker.

"Hey, Adam. I know that this may be weird, or make you feel different kind's of feelings, but I want you to know I'm your friend. I'm not here to hurt you, or take your mom away. I'm going to be around though, and I just want to make sure that's ok with you."

Adam looked down at his lap playing with his fingers for a moment before taking his sucker out. "So is your job ober now?" I had to keep from chucking at his speech by biting my lip.

"Yes it's over, son. I want you to know that I'm very sorry my job took so long. I wont ever go on another job like that again, I love you Adam Goldsworthy."

Adam smiled ear to ear, "I know, mommy read me your letter."

I wiped away a tear, "That's right buddy, I have always loved you ok. Since before you were even born."

"Does tis mean you're going to lib wit us now?"

I nodded my head, "Yes sir, we're going to be a family now. Me, you, and your mom. As long as it's ok with you, all we want is for you to be happy." Clare came and sat down on the other side of Adam putting her arm around him.

Adam looked back and forth between us, "Yes I think it is ok daddy." I picked Adam up and sat him on my lap, hugging him tightly for the first time ever. He gave me a kiss on the cheek, "Thanks for coming home from work dad. Me and momma missed you." I hugged him even tighter than before, and I began to cry happy tears. Clare put her arms around both of us, we were a family. I felt like nothing in the world would ever be wrong again, not as long as I had them.

A special thanks to Prisca for not only following all my stories with dedication, but giving me the motivation to keep writing. Prisca I too love Degrassi the way you do, it's been apart of my life for a very long time as well. Don't be sad or depressed though, Degrassi will be back in some sort of form on Netflix in 2016. Sadly Eli and Clare will not be apart of that next chapter, but that is what this site is for. Keep smiling, you're amazing. And I also am a fan of YOU. -Rie 3

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Spinneroxz16- I am glad that you are always waiting for more, but I am sad to inform you I wont be updating after tonight until some time next week. I will be on vacation. Thank you for thinking my story is good. You rock. (:

Copperlight- I hope you are happy, because he did indeed take Clare back.

Eclarelover19- I almost had the wedding actually happen, but the thought of Eli marrying anyone but Clare made my stomach turn. I also of course did not want to disappoint you guy's. ^.^