Adrenalize Me
I'll always be by your side, darling
You're the best thing in my life, darling
I won't tell nothing new, whatever
My heart belongs to you, forever
I can't get enough of you,
You are my drug,
-Drug, Lucky Luke-
"Emma, what is this?" Regina asked cautiously as she entered Emma's apartment, finding it dark and with candles lighting up the dining room. The table had a red table cloth on it and smells of freshly cooked food wafted out from the rarely used kitchen.
"I uh, figured after all that happened, you could use something nice," Emma said as she worked to open the bottle of wine. "And, we've never had a first date so I was hoping to give us one."
Regina melted at those words. "Emma..." she trailed off. "That's so sweet."
It was true. Regina could use some relaxing right now. The fall out with Robin had dragged and while he surprisingly hadn't gone to any news source to tell them about Regina's infidelity, there had been arguing over the house, over their assets, and over what to do next and how to come out to the public about them no longer being together.
She was stressed out, and work hadn't been any easier on her. Emma had wanted to do something nice for Regina after all. And despite all they've been through, they hadn't had a proper date. Just sex. Lots of good sex but still.
Emma wanted them to try something normal. Something plain for now. She poured the wine into the glasses and Regina took off her light jacket and sat down. Emma flicked on the radio on which soft jazz music began to play.
"Did you make this?" Regina asked, looking at the plate of rich pasta and vegetable sides.
"I did. I looked up some recipes and got healthy veggies cuz I know you love stuff like that," Emma said and Regina smiled. Emma had gone out of her way to do something nice for Regina, even cooking for her. It was nice to be cared for and thought about in this way. It had been a while since she'd had a nice home cooked meal that she hadn't made for herself.
Emma looked a bit less confident as she said the next part. "It might not taste that great but uh, I did try this recipe several times and this batch was the best tasting."
Regina let an amused smile quirk up her lips. "I appreciate this Emma. It's very nice."
The two of them sat down to eat, making light conversation. "Robin do anything dumb?"
"No, not yet. I don't think he has it in him to do something so low anyways as to expose me," Regina replied though her voice held an uncertainty to it.
"I sure hope he doesn't. Or else I'll have to handle it."
"Like you did with Lily?" Regina offered playfully.
Emma winced at the memory of this; of how she'd almost fucked everything up for Regina. "Uh, sorry-"
"I'm just teasing," Regina said, gently taking Emma's hand across the table and squeezing it.
"Oh, right," Emma nodded her head and shoveled more pasta into her mouth. "Did you know, Ruby's leaving?" she said, because she wasn't quite sure what they could talk about. She and Regina had never had the chance to actually talk to one another, on things that didn't involve their elicit relationship.
"That girl who was rude to me?" Regina arched up a brow playfully.
"Only because she cares for me," Emma input out of reflex.
"Why is she leaving?"
"She's going back to school so she can finish getting her degree, so that when she gets older, she can fall back on other things rather than her BDSM job."
"That's good for her. It's never too late to get an education. I'm surprised someone as young as her got the position at Unfortunate Souls."
"Ruby was in bad need of money. Ursula gave her a reception job at first, and then when Ruby got older and of age, he offered her an actual job as a mistress. He wouldn't let someone underage work for him."
"And how did you get the job?"
"Same. A need for money. And I was good at beating the shit out of people. Why not do it to those who enjoyed it, and who would pay me for it," Emma shrugged. It seemed their conversation would revolve around BDSM. Not that she minded. It seemed the both of them were comfortable in this topic and not yet sure of how to field onto the other topics that awaited them. Less kinky, topics of course. "How did you get into BDSM? If you don't mind me asking," Emma was curious as to how the mayor had discovered this path.
Regina took a long sip of her wine here, holding Emma in suspense. "I don't mind telling you," she said at last. "But you had better not laugh."
"Why not? Did you get smacked on the bottom as a kid by your parent and develop a taste for it?" Emma said with a half grin.
Regina rolled her eyes at Emma. "No, it wasn't like that. I just don't want you laughing at me because of how similar to Christian Gray's background it sounds."
"The guy from 50 shades of gray?" Emma supplied, even more intrigued by now. She hadn't read the books, but she'd heard about them. They depicted BDSM terribly and not at all realistically.
"Yes. In his back story he had an older woman, a friend of his mother, turn him into this world. It was the same for me," Regina admitted with a small twist of her lips to indicate her discomfort.
Emma didn't laugh. But she did find it amusing. "Really? A friend of your mother made you a sub?"
"Yes. Her name was Mallory and she had a ferocious temper. She liked to use it in the bedroom," Regina said.
Emma wondered how that had even all began. "Did she pursue you first?"
"It was more of a mutual thing. Mallory was bisexual. And I was still young and questioning my sexuality. I had a thing for her and she knew it and decided to make the most of it. She made me into her little sub and we had a lot of fun. It was all new and exciting for me so I eagerly tried it all. And then she broke my heart when she got married and moved away."
"I'm sorry to hear that."
"Don't be. She never treated what we had as a serious relationship. And I'm better off without her manipulating me into what she wanted," Regina concluded with a tinge of bitterness to her voice.
Emma felt bad for bringing this topic up so she tried to switch to something else. Their dinner was almost done and she wanted them to do something else on this date. Since Regina was still too scared to take their relationship out publicly, Emma was going to try her best to make this indoor date amazing. "What movie do you wanna watch?"
"Not 50 shades of gray," Regina retorted teasingly.
"Yea, no risk of that happening," Emma assured. "I rented out a bunch of different choices for us. I even got a history channel movie because I figured you politician types like watching boring things."
Regina scoffed. "I do not watch boring things like that. I enjoy action movies too."
"Sure," Emma wasn't entirely convinced. "Let me just clean the dishes and I'll pop in the most action of action movies ever to exist."
"Actually, Emma..." Regina started, leaning forwards with an intense expression on her face.
"Yea?" Emma asked, her heart suddenly beating loudly. Did Regina want to break up with them? Did she think this wouldn't work? Did she not like Emma the same as did before? All those doubts crowded Emma's mind in the second span after Regina spoke.
"I was thinking we could...have some fun," she cocked her head, her dark eyes glimmering.
"Oh. Oh!" Emma said when she got it. Her mouth went dry and her insides churned. "I didn't want to assume. It's only our first date. I wanted us to be casual. Without the whips for one night."
Regina shook her head, her dark curls bouncing around her shoulders. Her hair had gotten even longer recently, and Emma liked it. It made the mayor look softer. And it provided a great grip to pull on during sex.
"I want us to be together. Without all the play," Regina said earnestly. "I just want you."
Emma's insides quivered and melted at this all at once. "Okay," she said in a hoarse voice. "You can have me. All of me."
Regina rose quietly from the table and took Emma's hand in hers, drawing the blonde near to her body. Their lips parted as they kissed gently, just the press of lips on lips and nothing more for a long time.
The soft jazz music continued to play as their arms wrapped around their waists and rested there, the kiss drawing on for so long that when they pulled apart, they had to blink their eyes and remember where they were. Without words, Emma took Regina to the bedroom, and locked the door behind them.
Regina didn't waste any time. She began to pull off her suit jacket and unbutton her shirt. Emma did the same, till before long they were standing naked in front of each other. "This is the first I am seeing all of you," Regina whispered, reverence in her voice as she took in with hungry eyes every inch of Emma. From the slender but strong frame, to the slight hint of abs, to the white lines where she had scars from her adventures as a child. "And this will be the first time I can have all of you," Regina finished as her eyes flicked up to Emma's, the expression in them going straight to Emma's core. Emma shuddered.
She couldn't wait any longer. She lunged at Regina, lips first, their warm naked skin touching as they crashed down onto the bed. Hands roamed everywhere, grabbing flesh in fistfuls. Nails scrapped over sensitive skin. Their lips were ravenous, pillaging and plundering every ounce of passion from their mouths. They couldn't bother to be quiet, not when there was so much desire between them.
They rolled over on the sheets, Emma allowing Regina to come out on top. The mayor straddled Emma's hips, brushing some hair out of the way. She looked down at Emma, chest heaving with barely restrained emotion. There was love in her eyes and Emma wondered how she had never seen it before. All this affection that Regina carried for her.
Emma must have been really oblivious. Perhaps she should thank Zelena for pushing and pushing until they got here. Right now, Emma was going to focus all her energies on Regina and satisfying her. "You can be in control tonight," Emma spoke, relinquishing her armor. Letting Regina get underneath it. Her hands traced patterns up Regina's hips, feeling the warm skin rise with goosebumps at the touch. "You punish me or pleasure me."
Regina sucked in a breath, over come with this. "Fuck, Emma," she closed her eyes, tried to regain control of herself. When she opened them, they were all black and she leaned down to kiss Emma hard. Because giving up control was Emma's way of saying she loved Regina. That she wanted to be with her. That she trusted her enough to let down her walls. And Regina knew this. Because she too had walls, walls that she was crumbling down for Emma and for their newfound love.
They kissed like that for a long time. Deep, passionate and in an unhurried manner. Regina was intent on taking Emma the way she had longed for for the longest time. Slowly she lowered her body down over Emma's, hearing the pounding heart beat of her lover. Regina paused to pay attention to Emma's stiff nipples, laving them and biting gently down on them. Emma let out a wavering breath, hands twitching with the urge to push Regina's head down. But to hurry would be to ruin this moment between them, so she gripped the sheets instead, opening her legs wider.
Regina nibbled on the jutting hip bones, nails biting down into soft thigh flesh and peeling sticky legs apart. Teasingly slow, she pressed a kiss to Emma's soaked folds, nearly making the woman above her scream with impatience and pleasure. "Regina," Emma groaned out instead, biting down on her bottom lip. Regina chuckled into the folds, before dipping her tongue in and taking her time. She caressed, she sucked, she licked, all in such a toe curling manner that soon Emma was quivering above her, sweat beading down her back from the effort of the orgasm being built up.
And then, Regina bit down lightly on Emma's clit and blonde woman was screaming, jerking above her and cumming hard. Emma had never ever cum this hard before. It was such an out of world experience. Letting Regina even touch her freely like this, was amazing too. For too long Emma had restrained herself from being loved, from being touched and cherished, but Regina showed her, that despite all their harsh plays and harsh moments, Regina cared for her. When Emma could finally see, Regina hadn't pulled up from her thighs, instead sitting there and waiting for Emma to calm down, before without any preamble, shoving two fingers into her warm cunt.
Emma moaned at the motion, so sensitive. Her hips bucked up as Regina held one down, using the full force of her arm to penetrate Emma. "Shit. Fuck," Emma gasped out, loving how rough this now was. The soft moment had passed and neither of their hungers could be contained now. Emma pulled Regina's face to hers and began hard core making out with her while she humped Regina's hand with no grace. It wasn't long before Emma was coming again, this time Regina's mouth swallowing her moans.
And then, before Emma could even fully recover, she was pushing Regina to the sheets, sliding a thigh in between hers. Regina was soaked and she let out a happy whimper when Emma began grinding her thigh against her core. The brunette's hands latched onto Emma's hips, pulling her into her harder. "Rutting away like an animal. God, you are so filthy," Emma chuckled lowly into Regina's ear. She couldn't help it. Regina was hot as hell and it made Emma want to whisper dirty things into her ear all night long. As well as do said dirty things.
"Emma..." Regina groaned out, working her hips even harder to reach that fever pitch.
"But I don't mind. I'd keep fucking you all day and night long if I could," Emma confessed, sucking hard on Regina's pulse point, hard enough to bruise. Regina's breath hitched in the back of her throat and she came quickly, clamping her thighs around Emma's now soaked one. Tremors went through Regina's body, but Emma wasn't going to let her rest. Not yet.
During their play sessions, Emma had always had the joys of being able to tune Regina's body like an instrument. But she could never do it with the true care and want that lived inside her body, because it was only ever just a job. Now it wasn't. Now, Emma could give all of herself in the moment. She crawled down Regina's body, eager to taste her again. Emma had only done it once, because when in play it denoted that the mistress was relenting power if not done correctly. But, this wasn't play anymore. This was real.
This was their relationship.
"Ah, fuck," Regina gasped out when Emma flicked her tongue against the mayor's sensitive clit. But Emma wasn't going to go slow. She wanted to devour Regina. All of her. Her tongue danced wicked circles around Regina's clit, spreading her folds, dipping inside teasingly. Regina could not stay still above Emma. Or silent. Even though she tried. She stuffed her fist into her mouth to try and stem the desperate noises coming from her lips.
Emma just pressed in harder, hands holding down the brunette's hips. And then, she slid two fingers inside, it so wet and warm there. She curled them upwards and Regina was coming so hard her back arched up from the bed sheets. She was panting like she'd run a marathon while Emma softly licked up the remaining juices before coming back up. They sat on their haunches now, just looking at each other.
It was a while before they spoke, both trying to get over the rip roaring orgasms they'd given each other. "Your hair is a mess," Regina commented at last in a husky deep voice.
"And whose fault is that?" Emma teased, though she did run a hand through it to smooth it back. "Your hair still looks fine." And it did, a bit messy, but falling into place already. "I think I may have to adjust that."
Regina's eyes flashed at this and she was already reaching out for Emma. "I think you may," she said softly and then they were falling into each other once more.
Emma met up with Zelena over the weekend so the two of them could go shopping. Emma didn't need any shopping to be done, but Zelena had insisted she needed a buddy to help her pick out new dish towels.
That was about the most boring thing Emma could think of to do on a beautiful spring Saturday, but also, it was Zelena, so she'd probably make it interesting. They met up in a small mall outside of town, Zelena having already reduced a Bed, Bath and Beyond staff member into tears for carrying softer towels.
"If I wanted my skin scrapped off each time I wiped, I'd use bloody sandpaper!"
"Don't traumatize him, please," Emma begged, knowing it was too late anyways as the teen boy ran away, holding back his tears. "He's only in high school."
"Not my fault this younger generation is dumb. Just tell me when you have kids you'll raise them right."
Emma nearly choked on her saliva. "Zelena, I'm gay. Making kids involves a man. Men are what I'm not attracted to."
"If you really wanted a kid, that wouldn't stop you. There are other methods," she waved her hand dismissively. "I digress. What have you been up to? And don't lie, because I probably already know and will skin you for holding back the truth."
"If you know then why ask me to tell you?" Emma rolled her eyes. Zelena probably already knew about her and Regina, since Zelena did live with Regina and their secret relationship could have slipped out one way or the other.
"Regina and I are dating," Emma said, in a lower toned of voice, conscious to be respectful so no one else could over hear.
"Bloody hell! Finally!" Zelena exclaimed loudly. "The two of you were taking so long I thought my bloody ovaries were going to dry up from the lack of progress between the two of you."
Emma grimaced at the description. "Yea, well, we can't all be so freely expressive of our love."
"I'm just glad you told me. You know, I had my suspicions. Regina was acting all different and then I heard from her that she and Robin broke up and I knew things were going right on track. That's why I threatened Robin. Told him if he ever breathed a word of this to anyone, I would choke him with his own bollocks," she expressed.
Now Robin not saying anything certainly made a lot more sense. If Zelena could scare off Gold, then she could scare off pretty much anyone.
"Thank you for that, by the way," Emma said whole heartedly. "I'm sure Regina would have even more shit to deal with."
"It was no issue, really. My sister already is making huge strides by coming out. I want it be less stressful for her, not more. So I took care of extraneous other factors for her."
"And how are things with you and Mulan?" Emma asked.
"Good. We may be moving out soon."
This was shocking. "Really?" Emma's eyes opened wide. "Where?"
"Back to England. I've got my shop to tend to- I've left it off by itself for far too long. And Mulan has always wanted to travel."
"So is she quitting Unfortunate Souls?"
"Probably. Seeing as she's moving in with me for the time being."
Wow. Everything was changing so rapidly. So many girls leaving Ursula's place. He couldn't be happy to be losing several of his best doms at the same time. Because Emma too was thinking of quitting the trade. Why should she continue, when she had Regina? When all she could ever want to do was dom her and only her for the rest of her days?
Still, Emma hadn't quit yet, only because Regina's term wasn't done and they hadn't finalized their own move. That's right. They were moving out of Storybrooke and going to pursue Regina's true dream, leaving the political circus behind. As well as Regina's nasty mother. Speaking of which, Regina still had to tell her about her relationship and subsequent quitting of the political sphere.
That probably wouldn't go over well and something told Emma, not even Zelena would be able to manage the storm that came out from that.
"Also, I came here to say something to you," Emma started up, a bit nervous to bring this up. She shouldn't be, when there were no stakes.
Zelena turned to Emma, waiting expectantly.
"Thank you. I know you and I didn't see eye to eye on how to deal with this whole situation I have with Regina, but in the end, you pushed and pushed and got us together. So, thank you," Emma said earnestly.
Zelena snorted at this. "Is that all I get? A thank you? No, meal or here 'let me buy you a car for your fucking help'?"
"If I could afford a car, I wouldn't buy one for you first," Emma shot back, knowing Zelena was messing with her.
The red haired woman smiled. "I just want my sister to be happy. God knows she's suffered enough at our mother's hands for too long."
Unfortunate Souls was closed for the day. The reason being Ruby's going away party. Ursula had outdone himself in setting up something for Ruby and for Mulan, who also resigned about the same time. The place was decked out in neon lights. There was a lot of booze to go around and there was a whole buffet table at the back.
"Damn, you're really trying to put me out of business, aren't you?" he said, though he wiped away at a tear coming from his eye.
"I'll come back when I finish getting my degree," Ruby assured, though she too looked close to tears. Ursula had given her a job, taken her in when she was penniless and young and naive. He was like a parent figure to her. "And I'll call you and ask how everything is doing. Because I'll miss you."
Emma felt her own self go misty eyed at this. She was going to miss Ruby too, but she was proud of the girl for finally grasping life by the tits and going on to get that degree. This scene also reminded Emma that she would have to put Ursula through losing another valuable worker.
Mulan stood next to Emma, red solo cup in hand. "Ugh, I hate teary good byes. When Ursula comes looking for me, just tell him I left already."
"Mulan, you can't run away from your problems. It didn't work with Zelena and it won't work with Ursula," Emma said, taking a sip of her drink so she could blame her glassy eyes on the burn of the drink and not her feeling sad.
"Yea, but Zelena's crazy. Ursula's not."
Emma arched a brow at that.
"Okay, okay, but less crazy than my future wife."
"I still can't believe the two of you are getting married and moving all the way to England!" Emma exclaimed. "I'm going to miss the both of you."
"Don't worry, Zelena won't let you miss her for long. I already know she's got plans to make chaos in your life." Mulan chuckled a bit at this, which could not bond well for Emma. "She told me you and Regina got together," at this Mulan lowered her voice, careful that others did not hear about the private relationship. "And that she's coming to plan the wedding."
"Oh hell no," Emma cried out, already tasting the disaster waiting to happen. "She's not coming within fifty meters of my wedding!"
"Ah, but you want to marry Regina," Mulan smiled.
"Uh, I guess. I didn't really think about it. We're still in that unsure stage. Regina's going to have to deal with a lot when she finally comes out publicly or to her mother. And I'm not pushing her. Right now I'm just trying to focus on us keeping it all down low until she's ready and then we can make out big move."
Mulan wants to comment on this but she closes her mouth and ducks out of the way because Ursula has finished hugging and squeezing Ruby and is now running after Mulan to do the same. "You can't outrun me!" Ursula crowed out, chasing Mulan down the hall.
Some things would never change.
A/N: Fun little note- the chapters start with 'Swan' but as the story progresses and Emma's relationship with Regina changes, they begin to start with 'Emma' to denote this changing dynamic and how their relationship is now more intimate.