When I awake the next day, I'm on the floor beside the bed because I didn't want to sleep on that bed. I comb my hair and I get dressed, pulling out a simple blue dress from my early 20s, when I met Alexander. I go down the stairs, and my 4 children are all sitting eating breakfast with Alexander. Alexander Jr. and James are much too young to know what is going on, but Angie and Phillip need to know exactly what is going on. I clear my throat which gets Alexander's attention. I point to living room that was disconnected from the kitchen. He said something lightly to the children and went in. I closed the door so the kids couldn't hear what we are saying.

"What are we going to about Alex Jr. and James, who are much too young to know about what is going on with us."

"Well Phillip already knows part of it. Thanks to me. We need to tell Angie."

"Okay, so what about James and Alexander Jr. We have to tell them a duller version or something, right? And we have to tell Angie and Phillip the proper version."

"I have a plan, I take Alexander Jr. and James upstairs to lay down for a nap. When I come back, we will tell Phillip and Angie what is going on minus me having sex with Maria for a year."

"Alexander…for a full year."

"Not the point, my dearest, Eliza." He says, getting to the point

"Alexander…" I warn through gritted teeth.

"Okay, sorry."

We walk out together, standing what feels like a mile apart, and Alex picks up James and Alexander Jr to take upstairs. I sit down and make small talk with the 2 oldest, asking them how school is going and if they are learning anything shocking. As soon as Alexander sits down, I begin to talk, "Angie, Phillip, we have things we want to talk to you about, okay?"

"This is very important so we need you to pay attention, and if you want to ask questions go ahead." Alexander says.

"So, lately, your Father and I have hit a rough patch in our marriage, all 12 years of it."

"Eliza…" He warns me with his eyes .

"See your Father decided to help someone out, a woman."

"And I got a little carried away."

"Huh a little?" I questioned.

"Not now Eliza." He said through gritted teeth.

"He got really carried away and he kissed this other woman, so your Father and I need to work it out. You will be going to Aunt Angelica's either later today or tomorrow, so pack your clothes up so you can leave with her if she comes today."

They nod and walk off to go pack their clothes up.

"Real smooth, Eliza. No our children think I'm a scoundrel."

"You and your stupid pride. Your worried that your kids are going to tell anyone else. You already told the whole country with that stupid pamphlet."

"Stupid pamphlet?"

"Yeah, stupid. Also, 95 pages worth of your freaking affair is tough to read through, especially when it's about your husband's affair."

"Go help your children pack, Eliza." He orders.

"Shut up, Alexander, or we won't be talking. I will be kicking you out." I threaten, "Then your pride will be ruined for good, or maybe you can go live with Maria Reynolds, I'm sure she'd let you stay after what you did to her."

"Eliza, I don't think you understand the situation, I stopped it because I realized she is not what I wanted."

"Go help Phillip pack, silently." I say, "As in keep your mouth shut or you won't have lips to talk."

I go upstairs and start to pack Alex Jr's clothes with a few task he might want to complete while he is with Angelica. As I pull clothes off of the wooden hangers, I hear Alexander talking to Philip.

"...I love your mother, but I got carried away. As long as you don't make the same mistakes as me you will be fine… Obey Aunt Angelica, I'm going to go pack James's things up for your Mother." He gave him so useful advice for once.

I finish packing up Alexander Jr's stuff and set it outside his door. I tell Philip to do the same when I go by to Angie's room. I look at what she has pulled out on the bed. She has a blue dress, much like mine, a red dress, a bright yellow dress, a light pink dress, a green dress, and a light blue nightgown picked out for her stay with her aunt. I approve of what she picked out and nod. She knows she can pack it all up. I go into James's room one door down, where Alexander is picking out shirts and pants. I walk over and say, "These brown pants go good with his blue and green shirts. His gray ones go good with his white and dark blue shirts, and he has four vest that go over each of these, He know which are which and who they belong to." I say and walk out. I go down stairs and sit down for a few minutes. At that moment, I hear someone knock on the door.

When I open the door, my sister stands, "I came as soon as I heard."

"Angelica!" Alexander says. He runs down the stairs eager to see her, "Thank God someone who understands what I'm struggling to do."

"I'm not here for you." She tell him, "I know my sister like I know my own mind, you'd never find anyone as trusting or as kind, but what we had aside from standing at her side, I hope your satisfied. God, I hope your satisfied."

I clear my throat. "Great job Angelica for scaring the crap out of Alexander, Let me get the kids to get their bags so you can go and I sort this out with him." I walk to the stairs and yell, "Children, Aunt Angelica is here, grab your bags and let's go."

I walk back to Angelica, " I missed you."

"I missed you too, Eliza."

"Thank you for doing this," I smile, "I need to talk to him, and I don't want the kids to know, so you're being a big help."

"Of course!" At that moment the kids come down stairs.

"Aunt Angelica!" They scream and run to give her a hug.

"Alright kids, everyone has their bags?" They nod, "Good, then onward to the carriage." Angelica directs.

"Thanks again, Angelica."

"Of course, Eliza. Bye, I love you!" She screams walking to the carriage.

"Bye, Love you too!" I yell back. And the carriage drives off.

I turn and look back at Alexander, "Now I have a few questions for you."

He sits at the table and says, "Of course."

"Why did you do it? Was I not…" I pause tears starting to make the journey down my cheeks, before I get ten words out. I look down the corset I wear, not much there to love. He nods, encouraging me to go on, "Was I not desirable? Am I not desirable to you anymore? Do you not want me anymore?" My tears keep flowing, and I don't think they will ever stop now.

"Oh no, Betsey, no. It's not your fault. All I can think about is you."

I sniff, "Then why did you do it? If it not my fault, then why did you do it?"

"I don't know, Betsey, I don't know, but you are all I can think of, okay."

"If you promised to love and never betray me, then why did you do it, Alexander, why?" I sniffled more and he didn't respond.

"Why did you do it Alexander Hamilton? Why did you burden you wife and kids with this? Why did you do it?"

"I did it because I needed to feel something. You have always been desirable, but men always want something more. Okay."

I stop everything. I feel everything tense up, and I fall to the floor. All I can think is The pills finally worked.

AN: So, this is longer than usual, but longer the better! Hope yall liked it!