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I post the second chapter so soon because the first was really short, but I don't think I will can to post at that rhythm. Hope you like it, don't hesitate to tell me what you think about it!
I'm sorry but i didn't found a beta yet, so excuse my mistakes please.
Important: 1- Unfortunately, you can't strike a word on ffnet, and I really wanted to make the text seem like a reel journal so the word written like 'that' are strike by Lily.
2- I forgot to mentione it in the first chapter but the timeline in Harry Potter had been changed to match the Supernatural's one.
She violently shook her head, trying to convince herself that she didn't read correctly. She must have been wrong; her mother can't have done that! Before she knew it, she was pacing on the floor of the vault, trying to find excuses to her mother. And why she wanted her to see that? Did she have wanted Harry to know that she cheated on her father?!
She froze as a thought come to her troubled mind. No… That can't be… She calculated quickly the months between November '98 and July '99 and raised her hand to cover her mouth when she counted nine months.
How that can even be possible?!
Reading that journal now was the last thing she wanted to do, but she needed to know. She grabbed the book, who was on the floor where she dropped it, and turned the page to read the next entry. Her fathe— No, James name was in the first line, and she hurried to read it.
16 November '98
I floo'ed James today. Talked to him about my one-night-not-one-night stand, and that prat laughed so much I think he would have killed himself if I didn't stop him. Said that he would die to see the face of everyone if they heard about that.
I had to remember him that everyone thinks that we're dating to prevent him from spilling the beans. I mean Idon't care if people know about that, if I let people think we're a couple it's only to protect his closet secret, but I won't be seen like a cheating 'bitch' girlfriend.
But yeah, that's idiotic best friend of mine was sad that he was forced to keep his mouth shut about my "dirty little secret".
Dean called. We have a date. Tonight. 'I'm so nervous.' 'No, I'm good.' No, I'm so not good! What will I wear? Oh, Merlin! Where's Alice! Why she spends so much time to grab her make-up? Her room is ne—
That was so perfect, I don't know why I was so nervous. He was so… everything.
Harry was sure, if a Goblin opened her vault right now, he will have a hard time trying to understand what she was thinking and feeling. That was a strange mixture of incredulity (Was she really implying that James was gay?) relief (Lily wasn't a cheating wife if her and James weren't really dating.) curiosity (Why did everyone think that she's James' daughter?) and hope (If that Dean is really her father and if he is alive…).
She knew that she wouldn't be able to think correctly until all that mess was clear to her, so she found an armchair that seemed comfy and resumed her reading.
17 November '98
I met Sam today, that's Dean little brother. He was surprised that Dean wanted us to meet. I understand, I mean, we know each other for like three days. But he was a lovely kid. (He would kill me if he read that, because he's a proud "fifteen years old teenager!")
When Dean let us alone to order our food, he says that his brother seemed to like me. I mean, he is his brother so… He must know, right?
I think Sam liked me, and Dean was happy of that, but… I heard them talking when I left to the bathroom. Sam says that their dad could call anytime soon, and Dean will have to leave me behind.
I know that, and he knows that I will be back home the 25, but the resignation in Dean's voice when he answered dropped something heavy in my stomach. That made me wonder if growing any closer with him is a good idea…
Now that Harry knew that it wasn't a secret affair, she could see how sad it could be for them, knowing that their story will end and that they couldn't do anything to stop that.
23/11/98
He left. Yesterday. I knew that was coming 'but not that it'll hurt so much!' Who I'm trying to fool? I knew that it will hurt since the moment I said yes to see him again.
His dad called him yesterday, he apparently found a job across the country and wanted the boys to join him. I was with them when he called, and when I see Dean's face, I understood who it was. Sam too, because he picked up his things and put them in a duffle bag. When Dean cut his phone, Sam said that he will go buy food for the road, but we all knew that it was an excuse to let us alone.
I'm so glad that he did. That allowed us to really say goodbye to each other. Dean offered me a necklace with a pentagram engraved on the round silver charm. He said that it was a protection in some belief, and he wanted me to remember him and Sammy. How could I forget them?
When he picked me up in that bar a week ago, I didn't think I will end up 'heartbroken' in love.
Oh, Merlin, I'm in love with Dean Winchester, a man that I will probably never see again.
Without her consent Harry felt her eyes become watery. That's it? That how the story end? Did they see each other again before the fatal night of Halloween '99? That couldn't be the end of it!
26 November '98
It's so hard to be among the others in the HQ of the Order and make like everything is fine. James was so comprehensive; he even asks me if I wanted to "break up" with him to explain my bad mood. But I said no, I prefer people who don't know that I'm sad, that people who ask millions question and try to "help" me.
And I would rather die than listen to Molly Weasley says that if I locked him with a wedding or a kid James wouldn't have leaving me.
Alice and James are the only one who know about my heartache, and I prefer it that way. Even if I thought that Molly wonder if James and I have "an argument".
She couldn't help the humorless laugh that escapes her lips, Molly hadn't changed. At all.
18/01/99
Oh Merlin. Oh God. I'm waiting for James; he will go with me at St Mungo. I'm so fucked. I'm so nervous. I'm not sure wat I want the Healer to tell me… My brain wants a negative result but my heart, oh my god. My heart would do anything for a positive.
She knew what test Lily was talking about, and a little smile come to her lips at the proof that, even without her father, her mum wanted her.
22 January '99
Take me little time to settle things. Oh Merlin. Positive. I'll be a mother. I'm so happy, my heart can't stop beating too hard.
The fact that I didn't have a way to reach Dean is the only downside. And with Voldemort out there, I…
I talked with James and Alice; they both think that we should tell people the baby is James'. That hurt me so much, saying that the beautiful little human that's growing inside me is from another man than him but… I know it's necessary until the end of the war.
"Until the end of the war." Her heart hurt at the thought that Lily never saw the end of the war.
25 January '99
James proposed me. I mean, not really, he's still as gay as Bert and Ernie, but he wants us to get married, at least until the end of the war.
He said that he wanted to be sure that if anything happened to him, I will not get in trouble. He wants the baby to be a Potter as well. "I will never have an heir so…" he said.
I love him so much, he's like a brother to me. Without him I don't think… I'm so glad we grow closer in seventh year… Even if that led everyone to think that we were dating!
She giggled at the comment about Bert and Ernie. Sesame street wasn't a show approved by Petunia and Vernon Dursley. Until Dudley saw it at his American friend's place, when they were seven, and cried for days for his parents to let him watch it. For three months that was the only thing that Dudley will watch.
She remembered the day she got locked in her cupboard because she asked if Bert and Ernie were a couple. Honestly, the outraged face of Vernon and Petunia at the simple thought, that was totally worth it.
5 March '99
So… I'm a married woman. Merlin, no offense to James but I'm so eager to get divorced!
People seem to think that James and I get married in a hurry because of my little miracle. Well in a way…
James insisted on inviting the Order to the wedding. So, I had to put with Molly's proud eyes all night (she whispered me "with a kid you get the ring" when she hugged me, for Merlin's sake!) but… Yeah, that was a good moment with (almost) all the people I loved.
Even if the groom wasn't who I wanted him to be, and the bride wasn't who he wanted him to be.
Her heart ached as she turns the pages.
25 March '99
I finished the nursery today. That was a beautiful day. This morning the Healer told me that the baby was healthy, and in the afternoon, I finally finished the nursery.
Everything. Was. Fucking. Perfect.
Until Albus 'Freaking' Dumbledore walked in our living room to talk to James and me.
Why. Why my baby has to be the one who, maybe, will have to kill that monsterl? It's me! It's us! We are the ones who have to kill it before they have to live in a world in war! We're the adults!
Oh God I'm crying.
She breathed heavily as she reads. The prophecy. She hadn't realized that she was told so long before their dead…
12 April '99
We're hiding. Well, I'm hiding. James keep working, but he's not the one five months pregnant so…
We talked about the prophecy (Albus finally allowed us to hear it) and all the stuff that we know but they don't. Like the freaking fact that one of my baby's parents is a freaking muggle who have never even meet Voldemort!
James thinks that maybe, because he will adopt my baby to allow him to become the Potter's heir, that make him the "second father" so make the prophecy true.
'I hate divination, everything is how "you see" blablabla'
Whatever, I'm hiding because, apparently, Snakeface heard about the prophecy, and he will think that my baby is concerned so…
"Finally allowed us to hear it?" Why did Dumbledore didn't want her mum and James to hear it sooner?
3/5/99
It's a Girl! Merlin merlin merlin merlin merlin!
It's A Girl! A Little Girl!
She fixed that page longer than necessary, watery eyes fixing her mother's writing as she had written just that little thing in a hurry.
13 June '99
I talked with Alice today, we were wondering how we'll name our babies. She is waiting a little boy!
With Frank, they are going to name him Neville, and Alice want me to be his godmother! I said yes, of course!
She'll be the godmother of my princess, of course. James said that if he didn't name one of his friends, they will think that's weird, and I agreed. I wanted Sam to be her godfather but…
James is really sorry about that, but I didn't blame him.
20 July '99
I want to name her Harriet. Gran Harry, my grandmother, was the most beautiful person I knew, and she really helped me through my early teenage years. Before she passed away.
But I also want her to have a part of her dad even when she will bear the name of James. Her middle name, Mary, it's the name of Dean's mother. She died when he was four years old, but his eyes were bright with love when he talked about her…
I think that will be perfect.
Her eyes widened when she reads why she was named Harriet Mary. The only thing that nobody really knew is why Lily and James had decided to name her like that. And now that she knew, she couldn't think of a better choice.
1 August '99
She's born. She's beautiful. I can already say that I love her more than everything else, even her father. She's everything to me, and I will protect her with everything I got.
Harriet Mary Potter-Winchester is born the Saturday 31 July 1999.
5 August '99
I don't know how I can protect her. We're hiding at Potter Manor, but I know that we can stay under all the warding for the rest of our life. No matter how much I want to.
I know that I need to find another way.
6 August '99
James let me in the Potter's Library. He said that he wanted me to find another way to protect her. He loves her as much as I do. As much as Dean would loves her.
She takes a long breath and stopped to read to allow herself to collect. All those years listening to everyone who had stories about James and Lily, she never felt so much close to her mother than now…
31 August '99
Being a mother is exhausting but I love every hour I spent with my little princess, she's so bright, so happy, so… everything. Just like her father.
I could already see that she will have my hair, but much darker, and my nose and jaws but her mouth. Merlin, she has his mouth and eyes' shapes. I hope so much that she will have his eyes color too. Everyone hopes that she will have mine, because they think otherwise that she will have James' brown eyes but Dean's…
His green's eyes were the most beautiful eyes that I had ever see. Our eyes were alike, but his were a little… Brighter, greener. I don't know….
Every person who knew her parents (James was her parent, even without being her father, he earned that right the second he chooses to support Lily) told her that she have her mother eyes, but she wondered if it's because it's true or because Lily was the one with the green eyes.
16 September '99
I think I found something! I can't read everything, it's written in a language called "enochian" but that look like some powerful wards who can, maybe, counter something powerful like the killing curse!
I will need time, and a lot of coffee, but I will translate that books!
Her curiosity was picked by the unknown language, she'll need to do some research, but that countered the theory of Dumbledore about what happened that night.
15 November '99
One year. It was one year ago. I wanted so much to cry this morning, but then I looked over at Harry and… My treasure was looking at me with a smile and her eyes…
She has his eyes.
Well, that answer her questioning. She searched in her bag (it has some spells similar to the one Hermione had when they were hunting the Hocruxs.) and took out a little pocket mirror to see her eyes. She has her father's eyes. After a minute or so of staring at them, she finally smiled before putting back the mirror and read the next page.
31 October '99
Her first Halloween! I love that holiday so much! When I was a kid, my parents take us to America at Halloween, visiting one of dad's college friend, and we got all dressed and went on candy hunt. That was so great! That was before Petunia hates me…
I know that Harry will never remember, but we got her a princess' costume and spend the night watching old muggle horror movies. She spends her time laughing at all the fake monster while James… I will never allow him to forget how much he screamed like a little girl!
I took so many pictures that James end up hiding my camera!
She blinked at the thought that they got only one year left. And… Her mum loved Halloween. Her brain didn't wrap around that fact. She never hated Halloween herself, but too much happened to her in that particular date for her to love that day.
The few next pages were a collage of pictures, the ones mentioned by here mum. She spends a long time looking at every single one, smiling when she sees one where James was holding her, she was clearly laughing but James was terrified and probably screaming. Another one was probably taken by James, her mum was holding her, and she was watching her with so much love Harry heart hurts.
25 December '99
Her first Christmas! She grows so fast, I'm almost afraid!
James knew that I was turning crazy hiding here, so without telling me (prat) he makes come to the Manor the others Marauder, Frank, Alice and the little Neville! We spend the night catch up while Harry and Neville became friends.
They'll become great peoples; I can already see it.
She smiled at the words, her mother was right about Neville, he is a great person.
31 July '99
She has one year today. And she says her first word. She says Mum. I'm crying.
My little baby has one year, I can't see where that time go!
6 August '99
I did it! I translated the books! I know how to protect her! And I will give everything to do so. Even my life.
I know it's a dangerous thing to do but I don't care.
As long as I protect my baby girl, I'm okay with that.
Harry stopped breathing for a long minute. She knew that when Voldemort was going to kill her, her mother put herself between them, but knowing that she was ready to do so long before that… That's silly, but she felt a warm joy mixed with sadness in her stomach at the thought.
12 August '99
Dumbledore want us to move. I don't understand why, I mean, the wards of Potter Manor protected us against every Death Eaters send by Snakeface. Why don't stay?!
Dumbledore said that because he is losing, Snakeface will try harder to have us. He wants us to move in his cottage at Godric's Hollow under a fidelitas and some other wards. I don't like that, I will rather rest, but James thought that was a good idea.
I guess we're moving.
Knowing that it was what killed her parents, Harry felt a cold rage against Dumbledore. Wondering, not for the first time since the end of the war, what Dumbledore really knew about that night, and what he was hiding for the "greater good".
2 September '99
I finally finished the crib! All the enochian sigils are engraved in the wood and painted with my blood. I covered everything with a glamour but that will do its job.
All I have to do to activate the protection is dying.
Harry choked at the words; her mum was making that seem so simple… She had give everything for her to live…
26 September '99
She walked! Merlin! My little Princess is a big girl now! James was as happy as me when she walked across the living room to reach him! Merlin, I'm so happy I can't even think straight!
She stayed at that page for five minutes without seeming to move. The date, 26 September, was horribly close to Halloween. She was scared to turn the page and find it blank.
But when she did turn the page, what she found was almost worst.
31 October '99
It's her second Halloween. We're all watching some old horror movie and Harry is laughing so hard when the monster shows its face, it's adorable!
I thought that this holiday might be Harry's favori—