I had woken up in a hospital room. Fuck ! I thought to myself. I Odd'D if i don't end up in rehab now it will surely be a miracle. I don't remember much of what happened. I hope they didn't call mother and Edward the last thing I need is them thinking I'm suicidal. I look up and see a shadow of a young man sleeping in the chair. I realize it's Blaine.

"Blaine!". I call him, I feel like my mouth is full of cotton.

Blaine shrugs and wakes up from his sleep. "Kat! Thank God ! Holy shit. I was so worried. I went to check up on you and to my surprise you were all coked up laying on the floor , with a broken bottle of whisky and you bleeding. What the fuck where you trying to achieve !? Do you have any idea what you put me through!".

Blaine kept stuttering. I had never seen him so agitated. We do care about each other but he is acting outrageous.

"Calm down Tuttle, I lost control. I get it, it won't happen again."

"CALM DOWN ! CALM DOWN KATHRYN YOU COULD'VE KILLED YOURSELF"!

I stayed silent. I understood what I had done but I felt so numb probably from all the medication the doctors had probably given me that I was indifferent.

"Kat please! I can't loose you too!"

Blaine started crying. Sometimes he can be such a drama queen but he was right. Sebastian's death did affect. It affected both of us so much that he got suspended from school. I haven't been back to school since August and it's now March.

Blaine hugged me. I hugged him back. He was right. As selfish as I have been in the past. I couldn't do that to him, all these months he took care of me. I never thought because of Sebastian we would be closer.

"Hey , shh, it's okay I'm not going anywhere." I tell him reassuring him. I've never been the affectionate type but something about Blaine crying really got to me.

"You better not , you bitch!" He said while I wiped his tears always.

"Initials KV, Good morning miss I'm going to be discharging you."

The nurse had a familiar voice, she was making her in backwards with a trolley in which Kathryn assumed it was her breakfast. She wasn't hungry and hospital food took her appetite right away.

To Kathryn's horror the nurse turned around to be no other than Annette fucking Hardgrove the person she hated probably more than Sebastian.

"What the fuck are you doing here!" I screamed.

"Kathryn? But I thought your last name was Mert..."

Kathryn interrupted her before the blond could continue.

" Haven't you heard? I'm a VALMONT now!" Kathryn said it in a tone that was rather bitchy while still maintaining her better than Annette poise.

"No that can't be possible!"

"Old Edward adopted Kathryn and is now the heir to the Valmont inheritance." Blaine cleared his throat.

"So that means that pretty little car you drove away with is mine so you better hand over the keys Hardgrove." Kathryn mocked, something had switched in her seeing Annette standing there. And the cause was her anger. It didn't make her feel stuck anymore. It drove her. It motivate her

"It was a gift from Sebastian, you can't take it away!" Annette was horribly surprised. She never imagined, she found Kathryn in the hospital she would be interning in.

"Ha! Like that holds any weight now! Actually Blaine do you mind , I think Annette and I have some matters to discuss."

Blaine was quick to leave.

"Kathryn I'm not here to fight, I came back for a reason. My community hours are very important to me , and Manchester prep is a great school to finish off high school.

"So find another one! I warned you what would happen if you came back to New York !

"What will happen ? You're no longer in charge of school. You haven't been there for months, no one is afraid of you anymore. "

"Don't tempt me Annette."

"What happen to you Kathryn? Why are you here?Why did Doctor Jacobson want to do psych evaluations?"

"You don't know?" Kathryn rolled her eyes. She wasn't about to have a heart to heart with miss virginal southern bore.

Annette picked up Kathryn's medical chart. Reading it over and over again flipping the pages. Kathryn got up and grabbed the chart and threw it on the floor. Annette was in utter shock.

"What are you going to publish my medical records too ? Of me still being a bulimic , coke head whore who tried to kill herself!?"

Kathryn said with a scoff.

"Kathryn I would never do that!" Annette said still in disbelief

"You've done worse!" Kathryn murmured

"No Kathryn that was different. This is different! Why are you doing this! Is this because of me ?"

"Don't flatter yourself Annette , you're irrelevant. And no it was an accident, I've admit I've taken it too far."

"Kathryn too far is that rosary!"

"Why do you care?"

"If Sebastian was here he would be so angry !"

"Well he's fucking not here Annette so just let me fucking be , you got what you wanted. Now just give me his car keys, discharge and leave me the fuck alone!!!!!!!!"

Annette looked at her really looked at her. She barely recognized the Kathryn Sebastian described in the journal. She was almost so vulnerable. Yes she had been a horrible person to her and Sebastian, but Annette felt sorry for her. She had just tried to kill herself and not even her parents know . She only had Blaine Tuttle who was Sebastian's best friend and neighborhood drug dealer. Annette felt guilty something she didn't like. She couldn't stand it. She had to do something.

Without a second thought Annette handed the keys over to Kathryn.

"Well that was easier than expected." Kathryn said with a gleaming smile, her eyes were shiny. It reminded Annette of a cat. She even moved like one. No pun intended.

"Take it as whatever you think this is Kathryn. I don't care about material things. I'll find another nurse so she can discharge you."

"Freak , you don't want to face me because you feel guilty, don't you!" Kathryn said with tears in her eyes. She had officially hit rock bottom. Screaming and caring about what Annette thought.

Annette looked back with an expression that looked like grief. Annette fucking Hardgrove felt sorry for her Kathryn.

"I'm so sorry Kathryn, you don't know just how sorry I am."

"Well being sorry isn't going to fucking bring him back. You blamed me for what happened for so long but it was you. He saved you from the fucking car. "

"I wish I could bring him back." And with that Annette left the room.