Penelope was currently getting ready for work she was slowly coming down from her high and the extreme euphoria was gone but she was still feeling very peaceful and calm. She hadn't slept at all last night as she had way too much energy. She didn't remember much after leaving the bar but she was feeling pretty hungover from all the wine she consumed.
When she arrived at work she was immediately greeted by Derek.
"How's the hangover doll face?" He teased.
"Hey you cant judge, you were pretty drunk yourself." She said.
"Yes, but not as drunk as you." He laughed. "I didn't know you could dance like that."
Before she had a chance to reply Hotch called Derek into his office. She had completely forgot that they were doing the psych evaluations today to make sure that they were all in the right mind state to go back to work.
She really didn't want to do it especially not now, the drugs were slowly leaving her system, she was sleep deprived and hungover but she knew that she just had to keep herself together long enough for her psych eval to be over.
She sat down and started talking to Reid to try and distract herself as much as possible and also because she knew that he was talking Emilys death really hard and she was really worried about him. She saw Reid as her brother and she wanted to make sure that he was ok.
"Hey my genius, how you doing?" She asked with a smile.
"I don't know, I just can't believe she's actually gone." He replied. "What about you?" He asked
"Oh um i just trying to cope." She answered and technically it wasn't a lie she was coping just not in a healthy way.
A short while later it was her turn for the eval so she pulled herself together and met Hotch in his office. They sat down and talked and he asked her some questions. She lied right through her teeth for the most part, she knew what he wanted her to say and she knew how to be convincing. She hated every second of it she felt like she was being profiled and it made her increasingly uncomfortable.
When it was finally over Hotch handed her a piece of paper, she quickly scanned it over and was relieved when she realized that it was a form saying that she was cleared to start work again.
"Thank you sir." She said before joining everyone else around the table in the conference room.
She was the last one to be evaluated so now everyone was cleared and ready to start work. It was difficult without e but they knew that they had to make it work.
They had a new case to work on but it was fairly nearby so they wouldn't have to travel anywhere for it. JJ was standing at the front presenting the case but Penelope wasn't paying much attention, the last of her high had finally worn off and she felt terrible even worse then she did when she was at the funeral, she felt this feeling of depression weighing down on her, and now that she was sober she didn't have anything to combat it with.
When everyone split up and went to their perspective desks and offices, Penelope made sure to close her door behind her she then put her bag on her desk and dug around until she found the small crumpled up piece of paper with the number on it, She took out her cellphone and dialled the number.
"Hello." The guy answered.
"I'm the girl from the bar last night, I need more pills." She said quietly enough so that no one would over hear her.
"Alright, meet me outside of the bar in an hour." He said.
Penelope was going to respond but didn't get the chance when she heard her door open she quickly hung up the phone and threw it back into her bag.
"Hey." Derek said while leaning against the doorframe.
"Hi." Penelope said as she turned around to face him.
"Everything ok?" He asked noticing that she seemed a bit jumpy.
"Oh yeah I'm fine. Did you need something?" She asked trying to change the subject.
"I just wanted in check in on you, baby girl you know I love you right?"
"Of course. I love you too my hero, thanks of checking in I appreciate it." She said.
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When the hour passed p grabbed her purse and made her way towards the elevator.
"Where you going?" Reid asked.
"Just going on a quick coffee run, I'm in desperate need of caffeine." She lied but it worked and soon she was back at the bar waiting for the guy to show up.
Soon enough he appeared and she bought a small baggy with five of the pills in it three of them were the pink heart ones from the bar and the other two were purple and had smiley faces on them. She gave the man some cash and they parted ways.
"I'm Danny, by the way." He told her in passing. She didn't give him her name she didn't feel the need it's not like they were friends they didn't even know each other and she had no desire to know him on a personal level.
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After she was done at work she went back home and drank some wine she had decided that she should wait until tomorrow before taking the pills as she needed to actually get some proper sleep,
So she tucked away the baggie with her 'happy pills' as she called them away in her purse before getting to sleep.