AN: thank you for all of the reviews. The next update might take a little longer to publish because I have a lot of college work right now but I'll get it posted as soon as possible.

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Derek got to the hospital and went straight for the room. He saw everyone standing around outside the room and got a little worried.

"The doctors just checking her out. She woke up but she's having trouble speaking and she seems really disoriented." Reid told him.

Once the doctor was finished he explained to everyone that she didn't seem to have any serious brain damage but she would be a little out of it for a while because of the effects of overdose.

Everyone was relieved because they all knew what could have happened and now they knew that she was going to be ok.

"I'm gonna go talk to her." Derek said and went in and sat on the edge of the bed next to her.

"Hey." Penelope said quietly barely above a whisper.

"Do you remember what happened?" Derek asked.

"I don't remember much... I'm still really fuzzy... I just remember feeling really ill but the doctor already explained to me what happened so I know and I am so so sorry but I promise that I'm going to get myself all fixed up." She said.

"I really thought that I was going to lose you." Derek admitted.

"Oh please! it's going to take a lot more than this for you to get away from me." Penelope joked.

"I'd never want to get away from you baby girl." He took a deep breath and continued "I wanted to apologize to you, I know that you say that it's not my fault but I can't help but feel so guilty about everything. I never should have left you by yourself."

"Hey." Penelope said as she held his hand. "You have to stop this. It was my decision it was not your fault, do you understand?"

Derek just nodded and changed the topic. "How are you feeling?"

"My head feels like it's going to explode but other then that not too bad." Penelope said. "There's a program here that helps people with different addictions, I think I'm gonna do it. I would be staying at the hospital for at least two weeks and it'd be a lot of therapy and stuff but I think it's something that I need to do."

"I think that's a really good idea." Derek agreed.

The door opened and they were surprised to see Strauss walk in. "Morgan,would you mind stepping out?" She asked although it was phrased more as a demand then a question.

Derek knew better then to argue with her as he knew that it wouldn't end well so he hesitantly left the room.

"What the hell is she doing here?" Derek asked Hotch.

"I have no idea, I don't even know how she found out." Hotch said.

"Kevin Lynch told me that you were here. He brought up your medical records." Strauss said, her expression was unreadable and it made Penelope quite anxious.

"Ma'am, I know that I am probably so fired right now but please just let me try to explain and maybe—" Strauss cut her off before she could finish her nervous rambling.

"I'm not going to fire you Garcia."

"Your not? But what about our contact?" Penelope asked.

"I have ripped up the contract, you are no longer required by law to stay with the FBI. I want you to take some time off to sort yourself out and if you choose you don't have to come back and I will even be a reference for you to get a new job, however if you choose to stay and I hope that you do then your job will be waiting for you when you come back no strings attached." Strauss explained.

Penelope needed to take a second to process what she had said. She was fully expecting Strauss to fire her on the spot but she was actually being so nice.

"T-Thank you, ma'am." She said not knowing what else to say.

Strauss nodded and walked out without another word.

Penelope was now left alone and she started thinking, could she leave and FBI? She had never actually thought about it before even when things got really hard because it had never even been an option but now that her contact was gone the option was on the table. It was strange, she couldn't even imagine herself not working there anymore. The past few years have been the best and worst of her life and she had grown so much as a person since she first entered the building in handcuffs. She loved her job because she loves her family and she loved that she got a chance to help save people bit she also hated the horrors that she had to face throughout her screen every day and she hated how much evil that there was in the world. However the Good strongly out weighed the bad and she knew that there was no way that she would be leaving her family anything soon.