Flash Back : Utah 2007.

"Karen look Ethan's here." Katherine said as they were washing the dishes looking out the window.

"Wonder what he wants." Karen shrugged drying off the plates and putting them away.

"Karen Ethan's here oooooo." Kiley her little sister only 7 years old said. "He gots flowers."

"Kiley you mean he has flowers." Karen smiled scooping up her little sister.

"Right. He has flowers." She smiled hugging her big sister. "There for you."

"They are not. Now stop spying little lady. Did you do all your chores?" Karen asked her.

As Ethan was escorted in the house by Walker their old Brother.

"Yes I did. I sweeped the floors and cleaned my room." Kiley said proudly. "Can we please go play outside now?"

"You go on a head. We'll be out as soon as the we finish in the kitchen." Karen said.

"Karen you know Kiley is right. Ethan is here for you." Katherine said.

"Listen I don't like him like that he's like what 35 or something. It's weird. Besides I wont get married before my older sister." Karen said to Katherine 20. "So maybe he is here for you."

"I doubt that." She said a little sad.

"Hey we're done in here. Let's go outside and play." Karen smiled throwing the towel at her sister.

"Play? Aren't we a little old for that?"

"Nope!" She giggled as Karen ran through the house and out the back door. The summer sun hit her face as she took in the fresh air. She saw her brothers and sisters playing in the yard. Her brothers were tossing the baseball around as while her youngest two sisters were playing with their dolls.

Karen was number 5 of 10 was just from her mother Lynn. This wasn't counting her half siblings from her fathers other three wives. Wyatt was the oldest at age 31 he married at 24 and just married his second wife a year ago. Her sister Kelly 30 was the third wife of a fellow order member by the name of Tobias. She has been married since she was 18 and had five children of her own. Katherine was the next in line at 20. She was still at home with Karen and Wesley her brother who were just a year apart from one another. Then Weston, Wade, Karlee and Kiley were all born in the course of 6 years.

"It's so nice out here." Karen smiled spinning around in a circle her arms out in the air. The skirt to her dress catching in the breeze.

"Really?" Katherine said shaking her head at her sister. "It's like 90 degrees out here."

"I know but we've been stuck in the house all day. It's nice to just be outside." Karen smiled as she noticed Katherine glanced over at her Dad's office window that faced their back yard which had the perfect view of the Utah sky. "Katherine please lighten up. Let's have some fun."

"Fine. What did you have in mind?" Katherine asked her sister her hands on her hips.

"Oh I don't know just this." Karen smiled grabbing the hose and spraying her sister.

"KAREN!" Katherine shirked. "That's cold! You are so gonna get it." She laughed.

As they started having a water fight with the hose their little brothers and sisters joined in. It only took a few minutes for them to be completely soaked as Karen was wrestling around on the ground with her sibling.

"KAREN!" Gideon her father said sternly.

She giggled and looked up to see her father, her older brother and Ethan standing there.

"That is not lady like at all get up! Katherine you should know better." Gideon stated staring at his two daughters were dripping wet with water.

"Sorry Father." Katherine stated as she got up quickly.

Karen shook her head as she took her time getting up off the ground.

"Sorry Father. Just wanted to have a little fun." Karen said.

"This is not appropriate behavior for a young woman of your age Karen."

Ethan stood their trying not to smile at the young woman in front of him. He couldn't help but check her out.

"Clean yourself up and meet me in my office." Gideon said sternly.

Karen nodded shaking her head she went inside as Katherine followed right behind her.

"See Karen you got us in trouble." Katherine said.

"Father needs to lighten up. We were just having a little fun." Karen said.

After Karen dried off she changed her clothes fixed her hair then went down to her father's office.

"Karen what do you have to say for yourself?" Gideon asked.

"I am sorry for my behavior. It wasn't lady like and I sincerely apologize." Karen said.

"We will deal with your punishment later. But now on to more important matters. Ethan here has asked to start courting you." He stated with a smile.

"Father please ..." Karen began to say trying to keep it together.

"Karen! This is a great match. It's done."

Karen held in her tears as she nodded glancing over at Ethan who was smiling ear to ear.

2019 – Las Vegas.

"Karen what the hell were you thinking?" Jon asked pacing their living room.

Karen sat on the couch freshly showered and in a pair of her own comfortable clothes.

"Jon. I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say other than I am sorry. The only thing I was thinking about is keeping you and Jagger safe. I know it was stupid. I get that OK. You don't have to keep telling me." Karen stated.

"Karen I was worried sick about you. I am still so fucking pissed. Did you not trust me enough or what?"

"That's not it at all. You know I love you and I trust you more than any one else in this world." Karen told him.

"Well you have a funny way of showing it. Lying to me? Telling me that you were going to the store. Do you realize what could have happened if I didn't hire Ridge and his team? This was so FUCKING stupid. I could have lost you Karen. Do you get that. Jagger could have lost you." Jon growled.

"I know! I get it! I messed up. I was just scared and I thought I could do this on my own. Look when I got the letter in the mail then he called me I was scared. I didn't want you or Jagger to get hurt because of my past."

Jon shook his head. "You didn't trust me Karen. You didn't tell me any of that. You didn't say shit about that fucking letter or that he called you. He's a sick bastard and he's trying to get to you and you didn't tell ME. The one person you say you can trust. What the fuck!" Jon growled.

"I can't say sorry enough. I didn't know what to do OK. I mean he said he was going to ruin our life. You just got your career back on track. I just didn't want Ethan of all people to ruin that or to hurt our Son. Jon I couldn't live with myself if something happened to you or Jagger because of me." Karen told him.

"I love you Karen so much. But sorry just isn't enough right now. I can't keep you or our kids safe if you don't tell me shit. You're pregnant did that even cross your mind when you thought about this?"

"Of course it did Jon. I know it wasn't the best idea to go in there a lone I know that. I realize what could have happened. I know how serious this is." Karen said standing up and going over to Jon. "I love you. You taught me and show me all the time what it means to be truly loved. You have my heart always."

"Then you have to tell me the truth Karen no matter what. Our marriage vows are not a joke they are real damn it. When I told you I would love honor and trust you I meant that. This wasn't some fake ass ceremony. We are bound together for life damn it and I need you to start being honest with me for your sake and the sake of our children. Can you do that?" Jon asked.

"Yes Jon I can be honest with you."

"Good because Karen I can't lose you or our kids." He said pressing his forehead to hers. "I love you." He said kissing her softly.

"I love you too." She said.

"Don't ever fucking do that to me again got it?" He said his head still pressed against her forehead.

"Got it." She said.

As their eyes locked on each other. Jon pulled her closer to him never wanting to feel that helpless again.

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