Hiya! So, I guess this is the final chapter. Honestly I didn't really know how to end this but I actually like how it turned out! Hope you enjoy! ALSO: there's a bit of a time skip in between this chapter and the last one, it's only a couple hours difference, but I thought I'd point it out

Unsurprisingly, I couldn't sleep. I still could not believe I made a fool out of myself like that. On top of that, I ruined our entire dynamic.

I was acting pathetic all day, and I could not believe how much these stupid feelings of mine were messing with me. I really, really wanted things to go back to normal, but that was not going to happen. We had a good friendship going on, but now it's all awkward and confusing, why'd i have to ruin everything like that?

I should just leave. I mean, James would be better off without me anyway, all I ever do is ruin everything. If I just left, it wouldn't be so confusing anymore.

I wished I could just leave, but I wouldn't be able to. I was too weak to go on by myself, I need James, even just as a friend- heck, even as just a coworker. Ugh I'm so weak!

Great...now I'm crying. I'm such a wimp! Luckily, James and Meowth were asleep, so they wouldn't know. I guess I should just let it out. I don't think I've cried like this since my mother left.

I do not need to think about my mother right now!

Then again, she was in my dream... maybe she was trying to tell me something. No, that's stupid. She was all positivity, nothing about this situation is positive, except for the fact that I'm positively screwed.

I tried to breathe and calm down a bit. I looked over at James, who was sound asleep. I smiled despite myself. How could he be so clueless, but yet so knowing?

Was he clueless? I mean, that remark about "being up for it" made it seem like he knew, but he was so cool about it.

James keeping it cool? Never. He was definitely clueless. Then again, maybe he was keeping his cool because he didn't like me back. I mean, even if he knew, there would be no reason for him to act differently around me if he didn't like me back.

I accepted that as my answer. He knew, and didn't care. He didn't care about me.

Not only did he not care about me, he didn't like me, not as a partner, friend, or coworker. If he hadn't been paired up with me, he wouldn't have stuck around. James, just like everyone else in my life, hated me.

How dare my own thoughts hurt me so much?!

Great, now I'm crying even harder. This shouldn't affect me as much as it is, if I hadn't been stupid enough to catch feelings, this wouldn't be happening in the first place.

I heard James move around in his sleeping bag. I prayed he wouldn't wake up. I quickly rolled over in my sleeping bag and pretended to sleep.

"Jessie? what are you doing up?" He asked groggily.

Maybe if I ignore him he'll think I'm asleep.

"I know you're awake, what's up?" He said, he sounded a little more awake this time.

I mentally prepared myself to speak. I couldn't let him know I was crying. "Nothing. Go back to sleep."

I thought I hid my crackly sad voice pretty well. James, on the other hand, heard it loud and clear. He sighed. "What's the matter?"

And the floodgates opened again. I frantically tried to stop, but ended up hyperventilating. "N-Nothing! I just, just want it to s-stop!" I really didn't think about my choice of words.

I was still turned away from him, but I could feel his concern.

"It's okay, it'll all be okay." This generic response did wonders for me.

"I'm so sorry. I'm such an idiot. You should be sleeping, but you're here comforting me."

"Don't be sorry, I-"

"No! I'm probably the worst thing to ever happen to you. I ruin everything. I'm sorry I ruined everything today, I just don't know how to keep my emotions in check lately. I'm so weak."

James put his hand on my shoulder, prompting me to roll over to face him. "Jessie, don't you see? You're the best thing that ever happened to me! You're the strongest and smartest person I know, and you've taught me so much about myself, and changed the way I see the world." He paused before continuing. "I know feelings can be confusing sometimes, but I hope I can help you understand. Truth is, I love you. Always have. I didn't understand this before, but now it's crystal clear, you're all I've ever wanted."

What do I even say now? Everything was perfect. The fog in my mind has lifted and everything seemed so simple. This felt so perfect! "I-I love you too James. I love you." It felt so nice to say. I want to say it all the time! I hope I have many more opportunities to say that some more.

James smiled. He scooted his sleeping bag closer to mine and kissed me on the forehead. We smiled at eachother and began to lean in.

It was as if some magical force had brought our faces together. I just enjoyed the moment and closed me eyes. Then, it happened. We kissed. This truly indescribable moment left me in a trance. I felt so warm and fuzzy inside. This was the best moment of my entire life, it felt so new and exciting, but also so familiar and safe. I wished I could stay there forever.

We reluctantly broke apart. The moment was gone just like that, but the love was still there. I was loved.

"Goodnight Jess." He said. I had completely forgotten it was this late. It had to be at least 3am at this point.

"Night James." I smiled and sighed happily. I couldn't help myself, I had to say it again. "I love you."

"I love you too."

He did love me. He really, truly loves me.

Sooo, that's that I guess. I was originally trying to base this off a personal experience, but my creativity got the best of me and I made it super dramatic XD

Luv ya!

Buh-Bye!