The First Breaking Point

Schuyler comes through the door upset. She takes a breath and throws her purse and bag of treats down on the couch. Seeing Fen kiss Ana like that had really upset her. It made her angry. She was already upset about seeing Nick and Lily's growing closeness at the athletic club. And the Fen and Ana kiss added fuel to that fire.

Schuyler closes her eyes and takes a breath trying to calm herself. She knew that Fen was going to marry Ana, but she still couldn't help the way that he made her feel. And she felt like he liked her and that they had a connection. He was always so nice to her and seemed to care about her. He seemed to like her. In fact, he did like her. She knew he did. And she heard him say that she was very pretty. She knew he was attracted to her, and with the way he treated her she was holding out hope that…

"It makes me so angry!" She says aloud and opens her eyes. Schuyler had hoped that there was a chance that Fen wouldn't marry Ana. Or that if they got married, it wouldn't last long and then he would divorce Ana. And maybe turn to her. She knew it wasn't the most realistic wish, but she was still holding out hope that type of thing could happen.

She clinches her first when she sees him again kissing Ana so passionately. It had hurt seeing that. She had seen them together at the athletic club, but he hadn't kissed Ana like that in front of Schuyler. Schuyler felt disrespected, and even betrayed. Fen had just been chatting with her. Like he always chatted with her. Like he always did when ever he was alone. Which Schuyler felt was often, especially in the past few weeks. Schuyler felt that Ana had been neglecting Fen. He didn't say she was, but Schuyler had sensed that. She had wondered if Fen was lonely every time, she saw him in the restaurant by himself. She felt like he was.

Why else would he engage me in conversation? She wonders to herself. To her it didn't make much sense that Fen would always talk to her and be so warm and inviting. And acted like he was interested in what she had to say and her whenever they talked. She really felt a connection between them and good vibes, but... She thinks about him kissing Ana again in front of her. Even after she offered to buy him a sticky bun.

I should have never spent my hard earned money on him. She thinks. She looks down at the bag of treats that she had thrown on the couch. She goes over and puts it on the kitchen table. She takes out the bun that she had bought Fen and she looks at it. She felt like throwing it in the trash. She then goes gets a pot. She looks at the pot and then back at the bun. She takes the pot and smashes the bun with it. She hits it multiple times. The table is wooden and doesn't break but getting her anger out does help Schuyler feel a bit better. She looks at the bun smashed up in several pieces and then gets a napkin and wipes it up. She tries to calm down again.

She decides to listen to some music. Music was something that would calm her down whenever she was angry. It helped calm her down after all of the times she came home disappointed and angry when she was involved with Nick. Including the day, they broke up and she had broken his vase in his home. That day she had come home so angry and had wanted to break even more stuff. Madison wasn't home and she had thrown some things. But ultimately calmed down after she turned on the radio and listened to some music. Music from her favorite station had calmed her.

She gets the radio and decides to turn it on. A song plays that she likes, and she starts to calms down. Then one of the local radio hosts starts talking.

"So, a local pop star is getting married this weekend." The male host says.

"Yes, that's right." The female host says. "Fenmore Baldwin is marrying his fiancée this weekend."

"That's right Jenny he's marrying Ana Hamilton former R&B singer and head of LP at Hamilton Winters record label."

"And the sister of billionaire Devon Hamilton." Jenny laughs. "I wish I had a brother that was a billionaire, Sal." She states in a lighthearted manner.

Sal laughs. "Don't we all Jenny. Don't we all." He says.

"You know this is such a perfect time of the year to get married. It truly is wedding season. I bet Fen and Ana's wedding is going to be lovely. I wonder how many musicians will be there." She wonders.

"I've seen reports that Xavier Dorsey will be there." Sal says. "I have a source that says that he's one of Fen's groomsmen."

"That's awesome." Jenny says. "I'm sure other artists will be there as well." She predicts.

"Maybe. Along with of course Family and friends." Sal replies.

"I'm sure it will be a lovely time had by all." Jenny remarks. "And I wish them the very best. Fen has always been so gracious whenever we've interviewed him. He's one of the nicest artists I've interacted with." Jenny reveals.

"That he is. We wish him a happy marriage and life with his new bride Ana."

"Definitely." Jenny agrees. "And can you imagine how talented and beautiful their children will be." She says. She laughs. "They are both very good-looking people. I've met Ana. She is stunning." She remarks. "And that's the kind of a thing I wonder whenever celebrities get married, is what their kids will look like or be like. I can't help it. I am so interested in celebrities' lives."

"Maybe you should go work for a tabloid." Sal jokes.

"I like this gig too much." Jenny responds laughing. "But no doubt they will have pretty children." After she says that. Schuyler shuts off the radio. She then picks it up and throws it across the room, and it crashes on the ground.

"Ughhh!" She lets out a yell and then lays back against the couch. Hearing the radio hosts talking about what a wonderful like they believed that Fen/Ana would have upset her even more. It helped illustrate how much he loved Ana. And how he didn't feel that way about Schuyler and how alone she was. And that hurt her. Because she really cared about Fen. She had deep feelings for him and to have it illustrated even more how he wanted to share his life with another woman, made her feel like someone had punched her in the stomach. And even though she knew he was engaged to Ana, it was just another punch in the gut, another relationship that she couldn't have or had failed.

She starts to think about her past failed relationships and interests in men that didn't go anywhere. Nick, Fen, Todd, Spence..., and the list goes on. It hurt to never feel like any man's first choice, or to have men not really want to commit to her. And it was a special type of hurt with Fen, because she felt he was one of the good ones. Even though she knew he had planned to marry another woman it still hurt. Schuyler sighs and puts her hand on her face. She then hears a buzz. She reaches into her purse and pulls out her phone. She sees a text from Madison.

Shift is over. Will be home shortly. Hope you picked me up a sweet treat. That text brings Schuyler back to reality and she takes a breath and tries to compose herself. She goes and picks up the radio and puts it away. She then gets the bag of sweets and puts it on the coffee table and turns on the TV. She wanted to appear as normal as possible when Madison came home. She didn't want Madison to sense how she was feeling. Especially after Madison had warned her about being too interested in Fen. Schuyler was having a hard time getting a grip on her anger about Fen and also Nick and men in general. But she decided that she would try her best to hide it from Madison and try and get herself together.