"You did what?!" Seth was astonished by what he just heard. "Roman, what is wrong you?"
"I'm doing the right thing. For both me and Dean. Is there anything so wrong with that?"
"No, there isn't." Finn replied. "But Roman, are you sure this is the best thing to do?"
"Yeah, think of how Dean will feel when he finds out. This is going to make him lose his trust in you." Seth said.
"Look guys, that pup is what holds Dean's mind hostage to Sami still. I will not accept it as my own. If I let him keep it then I could lose him."
Roman knew what he was doing. That night Dean was at the hospital, he had told Baron his mate wasn't going to terminate the pregnancy. It was a risk he was taking by letting Dean carry the pup to full term. He had already tried to dissuade him out of it, but he wouldn't listen. So, he figured that if Dean didn't want to listen, he would have to take matters into his own hands.
He told Baron that once Dean had given birth to the pup, he wanted it to be killed. To euthanize it. Due to some laws parents were allowed to do this if the pup didn't have any chance of surviving, or just simply not wanting to put the pup through the trauma of being put up for adoption. Sometimes it would take ages for a pup to be adopted and their birth parents would want to spare them from this.
Baron did ask him if Dean was okay with this. Roman said yes. He lied to him. He was going behind Dean's back. He signed the papers. After having the pup killed, he would tell him that the pup was a stillborn. He just prayed that his mate wouldn't it take too hard and hoped that bring him back to his senses. Make him realize that he should focus on the family that he's got.
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Dean was in Jeff's office now, speaking with him. He was trying to help him out, but the omega was hardly saying a word.
"Dean, I can't help you if you won't tell me anything."
"That's the problem with everyone." Dean said, his face in his hands. "They think I need help. But I don't."
"Well, from what I've read in your file you've been raped and tortured by Mr. Callihan. The scars on your body prove this."
"He only did that to teach me to be a good omega. He loved me."
"So, you believe he was right for doing so?"
Dean nodded his head. "Yes. Its because of him that I am what I am now. A pure, good omega."
"An alpha who truly loves their mate wouldn't hurt them. Sometimes we do hurt the ones we love with the mistakes we make, but we should never hurt our loved ones on purpose."
Dean stayed silent, pulling his knees up to chest. He didn't want to be here. Couldn't everyone see that he was fine the way he was? He was an adult, he didn't have to do go through with this.
"Do you believe the things he told you about Roman?"
"I don't know...My memories, they tell me that Roman did hurt me. But they also tell me that he has loves and cares for me so much. I don't what to believe...A part of me is saying that Roman is hiding his true self and will hurt me again soon. And a part is saying to just trust him, to believe that he is good."
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Dean held the crying pup in his arms, trying his best to calm him down. "Tommy, its okay. Mama's here."
The pup didn't seem to hear him, just kept crying very loudly. The sound of the pup's crying was starting to hurt Dean's ears and he was growing more frustrated.
"What can I do to get you stop crying?" Dean said, laying Tommy down on the couch. "Roman, help me. I can't get Tommy to calm down."
Roman heard his mate calling, so he went inside the living room to see what was wrong. Dean's pleading eyes were looking up at him.
"He won't stop crying...I...I'm his mother...I should know what is wrong with him."
"I'll help you, baby." Roman picked Tommy up, trying to figure out what was wrong with him. The pup's face was scrunched up in pain, his wails very loud. Roman sensed that his little boy was in pain.
"Did he eat his food earlier?"
"No." Dean shook his head. "I tried to get him to, but he was very fussy. Kept pushing his bowl away."
"He might be sick. Could be his stomach. I'll give him some him medicine."
"You don't want me to do anything?"
"No, babe. You lay down and get some rest. I'll be right back."
Roman left with the pup, heading upstairs. Dean laid back against the pillows, feeling so exhausted. This pregnancy was taking a whole lot out of him and his senses were going haywire. He couldn't even figure out what was wrong with his own pup. He should have been able to and he felt guilty for not being able to sense his pain.
"I put Tommy to bed after I gave him the medicine. He should be fine in the morning."
"Okay."
Roman sat down with him, putting an arm around his shoulder. "You alright?"
"I'm fine. Just so exhausted, so crazy lately. And everything hurts too."
"You're in pain?" Roman asked, concerned.
"I can deal with it."
"Where is that you are in pain, love?"
"My back, my legs..."
"Turn around. I think I might able to help."
Dean turned his back to him, wondering what the alpha was about to do. He soon felt Roman's hands on him, rubbing and kneading at his back. It was helping out a bit, him doing this. Helping to him to relax more and not be in so much pain. He sighed, leaning in closer to the alpha. Now resting against his chest. He felt a kiss on his shoulder. "That feel better, babe?"
"Yeah, it does." Dean said, purring, pleased by what Roman's soft touches. The alpha's hands soon traveled down lower, now working on his legs. He gripped the blanket on the couch.
"I can help you relax even more. I can make you feel so good, Dean. If you let me." Roman whispered into his ear.
"Mmm...touch me. I...I want more."
"You do?"
"Yeah." Dean panted, now noticing that Roman's other hand had went into his pants. The omega bucked up, feeling him touch him in such an intimate. He let out a moan, his legs being spread. He was very wet and his pussy begged to have something inside it. Roman's fingers were gently rubbing his clit, making him feel so good. Dean was a panting, moaning mess in Roman's arms.
"Nngh...R-Roman..." He moaned loud, the alpha's fingers now inside him. They rubbed a spot inside him. He clung onto Roman's mane of hair, whimpering as he came.
When Roman was finished with pleasuring him, the omega was hit with the realization of what just happened. He had let him touch him, when he promised Sami that he would only give himself to him.
"G-get off me." He weakly pushed at the alpha.
"Dean, what's wrong?"
"I'm digusting. I let you touch me. I shouldn't have done that."
Roman let go of him. He sat up from the couch, confused by Dean's behavior. "So, you think it was wrong of me to do that?"
"I can't give that to you anymore. Not after what you did to me."
Hearing this made Roman upset, angry. Was Dean really going to hold that against him? Sami messed him up badly that now he could only recall bad memories of him. He made Roman out to be everything that Dean feared.
"If thats the way you feel about me, fine. I can't change you. Only you can do that for yourself."
"I'm sorry..." Dean said, feeling horrible for making Roman feel like that. "I'm trying so hard. I want to believe you. Believe every word that you say to me. But something is holding me back."
"Its Sami that is holding you back. Even though he is dead, somehow you still belong to him."
Roman knew it wasn't easy for Dean. Because Sami was his second alpha, that hold, that connection would always be there. He knew he couldn't break it completely, but this was hurting him so much. He wanted his Dean back. His mate that trusted him, always turned to him for some sense of security. Who he knew that loved him no matter what. Him and Dean had a bond that was unbreakable, but even the strongest bond could be fragile and easily broken.
"I don't know what to do anymore. To make you see the truth. He may have been your second alpha, but he hurt you. You were mine before he ever came into your life. I was there before him. You were supposed to belong to me. You were always supposed to be mine."
"You're wrong."
"No, Sami was never meant to be your alpha. Why can't you see that, Dean? There has been a mistake and now we must fix what he taken away from us."
"If you really cared about me so much Roman, then how come you didn't find me sooner? Sami told me that you abandoned me. As soon I wasn't good enough for you you just left. I was never meant to be yours. Sami is my true alpha. You are just the monster that keeps haunting my dreams."