Roman got back home with Miracle as soon as he could. The whole way back he kept worrying about both his mate and his son. He prayed that Dean was doing whatever he could possibly could to make sure that Tommy lived. He shouldn't have left them alone. He should have just brought Dean and his son with him.
"Daddy, I'm scared." Miracle said. "Is Tommy going to be alright?"
"I hope so, sweetheart." The alpha responded back, pulling up in front of the house. The two of them went inside the house, he told her to stay downstairs. Didn't want her to her brother dead if he was.
It was very quiet in the house. The only sound that could be heard was Dean's loud, distressed purring coming from their bedroom. That was not a good sign. An omega's purrs should never that loud, and since he could hear his purrs coming from the other room it could mean one thing...
He opened the door, going inside. Dean was lying on the bed, the blanket bunched up around him. His body curled tightly around the smaller one he held onto.
"Dean. Baby, I'm here." Roman sat down on the bed, his hand rubbing the omega's trembling form. The omega let out a few sniffles, then looked up at him.
"I...I couldn't save him, Rome. He...he drowned in the tub."
"You tried to save him, didn't you?"
"He was gone before I came back..." Dean whispered, more tears falling from his eyes.
"Oh, Dean..." Roman closed his eyes, trying his best to hold back his tears.
"Its my fault." Dean's voice sound completely broken. "I lost our baby."
"Don't blame yourself for this, Dean." Roman wrapped his arms him, pulling him close.
"S-Sami was right. I saw him, Roman. He distracted me from our son. I was so stupid to go to him!"
"Sami is dead, Dean."
"His spirit still haunts me. He's right. I'm terrible omega. I can't do anything right."
Roman wanted to tell him that he was wrong. That it wasn't his fault that Tommy had died. He really just wanted to just be there for Dean at this moment, but the pain that he felt kept from doing that completely. Why didn't Dean call the hospital? Surely they could have done something to bring Tommy back. And after hearing what he said about Sami, well a part of him was now also angry with the omega.
Dean knew better, he was smart enough to know he shouldn't have left Tommy alone. He knew that Sami was dead. The alpha's hold on him was just too strong. That hold, connection, made him too blind, distant from the family he already had.
Roman released his hold on the omega. He grabbed his arms, trying to pry his hold off of Tommy's body. Dean whimpered, trying to hold on tighter to him, not wanting to let go.
"N-no. Please, just let me...just let me hold him..." Dean whimpered. "D-don't take my baby from me..."
"Dean, he's gone. We have to bury him."
"I just need some more time with him...He needs his Mama."
Roman's hand ran through his auburn curls, trying his best to keep him from breaking down. "I'm sorry, baby."
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August came. That's when they had the funeral. Roman had to hold Dean back from the coffin. The omega didn't want to see his baby being buried in the ground. Miracle stayed with Kathy. She didn't want to go. She couldn't stand to see her little brother dead. She already did when she saw her father carrying him out of the bedroom. It broke the pup's heart.
Dean kept Moxley, the stuffed rabbit he gave to his son. He couldn't look at pictures of his son, it hurt too much. He would hold the rabbit and remember the memory of his little boy. His baby.
A few weeks passed by, the couple that used to be so happy together, they had now grown distant. It was both their faults for that, but Dean did at least try to talk to Roman. But the alpha would only say a few words to him and then turn away from him. The omega felt rejected by the love of his life, his soulmate. And feeling like this caused him to just want to give up.
It felt as though Roman had given up on him too. And that was what hurt more because his alpha had never given up on him before. He wouldn't force Dean to go to therapy anymore, but he still went anyway. He wasn't making any progress though and didn't want to say what was on his mind. Jeff could tell he was going through a lot and suggested he should take some pills, which he turned down.
Roman was also hardly home anymore also. He was in just about the same amount of pain that Dean was. He had lost to his mate to another. Dean had changed so much, he was never going to be the same again. He couldn't take it, being in his presence. This wasn't the omega he had fell in love with. He could understand that he needed him, but he knew that he wasn't enough for him. He couldn't save him on his own.
He had stumbled upon Dean quite a few times. When the omega thought he was by himself. He was hurting himself more, had even started drinking. And drinking was only making him worse. He was close to his due date, September 17th. It wouldn't be long now. But if Dean kept going like this, he could die before that day came. Roman didn't try to stop him from hurting himself. He knew that Dean would only continue to do so. Besides he was too caught up in his own pain, beyond the point of even caring anymore.
Miracle stay over at Kathy's house more often now. The pup would rather be in the presence of her mate, then in the middle of her mother and father. She just wanted things to be better. Her mother was dying, not taking care of himself. Her father didn't even care, had given up on him. Her family was falling apart and there was nothing she could do about it.
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"Roman, take it easy." Seth watched as the alpha kept on drinking more and more. He had already had too much by now. "You need to stop. Don't you think you have had enough?"
"I-I just want to be able to forget about everything...just pretend this is all a nightmare."
"We need to go." Seth said, trying to help him up. "You need to go home now."
"I can't. My mate is suffering. I don't even recognize him anymore."
Seth let out a sigh. "You two hardly ever see each other. You both are in pain. You both need to help each other right now."
"He doesn't want my help, Seth!" The alpha was getting loud now.
"Thats where you're wrong. Do you know how many times Dean has called me? He talks to me, but I know that he would rather be talking to you. You need to go to him, Roman."
"I don't care, Seth. Dean has made it quite clear to me what he wants. Ever since he let our son die."
Seth let go of him, letting him sit back down. He couldn't believe that Roman was blaming Dean for their sons death. Yes, the omega did forget about him, but that didn't mean that he didn't care. Dean told Seth that seeing Sami that day was like a revelation for him. It made him see Sami as the real monster. He wanted to tell Roman, but he wouldn't talk to him. By Roman pushing him away, it was only making things worse between them.
"I'm going home, Roman. You can stay here and find a way back by yourself. You don't see what I see. You don't see Dean anymore, see what you are doing to him."
"I-I'm not doing anything."
"Yes you are. Until you can realize that, I can't help you." The omega put his jacket on, getting ready to leave. "I'll see you tomorrow. I'm coming over to check up on Dean. Get him out of that house. Maybe you should come with us, not keep on turning him away, hmm?"