Teddy awoke from the most restless sleep she'd had since Henry died. Over the last couple of weeks, her babies brought her so much love and comfort that her loneliness diminished and she was able to start sleeping through the night again. Unless of course, her babies decided to wake her for multiple bathroom breaks throughout the night which was a common occurrence.
But this time was different. She wasn't up at all hours having to pee or throw up, she was up because she was devastated over how she'd ended things with Owen. He didn't deserve that, after everything he had done and was doing for her.
"I'm such an idiot..." Teddy cried and mumbled to herself as she stirred in her sheets, the Seattle sunrise was beginning to creep through her curtains.
She thought about last night. She was a little sore, which reminded her of what she had done. She tried to convince herself that what she did wasn't wrong. She felt love, comfort and passion. Why was that a bad thing? Because your husband just died, Altman, and you're carrying his babies, her mind would scream at her.
Teddy sobbed, she simply felt consumed by her thoughts.
She felt so much for Owen but she still loved Henry. She loved her babies and didn't want them coming into this world thinking that she forgot about their dad so soon. She didn't know what to do, she felt so lost and confused.
Once the sunlight completely illuminated her bedroom, Teddy decided to get an early start to the day to keep her mind off of things before her OBGYN appointment at 10. And today was the day she'd been waiting for for weeks, today she'd finally know if her babies were boys, girls, or one of each. The excitement she felt the night before was diminished by her crippling sorrow but she tried hard to focus on the exciting feeling she got in her chest when she thought about knowing what she'll have in a few short months.
"I can't wait to see you guys today." She whispered to her belly, giving a soft smile and rub to the protrusion which resulted in her twins kicking away in response.
She then showered, dressed, had some cereal and headed out the door.
She realized before leaving that she hadn't looked at her phone since last night. She and Owen were so caught up in each other that she hadn't even grabbed it off the kitchen counter to charge by her bedside for the night, and now it was at 20%.
"Shit..." She mumbled.
Not only that, she had 2 missed calls and 3 texts from Owen. She didn't want her phone to die before getting to the hospital, so she ignored the notifications until further notice.
Once she got to Grey Sloan, she settled her belongings in the Attending's Lounge, grabbed her charger and plugged in her phone right away while taking a breather in one of the large, cozy chairs by the window.
It was 9:15 already, but she still had plenty of time to relax for a bit before her appointment.
Teddy unlocked her phone and decided to listen to Owens voicemails first. The first one was only 10 minutes after he left her apartment the night before.
"Hey...Teddy...I-um...you know what, never mind, I'll see you tomorrow. Get some rest."
She played the second one, left about two hours after the first.
"Hi, Teddy, it's me again. I can't sleep, and I don't know if you are either...you probably are, you're growing two humans...anyway, I'm sorry about tonight...I just-I thought that's what you wanted. But maybe it was too soon, for both of us. One thing I want you to know, you did not betray Henry. If anything all Henry would want right now is for you to be happy...anyway, I'll see you tomorrow for the ultrasound...see how the little guys, girls or both are doing, if you'll let me. I'll text you in the morning to confirm. Okay, bye."
At this point Teddy was crying. She really did want to be with Owen, especially after last night. Over the years, no matter the bad timing and harsh words that clouded their relationship, they were always there for each other. She loved him.
She tried to let go and move on from her feelings for Owen with Henry. She loved Henry, she did. He brought her so much happiness and joy, she decided she wanted a full life with him. But now, that was impossible.
Henry left her with the most beautiful gifts of all...why shouldn't she share that with someone who cares for her, and her children? Her mind was racing.
Teddy read Owens texts next.
"Hey Teddy, hope you slept well. I don't know if you heard my voicemail last night but, just want to confirm you're still okay with me being at the appointment today?"
That was at 6:30a.m., the next was at 7:15.
"If you don't want me there that's fine...I understand, just please let me know? Thanks."
Teddy felt worse now. If only she had just plugged in her damn phone and checked it when she was up at 6, she wouldn't have Owen hanging. But her phone suddenly buzzed again, it was Owen.
"Hey." She picked up immediately.
"Teddy! Where are you, are you okay?" Owen asked, sounding a bit concerned.
"I'm fine. I'm sorry I JUST got all of your messages. I left my phone in the kitchen last night and when I was about to leave this morning it was almost dead." She explained.
"Oh okay. I was a little worried." He sighed in relief.
There was an awkward pause before he started speaking again.
"So...how are you?" He asked carefully.
"Owen...I think we should talk." Teddy said.
"Me too, but after your appointment. I'm just getting to the hospital now and it's nearly ten, we should probably get up there...if you still want me to that is..." He trailed off.
"Yes, yes I want you to." Teddy replied with tears in her eyes.
He smiled to himself, he was relieved that she still wanted him there because even though those babies weren't his flesh and blood, he didn't want to miss this moment for the world. He loved them, and their mom.
"Ok."
When they met up in OB minutes later they embraced immediately.
"I'm so sorry Owen...for what I said last night...for kicking you out...you didn't deserve-" Teddy sobbed into his shirt where he held her head tight and stroked her hair over and over.
"No Teddy, don't apologize. I'm the one who should be saying sorry, I should have known it wasn't the right time to be having sex with you for the first time, under the circumstances."
Teddy looked up, her green eyes glazed with tears.
"But I said yes, Owen. I wanted it, and I wanted you. Okay?"
Owen simply nodded and led her into the exam room where Arizona was waiting.
"Hey guys! Everything...okay?" She asked a little concerned seeing as Teddy was crying.
"Everything's fine," Teddy half lied, "I'm just emotional over finding out the sex of the babies!"
Arizona was unconvinced but beamed anyway.
"Yeah, it's a big day! Any guesses?" She asked as a Teddy laid down and she squeezed the cold, blue gel all over her bump.
"Well," Owen smirked, "I think they're either two girls, or one of each. But Teddy seems to think they're boys."
"They're so active!" Teddy defended herself, "it just feels like two energetic boys in there!"
Arizona laughed as she began moving the probe around.
"You know girls can be just as active as boys, right?"
"That's what I said!" Owen laughed.
Teddy shook her head and smiled, she was beginning to feel okay again.
Suddenly the two strong heartbeats echoed the room and Teddy's eyed pooled with tears once again as the images of her sweet and growing babies filled the screen.
"Everything looks great, Teddy. You're taking very good care of your...are you ready?" Arizona beamed. Teddy nodded enthusiastically. "You're taking very good care of your BOYS in there, Teddy. Congratulations, you have two beautiful and healthy baby boys on the way!"
Teddy burst into tears. She knew it. She liked to think it was her maternal instincts that played a role in knowing she had two sons on the way. She and Henry would have two sons. She was ecstatic, but sad that Henry would never know them.
Owen was crying too. He hugged Teddy tight and wouldn't let her go.
"You were right babe, you were right." He whispered over and over onto her tear soaked cheeks.
Arizona paused what she was doing.
"Babe? Are you two a thing now...?" She asked awkwardly.
Teddy and Owen slowly pulled away from one another, sniffing and wiping away their tears before coming up with an answer, because they didn't know what the hell they were right now.
"Well...we..." Teddy stuttered, she wasn't ready for people to know yet, for people to know she was considering being romantically involved with her best friend less than a year after her husbands death.
Owen looked at Teddy unsure of what to say but without warning, he blurted it out.
"Well, we had sex last night."
"Owen!" Teddy hissed.
Arizona's eyes widened, she was in shock.
"You what?! What about Cristina, what about...Henry...what about-" she didn't know what else to say.
Teddy suddenly felt defensive.
"What about Henry?!" Teddy snapped. "I'm alone, Arizona. Well, sort of...but I'm a pregnant widow! I never expected to be that in my life. Owen is...Owen. Why shouldn't I take advantage of having love and comfort in my life, especially now?"
Teddy's words sunk into Owens mind.
"Wait, what do you mean "take advantage?" He questioned.
"Owen, I didn't mean it like that, I just mean-"
"I think I get it." Owen snapped and headed out the door.
"Oh honey..." Arizona said, "I know this is unimaginable, but you really, really need to figure things out..."
Teddy rubbed her bump lovingly, but with such sadness in her whole demeanor, her boys stirred softly.
"I'm so confused, Arizona. I don't know what to do. I loved Henry, I did. But I love Owen." She cried.
Arizona rubbed her friends back as she sat up.
"I know, I know. But you'll figure out. But first, you have got to clear things up with Owen in whatever that means for you two, because I just saw a man in incredible pain and I don't think you meant for that to happen."
"No, I didn't." Teddy responded heavily.
"Then go find him and don't forget these." Arizona smiled and handed Teddy the new print outs of her babies, with the label "it's a BOY" above each their heads.
Teddy smiled and stroked the images softly. Her boys. No matter what, she'd be bringing two, sweet baby boys into the world soon enough, that she would get to love and cherish forever.