She felt horrible for what she said in front of him, implying she was taking advantage of him. Taking advantage of the care, concern and love he was giving her and her babies. Watching him storm out of the exam room like he did, with such a pained look on his face? Broke her. He was her best friend.
Her heart pounded from the brisk walking and her boys were treating her bladder like a trampoline. Finally, she ran into Cristina...maybe she knew where he was.
"Hey," Teddy said breathlessly, "have you seen Owen?"
Cristina looked up from her chart with a questioning look.
"Um, no? We're not on the best terms right now...also, do you need an inhaler?"
Teddy laughed.
"No, I just need a second to catch my breath. I've been running around the hospital looking for Owen and my boys ran along with me." Teddy said, stroking her bump as their movements began to calm.
"Oh, boys?" Cristina asked.
"Oh, yeah! I just found out...I assume you don't want to see the scans?" Teddy asked with a knowing smirk.
"No thanks, I'm good," Cristina smiled in the most polite way she could, "but congratulations. Boys will be fun, but I gotta say, I always saw you as a girl mom."
"That's funny because that's what Owen said too." Teddy responded quietly.
"Everything okay with you two?" Cristina asked.
"Um, yeah," Teddy lied, "but I really need to find him, you know, to tell him about the boys!" She lied again.
"I thought Owen promised to help you through this, including going to every appointment with you?" Cristina asked suspiciously.
Teddy froze. She couldn't tell Cristina the truth, that she was in love with her ex-husband, that they had had sex 24 hours ago, all the while when she's pregnant with her dead husbands babies. No she couldn't tell her that.
"Yeah well, today he couldn't. I think he had surgery or something but, I'm just so excited I have to find him." She said with a forced smile.
"Well, you should be. Anyway, I gotta go, I'm on Shepherds service today. I'll see you later." And with that, Cristina headed to the Neuro wing.
Teddy took a deep breath and took out her phone. She was hoping to have a message or two, or even a missed call from Owen but there was nothing.
Should she text him, call him? No, let him come to her, she thought. But she couldn't do that either. She was lost.
Teddy was the type of person who wanted to fix things right away, and she hated the idea of looming what ifs and unresolved feelings. It ate her alive.
Suddenly as if on cue, her phone buzzed...but it was Arizona.
"Hey, any luck with Owen?" It read.
She did her best to hold back tears as she texted her friend back, the hormones were insane, she cried at everything these days whether it made her happy or sad.
"No. Can't find him. :(" She replied.
Another buzz.
"Give it time. Maybe you'll hear from him tonight. But I would just give him space for now. Okay? You're off today, go home and take care of your boys :)" Arizona said.
Teddy smiled again at the thought of her sweet little boys swimming around inside of her. She really loved them so much already. As painful as it was inevitably going to be, seeing Henry in their newborn baby boys' faces, she couldn't wait to give birth to them and hold them in her arms for the first time.
"Let's go home." She whispered to her belly, and her babies gave a small series of kicks in return.
For the rest of the day, Teddy did as she was told. She left her ringer on, but set her phone aside for awhile in the kitchen. She completely unplugged and focused on taking care of herself and her babies. When she arrived home around noon, she indulged herself with a hearty brunch consisting of a cheddar, ham and spinach egg white omelette, with a side of French toast.
She also treated herself with a virgin mimosa.
Once she finished her meal, she took a warm bath accompanied with aromatherapy candles and oils in the water. She was completely calm, she wasn't even thinking about Owen, it was just her and her babies.
After her bath, she snuggled up under the silky sheets of her bed and fell deeply asleep. Hours later, several knocks at her door awoke her from her deep sleep.
She thought she was dreaming at first, but once the knocking persisted and she heard Owen yelling on the other side of the door, she knew this was real and she bolted.
"Teddy! Teddy?! Are you okay? Why aren't you answering your phone?!" He bellowed.
Shit. Her phone. It was on the kitchen counter all day, she didn't even think to put it on her bedside table before taking a nap. She didn't imagine she'd sleep for so long. Idiot, you're pregnant with twins! She thought to herself.
"Once second!" She called back and scurried as fast as she could to her front door.
"Owen! What are you doing here?" She asked.
Owen looked back at her, stunned.
"What am I doing here? Well I don't know Teddy...my pregnant best friend didn't answer her phone all day and no one knew where she was or what she was doing so, here I am!" Owen retorted.
"You...you were worried about me?" Teddy asked pitifully with tears in her eyes.
He slowly stepped into the apartment and Teddy backed up to make him feel more welcome to enter.
Owen looked deeply into her huge green eyes.
"Teddy, of course I was worried about you. I'm always going to be worried about you and I always will, because I care for you Teddy, because I..." Owen trailed off.
"Because you love me." Teddy finished.
Owen looked at her, shocked.
"You...you heard me last night?" He asked.
"I did," Teddy smiled softly and stepped closer to Owen.
She took the collars of his shirt gently and kissed him slow and deeply.
When she broke the kiss, they both were crying, happy tears.
"Owen, I'm so sorry for what I said earlier in the exam room...I'm not taking advantage of you, I'm not. I'm just...broken, I guess? A mess. Pregnancy on top of everything has done shit for my emotional state." Teddy laughed humorlessly.
Owen smiled and tucked Teddy's hair behind her tear soaked face.
"Teddy, you don't have to apologize to me. Ever. You hear me? Of all people, I understand what you're going through. Yoy don't have to be scared or broken, not anymore..."
He stepped away for a moment and turned around taking a small, black velvet box from his coat pocket. Turning around, he got down on one knee and Teddy felt her heart pounding so fast and hard she thought she might faint.
"Teddy, in all my life I never thought I would meet a woman like you. You are...the light at the end of the very, very dark tunnel that has been my life. You're my saving grace...maybe that's why your middle name is Grace. You're everything to me, Teddy. Those boys you're carrying are everything to me. I want to take care of you, and them for the rest of my life. I want to have more babies with you someday, if you want. I love you, Teddy I love you. I've been in love with you since the day I met you. So, Theodora Grace Altman...will you marry me?"
Teddy was sobbing, her throat completely closed off. She helped Owen up and embraced him deeply.
"Is that a yes?" He whispered hopefully in her ear.
Teddy pulled away and looked into his wide pleading eyes with the saddest, sweetest face. She stroked his cheek lovingly, wiping away his tears.
"Owen..." she said in a choked whisper, "no."