*GASP* ANOTHER UPDATE?!
Turns out I had a lot more free time than usual this weekend... so I have another update for you! BETTER YET - I have another chapter for you tomorrow!
For now, Brooke gets some unexpected news and Lucas' existential crisis continues... enjoy!
Chapter Thirty-Five—Double Trouble
The morning after the wedding, Brooke walked downstairs in a daze. She had a pounding headache—and wasn't quite sure how that was possible considering she couldn't exactly drink right now. As she rubbed the sleep from her eyes she stopped when she surveyed the damage downstairs. The house was a complete mess following the wedding after party - and Clay was fast asleep on her couch.
"Wow. Mess. Not a dream." She said as Lucas walked around the corner with Sophie in his arms, who was happily chatting away to him.
"Definitely not a dream, we hosted a wedding last night… morning mommy" he said with a smile as he gave her a kiss.
"Mm… good morning" Brooke replied as she also gave Sophie a kiss before sitting down on the stairs. "Why do I feel hungover even though I was so very, very sober last night."
"Maybe you're feeling everyone else's hang overs because the rest of us got painfully drunk." Lucas said as he set Sophie down and she immediately started running around the living area. "Why do we do that?" Lucas questioned. "Numb life's most joyous and brilliant experiences with alcohol. Why do we do that?"
Brooke ran her hand through her hair; "That's too big a question before I've had my tea…" she grumbled as Lucas reached over to the coffee table and handed her a cup of hot tea. "God I love you" she said as Lucas laughed.
"Anything for my girls." He said as he nodded towards her stomach.
Brooke raised an eyebrow; "You think it's a girl?"
"I know it's a girl." He said confidently. He had a feeling that Sophie was a girl and he was right about that, so he was willing to take his bets this time.
"Hm… I guess we'll see." Brooke said with a shrug. In all honesty, she hadn't thought about what they were having. She just wanted a healthy anything.
"Why are we whispering by the way?" Lucas asked. Sophie was banging around the house but they were talking like they didn't want to be heard.
Brooke nodded towards the sofa; "Clay's asleep."
"He's not asleep" Lucas said as he kicked the sofa and Clay groaned. "He's just staring into space like an idiot."
"I have to call in sick…" Clay groaned.
"Nobody is calling in sick. It's a beautiful day, you're going to get dressed and we're all going to walk to work. Come on guys? Soph?" Lucas called as Sophie came running into the room. She held her arms out for her dad and he scooped her up and gave her a kiss. "There's my girl, let's get you dressed." He said as he manoeuvred past Brooke and went upstairs.
Brooke slowly stood up with a groan; "God, how can everywhere hurt? This baby must hate me." She grumbled. Maybe she should call in sick too.
"Brookie" Clay groaned from the sofa. "Just pull a sickie with me, come on, we did it in high school we can totally do it now!"
"You did it in high school, don't drag me into your shameful teenage years…" Brooke warned. "Besides, it's my first day as a neuro fellow."
"So Andy gave in then huh?"
"Yes he did and you need to be there to watch me conquer the neuro department!" Brooke exclaimed. "We can become a dynamic neuro duo… you know you want to."
"… fine. But I need hydrated first" he grumbled as he wandered into their kitchen to source out some water and wake himself up.
Somehow, Lucas managed to get Clay and Brooke out of the house with very little protest. All they needed was some water and maybe some vitamins too. As the recapped the night's events – well, Brooke recapped the night's events and Lucas and Clay nodded along pretending to remember all that Brooke was talking about.
"I can't believe Peyton's really gone…" Brooke commented. She and Jake had caught a flight this morning down to Brazil to start their around the world journey.
"Yeah, she's out there, living life to the full…" Lucas grumbled. He didn't know why, but he was still feeling a little weird about Peyton's choice. It wasn't about Peyton of course, but rather the decisions he was making and whether he was living his life to the full.
Suddenly, Clay froze behind them; "Oh my god. I kissed Rachel last night." He said as he slapped a hand to his forehead. The events of last night coming flooding back to him.
"What?!" Brooke said with a laugh.
"A lot of alcohol was consumed yesterday. Too much alcohol. Oh god…" Clay grumbled as they stopped at the traffic lights.
"Oh come on Clay, you and Rachel have been dancing around each other for months now, just get to it already!" Brooke insisted as she slapped Clay's butt to try and gear him up a little. "Take the plunge, you won't regret it."
"I regret those tequila shots from last night…" Clay grumbled as he took his sunglasses out of his bag and slipped them on. The lights went green for them to cross the road and they started to do so, but Clay suddenly grabbed their arms and pulled them back, causing both of them to fall to the ground and a car went speeding past them. Lucas tried to steady Sophie's pram from falling over as the little girl began panicking at the sudden jerk.
The car continued to speed through and ran straight into a group of cyclists, sending them flying across the road. As soon as they had grasped what had just happened, Brooke shot up and tried to calm Sophie down.
"It's ok baby, you're ok." She told her as she ran her hand over her hair and down past her cheek. "Clay, stay with Sophie, call 911!" Brooke shouted as she rushed towards the car that had stopped at the side of the street, and Lucas ran to the girl on the bike.
Clay lifted Sophie up to try and stop her tears while dialling 911 on his phone.
While Lucas tended to the cyclists who had been hit at the hospital, he suggested that Brooke go for a sonogram, just to make sure everything was ok. She was pulled to the ground after all. Brooke made sure that Sophie was calm in day care and then changed into her brand new navy blue attending scrubs. She was excited that this day was here, though she didn't exactly expect it to start this way. After she got dressed, she went on the hunt for Rachel, who was starting as as neo-natal fellow. It didn't take her long, as she found her leaving an exam room.
"Rachel" he called as she caught up with her.
"Brooke, look at us in our navy scrubs!" she said with a squeal. "Can you believe we actually made it to this stage?" she asked in disbelief as she hooked her arm through Brooke's.
Brooke giggled, "Not at all. You're in neonatal, I'm in neuro, Nathan is in cardio and Haley is in general after taking the job Kate offered her which I am eternally grateful for. We actually made it and boy does it feel good."
"Damn right it does."
"Do you have time to give me quick ultrasound?" Brooke asked as Rachel stopped and looked at her.
Rachel frowned; "Yeah, is everything ok?"
"Yeah, I think so, we were almost hit by a car today—"
"Oh of course! Clay told me, I'm so sorry I should have remembered—"
"It's ok, I imagine you were pretty busy sticking your tongue down Clay's throat anyway..."
"Brooke Davis!" Rachel said as she slapped her arm.
"Ow! What was that for?!"
"For spreading lies and slander about me… it was one kiss last night and that was it." Rachel insisted.
Brooke quirked an eyebrow, "I highly doubt that and really wish you two would just get your shit together, but I'm willing to let it slide for now…"
"Come on, let's check that baby out…" Rachel said as they made their way up to obstetrics.
Rachel soon had everything set up and Brooke lifted her scrub top and Rachel put the gel on.
"Ok, let's see… there they are. Heart beat is strong, they're moving around…" Rachel said with a wide smile.
Brooke let out a breath; "Oh thank god." She didn't think that anything was wrong, but there was a little part of her that was completely panicked.
"Do you want to see?"
"No, no don't show me, I don't want to know the sex." Brooke told her.
Rachel nodded, but as soon as she looked back at the monitor, her face fell. "Hold on…"
Brooke's head shot up; "What? What is it? Is something wrong?"
"Um, no, not exactly… but I think you're going to want to see this" Rachel said with a little laugh.
"What is it?"
Rachel turned the monitor around and Brooke examined it for a few moments, before her eyes widened.
She pointed at the screen; "Is that—"
"Two babies. You're having twins." Rachel said, beaming at Brooke who was a little shocked.
"Twins. Twins." She repeated twice, as if she was trying to convince herself of the clear fact. "What—what does that mean?" she asked in a daze.
Rachel raised an eyebrow; "Well—there's two babies—" she said. It was pretty self-explanatory.
"Oh my god there's a penis!" Brooke exclaimed as she looked at the sonogram.
Rachel quickly turned the monitor around. She was right, there was a penis. She figured she may as well confirm what she already knew. "Uh… yeah. There's a penis. A boy and a girl."
Brooke's face softened. A boy and a girl. One of each. What a perfect scenario. Panic left her body as she was overcome with joy.
"Wow" Brooke said as Rachel turned the monitor again for her to see. "Hold on… you did an ultrasound on me 8 weeks ago, how did you not see this?!" Brooke exclaimed. "You're supposed to be a neonatal surgeon and you can't read a damn sonogram!"
"Ok Brookie calm down, sometimes one baby hides behind another but now they're bigger they've got nowhere else to hide. You don't need to take your nervousness out on me ok?" Rachel said sternly.
"We almost died today. Our family was almost reduced to zero and now it's being increased to five."
"That is quite a day."
Brooke nodded; "Yeah. Quite a day indeed. What do I need to do now?" she asked as Rachel wiped the gel of her stomach and Brooke sat up.
"Naturally, 2 babies carry more of a risk than one so just don't go too hard, don't over exert yourself but also don't feel like you have to be wrapped in cotton wool. You're strong, you're healthy. I know Sophie's birth was pretty traumatic for you, but this doesn't have to be a similar experience. If you can go through that, you're a pro." Rachel said confidently.
Brooke sat up straighter with a proud smile. "A pro… yeah. I'm a pro."
Rachel chuckled; "I like that confidence. We'll set up another appointment in a couple of weeks to make sure everything is on track, but for now you're good to go. Go find your Luke and tell him some very exciting news."
That night, after a long surgery, Lucas stood outside his patient's ICU room watching as his intern checked her vitals. He'd been with her ever since he brought her into the hospital. He felt like he owed her something. It could have been him lying there with the horrible fracture and in need of skin grafts on his arms. But he had someone watching his back.
Nathan walked out of the ICU room and stood beside him.
"It could have me in that bed… and Brooke and Sophie." Lucas mumbled, as Nathan chose to remain silent. He didn't want to think that way.
Clay approached them; "Hey, how are they doing?"
"They're fine for now" Nathan said, having taken over the driver after it seemed she had problems with her heart that caused her to pass out at the wheel.
"Clay man. Thanks. You know… again." Lucas said again. If he wasn't careful he'd lose count over how many times he'd thanked Clay.
Clay shrugged it off; "It's been a crazy day… a couple of crazy days" he said as Nathan smirked. He'd heard all about the little kiss he'd shared with Rachel. He really couldn't keep his mouth shut sometimes.
"How's the headache Evans?" Nathan asked.
"Don't start with me Nate… it was a long and confusing night and I'm suffering the consequences of it now" Clay grumbled just as Brooke walked over to them and nudged Lucas in the side.
"Hey" she greeted as he turned around.
"Hey, navy scrubs, alright" he said with a smile as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder and kissed her head.
"Oh yeah, extra expandable waist too" she said as she pulled at the belt of her scrubs.
"Well you never looked better" he complimented as he kept his arm around her shoulder and they left the ICU.
"So I uh—I got that ultrasound." She told him.
"Everything ok?" he asked, looking down at her.
"Everything's fine… there—there was something though." She said as Lucas stopped and they turned to face each other.
"What? What is it? Is she ok?" he asked desperately.
"She is great, but she is also in there with a he." She said as her eyes brightened, seeing the light beam from Lucas's face.
"… Twins?" he asked.
Brooke nodded; "Twins. A boy and a girl." She confirmed as Lucas scooped her in his arms and hugged her tightly.
"I love you, I love you, I love you." He said happily as Brooke giggled. He soon let go of her and Brooke reached into her pocket and handed him the sonogram, which he looked at with pride. "Two babies… wow." He said in awe and wonder.
"You up for it?"
"As long as it's with you, I'm up for anything." He said as he rested his hand on her cheek. "I'm also up for anything considering we almost got hit by a freaking car this morning…" he grumbled.
"I know… crazy day huh?"
"Yeah…" he said quietly as he looked at his feet.
"Are you ok? You don't seem entirely ok—" she said as she rested her hand on his arm.
"All these near death experiences… I think it's making me have an existential crisis." Lucas said. "What are we doing here Brooke? Should we be out there doing more than we're doing now? Should we always be in the same place, should we change, should we adapt?"
"Lucas, it's ok to change. You should change, you're alive. It's ok to evolve, it's ok to search for more but that doesn't mean you should take for granted what you do have." She assured him.
"I know and I don't take what I have for granted, believe me, I just… I feel like I need a break from this place, you know?"
"I get it… and maybe one day you will." Brooke encouraged lightly. She didn't exactly know what getting away from this place would mean for Lucas, so she didn't exactly want to push him into taking off for a while, especially since she wasn't about to go anywhere with these two babies inside of her.
"Yeah, maybe…" he grumbled as he kissed her head and walked away, knowing this would plague him for the rest of the day.
That night, Rachel was tossing and turning in her bed. She couldn't get Clay out of her head and it was driving her insane. She was even having dreams about him. Really vivid dreams. Really explicit dreams. She kind of hated the guy. He was cocky and annoying but he had a smile that could melt a heart and she appreciated his suaveness. After giving up on sleep, she made her way downstairs for a late night snack and was surprised to see Brooke sitting at the kitchen counter, eating her way through a tub of ice cream.
"What are you doing here? When I gave you a key I didn't expect you to wander in in the middle of the night." Rachel asked.
Brooke shrugged; "I wanted some ice cream and you're the free alternative from going to the store" she said as she took another bite.
"I'm surprised Lucas isn't running at your beck and call…" Rachel mumbled. As she sat down opposite her. When Brooke was pregnant with Sophie, Lucas would have gotten her whatever she wanted, any time any place.
Brooke pouted; "I'm perfectly capable of getting myself some ice cream."
"Do you dream vividly?" Rachel asked. To Brooke it was a completely random question, but to Rachel it was an entirely necessary and justified one. "Like so vivid you can feel how the dream felt in your whole body…"
"So that's why you're awake… you've been having sex dreams about Clay" Brooke concluded.
Rachel's mouth fell open, "Well why are you awake?" she said, not wanting to confess the truth right now.
"Lucas's having an existential crisis which is making me nervous and therefore very much awake…" she said. "Oh! And there's the fact that my body is now housing two humans instead of the originally assumed one." She said with a little laugh. Once she shook had worn off, it was replaced with complete joy, but now she was entering freak out mode. Two babies and a toddler was a big deal—she didn't know how she was going to do it. She was incredibly thankful for Lucas though.
"Brooke, this is amazing news, don't forget that." Rachel warned.
"Yes, the miracle of life is great and I'm happy but I'm also freaking out a little bit. One baby is fine, but two babies and a toddler? It's a lot. Kind of like how your sex dreams about Clay are no doubt a lot." Brooke commented as Rachel frowned; "Like more than I bargained for a lot."
Brooke didn't get much sleep that night. She'd made her way home to find Lucas still sleeping soundly. The man could really sleep through anything. It kind of irritated her, but she knew it was the hormones talking.
The following morning, she was determined to panic to anyone who would listen – it just so happened that Clay was the first person she ran into.
"Two babies. That's twice as many diapers, twice as many feedings… twice as many emotions no doubt." Brooke told Clay as they walked through the hallway.
"Twice as much love too" Clay said, trying to get her to recognise the good.
"I know you're on a bit of a high right now because you saved our lives but don't get soppy on me Clay." Brooke grumbled.
Clay chuckled; "You're nervous, it's natural."
"I know but saying it's normal doesn't make me feel any better. Three kids under 3 is a lot to deal with."
"Sophie is beyond her years, seriously. The kid is like ten." Clay reminded her. Sophie was incredibly intelligent for her age. She was very aware and almost two years old, she was basically talking in full sentences and could easily read the emotions of the people around her.
"I know right?!" Brooke said. She thought she and Lucas were the only ones who had noticed how bright she was. "Like mother like daughter I guess…" she said with a jokingly conceited shrug..
"Have you spoken to Lucas about all of this?"
Brooke sighed; "He's having a bit of a crisis right now, the last thing he needs to be reminded of is that twins is a huge and difficult deal."
"You'll take to it like ducks to water." He said optimistically.
"I appreciate your optimism Clay, but again, tone it down."
Clay stopped and turned her to look at him; "1 is hard, 2 is hard, 3 is hard. It's never going to be easy, but you and Lucas make quite the team. Don't doubt yourself." He encouraged.
They turned the corner into the ICU and Brooke spotted Lucas filling in some forms at the nurse's station. She took a breath and approached him, ready to share how she was feeling.
"Hey…" she said semi-awkwardly. She'd received a voice mail from him last night wondering about her sudden departure for ice-cream and she had never replied.
"Hey, you ok? Did you get your ice-cream?" he asked with a little laugh.
"Oh. Yeah, Rachel had a pint in her freezer."
"Making use of your resources, nice." He said as his mouth turned into an upside-down smile and he nodded his head approvingly. "Next time, you can let me go get you some though."
"You know I like a late-night drive" she reminded him.
"I know, and you know I like to treat you."
"You can treat me by bringing me home a giant cheeseburger later" she said with a puppy dog pout.
Lucas chuckled; "Man, eating for three huh?"
Brooke gave him a tight-lipped smile. "Right, yeah. Three."
Lucas frowned picking up on her nervous tone; "Are you ok?"
Before Brooke could answer, Lucas' intern came over and held out a tablet for Lucas; "Dr. Scott? Jace's cultures are back."
"Can we talk about this later?" Lucas asked.
Brooke nodded; "Of course" she said, watching as he went into his patient's room.
Shortly after her conversation with Lucas, Andy paged Brooke about a surgery she wanted Brooke to take the lead on. She sat in one of the scan rooms looking through the patient's scans, when Rachel and Nathan walked into room.
"Hey, what do you have?" Nathan asked as he and Rachel sat down on the couch behind Brooke.
"Motorcycle crash with no helmet. Hargrove picked it up in the OR and he wants me to take the lead on the surgery. You?"
"I had a patient come in this morning with a bad heart – ironically, she started up an internet dating site." Nathan told them.
Brooke scoffed; "How ironic."
"Ugh, internet dating is so—" Rachel began.
"Deceitful" "Depressing" Nathan and Brooke said at the same time.
"Exactly…" Rachel grumbled.
"Well good thing you don't have to worry about internet dating when you have Evan pining after you like a lost puppy." Nathan teased.
"Don't push me Nate…" Rachel grumbled. She still wasn't in any mood to talk about that little predicament.
Brooke sat back in her chair and turned to look at them. "Did you guys know that parents of twins are more likely to get divorced than parents of single babies?"
Nathan sighed; "you're not going to get a divorce."
"You don't know that. Lucas's existential crisis could all get too much for him and then he'll factor in that he's going to have to look after two babies and… boom. Our marriage explodes and falls into millions of little pieces." Brooke dramatized.
"You need to stop trying to make your feelings into Lucas's feelings. You're an excellent mother, Lucas is an excellent father, give Sophie a year and she'll be able to look after them too, the child is a genius—"
"It does freak me out a little bit I'm not going to lie…" Brooke mumbled. Sophie was quite simply ahead of her time.
"You can do this Brooke, you're a pro." Rachel added. "Have a little faith in yourself."
"Hey, how's your patient?" Nathan asked Lucas when he ran into him in the hallway later that day.
"He's got an infection. I'm trying to monitor it but I'm not sure I can stop it… but I'm trying my best. Life's too short not to." He wised as Nathan quirked an eyebrow.
"Now I see what Brooke means about this existential crisis you're having… what's with the profound sentiments?"
"I almost died Nate. Peyton almost died. It really makes you think about stuff, you know?"
"Yeah, I know. It explains why Brooke's freaking out too." Nathan dropped. He knew he was being a little sly just dropping that into conversation, but Brooke was driving everyone nuts. She was panicking and she refused to talk to Lucas and while he was wholeheartedly against meddling, he determined that this was for the greater good.
"Well we got to try our best, right? Life's too short not too." Lucas said profoundly.
Lucas's head shot up; "What?" Brooke was freaking out? Why didn't he realise she was freaking out? Maybe because he'd been having his own freak out.
"Her life was almost taken from her and now she's not only responsible for keeping one new baby safe but two." Nathan explained.
"Brooke's freaking out?" Lucas questioned.
"Yeah… talk to her man" Nathan said, before walking away hoping that they would finally sort everything out.
Unfortunately, Lucas' best was no match for the infection his patient caught and he died later that afternoon. It was enough to push Lucas that little bit further over the edge. Brooke saw him very briefly after his patient died and realised that he needed some time to cool off.
So while Lucas went for a walk around town, Brooke took Sophie home.
She lay on the sofa looking down at her stomach while Sophie played on the floor beside her. Ever since she found out there were two babies in there, she felt like she had grown twice as big in a matter of days.
Sophie stood up from the floor and walked over to Brooke, placing a hand on her stomach. "Mommy a baby in there" she said with a giggle.
"Yeah sweetie… there's actually two babies in there." Brooke replied, trying to sound as excited as she could.
"Wow… how do they fit?!" Sophie asked in amazement.
"At the expense of mommy's bikini bod" Brooke replied sarcastically. "But let me tell you this… it is entirely worth it" she said with a smile.
Sophie tilted her head in wonder; "How did they get in there?"
Brooke frowned; "you're two, you're not allowed to ask these questions yet." She really wished that Sophie would just stay her baby for now.
"I wanna know!" Sophie demanded.
"Wow, ok… you know what? You should ask daddy when he gets home." Brooke said with an assuring nod.
"Ro Ro is a baby doctor" Sophie stated with a positive nod. Sophie adored her auntie Rachel, they had the sweetest bond.
"Yeah she is baby"
Sophie giggled; "Daddy is a boobie doctor."
Brooke held back her laughter. "Who told you that?" she asked. It certainly wasn't her.
Sophie giggled further; "Unkie Matty"
Brooke sighed and smirked; "Of course he did… daddy is more than a boobie doctor baby. He deals with your skin and your nose and ears and throat."
"Cool!" Sophie exclaimed, just as Lucas walked through the door. "Daddy" Sophie called as she rushed towards him and Lucas scooped her up; "How the babies get in there?" she asked as she pointed to Brooke's stomach.
Lucas gulped and looked at Brooke who merely shrugged and smiled; "Uh—"
"Welcome home daddy!" Brooke said excitedly as she sat up.
"Ask me again in ten years…" Lucas said as he set Sophie down and she swiftly forgot her question and went back to her toys.
Lucas sat on the sofa beside Brooke and allowed her to put her legs over his.
"I feel like I've grown to the size of a whale since I found out there were two babies in there…" Brooke told him as she rested a hand on her stomach.
"Well you're the most beautiful whale I've ever seen" Lucas said as he look her free hand and kissed it.
Brooke rolled her eyes; "Suck up…"
Lucas frowned; "You're really taking this hard, huh?"
Brooke shrugged; "It just took me surprise that's all. Two babies is a huge responsibility. I'm just nervous. But… I also know they have the best daddy in the world so they're going to be more than fine."
"What about the best momma in the world?"
"Soph? Who's your favourite, me or daddy?" Brooke asked.
"Daddy" Sophie answered without a second thought as Brooke raised her eyebrows at him.
"That—that's just Sophie, she's—wow, she really didn't hold back." Lucas said as he scratched his head, unsure what to say.
"It's at times like this I wish kids had filters."
"That is not an indication that you're a bad mom. Watch this" he said a she lightly nipped Brooke's ankle.
"Ow! Luke!" she exclaimed.
"Daddy no hurt mommy!" Sophie exclaimed with a furrowed eyebrow.
"See?" Lucas said, knowing that Sophie would always jump to the defence of her mother.
"Ok point proven... I know we will be ok. We just have to take each day as it comes." Brooke said as she held onto his hand. "I'm sorry for running off for ice cream last night." Brooke said, knowing they hadn't addressed that yet.
"I don't understand" Lucas said in a bit of a daze.
Brooke frowned; "Well, I panicked—"
"No, that I understand. I get why you panicked. Twins is a huge deal. But we are going to be ok. I promise." Lucas reiterated.
"What don't you get?" Brooke asked.
"I don't get why my patient is dead and we're alive. All five of us. We were pulled out of the way of a moving car and he wasn't. Why?" he asked as he released his hand from Brooke's and rested it on top of her stomach.
"Lucas" Brooke began as she shifted forward a little and rested her hand behind Lucas's neck. "I think you have a little bit of PTSD—"
"Not about the van Brooke—"
"Not just the van. Your whole world changed and then someone important to you almost died. Your family empire crumbled, Lucas that's a lot. You've been through a lot over the past year."
"Maybe." Lucas mumbled before he looked up at her though. "I got married though. To my forever love… and we're bringing two more babies into this world. I mean if we're like making a list of big things…" he said with a smile
Brooke smiled back; "Yeah, those are pretty big things."
"I may have been through a lot but—I've also gained a lot. I also have a lot of love in my life and I am sorry that you have been so freaked out and I'm sorry that I didn't notice but I—I love you. Very much. I love Sophie and this little boy and this little girl that we're having. I want to be the best husband and the best father than I can be." He told her quietly.
"You already are… and it's ok to have some things to figure out. I think I have some things to figure out too… but we got this Scott." She assured him.
"Yeah. We got this pretty girl."