A/N: Sorry about the delay on this chapter. I was gonna post it sooner than now but I wasn't emotionally ready to edit it. This chapter seriously took a toll on my emotions. So I hope that you guys like it. It took me forever to even write this chapter because I didn't know how to write this chapter.
Disclaimer: I only own Darcy. That is all.
No Going Back.
Darcy sat at the breakfast table with Nate and Chuck. Nate on the phone with his work.
"Yeah I'm coming into the office now but you have to cancel the meeting with Bloomberg there is just too much going on today…yeah sounds good." Nate said into the phone walking around the kitchen. "Thank you"
Nate hung up and turned to them.
"A week ago you couldn't get Bloomberg to give you a quote to the Spectator. Now you're canceling on him." Chuck said "That's a bold move Nathaniel. I'm almost aroused"
"Well ever since I published that article about staying independent from my family. People are paying attention."
"You're learning there are upsides to pissing off your family" Darcy replied.
"Grandfather actually loved the editorial so much that he invited me to be his guest at Camp Allen this weekend." Nate replied and Chuck's eyes got big "Yeah I leave for Vermont after work."
"You, Warren Buffet and every other finance and media titan. World domination by day. Debauchery by night. The Allen retreat is legendary. I pity the fool who tries to hire a call girl in Manhattan this weekend."
"I feel like I just lost you two to whatever far off land you just went" Darcy said.
"Why are you reading a rival paper?" Nate asked spotting the paper Darcy was reading and walked over "Oh wow"
"They might call off the wedding" Darcy said. To be honest she felt a little bad for Blair.
"I'm sure it's not even true" Chuck said.
"They haven't been spotted together in weeks. Not to mention he hasn't even been at Blair's. Serena told me"
"You Van der Woodsen girls gossiping?"
"We keep each other posted" Darcy replied "Now if you'll excuse me I am meeting Dan about Brooke's book"
She kissed Chuck and headed out. She got to Brooklyn and knocked on the loft door and Dan answered.
"Darcy. Hey?" he said.
"You seem surprised?" she said.
"Right now really isn't the best time."
"Why not?"
"I um…I have…company."
"Oh, okay. Well then we'll reschedule" she said and went to walk away when she heard a voice "Is that Blair?"
She looked behind him and saw her.
"Why is she here?"
"I'm helping her figure some stuff out"
"Louis?"
"Yeah"
"Well good luck with that Dan" she said and he shut the door and they headed outside. "Why exactly did you follow me down stairs?"
"I wanted to give you a heads up."
"About?"
"Blair still loves him."
"You didn't think I knew that. Dan I know how she feels but he sees her as a friend."
"She's dead set on them being meant to be."
"But they're not" She replied "And you need to convince her of that."
She walked away and grabbed a car and headed back to the Empire to see Lily and Chuck talking. Lily was walking out as she was coming in.
"Darling" Lily said.
"You and Bass have a nice chat?"
"I was just telling him how much I love you both."
"Us too Lily."
"You'll say it to him one day darling. I see it in your eyes that you love him. Now tell him."
"Thank you Lily." she said then hugged her. She watched her then leave and walked over to Chuck.
"What did you two talk about?" he asked greeting her with a kiss.
"You"
"How was Brooklyn?"
"Blair was there."
"Yeah I know, she called me."
"And?"
"She asked me if I could raise another man's baby."
"And?"
"I love you Ellis and the only baby I could raise is yours. No one else's"
"Well the only baby I plan on having is yours so we won't have to worry about that."
"I'd kill him."
"Romantic" she replied. "What did you tell her?"
"That I am madly in love with Darcy Van der Woodsen Ellis"
"Is that so?"
"It is"
"Well if that is true then will you Charles Bass be my date to Charlie's party?"
"I don't know."
"I promised her I would be there. I mean she's kinda family. I care about her like a sister. So yes you are coming"
"Taking charge. I love it"
"Well I only learned from the best" she smirked and he kissed her.
"Alright, let's go"
They headed down stairs and spotted Charlie.
"Charlie. You look beautiful" Darcy said hugging her.
"Thank you Darc, so do you"
"Ellis is the pure definition of beautiful"
"My boyfriend, the sweet talker" she said and he put a hand on the small of her back.
"I'm gonna find her some cider" Chuck said and they walked away.
"I truly am the luckiest girl alive" she commented as Dan walked over to them.
"Humphrey?" Chuck said.
"You need to come with me"
"Why?"
"Blair"
"I already told her my answer"
"She's not listening to either of us then"
"What if I try?" Darcy said "Like women to women"
"I'm coming with" Chuck said and they followed Dan to where Blair is at. They got inside and spotted her sitting there.
"What are you two doing here?" Blair asked and Darcy sat down next to her.
"Blair?" Darcy said and Blair turned to her "Are you not happy with Louis?"
"Why do you ask that?"
"Because for some reason you think that you and Bass are meant to be."
"I'm so sorry Darcy" Blair said.
"Can I ask why?" Darcy asked.
"I'm jealous of you. You made him this amazing man. This good man."
"He's always been good. He just needed a reason to. But Blair it's because of you that he's capable of true feelings. I know I was friends with him through all that. I wouldn't have what I have if it wasn't for you showing him it's possible."
"But he loves you. He is so in love with you. I use to have that with him"
"I remember"
Blair's phone dinged.
"What was that?" Chuck asked.
"Gossip Girl. Someone sent out a blast that I was here with you" Blair said "Obviously they forgot to mention that Darcy is in here too?"
"Then we need to get you home" Darcy said.
"We can sneak her upstairs" Chuck said.
"Paparazzi will spot next day exit. She needs to go now"
"Sorry to interrupt but we might want to get Blair out of here" Nate said.
"I'll make sure Blair gets home. You distract the media. You're good with Press."
They got down to the Garage. Darcy helped Blair in. Blair grabbed her hand.
"Thank you Darcy."
"What for?"
"Being you I guess. You could honestly be the biggest bitch to me if you wanted. But you're not. You're kind and genuine."
"We grow up. Plus, you're Bass's friend so by association I guess one day. We can be too"
She walked over to Chuck and kiss him.
"I'll be home soon. I promise" he said.
"I love you" she said surprising herself but she really thought about what Lily had said. He looked at her and kissed her again.
"I love you too" he said and she smiled. He climbed in. The car pulled away. Nate's pulled out behind theirs. She walked over to her bar where Dan and Serena were.
"Can I get a scotch? Neat." Darcy said and the bartender handed it to her.
"Darc what are you doing?" Serena asked.
"Will one of you guys drink this" she asked and Dan grabbed it and slammed it.
"Damn Dan. I need to take you drinking"
"Don't do it Dan" Serena joked.
"I gotta go. Need to write that afterward" Dan said then left Darcy took his seat.
"If you order another drink. I'm not drinking it" Serena said.
"I'm good" Darcy said "Plus I think Dan needed that more than me?"
"What's on your mind?"
"I said them."
"What?
"Them, those three words that I…"
"Oh my god Darc! That's fantastic!" Serena shouted.
"I haven't said those words since I was 4. But your mom and I were talking earlier that she could see it in my eyes that I did, and then watching him helping Blair out with this ordeal. I just knew I had to say them. There was no going back."
"I am so proud of you. I should call Dad. This is a major Darcy milestone." Serena said picking up her phone as Darcy's rang.
"Hello" she said.
"Darcy" Nate said and she could here sadness in his voice.
"What's wrong Nate?"
"There was an accident Darc. A bad one in the park"
"Don't. Don't say it"
"You should get to the hospital quick. Chuck was…."
"NO! NATE! I told you not to say it!" she said beginning to cry. Serena took the phone from her and hung it up. They rushed over to the hospital. She spotted Nate and ran over to him. He pulled her in tightly wrapping his arms around her.
"Are they okay" Serena asked rubbing the back of Darcy's head.
"They haven't said anything yet. I watched the whole thing and stayed with them till the ambulance came. The EMT said it's pretty bad."
Darcy sunk into a chair and Serena sat down next to her grabbing her hand.
"This is all my fault" Darcy said.
"Darc, no it's not" Serena replied.
"This always happens S. I say them and this happens"
"Darc this isn't your fault" Nate said grabbing her hand and leaning down in front of her.
"I'm gonna call mom and Rufus"
"They're already here" Nate said then pulled Darcy up "Come on let's get you some air"
Later in the evening Darcy sat outside Chuck's room. Lily walked over and put a hand on her shoulder.
"You should go sit in the lobby with Serena"
"I can't Lily. I need to be right here."
"Have you called your father?"
"Not yet. I've been too focused on Chuck."
"I'll do it for you okay, you need him here for you" Lily said as the doctor walked over.
"Are you Mr. Bass's mother?"
"Yes" Lily said and watched the doctor look at Darcy. "This is his fiancé"
Lily grabbed Darcy's hand and gave it a squeeze. The doctor explained everything and Darcy sunk to the floor. Lily walked over to the rest and explained. The monitors started going off and Darcy cried harder. She spotted the doctors running down the hall. She got out Chuck's phone that Nate had handed her and went down to a number she knew could help them and called it.
"Nephew" the voice said.
"No" she responded. "Jack it's me, it's…"
"Darcy?" Jack asked "Is everything okay?"
"No, it's not."
"What happened?"
"He was in an accident. It's bad Jack. It's really bad. I can't lose him."
"I'll be there soon."
"I'll have a room for you at the Empire. Thank you Jack"
"We're family" he said and she smiled. She hung up the phone and then just sat there watching everyone walk around her. She couldn't help but blame herself. She said those words and the world went to shit. Again.
A/N: So now you know why it took a toll on my emotions. Hope you enjoyed it.