Hey guys! Just wanted you to know that I already watched the ENDGAME on the first day and I gotta say it was epic, though I honestly hate the ending when... (GUYS, SPOILERS! IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED THE MOVIE YET! IT WOULD BE BETTER IF YOU JUST CONTINUE READING THIS CHAPTER AND IGNORE THIS INFO! READ IT AT YOUR OWN RISK! OKAY HERE GOES—) Steve went back into the 1940s to be with Peggy and there he married her... And I am honestly not satisfied with this.
DON'T GET ME WRONG I LOVE STEGGY AND I STILL DO! I AM EVEN A STEGGY SHIPPER WAY BACK WHEN THE FIRST CAPTAIN AMERICA FILM CAME OUT. But when the tv-series of AGENT CARTER came out, I have gone to admire the relationship between Peggy Carter and Daniel Sousa. Their chemistry is over the top and my love for PEGGYSOUS has grown bigger.
Yes, Steggy is still my ship and they were beautiful together. But sometimes I hate it when they are pushing Daniel Sousa aside and I just... (T^T)"
Peggy had moved on. She fell in love with someone else, she got married and had kids and she did all of that without Steve. Her life was incredible and she was happy with Daniel.
And so with the power of Fanfiction, I will try to write this fic as best as I can to make Steve deserve someone better and move on to find new love. Especially Helen Cho, who didn't have enough screentime during the AGE OF ULTRON and she was completely ignored after that, she deserves better. They both need to deserve something better. And I apologize if my writing isn't that good, as I said again ENGLISH is not my first language. If I ever make a mistake, you can send your comment on the inbox ;)
So anyway, I hope you enjoy this chapter of mine, even though it's silly and over the top (OuO)❤️!
~April 4, 2015~
"Well, it was nice seeing you again, Captain Rogers."
Steve watches Helen slightly bowed her head in respect then looks up to him with a serene and gentle smile. Suddenly he felt his heart beating a bit fast when she smiles at him like that and he can't understand why for some reason.
'Why do I always feel my heart beating when she looks at me? … Though she looks beautiful when she smiles like that, I hope she does this more often—wait, what?' He mentally shrugs his thoughts of her as he politely smiles at her in return.
"It was nice seeing you too, Dr. Cho." He said while doing the same as Helen's gesture before they walk pass by each other, moving on their separate ways to do their work.
Steve stopped his pace before looking back to see Helen who's still walking through the hallway while reading her tablet until her presence disappears by turning to the other hall. Lost in his thoughts when he thinks about her. This was different. Different from the way Peggy looks at him. Hers was sympathy and fondness.
When Helen's eyes gaze at him, he can see adoration and… compassion. He can't help but admire her very much. She's a very independent and strong woman, and can tell that she's not much of a fighter like Natasha or Maria or even Peggy. Stark was right, Helen has the epitome of Beauty and Brains.
But nonetheless, Steve's love for Peggy will never change. He will always be loyal to her, no matter what. But he can't help but feel this strange yet a warmth connection he has towards Helen when he looks at her.
'Why do I feel this way when you look at me… why?'
His thoughts were off now as he turns around from where she left and went back to his work.
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~April 6, 2015~
Another day at the Avengers headquarters, as usual, everyone is busy with their own routines. Natasha had gone off with Clint to do their training as always, Tony and Bruce began decoding the secrets of the Scepter while Thor was having a conversation with his girlfriend, Jane in the computer screen as some sort of a "Skype date", thanks to Tony's help. Steve on the hand, also did his training but only did in the morning before Clint and Natasha arrived. So the only thing he does right now is going straight towards the kitchen to get a cup of coffee or maybe a healthy fruit squeezed juice considering he just had an early morning exercise from the gym.
As he wandered into the kitchen, he noticed someone is there sitting at the table as he couldn't see her face though he knows it is her due to her usual lab uniform with her hair tied up in a messy bun and her back was in front of him. Being a respectful man as he is, Steve knocks on the wooden side wall to get the doctor's attention for letting him come in first.
She turns around to face him with her eyes widened though it quickly softens a bit, seeing his presence as she smiles at him. Steve feels his heart beating fast again when she looks at him but kept himself calm as he also smiled in return and greeted her politely.
"Morning, Dr. Cho."
"Good morning, Captain Rogers."
"Mind if I come into the kitchen?" He asked while tilting his head, gesturing her to let him in.
She nodded before saying. "Yes, please."
The captain then goes into the kitchen then passes by her to go get a drink from the fridge as he took out a pitcher of orange juice and picks up a glass then pours it fully before drinking it all up. He can feel Helen's eyes gazing at him for a while until he turns around and sees her eyes really looking right at him before quickly narrowing down then picking up a piece of yellow egg roll from her plastic container with her chopsticks and eating the whole egg in her mouth and awkwardly chewing it slowly. Steve can see her cheeks evidently bloating when she tries to chew her food. Softly chuckling at her silly gesture as he somehow finds it really adorable when she tries to eat her food whole in her mouth like a kid caught up by getting a piece of cake without their parents' permission.
Helen slowly looks up to see Steve staring at her with an amused smile on his face as she tries to talk with her food in her mouth.
"Yesh?"
Steve makes his way towards the table and sat on his chair then places the pitcher and his glass before facing her, still smiling. "You know you could talk to me than just watch me drink my juice."
She immediately swallows her food and nervously chuckled before saying. "Yeah, I know. I'm sorry." She looks down while poking her egg rolls with her chopsticks.
"No, it's okay. I understand." He waved it off and shrug.
"You do?" Helen looks at him with her raised eyebrow. 'Oh God, this is so embarrassing if he knows that I stared at his figure, wearing his grey tank top, his muscled body… his god-like looking arms… his handsome fac— wait, what?!' She shrugged off those lustful thoughts about him as she waits until he spoke.
"Yeah, that your mind is off somewhere and after all the hard work you've been back in the lab. You're in a dazed state, so I understand." He said this before pouring another juice and took a big sip.
'Oh… so that's what he thought.' Helen made a soft yet a quiet sigh with relief though somehow disappointed that he failed on what she really thinks. She nodded with a quiet laugh. "Yeah, I guess you're right."
"I see you're reading 'Sense & Sensibility' there." Pointing at the completely opened small book beside her food. "You like romance novels?"
Shyly smiling before she spoke. "Mostly classic ones, yes." Looking down at her book while brushing the old paper with her fingertips. "My mother was an English teacher back in Seoul and she gave this novel to me on my tenth birthday, telling me that 'the better way to learn English is by reading and understanding this book'. And this novel for me is the best way to think that heroes get exactly what they deserve in the end but in a very real way that leads to a hard-won happy ending. To have a second chance in life. This is the first book I've ever read when it comes to knowing English words."
His eyes soften as he spoke out. "It's a good thing she gave this to you as a valuable gift. Your mother must've been wonderful."
"Yes, she is." Looking down at the opened book while still stroking it softly.
Curious suddenly moved out of his lips as he asked. "Is your mother still teaching English in school?"
There was a deafening silence between Steve and Helen. He shouldn't have asked this. And with the looks on her face, he can see that there were sadness and grief in them.
"Dr. Cho, I'm sorry." He apologized when Helen waved it off then smiled a bit.
"No, it's okay. Um…" She bit her while looking down and fidgeting her fingers. Taking a small sigh before looking up at him, softly smiling at him with traces of pain in her eyes. "My mother… died of leukemia. I was sixteen when she passed away, and I have been on my own when I graduated high school after being raised in a foster home. And the money my mother saved, I spend it to enter college as I promised myself that after she died, I would have helped the people who are mortally injured. To save them from their death by healing them. And I did it by studying science…"
"I'm really sorry..." His eyes lowered down as he begins to remember his mother for a moment before he gazes up at her with a soft smile in return. "I'm sure your mother will be very proud of what you have done today."
"Thank you, Captain." Helen looked at him with sincere.
And if there is any consolation…" He looked deeply into her eyes as he spoke out. "I… I know how you feel. Because I lost my mother too."
Her eyes widened in a soft shock when Steve has lost a parent also like hers. "S-Sir, I'm sorry. You don't have to tell me—"
Steve cut-off sentenced to her protest and continued. "No, but I do, please. It's alright…" He took a deep breath before he spoke. "You see… I've been on my own since I was eighteen after my mother died. Trying to fit in anywhere, including the army. Always got rejected."
"Captain… I really am sorry." Helen sincerely apologized.
"It's okay but… thank you, Dr. Cho. At least, in the end, I got accepted." Steve smiled. "Things may end up worst from the start but in the end, things will get better. You just need to have faith."
"You are right, Captain." She nodded in agreement then continued. "I guess we both have something in common when things get depressing from the start, we will always hope that everything will be alright in the end." She chuckled softly.
"It seems we are." He chuckled along as well then the silence between them begins to surface but not long before Helen cleared her throat a bit awkwardly.
"Enough sad moments, let's just talk about something else like um…" She thinks of something that is interesting and above all else, she talks about…
"Are you hungry? How about you try some of tamagoyaki?" Nervously grinned as she quickly pushes her container of perfectly aligned six egg rolls in front of Steve who was surprised by her silly yet intriguing request.
'What kind of a question is that, Helen? For a smart person such as yourself, you ask him that question! Stupid!' Helen thought to herself in embarrassment.
He looks down at the yellow oval-shaped food with curiosity. "Um, sure I would love some."
"Here, use these chopsticks." She hands Steve her wooden chopsticks to let him try this dish but unfortunately, he does not know how to use them as he took them from her hands.
"How do you use them?"
"Oh." Realizing that Steve has not heard of using an Asian utensil before as she teaches him how to use it. "Here I will teach you how to use these wooden sticks, alright?"
"Alright."
Thankfully, Helen has a spare one as she puts out another pair of chopsticks and begins to teach him.
"Okay, this is how you use our cultural utensils. First, you hold your dominant hand loosely and place the first chopstick in the valley between your pointer fingers and thumb. Balance it on your ring finger." She shows him her perfect position as Steve tries to copy hers. "Then place the second chopstick in the valley between your pointer finger and thumb along with the first chopstick, but rest this one on your middle finger instead of your ring finger." Helen looks to see if he got it right and luckily, he somehow got this position. "And finally, use your thumb, pointer and middle fingers to grasp the second chopstick a bit more tightly. Like this." She moves the chopsticks up and down then looked up to see Steve trying to do what she does until he got it right.
"There, that's it. You have done it." Helen grinned a bit proudly at his small success. "And so here's how you picked up the dish with a chopstick." She picks up one of the egg rolls and lifts it towards her mouth then bites a half before chewing it.
"See, easy as pie. Now you try." She pointed at her dish while looking at him with positive assurance.
Steve uses the chopsticks carefully and picks up the egg roll before he takes a bite of the dish. His eyes widened in delight when he tried this.
"You… you like it?" Helen nervously asked and staring at him while slightly playing her chopsticks as she waited for his response.
"This is good." He said this before taking another bite.
"Really?" Her eyes twinkled in satisfaction.
"Yeah, it's really good." He smiled before picking up another egg roll. "You made this?"
Helen nodded a bit bashfully and replied. "Yeah, I made it."
"What is this called again?" Steve asked while lifting his half eaten egg roll.
"That's tamagoyaki."
"Tama-what?" Trying to pronounce that foreign word.
"Tamagoyaki, Captain."
"Tama-gu-yaky?" Cringed at his words for trying it.
Helen chuckled slightly and shook her head in amusement.
"You somehow got it, but I think it would be easier if you call it 'egg rolls' instead." She winked at him and continued giggling at his failed effort.
"Yeah, you're right. Maybe it's better if you teach me on how to speak Korean. Just to improve my language skills." He said with an amused grin.
"Oh sure, I will teach you how to speak Korean."
"Really? You will?" His eyes widened ecstatically at her response.
"I'm sure. If you and I have a break from our own professional working ways, I will help you learn." Helen grinned blissfully as she was pleased that the Captain was interested in learning her native language. "It's that alright?"
"Alright."
The doctor nodded pleasantly then spoke out. "You know… you are the first person to hear when I talked about half of my personal life, Captain Rogers."
"Mine too, Dr. Cho. You may be one of the women in my life knows about half of my "sad" personal life. But in this era, you are the only one here who knows mine. " Steve genuinely smiled at her as Helen chuckled softly.
Suddenly, the silence between the two began to grow again. Their eyes gaze at each other for a moment, her earthly dark eyes staring at his ocean blue eyes when they both feel again this strange connection when they unknowingly touch their fingertips together in the middle of the table. Then something happened, when they felt their skin grew a bit hotter as Steve slowly slid his fingers pass hers before completely hovering her whole hand, stroking it softly.
Helen softly gasped then felt her cheeks redden when his hand touches hers until that moment ended as her phone vibrated from her pocket. Their unfamiliar desirable fantasy between them had quickly faded and the two have come back into their normal states. She immediately moves her hand away from his, stunned at what had just happened between her and Steve but she shrugged it off quickly and averted her eyes away from him as she picked up the phone from her pocket and look at the screen as her eyes widened in mild shock.
"Oh God, I have to go. Got some things to do at the lab." The doctor packed up the empty container and her chopsticks before she stood up and moved away from the table. Helen can see him looking a bit stunned as well but the difference is, his body stayed calm yet his fingers stiffened from where their hands touched in the middle of the table.
"Doctor, I…" Steve tries to apologize but Helen slowly moved backward before saying.
"Good day, Captain Rogers." And with that, she turned around and went out of the kitchen leaving Steve alone without giving him another chance to speak. While walking in the hallway, she feels her heart beating a bit faster than the last time when she was with him.
'Steve… why do I feel this way when you are around me?'
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Steve still sat on the chair with his hand in the middle of the table, looking so overwhelmed on what happened today. He seriously didn't know why his hand was hovering over Helen's petite soft hand in the first place yet he couldn't help but feel the warmth when he touches her. He felt his fingers trembling as he wondered if he could just touch her one more— 'No!' He thought angrily to himself. Steve was never the type of man to be unfaithful towards the only woman he loves or the type of man to find another woman and move on. He couldn't do that. He couldn't do this to Peggy. He promised himself that he will never move on. He doesn't want to neglect his best girl. He couldn't…
His thoughts began to deepen as he made a deep sigh.
But why… why does he feel this way?
Why does it have to be Helen? Why her?
In all of honesty, he can't explain it. Not even close to a perfect answer.
Soulmates are kind of a bit weird to you guys, right? Well to me I think it's kind of romantic ❤️
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See you soon for the next chapter ;)
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