As I got to the beach I sat down on the soft sand. The wind flowed through my hair, almost as if it was tempting me to be calm. After a few more swirls of wind and watching the waves my body's heart rate slowed, and I was able to keep myself in check. Thank god because Seth and Ryan had followed me and plopped down beside me on either side. I internally sighed. I loved them but couldn't a girl just be alone with her thoughts every once in a while?

"Hey hot head, " Ryan said smirking. I turned to glare at him.

"Can you not? Besides I'm not a hot head. I was barely angry." It was true. I wasn't angry. I was hurt.

"She's not a hot head. Jayla, Paul and Jade are hot heads." Seth piped in chuckling. He put his arm around my shoulder and I leaned on him. For someone I was 4 years older than, at this moment I seemed like the kid.

"Can I help you guys?" I asked with a little annoyance.

"Just wanted to see how you were doing. Jake had said some pretty harsh words to you." Seth explained.

"They weren't that harsh. But for some reason they did hurt like they were." It was frustrating me that I had reacted like that. So, what a stranger thought I was a stuck-up wretch? So, what he thought my relationship was going to fail? What did it matter what Jacob Black thought?

"It's okay if he hurt you, Joc." Ryan said sincerely.

"It doesn't really matter. He's wrong." If Jacob thought my relationship wouldn't last, I'd show him that it would. If he wanted to make me out to be a child with frilly ideas about love, I'd show him that my knowledge was nothing less than exact of the emotion.

Bring it on, Black.

_JJ_

The next week was a bit awkward for me and the pack. It didn't seem much like I belonged anymore. But the feeling was more so, I didn't belong because the tension with Jacob was too much for everyone to handle. When I'd be alone with the girls' things would be normal but as soon as Jacob appeared, I'd feel like an outsider. Although I felt like pieces of my heart had been shattered I wasn't going to let it break me. The feeling of outcast was a good thing. Especially with Luke's visit rapidly approaching. I had no idea how things would be if he came. Did I kiss him? Did we just wait and see how the chemistry was between us before getting intimate? Did I introduce him to my new friends? I knew that wouldn't go over smoothly. And I also knew that despite him being my fiancé, he would have to report the information back to the chief of the Souliet tribe. My grandfather.

"Why so glum chum?" Jayla said as she set her notebook and math textbook down. She took the wooden seat across from me and sat down.

"Luke's coming on Friday. I have no idea how things are going to go and it's making me a little crazy."

"I keep forgetting you're engaged. Why don't you ever wear a ring?" She asked while taking out a pencil from her purse. I cringed. I wore my ring the first week I was here, but ever since I met Jacob... I took it off when I was about to the dishes and it never seemed right to put it back on.

" I have no idea." I ran my fingers through my loose waves. "I just don't feel the way I used to. But I mean, that could be because we used to be together every day and now we haven't seen each other for 2 months. My friend Kailey gives me updates and we talk to each other every night before bed. The conversation gets shorter and shorter every day." I blurted out. I couldn't hold the truth in anymore.

" Jocelyn," She reached her hand across the table and put it on my wrist. "Are you sure you even want to get married anymore?"

"The marriage wouldn't be the problem." I said my voice quiet. I couldn't believe I was saying this. I brought my face down on my arms.

"What's the problem?" She asked carefully.

"Marrying him."

"You're not in love with him anymore. Are you." She stated rather than asked the undeniable question.

"I hope so. I'm hoping that when I see him all my emotions come flooding back into my body. I'm praying that everything will feel right again." The last part was a lie. Things felt right; when Jacob looked at me.

Friday came way too quickly but at the same time not quick enough. The tension with Jacob had eased some but I didn't think we would ever not have at least a little bit of the strange air around us. School was a complete blur, I was way too anxious to pay attention let alone talk to anyone. I had to try and keep my powers under the wraps and it was even harder when I was nervous. Luke would be coming at 6:30 which meant I had to make sure my house was clean and show him around La Push. It didn't help that I also had to give him information the people that I considered very close friends.

I said my goodbyes to everyone and rushed home to start cleaning. Mom and Quinn were going away for the weekend. But I think Mom was trying to delay their leave so Quinn could meet his possible step son-in law. Never mind that they had briefly met and Luke didn't like him because of our tribes' differences. I opened the front door to see Quinn watching television and my mom nowhere to be found.

"Where's mom?" I asked already trying not to explode.

"She's just packing her bags." He said not sparing me a glance. One thing I learned about Quinn was that if football was on don't expect him to look at you when he was speaking.

"So, neither of you could help clean the house? Thanks a lot." My mom was home all day and she couldn't bother to do her dishes from breakfast this morning. I took deep breaths while walking to my room. I took my jacket off and entered my room to find my mother going through my jewelry.

"What the fuck are you doing!?" I hardly yell, because when I do; it sounds like a banshee screaming. My mom jumped and turned around looking sheepish. She knew she had just been caught.

"I was looking for those silver earrings your father had given you." My fingers clenched without permission.

"Yes. That my dad had given ME. Get out." My voice was vicious. If she was to speak again I'd unleash all that I was to her. She must have saw my eyes go black and immediately exited my room. I raced back and forth in my room trying to relax. How dare she try and take the few things I had left of my father. She was such a wicked woman. I changed out of my school clothes putting on spandex shorts and a tank top. I threw my hair in a bun on top of my head at the same time I heard the front door close and the engine to my mother's Corolla start. Good. I didn't need her around to make things more complicated. I turned on my stereo and began cleaning. Cleaning the house has always been somewhat therapeutic but today it was needed. As I finished several areas in the house I was able to evaluate things with a level head. I would always love Luke, we had been through so much together but maybe I could fall back in love with him this weekend. The distance between us took away the magic but perhaps this time well spent will bring it back and remind me how good we were together.

When the house was clean I had just enough time to shower and clean my room, I decided to hide my jewelry box. Who knows what else my mother has stolen from me without me knowing. I went to shower and made sure to shave everything. I didn't think things would get intimate but I was praying they would because that would mean I still felt something for him. As I put on a tight green sweater dress and my hair in a high ponytail my nerves started to resurface. What if he's not attracted to me anymore? My phone started ringing and I jumped across my bed to answer it thinking it was Luke telling me her was here early. When I reached the phone, I saw Kailey's face. I accepted the face time call and set myself back in front of my vanity.

"Hey Kails," I said starting to do some light make up.

"I wish I could have come." She whined, though I could see she was also getting dressed.

"I know, I miss you so much. Next time!" I was putting my lip gloss on.

"Are you nervous?" She asked while walking.

"Nervous for?"

"Sex, of course. You haven't been with someone in 2 months...right?" She winked at me and I rolled my eyes.

"No. I haven't. But why would I be nervous? I'm sure things work the same. Besides he hasn't been with someone for as long as I. " as I said those words I saw her mouth twitch. Kailey's mouth twitching was usually a 'tell' that she knew something.

"Kailey... what happened?" My heart beat started to hurt. Had Luke cheated on me?

"Nothing! I just- I don't know. Maybe I'm jaded because he could actually remain faithful." She said her voice hard. And I immediately relaxed.

"Kails, when you find the right guy, they will be faithful." I looked at the time. 6:20PM. "He'll be here soon. I gotta go babe, I hope you have fun wherever you're going. You look gorgeous as always." I hung up before she could respond and put on the finishing touches.

Just as I was about to go to the living room to turn on the television, the doorbell rand and my heart immediately sped up. My fiancé was on the other side of the door and I had to see if I could still marry him. God, life had become extremely difficult. I slowly walked to the front door, took a deep breath and then opened it. My heart pounding, my breath hitched and my eyes started filling with tears. There was my Luke. Luke had brown curly hair, green eyes and a tall frame that was well built. Of course, once I came here it was nowhere near as built as I thought.

None of that mattered at the moment. As our eyes met, his sparkled and I knew he still loved me. I felt it. With no words we gathered each other into our arms and squeezed each other. He felt like home. It felt like I was back at the reservation with my friends and I was still planning my wedding, my friends were looking for dresses, our pack fighting to save innocents and my grandfather teaching me how to control my psychic abilities. At this moment Luke felt so right, to hell with anything that argued with him and I together. I have no clue who reached for who but our lips found their way to each other. We kissed as if we were stranded in the Sahara and water- starved. We were starving. I didn't realize how bad until his tongue entered my mouth and my body lit on fire.

He pushed me back and shut the door with his foot. We fell back on to the couch, him on top of me and his delicious weight making my fire ignite to a hotter temperature. His body between my legs and are hands intertwined. Luke was always a bit rough, which I hated. But today I didn't care. It's been so long that everything he did felt undeniably good. He moved his lips and placed them on my neck while our lower bodies were creating a beautiful rhythm. His hands moved under my shirt and instantly found my breasts. I moved my hands to the bottom of his shirt and rolled it up to take off. I wanted skin-to-skin right now.

He removed his shirt and then started kissing me. Our moans were beginning to get loud and our breath was slowly but surely leaving us. My dress had been hiked up and my black laced thong was incredibly visible. He moved back from kissing me and looked down and smirked.

"Sexy." His deep voice was like honey on biscuits. My panties were damp but were now wet.

"I thought you would like them." I smirked. His green eyes showed mischief, and without my powers helping me figure out Luke's intent his pants certainly helped make things clear.

"Where's your mom and her husband of the year?" He spoke with a bit of disgust laced around his words. Luke knew how my mother treated me and thought it was as sick as I did.

"They went away for the weekend." I said while grinding my lower half to his. I desperately needed sweet friction.

"She always was reckless." He said smirking at me moving my hips in circles.

"Well, we are engaged." I said and for once it didn't feel like a lie. He smiled a genuine smile and kissed me. This kiss wasn't as hot as the others. It had a genuine feel to the way his lips touched mine. The tempo soon changed and it began to fill with lust and temptation. He moved down my neck and choked me as he went between my legs. The moan that escaped my mouth sounded estranged, even to me, but I didn't have any ounce of care in me. This boy was turning me on so much I couldn't wrap my head around it. He started kissing my thighs and I felt him carefully nip me, my panties balming most of the sensation. I quickly sat up and pushed him away from me. He looked startled.

"Let's continue this elsewhere." I said standing up and walking down the short hall that lead to my room.

We entered my room and I pushed him onto my bed. i slowly took off my sweater dress, leaving me in only my black panties. I had skipped out on the bra, my breasts being perky enough without the monstrosity. If he was erect earlier, he certainly was now. I grinned evilly. I walked towards him and took of his jeans and he kicked off his shoes. i pushed him back on the bed and straddled him while moving my hips once again, causing him to groan. I wasn't on top for long, Luke grabbed the back of my head and kissed me hard while rolling us. Damn was he so hot.

"I don't think I can take much more teasin'" he said panting.

"Good, because I don't think I can either." I said breathing quickly. I grabbed him again and our lips met.

His hand began moving down my body and with one hand he took off my panties. Wow. When did he become such an expert? He then pushed his finger inside me and I screamed out in surprise and please. He began pumping his finger inside my already soaking wet sex and my moans got louder.

"Fuck," I said exasperated as he pumped his fingers in and out of me, adding two other fingers.

"Damn, baby. You're soaking my fingers." He said his voice tight. My eyes rolled back into my head. His deep sex voice and the naughty words he was saying were going to have me losing my mind.

"Please Luke." I begged, I need him. Now.

As if he couldn't take it anymore he got up his arms on either side of my head and I pulled down his pants, boxers included. As I slowly, seductively pulled down his bottoms I couldn't help but feel excited and nervous. I hadn't had sex in so long but I was excited because clearly I was doing something right. As i saw him in all his naked glory, I couldn't help but feel like things were good. He stood up and pulled his pants fully off.

"You're still on birth control right?" He asked while staring at me licking his lips.

"Yes." I said my chest rising and falling. I saw his eyes watching the movement and his penis get impossibly more erect.

"Thank god."

He got back on the bed and started kissing me. Our tongues danced, our mouths constantly hungry for more. And without warning he entered me. I broke away from his lips and moaned incredibly loud. Fucking hell. I had missed sex more than I realized. He thrust into me without holding anything back and it didn't take long for me to cum the first time of the night. As he moved in and out of my pussy my body began to go into a frenzy. It was craving to me touched everywhere by him. He leaned down while still working me, and began sucking on my nipples.

"Fuck babe." I said right after I moaned.

He pulled out of me, far too soon. As I was about to complain he turned me around and set me up so my stomach was flat against the bed but my ass was facing the sky. In one swift move he entered me and began pounding his dick inside of me. Each thrust made me moan or scream, my breath coming and going and I was beginning to sweat. God he felt so good.

"You like this Joc?" He said while slamming into me. How the fuck was he able to keep going? He used to only last a few minutes at a time. But lord may he continue.

"Yes."

"Tell me what you like." He demanded while stopping. Damn him.

"I like you inside me." As I said this he slowly went into me and slowly went out.

"Like this?" He said doing the same slow motion as before. My body- already- starting to get frustrated with his slow pace.

"No, faster." He went slightly faster and I was starting to get annoyed, my orgasm not far away.

"Is this better?" He asked, I didn't have to look at him to know he was smirking.

"Fuck me fast and hard. Pound into me like before." I said gritting my teeth.

Without any words he slammed into me so hard I screamed. He then quickly came out of me- almost fully and slammed into me again. He continued this hard and even faster than before and it wasn't long until I reached my release. This was absolutely glorious.

After my third time coming, I decided it was his turn. It's only fair. I squeezed his wrist to let him know to stop and began moving myself. I set the pace slow to tease him as he had previously done to me. Soon he was groaning more and I began to go faster.

"Fuck Jocelyn. You're working me so well." He said losing his breath. At the sound of his extremely attractive voice I began moving faster. Until he grabbed hold of my hips and began moving his self. We were both rocking with each other, following the tempo and soon he and I were both screaming our release.

After I came from the bathroom from washing up, Luke was wearing shorts and laying on my bed waiting for me. As I looked at him, my heart felt light. When my door moved he turned and looked at me with a smile.

"That was amazing." He said. I swear my eyes rolled back into my head. His voice always did this to me. It wasn't the same over the phone. But in person it had me wanting him again and again.

"It was." I walked to the bed after turning off the light and placed myself into his awaiting arms. I couldn't believe that I thought our chemistry had died. Our magic was still here and if anything it had just been blown out of the water after that sex session.

"You don't know how many nights I've spent wanting you to be in my arms again."

"I think I might." I said turning so we were face to face. I leaned in to kiss him and it soon started to awake the parts of me that had just been used. He kissed me like an expert and I was again happily shocked that he had gotten so good at it. My hands moved down to his shorts and i began rubbing my hand on him. He pulled back and smiled coyly.

"Ready for round 2 already?" He said.

"Oh honey, I don't think you're ready." I said smiling seductively. I moved my way down the bed until I could pull his shorts down. As I did, I then placed myself in front of him and opened his legs so I could go between them. I saw him bite his lip as my head leaned down. I stuck my tongue out and let it touch him.

"Don't tease me baby." He said. Sounding as if he was in pain. He was about to be.

"It's not teasing if I give you exactly what you want." I said and then brought my mouth over most of his member. He instantaneously groaned.

The magic if it ever died, had indeed been brought back.

A/N: HEYYYY! So I decided to make this chapter super long. I wanted the next chapter to be a major jump in the story and it didn't seem right to put it in this chapter when it's a big deal. HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT!

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