Chapter 3 – Confessions (Part 2)

Blaine sat on his side of the bed while facing Sebastian, he was deciding on how to answer Sebastian's question when for the first time since transferring to McKinley he realised where his path in life had gone. He thought he had transferred for Kurt, mainly because he loved him but when you turn the tables Kurt hadn't done the same. Blaine finally lifted his eyes to Sebastian who had been sitting there patiently waiting for him to gather his thoughts, taking a deep breath Blaine began his explanation.

"I'm honestly not too sure why I left any more. At the start of the year Kurt asked me to transfer to McKinley because he wanted his senior year to be special. I thought I did it because I love him, that and I was finally given the chance to face my bullies instead of running away, despite the fact that they were actually Kurt's bullies and not mine. I guess I saw it as a chance to go back, which was the one regret I had about not standing up and confronting my tormenters. However, now that I think about it despite us trying to make Kurt feel welcome and apart of the Warblers with open arms, Kurt missed the New Directions too much and as soon as he could he went back to them even though we had just started going out. I don't blame him, I mean I understand why he went back and how much easier it was for his family." Blaine stopped for a moment to look at Sebastian who had taken to writing something down in a notebook which Blaine had no idea where from. Sebastian stopped writing and nodded at Blaine to continue. Despite his confusion at Sebastian's note taking he continued. "Looking at it now, if I was to all of a sudden say that I wished to go back to Dalton, we would no doubt get into an argument with Kurt believing I didn't want to spent time with him anymore or something like that, ending with me having to apologise and make it up to him even though he had done the same thing first." Blaine just sat there once again lost in thought and failed to see Sebastian's look of concern.

"Look Blaine, I can't begin to imagine what it's like to go through what you have, but the way I see it if anything is to be solved, and I can't believe I'm saying this, but if anything is to be solved then it's best to get it out in the open. I know I haven't known Kurt for very long but to me he seems to have this idea about you and is trying to make you act like the Blaine he thinks you are. I'm also betting that you haven't told Kurt about your past so to speak."

"Not really, no. Only about getting harassed at the Sadie Hawkins dance last year when he asked me to go to junior prom with him. Trent sometimes points out to me that I can be a tad oblivious to things sometimes, I suppose Kurt is one of those times."

"I bet he is seeing as how you always seem to do whatever Kurt wants to do whenever he wants to do it, regardless of what you have planned or are doing at the time. Nick told me about what happened when you first transferred, about how when Finn and the rest of ND thought you were there to spy on them and all the rest of the shit they gave you and how Kurt didn't do or say anything in your defence, even to his own step brother. They didn't give you a chance even though they had already met you." Blaine blushed at the mention of Rachel's party. "There's more to you than meets the eye Blaine Anderson, especially if you're even given the chance to prove it. The Warblers can see what the others can't, even you. It may have taken me awhile to see it as well but know I do and the guys are right, as Jeff likes to quote '… the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do', we have to take hold of our a destiny and only we know what that is, maybe not today or tomorrow but only you can decide on what your future holds. If there's at least one thing I've learned from the Warblers that is that the dreams you hold are shared by many and if you allow it you can make it together, all it takes is one step and a legend is born."

After Sebastian's little speech Blaine just looked at him as if he had grown another head. He couldn't get his head around what Sebastian had said, not his words per say but the fact that it was Sebastian of all people saying them. "Who are you and what have you done with Sebastian Smythe?"

"Very funny, I told you I was full of surprizes. But seriously Blaine, all joking aside I'm here for whenever you're ready to talk, keeping whatever it is to your self will only make things worse." Sebastian was about to get up of the bed to leave when Blaine suddenly reached out and grabbed his wrist pulling him back down.

"Please don't leave. There were tears beginning to cloud Blaine's eyes and one by one they slowly began to drop down his checks. That was when he lost it completely, as the tears ran down his face he told Sebastian everything that had been on his mind, except for some of the stuff about Sebastian himself.

"I just don't know what to do any more, my parents are barely ever here, I'm always alone in a large house where before I had a small room and all the guys to keep me sane. I'm always having to defend myself from my so called friends, and since I transferred New Directions had split up with Santana, Mercedes and Brittany creating their own glee club with Rachel's mum. There was like this constant competition between both glee clubs for who was better, we even had a fairly rough game of dodge ball that didn't end too well. Only for them, after their loss at sectionals, to re-join New Directions and then complain about not being able to perform Michael Jackson songs. I feel like I'm losing myself to a world of drama that's called McKinley High instead of the carefree nature that was and occasionally still is Dalton Academy, where we sat in each other's rooms discussing the latest video games while eating pizza unlike McKinley were one minute everyone is close and all friends and the next they are divided and quit only to come back a week or so later. I sometimes wish to go back to Dalton just for the simplicity it brought. However, even if I could go back I'm not sure how I would fit in anymore, as you guys are much better performers without me, better dancing, more than one person gets to sing, it's a shared performance as a group. Even now I feel like a burden to the Warblers and I've been dragging them down, I know that I can call them and talk to them whenever I need or want to but for some reason I feel that you're the only person that I can really talk to, except for David and Wes, who by the way I haven't seen or spoken to in a long time."

Blaine had stopped crying but he still sniffled every now and then with the odd tear, however as he continued to talk his voice was still cracked up. "I'm not sure why but against my better judgement, ever since meeting you I can't stop calling you despite Kurt's warnings. One of the reasons why I like talking and hanging out with you is because you actually listen and even though your comments aren't always considered appropriate its nice having someone think those things about me. I mean it's not like I need to hear them all the time but Kurt is always complaining that I never say those things about him, when in fact I actually do from time to time or just about every day. It's just that Kurt doesn't seem to be listening because he's too busy going on and on about NADA and every other little thing. He complains about me never saying those things to him but he never says them to me either, I'm starting to get pretty sick and tired of always being the one to do things, be the support guy, being used because it's convenient, theirs meant to be two sides to every relationship but with Kurt theirs only his side." Blaine wiped his hand over his face removing the last of his tears as he took a deep breath and looked Sebastian straight in the eyes. "But you want to know the worst thing, the worst thing is that he won't even give you a chance to make things right and thinks you're the next Hitler. He believes that I'm an idiot for giving you a second chance and people like you will never change, but saying that Karofsky did much worse and now look at them, since returning to McKinley they have kind of become friends in a way but he won't give you the same second or third chance."

As Blaine finished his speech Sebastian was astonished to learn that Blaine considered him as an actual friend and that he could find it in his heart to forgive him. Before he could even say anything though, Blaine had started talking again.

"No matter what happens from here on out I want you to know one thing, I like having you around. The way you make me feel, the way you try to be nicer to the Warblers for me and actually care about them, the way you make me lose my ability to even form a sentence half the time and hope I can do the same for you, be the friend you need when you really need one. And know this I'm always here whenever you need me, everyone has their issues and if you ever need me, I'm ready to listen." Sebastian must have looked like a fish out of water as his mouth opened and closed. What was he meant to say to that, he decided on not saying anything only nodding his head and looked down at his watch, it was getting late and he still had homework to do.

"I can't believe that we spent the afternoon as if we were on an episode of Opera."

"I'm sorry; I didn't mean to break down like that. I bet you weren't planning on spending the weekend babysitting me, I'm sure you wouldn't want to be seen acting out of character so I won't say a thing to anyone, your secrets safe with me."

Sebastian laughed at that. He was glad to see Blaine smiling again; there was just something about the way Blaine smiling at him that sent real butterflies to his stomach. "On that note I think it best that I should be heading home, will you be alright."

"I'll live, I may not tomorrow but that's tomorrow's problem. I'll see you later and you'll have to tell me what happened at the party after we left, and make sure you get everything it's usually good for leverage later." Sebastian laughed at that and bid his farewell before heading off to his own house.

Once Sebastian had left Blaine got up and took a shower before making his way down stairs to cook himself some dinner, he ended up making nachos with extra cheese. He decided to eat his dinner while watching Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone, nothing like a good HP film to make you feel better. As the credits rolled across the screen Blaine decided it was time to turn himself in for the night, since being at McKinley he rarely had any homework to worry about on the weekends and this was one of those times, which he was thankful for. As he lay in bed he made a silent promise to himself that he would never cut Sebastian out of his life NO MATTER WHAT, he had a feeling that Sebastian needed him just as much as he needed Sebastian. As he drifted off to sleep his only concern was what was going to happen when he got to school the next day, there was no telling who Kurt would tell not to mention what he would actually end up telling. He pushed the thought aside as he fell asleep into a blissful darkness.

AU: This chapter is a bit shorter then I attended it to be and not a lot happened in it. From here on in each chapter will be much more eventful and I've already finished chapter 4, I just have to type it on the computer. Any way I hope you enjoyed this chapter and please don't forget to review.