What if Nikita didn't escape Division when she was captured? Set during and after S. 1 Ep. 11.

Disclaimer: I do not own the show or the characters.

"You know what will happen if our secrets get out in the open, You will do more harm than good." Amanda says, and takes a step closer to me. "Give up the black box. It's too late to save yourself but there may be time to save others." The chains, hold me high enough, that I can't even plant my entire foot on the ground.

I tear slides down my face as I say "Right now I'd be wondering about who's gonna save you." As if on queue, the bombs Alex set go off above me. I manage to pull myself free of the chains. I run past medical and see Micheal staring at me. I pause at the door and try and think of something for me to say. I change my mind and run out. The elevators stop at the recruit training floor.

"Nikita!" Jaden yells. One by one, the recruits come at me, each of them failing. Finally one recruit manages to pin me down, crushing me with his large, muscular body. He closes his hand around my throat, so I punch at him, but he dodges. I can feel my strength slipping away. Division agents come in pointing guns at both of us. "Stop!" they yell, and the pull the recruit off me. I double over coughing and gasping for breath. They tell me to get on my knees with my hands up. I don't move and they hit my head with the gun. I obey, and put my hands up in surrender. Roughly, they cuff my hands behind my back, and then they shoot me with a tranq dart. Percy's face is the last thing I see, before darkness swallows me.

I wake up, strapped to a cold, hard iron bed. I try and sit up, but the restraints don't give in. I hear the door open and a woman walks in.

"Ready for round 2?" Amanda asks. I try not to show the fear inside my eyes.

"You are not going to break me Amanda, afterall, you are the one that trained me." I say. She walks over to a voltage machine and turns it up.

"You're right." she says, "I'm gonna have to hurt to harder than I have hurt anyone before"

"Bring it on." I say with my voice strong.

"One last chance Nikita. Give me the name of your mole, and the location of the black box. " she says.

"Never." I yell. She pushed a button and electricity courses through me. The pain is unlike anything I have ever experienced. I bite my lip, to keep from screaming, but I still let out a small sound. Suddenly the electricity stops, and I lay there panting. She presses it again, and this time I scream. She stops and then presses the button again. This time, when she stops, I lay there panting in pain, and pass out. She wakes me again with smelling salts. The electro torture continues for hours, with Amanda raising the voltage every so often. I can barely feel anything, I'm in so much pain. I am sweating like crazy, and my hair is a tangled mess. She pressed the button again and my body arches and I scream. I pass out this time.

I wake later tied to a chair in a dark room. My entire body is racked with pain, and it hurts to breathe. I can barely keep my head up straight. After sitting there for what feels like forever, Amanda walks in, along with Percy. He puts his hand under my chin and lifts my chin up. His eyes look into mine and he says "She's close to breaking". I look away.

"She's strong. She endured more electrotorture than anyone I have ever seen." Amanda says smiling. Amanda rolls over a cart. She pulls the sheet off and there are knives and needles there.

Percy punches my mouth a few times, and then says "Amanda, make me proud" He walks out, and I spit blood. She places the knife on my cheek and begins to make a cut. I grit my teeth in pain. She bends down so she is close to my face. "I don't want to hurt you Nikita. All you have to do is give me a name and location." she whispers.

When I don't respond, she makes a long cut along my chest. I groan, and blood trickles down. "Give me the information and innocent people like Daniel can be saved" she says.

"You have no right to say his name!" I yell. My heart aches just thinking about him. "You murdered him!"

"No Nikita, you did! You fell in love with a civilian, who was meant to be anything but your cover." she responds. I stare at her, and a tear slips down my face.

"I can't believe you have the nerve-" she punches me.

"Nikita, all you have to do is give me a name and location, and we can save innocents." she says again.

"Go to hell Amanda" I yell back. She punches me and cuts a line across my stomach. She brings a needle filled with some liquid.

"What is that?" I ask, fearfully looking at the syringe.

"It's a pain desensitizer" she says. "That way, you won't pass out on me" she stabs my neck with the needle.I wince and the chemical courses through my veins

She continues torturing and interrogating me, and cuts and punches me for a long time. Finally when I am bloodied and bruised, the pain desentizer stops working and I fall into the darkness.

I wake later in a white room. Micheal is sitting there. "You've been out for 48 hours." he says.