22
I snapped my eyes open and looked around. I could hear Edward in the kitchen talking to someone. I went and took a quick shower. I pulled on my jeans and Bon Jovi t-shirt. I wanted to feel close to Charlie today. I went into the kitchen and found Edward, Carlisle and Esme sitting at the table. They all looked up and stopped talking when they saw me come in.
"How are you feeling, Bella?" asked Carlisle.
"The same. Tired and sore but I am ok," I whispered as I sat in Edward's lap. "What were you talking about before I came in?"
"I was just telling them about a dream I had last night," said Edward.
"Tell me," I whispered.
"I was sitting in the back yard when Charlie and your mom came up to me. They were holding hands and they looked so happy, Baby. Charlie told me he was happy that you have me. He made me promise to love you and take care of you forever. I promised. Renee told me to tell you that she loves to hear you sing. She said your voice is like listening to angels. They hugged me and told me that they were watching over us. You called me from inside the house and when I looked back they were gone. I went into the house and you were standing in the kitchen. You looked so beautiful. I pulled you into my arms and kissed you just before I woke up," he whispered.
"That sounds like a nice dream," I whispered through my tears. "They came to me last night too. Charlie made me promise not to give up. Renee told me she has loved to watch me grow up. I miss them so much."
"I know you do," whispered Edward. "I do too."
We didn't say anything else. Emmett, Rose, Jasper and Alice came back over. They all had similar dreams. I think our parent's were just trying to make sure we knew that they were with us still. The day was spent with well wishers and sympathizers. Garrett and Kate came by as did Ben and Angela. They told us that they found apartments to rent. Lauren, Tyler, Mike and Jessica came by to as did many of our other classmates. Most of them talked about how wonderful our parent's were. We already knew this. By the end of the day I was exhausted. Once everyone left, Edward and I climbed into bed and fell asleep wrapped in each other's arms.
I woke up the next morning before Edward did. I climbed out of bed and went into the music room. I sat down at the piano and just started playing. I closed my eyes and let my tears fall as I played for my parent's. I finished playing my song and turned and looked at him.
He leaned down and kissed me as he pulled me into his lap. I wrapped my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss. Edward slipped his hands up my nightgown and pulled it off. He moved he lips down my neck to my breasts. He nibbled on my nipples alternating from one nipple to the other. I ground my hips on his erection. Edward growled and grabbed my hips. He stood me up and slid my panties down my legs. I stepped out of them and kicked them out of the way. Edward lifted up and I slid his shorts and boxers off. I ripped his t-shirt off and climbed back onto his lap. I slid down on his erection.
"I love the way you feel inside me," I moaned as I lifted up and slid back down. Edward moved his hands to my hips.
"I love being inside of you," He moaned. "You're so tight."
"Oh, shit," I moaned. "I'm….so….close. I….need more."
Edward tightened his grip on my hands and started lifting his hips to met my thrusts. I buried my face in his neck as I felt my walls shake and I came. Edward thrust into me a few more times before he came inside of me. He leaned his head on my shoulder.
"I swear you are the best lover," I whispered.
Edward chuckled as I slipped off his lap and pulled his shirt on. He stood up and slipped his shorts on. We went into our bathroom and took a shower. We got out and dried off. We went back into our room and I pulled on my black dress and black heels. Edward pulled on his black suit and helped me tie a black scarf on my bald head. We pulled on our coats and went and got in the car. Edward drove us to the church.
There were already a lot of people here. We made our way inside and found the other's waiting in a small room in the back. We didn't need to speak. There was nothing to say today. We would bury our parent's and try to move on with our lives. We owed them that. Robert came in and told us it was time. We were lead into the sanctuary. I could feel my tears pouring down my face when I saw everyone who loved our parents. We took our seats in the front. We sang a couple songs and read a few scriptures from the bible before Robert started speaking.
"It's never easy to lose a loved one. We all loved Charlie Swan, William Hale and Catherine Hale. They taught us how to come together and support each other when we needed it most. They taught us to love and to trust. They have asked Bella to come up and sing them a song," said Robert. I slowly got up and went up to the podium. I strapped on my guitar and took a deep breathe.
"This was Charlie's favorite song," I whispered into the mic. I began strumming the song I had picked.
"This Romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby-Always
And I'll be there forever and a day -Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you-Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes. I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby-Always
And I'll be there forever and a day-Always
If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
(Bella's guitar solo)
Well, there ain't any luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you baby-Always
And I'll be there forever and a day- Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I'll know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you-Always"
"I love you, Dad," I whispered.
I took off my guitar and set it back down. I went back over to Edward and sat down. He wrapped his arm around me and held me while I let my tears fall. Emmett reached over and grabbed my hand gently. Robert went back up and read a few more scriptures. We sang another song and said one last prayer. Garrett, Ben, Mike, and Tyler carried Charlie's casket out first. Austen, Mark, Trey, and Cody carried out William's casket out next. David, Michael, Andrew and Kyle carried Catherine's casket out last. We followed them out and got into our cars.
We followed them out to the cemetery and parked. We made our way over to their grave sites. I could feel the tears pouring down my face when I realized my mother has been here all along. We all said another prayer before they lowered our parent's into the ground. We spent a few minutes with everyone before we loaded back up and went home. Edward and I changed into jeans and t-shirts. We went over and spent the afternoon with Emmett, Rose, Jasper, Alice, Carlisle and Esme dealing with people. I was ready to go on with my life. Charlie, William, and Catherine would want us to go with life.
Just after 3pm, Edward, Carlisle and I went over to his office for my chemo treatment. Carlisle got my IV started and left to work on some paper work. Edward and I kissed for the entire hour. I needed to feel normal again. Once my IV was done, Carlisle came back in and took it out. We made our way back down to the car and went home.
I spent all night in the bathroom throwing up. Edward never left me. He held me as I cried from the cramps in my stomach. He held me when I threw up so much I thought I was going to die from the pain. I finally managed to fall asleep just as the sun was rising. I slept for a few hours before I found myself back in the bathroom. I spent most of the day in the bathroom as well. Edward stayed with me most of the day. He called Esme and asked her to bring over some juice and soup for me. He was worried about be getting dehydrated. Carlisle and Esme both came over. Carlisle insisted on hooking me up to a IV to give me some fluids. He was able to do this at home at least so I didn't have to go to the hospital. I ended up falling asleep soon after he started.