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I sighed contently as I woke up the next morning. I was in my happy place. My happy place consisted of Edward's warm arms, wrapped around me, and our nice, warm, comfortable bed. I'm pretty sure I had unnatural feelings for this bed but I couldn't help it. I loved it so much.
"Are you happy?" chuckled Edward.
"Yes," I said as I sighed again and pressed myself into his embrace. My eyes widened slightly when I felt his erection pressing into me. "Not as happy as you are right now, though."
"Stop rubbing your ass on it," hissed Edward, pressing himself into me.
"I can't help it," I chuckled. I rolled in his arms and reached down into his boxers and gripped his cock in my hand. "God, I've missed touching you."
"Bella…fuck…." he moaned as I slowly stroked him. "Stop….before…..I …..FUCK…..take you."
"Maybe I want you to take me," I whispered. He growled and rolled us so that I was hovering over him. He pulled my hand out of his boxers and pinned them over my head.
"Don't tempt me," whispered Edward. "I really, really want to be inside of you right now."
"I want that too," I moaned as he pressed his erection against my panty covered center. "Please?"
"Don't beg," whined Edward, rolling off of me. "That's not playing fair."
"I'm sorry," I chuckled as I rolled onto my side. I slid my hand down into his boxers again.
"Bella," he moaned. "Why are you…fuck….doing this?"
"I want to," I whispered.
I tightened my grip on his cock as I stroked him. Edward bucked his hips into my hand. He reached over and slid his hand up my thigh and slipped his hand under the elastic of my panties. He kept his eyes on mine as he slid his finger into me, causing my breath to hitch slightly. It had been way too long since I felt him inside of me, in any way. He matched my strokes as he thrust his finger in and out me. He added another finger and curled them against my walls. I could tell that I wasn't going to last very long at this rate so I increased my pace on Edward. His eyes rolled back slightly into his head and I knew he was getting close, too. I felt my body began to shake slightly as I started to climax
"EDWARD," I screamed as I came hard around his fingers. Edward thrust his hips up into my hand faster as he pulled his fingers from me.
"BABY, fuck…" he growled as he erupted all over my hand. "Thank you, Baby."
"No, really, thank you," I chuckled as I pulled my hand out of his boxers. "I think I need to shower now."
"Me too," chuckled Edward.
He climbed off the bed and picked me up in his arms. He carried me into the bathroom and helped me into the shower. He kept his arm around me as we washed each other's bodies. He helped me dry off and I pulled on some clean clothes. I was already exhausted so I climbed back into bed and took a nap.
I was shaken awake later by Edward's hand on my shoulder. I slowly opened my eyes. He was sitting on the side of the bed. Chloe was standing next to him. Even though she had a mask on, I could tell she was smiling.
"What?" I asked.
"You were talking in your sleep," chuckled Edward.
"Ok," I said. "You both knew I did that."
"Yeah," chuckled Chloe. "But you were talking about how much you loved this bed. It was kind of creepy."
"I can't help it," I chuckled as I hugged the bed. "This bed is my soul mate. No offense, Edward."
"Offense taken," chuckled Edward. "But I know you don't really mean it."
"No, I don't," I whispered, reaching up and stroking his cheek.
"Well, as sweet as this is," chuckled Chloe. "We need to get started. Edward, while I am taking care of your girl here, change the sheets on the bed, ok? I have sterilized ones in this bag."
"Yes, ma'am," smirked Edward, taking the bag from Chloe as he stood up. "Come on, Bella. You have to get off the bed now."
"I'll be back soon, bed," I chuckled. "I promise."
"Seriously, that's creepy," chuckled Chloe as I climbed off the bed.
"I know but after spending weeks on that evil bed, I have developed unnatural feelings for my bed. I don't think there's help for me out there," I chuckled.
"I'm going to try really hard to forget all of this," said Chloe. She led me into the kitchen and pointed to one of the chairs. "Sit."
"I'm not a dog," I scoffed as I sat down.
"I know," chuckled Chloe, sitting in the chair next to me. "So how are you feeling?"
"Pretty tired," I said. "I just can't seem to get enough sleep right now."
"You've had a couple of pretty big days," said Chloe. "It's going to take your body some time to get it's strength back. Just be careful not to over do it."
"I am," I said, as Chloe took several vials of blood. "What are you checking for?"
"We just want to make sure that you are still accepting the marrow. We want to watch your counts and make sure they keep rising, make sure you aren't getting an infection, making sure you don't get pregnant because we all know that you and Edward are not going to be able to wait two weeks before you have sex."
"What?" I gasped. Chloe just looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
"Are you telling me that you and Edward didn't have sex yesterday when you got home?" she asked.
"No," I chuckled.
"This morning?" she asked.
"No," I chuckled as my face turned red. She narrowed her eyes at me.
"But you did other stuff, didn't you?" she asked. My face somehow turned even redder.
"Maybe," I whispered.
"It's ok, Bella," she chuckled. "Just take it slowly. Your body is still trying to rebuild and getting pregnant now could be dangerous."
"We know," I mumbled, embarrassedly.
"That's why I brought you these," said Chloe, setting a box of condoms on the table. I narrowed my eyes at them.
"EDWARD," I yelled.
"What?" he asked, panicky as he came running in from our bedroom.
"Call the man," I demanded.
"Why?" he asked. I pointed to the box of condoms. Edward turned bright red as he narrowed his eyes at them. "The man is going down."
"Put it on speaker," said me and Chloe. Edward called Carlisle and turned on the speaker phone.
"Hello, Edward," said Carlisle as he answered the phone.
"Father," said Edward. "We got your gift you sent with Chloe."
"You did, huh?" chuckled Carlisle. "I'm just trying to be a responsible father and make sure my daughter is protected from the horny teenage boy trying to take advantage of her."
"We don't need your help, Carlisle," I said loudly.
"I knew you had me on speaker phone," snickered Carlisle. I could almost see the smirk on his face. "Chloe, are they being good?"
"Yes, Dr. Cullen. Although Bella seems to have an unhealthy love for her bed," chuckled Chloe.
"Why doesn't that surprise me?" he chuckled.
"Don't change the subject, Carlisle," I said. "You sent condoms to us via our nurse."
"Yes, I did," said Carlisle. "I don't want you to risk getting pregnant right now. It would be dangerous for you and the baby, Bella."
"You could have waited a couple more weeks until we are allowed to actually have sex again," snapped Edward, winking at me. My face turned bright red.
"Right," chuckled Carlisle. "Do you actually think I believe that you will be waiting two whole weeks to have sex? I'm mean, seriously?"
"But you said…" trailed off Edward. "You know what, Dad. I'm not liking you right now."
"I know, Edward," chuckled Carlisle. "I have to go now. Let Chloe finish her work before you put those condoms to work."
"Oh my god," I gasped. "I will get you back for this, Carlisle."
"Keep telling yourself that, sweetheart," he chuckled. "Seriously, take it easy, ok?"
"We are," I said.
"Oki, I'll talk to you later," said Carlisle. "I love you both."
"We love you, too," chuckled Edward before he hung up the phone. He ran his hand through his hair as he looked back at me. "Get that evil mind of yours working, Baby, cause we are taking the man down."
"I will, Baby," I smirked.
"I can't wait to see how this all plays out," chuckled Chloe, as she stood up. "I'm done for today. You are to be at the hospital in the morning at ten a.m. Don't be late."
"We won't," I said. "Thank you, Chloe."
"You're welcome," she chuckled, hugging me. "Make sure you get the man back good. I feel like a victim in his evil plot."
"I promise to avenge you, Chloe," I chuckled, pulling back..
"Good girl," she said. She turned and headed out of the house through the front door. Edward came back in after seeing her out and sat down at the table next to me.
"Are you hungry?" he asked.
"A little," I said.
"Well, why don't we have a light lunch and then we can take a nap. I think Emmett was going to come by after school," said Edward.
"Sounds good," I said. "I'm ready to see him."
Edward kissed me before he got up and made us a quick lunch. I wasn't very hungry but I knew I needed to try to eat in order to gain some much needed weight back and get healthier. Once we were both done eating, Edward and I made our way back down to our room and climbed back on our bed. Edward pulled me into his arms and I fell asleep almost immediately.
"Bella," whispered Edward, shaking my shoulders gently. "Wake up, Bella. Emmett's going to be here soon."
"Ok," I whispered as I slowly opened my eyes. "What time is it?"
"It's just after three," said Edward, sitting next to me on the bed. "You slept all afternoon. Are you feeling better?"
"Yes," I said, sitting up. "I just feel like I can't get enough sleep, you know?"
"I do," chuckled Edward. "You didn't get much sleep while you were in the hospital. Now your body is playing catch up."
"How are you doing?" I asked. "Are you sleeping better?"
"I'm fine," said Edward. "I am starting to sleep better, thank god."
"Good," I said. "You worry me when you don't sleep."
"I know," said Edward as the doorbell rang. "Do you want Emmett to come in here or do you want to go out to the living room?"
"I'll go out there," I said.
I climbed off the bed. Edward wrapped his arm around my waist as we made our way into the living room. He kissed me softly before he went over and opened the door. He chuckled and stepped aside to let Emmett come in. I couldn't stop from laughing and crying at the same time as soon as I saw him. He looked so goofy in his mad scientist get up. I went up to him and wrapped my arms around him. He stiffened and pulled back slightly. I looked up at him as I felt the pain of rejection wash over me.
"What?" I asked softly.
"I don't want to make you sick," he said. I rolled my eyes and hugged him again.
"You won't as long as you scrubbed up properly," I said. I felt his body relax as he wrapped his arms around me.
"I'll be in the other room if you need anything," said Edward.
"Thanks," I said into Emmett's chest. "I missed you, superman."
"I missed you too, superwoman," whispered Emmett, through his own tears. I pulled away from him and he wiped his tears off his face. "I told myself I wouldn't cry."
"Me too," I said, wiping my own tears off. "Let's sit down. I'm so tired."
"Shit, Bella, I'm sorry for making you get up," fretted Emmett as we went over and sat down on the sofa.
"It's fine," I said. "It just doesn't take much for me to get tired right now."
"So are you glad to be home?" asked Emmett. I laid my head on his shoulder.
"God, yes," I chuckled. "I missed it so much. I hated every minute of being in the hospital I felt like fucking circus freak or something on display for everyone. I felt isolated from everything and everyone."
"I can't imagine how much that had to suck," said Emmett.
"I hope you never have to," I said.
"Well, you're home now so now you're just a regular freak instead of a circus freak," chuckled Emmett.
"Shut up, you ass," I chuckled. "How's Rose?"
"Kicking my ass," chuckled Emmett. "She's been pushing me to decide where we want to go to college at."
"Where are you going?" I asked. I swear, I felt him roll his eyes. I pulled away and looked at him. "Emmett, where are you going?"
"I don't know," he said.
"Where have you applied?" I asked.
"Rose insisted that we apply to Dartmouth, UCLA, Berkeley, NYU, and Colombia but there is no way I can get into any of those schools," said Emmett.
"Yes, you can, Emmy," I said. "You are so much smarter than you give yourself credit for. When are you going to see that?"
"Bella, compared to you, I'm the village idiot," whispered Emmett.
You are not," I said. "Em, you can do anything. You just have to believe in yourself. Now, what do you want to study?"
"Don't laugh but I kind of want to go to medical school," said Emmett.
"Why would I laugh?" I asked with a smile. "You would be a great doctor."
"It's just going to be really hard," said Emmett.
"So?" I asked.
"What if I fail?" asked Emmett. "I have a wife to support."
"Um, Emmett," I chuckled. "You and Rose have tons of money to live off while you pursue your dreams."
"I know that but I'm suppose to take care of her," said Emmett.
"You are," I said. "So what got you thinking about medicine?"
"Watching Carlisle take care of you," said Emmett. "The night I woke up from giving you the marrow, Carlisle came into my room. He scolded me a little for being difficult."
"He did that to me a couple times too," I chuckled.
"I'm not surprised," chuckled Emmett. "Anyway, of course I asked him how you were doing and he insisted that you were fine. He left to go back to you and it hit me, Bella. I want to be the person who takes care of the people who need help. I want to be like Carlisle."
"Then you shouldn't let your fears stand in the way," I said.
"I know," he said. "I'm trying not to but it's hard. I'm not as smart as you are, Bella."
"Emmy, yes, you are," I said. "Besides, being a great doctor is more than just knowing about the diseases and illnesses. It's about having compassion for your patients. That is what makes Carlisle such a great man. It's what makes you such a great brother."
"You're too sweet," chuckled Emmett. "But thanks. So you and Edward planning on going to New York?"
"Yes," I said, smiling. "I didn't think I would get to before the transplant but it's just one more dream for me to achieve."
"What are you going to be when you grow up, Belly?" asked Emmett. I smiled as I leaned my head on his shoulder.
"First of all, I don't plan on ever growing up," I chuckled. "Right now, all I plan on doing is living. The rest will fall into place as it should."
"That's an excellent point, Belly," said Emmett. "I should get going. Rosie and I are going to dinner with Jasper, Alice, Angela, Ben, Garrett, and Kate."
"They're waiting for a status update, aren't they?" I chuckled.
"Yep," chuckled Emmett. "They would have come with me but they said we needed sometime alone."
"Rose threatened them, didn't she?" I asked.
"Yep," chuckled Emmett, again. "She really just wanted to give us a little time alone."
"Tell them all I said we love them, ok?" I said. "Make sure you tell everyone at school that I'm good and I hope to see them soon. Maybe on the web cams."
"I will," said Emmett. We stood up and he wrapped his arms and around me and brought his masked covered lips to the top of my head. "The eyebrows look pretty awesome, Bella. You look pretty awesome."
"Thanks, Em," I whispered through my tears. "I love you, big brother."
"I love you, too," said Emmett. "I'll, um, come by in a couple day, ok?"
"Ok," I whispered.
Emmett hugged me one more time before he turned and left. I went over and stood at the window and watched him as he walked back across the street to were everyone was waiting I'm sure for his update. He stopped outside his front door and looked back at me. He brought his hand to his lips and blew me a kiss before he went inside.
I went into our room and pulled my laptop up on the bed. I logged onto my blog site.
Who's Your Hero?
Nearly everyone has that one person in their life that makes
them feel like they can do anything. For some it may be their
father, mother, sisters, best friend, or a teacher. I'm one of
those lucky people who had more than one hero in my life. I
have Jasper, Garrett, and Ben, who are like my brothers in
so many ways. They keep me laughing. Mostly by the dumb
crap they do. I have Rose, Alice, Angela, and Kate, who keep
my crazy boys in line for me. I have the sweetest mother in
law, Esme, who has shown me what a mother's love feels like.
I have the most amazing father in law, Carlisle, who has a
twisted sense of humor but he loves us all so much.
Then I have my brother, Emmett. My sweet, lovable, bear of a
brother, who one day will be saving the lives of people that need
him. He's going to be the best doctor! Finally, I have my Edward,
who has held me when I cry, held me when I screamed, held me
even though I pushed him away. Who loved me when I thought
I wasn't worthy and never once told me that I couldn't do it.
To all my hero's, I hope you know that I love each and every one
of you. You make me who I am today. Thank you for giving me
the strength to keep moving, to keep trying, to keep living.
I posted my blog and clicked on the private message that I had waiting for me. I had expected one from Denise but it was from Jim.
Dear Bella,
Congratulations on going home. I could nearly feel your excitement
coming out of my screen. You remind me of my wife, Martha. She's
the strongest person I have ever known. After living with me for nearly
thirty years, that's saying something. Seriously, we are very happy for you. |
She and I finally broke the news about my cancer to our daughter and
her husband. As expected, she was devastated. She kept muttering over
and over how I was going to miss out on seeing my grandchild grow up.
I hate that she's right. My doctor has informed me that there's nothing
we can do now. My cancer is too advanced. I really don't know what to
do now. How do I keep moving knowing that I am getting one day closer
to my death? I wish I had never gone in for that check-up.
Jim
Jim,
Well, you did and now you have to man up and deal with it. I know it sounds
harsh and I don't mean for it to but here's your chance to really live. If you
hadn't gone to that check-up, you may not have found out about the cancer
but you also wouldn't have the chance to leave behind your legacy for your
unborn grandchild. If it were me, I would go buy myself a really good video
camera and document everything you want your grandchild to know about
you. Then when he or she is older, your daughter can share you with them.
Live each day to the fullest, Jim. You know, go do all those things you and
Martha have only talked about doing. This is your last chance. I wish it
wasn't but it is. Just enjoy your life, Jim. Enjoy the time you have with
Martha. Shower her with all the love you have in your heart for her. Make
sure she knows that you never stopped loving her. Take the time to make sure
you tell your daughter you love her. Tell her how proud you are of her because
when you are gone, she's going to need to know that you were proud of the
woman she is.
Until next time, Jim,
Bella
I wiped the tears off my face and went to find Edward. He was in the piano room, playing a soft melody. I went over and sat down on the bench next to him. I laid my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes as I just listened to his song. As I listened to the music flowing through the air, I thought about all the people who were still fighting their own war against cancer.