"ULTRAAAAA COMBOOOOOOOOOO!" the gamer announcer shouted.
I sighed deeply as I laid back on the sofa as I was beaten for the fifth time in a row…
...by Sayori…
"Ok, I give up" I said as put my controller right next to me.
"Yay, I won again!" Sayori said a bit weakly since she's still a bit sick.
"Honestly, how does she do this!?" Hideki said trying to make sense of it all, "I've looked at her hands! She's button mashing and somehow winning! Why is this working for her?!"
Sayori chuckled to herself as she heard him, "No one can dethrone the master…" she said through her pink mouth mask.
So, you might be wondering why Sayori is playing Killer Instinct right now, and it's a really simple reason.
I was really bored in the house since I really couldn't do my graffiti run today.
Since the spot I usually go to has been more or less exposed, I didn't really feel like taking a 2-3 hour walk/trip to the outer country side to try and find another spot I can use.
That and I still feel a bit paranoid about going to the station for the next couple of Saturdays since I don't know if that same cop is still hanging around there.
So to pass the time, Hideki challenged me to some Killer Instinct.
Now, I'm not really that good at that game. Maybe I'll get a couple of lucky shots and win a few rounds, but I'm nowhere near Hideki's skills when he was serious about this game about a year or two ago.
As we played, and as I lost a couple of times, I got a text from Sayori saying that she was bored and wanted to hang out. Since she was still a bit sick and didn't want to go too far from home, she was wondering if she could come over.
Obviously, being the childhood friend Sayori is, she didn't text us this as she was waiting in her room.
Oh no.
She texted this as she used the spare key for my house to come in and make herself at home on the living room.
Being the very forgiving and nice people that me and my brother are, (Boy saying that is a large stretch…) we decided to let her stay instead of reminding her for the 50th time not to show up unannounced while using the spare key.
She saw the screen and asked what we were playing, and in simple all we told her was that we played a very simplified version of Street Fighter where you can counter.
Hideki gave her the controller and showed her how to play and in less than 10 minutes, she basically beat me twice in a row.
And So….Here we are….
Seriously, How does she do this!?
All we did was show her the basic fighting buttons and she somehow figures out how to to do a stage ultra!
"So...who's next…?" Sayori tried to say menacingly before lightly coughing.
Hideki took the controller from my side and leaned in closer to the T.V, "Alright, let's give you a run for your money." Hideki said seriously, "I've played in a couple of tournaments so don't go complaining when I beat-"
"ULTRAAAAA COMBOOOOOOOOOO!" the gamer announcer shouted once again as Sayori did the musical outro for the stage.
"Ahhhh! How?!" Hideki said as he was just about to pull his hair out.
Damn.
Just Damn.
Even though it was a close match, Hideki still got beaten by Sayori and got Ultra'd by her as well.
Hideki laid back in his chair that he took from the dining table and put the controller down, "Ok, I give up…" Hideki said lowly
"Man...That was a lot of fun!" Sayori said happily, "Are there anymore games like this?" she asked.
"Well, I got Mortal Kombat 10 and Street Fighter 5 on here, they're sort of the same but Street Fighter is more technical while Mortal Kombat is just a step up from Killer Instinct." Hideki said as he scrolled through his Steam Library.
"Hmmm...Let's Try Mortal Kombat!" Sayori said sounding interested in the game.
"Sure thing, but just know that the game is a lot gorey than Killer Instinct." I told her as Hideki loaded up MK10.
"Don't worry! I've seen enough horror movies to be desensitized, I'll be fine!" Sayori said as she grabbed her controller.
Famous last words.
10 minutes later…
Sayori hugged her knees, wide eyed and almost traumatised, "S-She tore...at her s-stomach…" Sayori said stuttering her words as she witnessed Mileena's Fatality, "And ate her organs…! Oh god...The Screaming!"
" 'Don't worry! I've seen enough horror movies to be desensitized, I'll be fine!' " I mocked Sayori as i tried to replicate her voice.
Sayori then got up and started hitting me on my chest, "You're not supposed to bully the sickly, especially with a game like this!"
"Don't worry, you don't have to play this game anymore…" I said to Sahori reassuring her.
"R-really?" she said with a hopeful voice.
Oh the fool she is…
"But how about a couple of matches Hideki? It's been awhile since we've played this, what do you say?" I asked in an innocent tone.
Hideki picked up what I was laying down and agreed with me in the same tone of voice, "Of course dear brother! Let us engage in some Mortal Kombat! Here, I'll pick Ermac."
Sayori face grew pale as she heard the both of us laugh so casually about this, "Oh god they're working against me…" she said dreadfully.
For the next couple of matches, Sayori saw...a lot of disturbing things from the game.
From watching Ermac easily removing someone's organs from their mouth and watching the body go limp, to Watching Takeda use his mechanical whip things rip out the entire throat organs, to seeing Kotal Kahn taking a bear hug way too far and finally ending it at a selfie with Cassie Cage and an almost unhinged jaw.
By the time me and Hideki had out fun of freaking out Sayori, she was already pale in the face, and it wasn't because of her sickness this time!
"You people need some help…" she groaned weakly, "I don't think I want to eat for the rest of the day…"
"What? Come on! We're gonna have spaghetti today…" Hideki told her, but it seems the sight of spaghetti made her want to vomit because of...well, us!
All in all, Me and Hideki had no regrets doing this.
"I'm gonna go to the bathroom…" Sayori said weakly as she sluggishly walked away.
"Don't throw up!" I said casually to her.
I didn't get much of a response since all she did was groan back.
As Sayori went to the bathroom, Hideki turned towards me and asked, "So when are you two gonna go out?"
I turned towards him and gave him a weird look, "Uh...what?"
"When. Are. You. And.-"
"I know what you said, I just wanna know why you asked me." I said cutting him off of his sentence.
"Come on, Really? Not once have you ever thought of asking her out? I mean you two were damn near inseparable back when you guys were in middle school and I've lost a lot of bets from guessing a lot of confessions dates. Are you really telling me you don't like her like that?" Hideki questioned me
"No, not once. I'd rather cherish what we already have right now...or at least what we're going to have for the moment." I said as I laid back on the couch, "If the day does come and she does confess to me...I'm just gonna have to reject her and…" I sighed as I didn't like getting to cynicalistic about the future.
"Alright, fine. That's your choice and I'll respect it, but you do know that if that day does come, there's no going back, you know. Nothing lasts forever." Hideki told me while actually playing the big brother role for once.
"Yeah I know that much…" I said as me and Hideki heard Sayori's footsteps returning to us.
"Uhhh…" she groaned as she flopped back on the couch.
"Are you done throwing up?" My brother asked innocently.
"I didn't throw up." she said as she started to get comfortable on the couch, "But I did invite a friend over, is that okay with you guys?"
"Sure, I mean both me and Jun don't care since we're just playing games so, why not?" Hideki answered, "Is it someone from club?"
"Yeah, she's somewhat shy so don't be too hard on her…" Sayori said as she pulled out her phone and started texting that club member.
Someone shy?
Ughhh….
So it's Yuri….
Oh boy….
Now we have another person to freak out with Mortal Kombats gore…
...this'll be fun…
Sayori's phone make a small chime noise as she turned her head to the door, "Oh she's here." she said.
She poked my shoulder a couple of times, "Hey, go answer the door. You can't let sick people go out." she said as her poking started to get annoying.
"Ok, fine." I said as I got up without complaining.
I mean me and Hideki did torture her with Mortal Kombat so I guess this is her form of revenge.
I got close to the front door and opened it.
"Hey, Yuri. Sayori and my Brother are in the liv-" I was about to finish my sentence before catching a surprised look from Bitch and slamming the door.
"Hey!" She shouted from outside the door.
I walked back towards the Living room and confronted Sayori, "So...why is she here?" I asked.
Sayori looked a bit confused as she answered, "Because I invited her…?"
Sayori's phone began to ring as we talked.
She answered the phone, "Hello-" she was only able to say before getting cut off from shouting.
"I THOUGHT WE WERE GONNA HANG OUT IN YOUR HOUSE, NOT THIS LOSERS HOUSE!" Bitch shouted.
"This loser can hear you, you know!" I said loudly to the phone.
"Shut it Jackass!" She shouted from the phone.
"How about 'No', you Bitch!" I said loudly to the phone.
"Wow, you guys definitely have some chemistry...I'm surprised…" Hideki commented as he snickered.
"You shut your mouth!" I said as I pointed to him.
"Come on! Can't we all get along?" Sayori said happily.
"With him? Not a chance!"
"With her? Hell No!"
We both said at the same time.
"Ok, forget the chemistry. You guys sound like an old couple…" Hideki commented again.
"I'm sorry Sayori, but If we're gonna hang out, Jackass is gonna have to leave!" Bitch said over the phone.
"My house, my rules. Get lost." I said towards the phone.
As me and Bitch continued to argue, I heard a bit of sniffling.
I turned my attention to Sayori as she started to have tears fall down and get caught on her mask.
"Sayori?" I asked gently.
"I...just wanted to bring some peace between you two...and hopefully make things better…" She said in between each sob, "I'm sorry if this things worse...but...I just wanted everyone to be happy…"
My heart began to rot from the inside as I saw Sayori like this…
I sucked up as much pride as I could, "Ok, Ok. I'll let her in. Please just...stop the crying…" I said gently to her.
"Y-yeah! Jun might be a pain in the ass, but I think I can deal with him for a couple of hours! It'll be alright!" Bitch said in a reassuring tone.
"Really! You will? Thanks Guys!" Sayori said very cheerfully as the tears instantly stopped and Sayori was smiling brightly.
Wat...
Hideki started laughing his ass off as he and Sayori saw my stupefied expression.
No.
Sayori...No!
You can't just do that to me!
That's not okay!
You can't be playing with people's hearts like a damn fiddle! That's just really dirty of you!
"Come on Jun! Open the door, Rika's getting cold out there!" She said innocently.
My brain stopped functioning properly as I just followed Sayori's orders and headed towards the front door.
I've never seen that side of Sayori…
My god...that's...a bit terrifying of her to do…
As I opened the door, Bitch looked at me with a weird expression, "What...happened to you? is Sayori okay?" she asked.
"She played us...she played us badly…." I mumbled as I let her in.
Bitch looked at me weirdly for another second before looking at the now cheerful Sayori and understood what I meant.
"Oh…" was all she could say before Sayori ran up to her and started pushing her to the living room.
"Come on Rika! We're having a fun time over here! Come suffer with me!" Sayori said happily as she pushed.
"Hold on! I haven't taken my shoes- Wait did she say Suffer?" Bitch said as she started to question what was going on.
"Oh yeah, me and my brother are playing Mortal Kombat, you wanna play?" I said dull tone since my brain is trying to restart.
"Uh….sure…" Bitch said very cautiously.
"You're gonna like the game...Come...Suffer with me…" Sayori said in a dark tone.
Bitch didn't last as long as Sayori since she was already at her wits ends as she watched the character she played get mind controlled by Quan Chi and made it head towards a green spectral sword, mouth open and completely mindless.
Compared to Sayori who looked lifeless after 4 fatalities, Bitch was shaken up and trembling as she saw a man eat a sword and soon get cut in half by it.
"What the hell...is this game…" She said lowly.
"Ahh...So fun...so very, very fun…" Sayori said as in a dull tone while smiling...probably…
"You people….you guys need some help!" Bitch said as she tried to get away from us.
Sayori predicted this and latched onto her stomach, preventing her from being able to get up.
"Where are you going Rika?" Sayori said menacingly, "Didn't you want to hang out with u-"
Groooowl
Sayori was brought out of her menacing mindset as the sound of her stomach growled loudly.
Her face instantly grew a bright red as she held onto her stomach.
"No one heard that…." She said embarrassingly.
"I think I heard a-" I tried to speak out, big mistake.
"NO YOU DIDN'T!" She said quickly and loudly.
All of laughed at Sayori as she desperately tried to deny what we heard.
"I feel like having some Pizza." Hideki said as he pulled out his phone, "Did You guys bring any Money or am I gonna have to pay for it in full again?"
"Hold on, I think I got some money in my room. Let me grab some." I said as I went up to my room and got a 2000 yen bill (roughly a $20 bill)
I gave Hideki the bill and he went to the other room to call the pizza place.
While he called, Sayori tapped my shoulder, "Hey, I'm gonna grab a couple of things from my house, I'll be right back." she said as she put her slippers shoes and sweater on.
I gave her the go ahead and she left in a matter of minutes.
It was now just me and Bitch alone in the living room.
Of course there was a bit of awkward tension between us.
Both of us sat in awkward silence as Hideki was on the phone until Bitch spoke up, "S-so...I guess that's your brother…" she said.
"Yeah, older brother by 2 years…" I said awkwardly.
There was another awkward silence as we didn't talk for another couple of seconds before I brought up something from yesterday, "So...what happened yesterday?" I asked her.
She looked at me semi-weirdly before realising what I meant and looking a bit down, "Why do you care? It's not like you're asking me because you actually care or anything…" she said moodily.
"You're right, I don't care, but I just don't like the awkward silence right now." I said bluntly as I played against an ai on MK.
Bitch scoffed as she smiled bitterly to herself as she watched me play, "God, you really are a Jackass…"
I gave out a light laugh as she told me, "The one and only…" I said back as I played
She breathed out heavily, "It's not something you need to care too much about anyways. I just had a small disagreement with them…"
"Uh huh, yet you looked like you were about cry yesterday…" I said as I continued to play.
Bitch smacked her gums as she laid back on the couch, "Tsk. I thought you couldn't see that far…"
"I may be blind without my glasses, but I'm not that blind. Thank you very much…" I said back
Bitch exhaled as she began to explain herself, "Right...Look, they were just ragging on me for 'ditching' them and 'going to a bunch of nerds' to find new friends. Like I said, it's really nothing."
"Yeah, you are right. That really is nothing, honestly makes me wonder how sensitive you are if something that little gets you down." I jokingly said.
Bitch seemed a bit agitated when I told her that.
"God, how can you be this much of an Asshole?! There's a limit to how bad a person can be, but for some stupid reason you just feel like a bottomless pit of pure douchebaggery!" Bitch said as she stood up angrily and cursed me out.
"Seriously, how is it that you've stayed this negative for an entire year and haven't gone insane from all the shit that you say?!" She continued, "Are you really that kind of person that just wants to see the world burn and not care at all!?"
I sat there silently and and continued to stay silent as Bitch continued to vent out.
"You've been blessed by some damn good luck and all you're doing is just throwing it away to the wind! You've probably got two wonderful parents who actually care for you, a Best Friend who's borderline a saint compared to most people I've met, and a group of friends who probably don't mind you being your true self no matter how toxic your personality is!"
Bitch then grabbed my shirt collar and looked like she was about to punch me, "Why do selfish and horrible people like you always get it good?! Do you know how much I'd pay and how much I'd sacrifice to have a life like yours?! My mother is blinded by that Step-douche of a father to the point where she barely cares about me anymore, I had no friends to begin with since I was always someone who looked bitch-y on the outside, and I always have to hide my true self since people won't care enough about me to the point where I have to make up a likable persona!"
Bitch's hands were trembling as she finished that last part, "Do you know how hard it is… just trying to keep up with everything…" she said as her voice trembled.
Bitch didn't talk for the next couple seconds before I was able to get my 2 cents in, "Are you done?" I asked, "Cause if so, then it's my turn to ask you something, and I want you to listen close."
"Tell me, Why are you telling me this?" I asked her.
Bitch looked both confused and angry as she heard me, "What do you mea-" she wanted to say before I repeated myself very seriously.
"Answer the question Rika, What the fuck is the point of you telling me all this? Why bring up problems that you have and I don't care about?" I asked again, Bitch seemed to have recoiled a bit when I actually said her name for once.
"I already asked this to Yuri after she gave me her sad sob story, so I'll be repeating the exact same things I said to her; Why are you telling me this? Do you want pity? Do you want people to look down on you and feel sorry for you?"
"Well too fucking bad. You could cry, beg, and be a borderline mess if a person, and I wouldn't give a single shit about your problems. And do you want to know why? Cause why should I stick my neck out for someone who complains and whines about other people and their success, like seriously, you're throwing a fucking tantrum like a child, grow the fuck up."
--"Sure you could say that I've been blessed in a way. I'm not starving in Africa trying to find clean water and not hunt for food, No I'm not in Beijing breathing from under a mask because the literal air is toxic, and no I'm not literally fighting for my own freedom rights in Hong Kong in the form of fucking Riots.--
"I'm not any of those, and to be honest, I really couldn't give less of a shit if I was! Why? Cause It's my life and I'm not living life trying to impress others! I could give literally zero fucks about what other people think of me, and to be honest, I love it!"
"Who the hell cares if someone see's me as an Asshole, a prick, a selfish bastard who does things for himself without hesitation, a Loner Loser with no friends? What the fuck so bad about that?!" I said venting out
"So what if people don't care about you? If they don't care, then don't even think about giving them the light of day if they come crawling back! I know it's a toxic mindset to have, but if this world is just gonna give you the middle finger constantly and fuck your life over and over and over again, give it the middle finger back!"
"No fake Persona's following the latest bullshit trend, no hiding away from the world and being a coward, Live the way you want to regardless of what anyone says. I overheard my brother one time repeat a motto to himself he found on the internet, and I feel like it fits this situation perfectly; Fuck the Whiners, Fuck the Purists, Fuck the Haters, and most importantly, Fuck the ones who'd rather hold you down for no reason aside from making themselves feel better."
"Live To Offend. There's no point in trying to please everyone, so abandon that mindset and impress no one but yourself." I said finishing my rant.
Bitch was finally able to let go of my shirt and put her hands towards her sides, "I really hate how you can say all those things so freely…" Bitch mumbled as she wiped her eyes from any tear that wanted to come out.
"That's because I don't care who hears me. They can complain about me for all I care, but it's a shame that I won't give them the same kind of attention they want." I said as I laid back down onto the couch.
"Maaan! It's been a long time since I've vented out that much, feels makes me feel like a new person…" I said as I stretched out on the couch, "You should vent out all your frustrations at some point, It feels so uplifting!"
Bitch sighed as she sat down on the couch with me, "Did you not hear me rant before?" Bitch said as she laid back down into the couch.
"Oh? You were actually ranting? I thought you were complaining just for the hell of it…" I said as I put up another match against an ai.
"God...you're such an-" Bitch tried to mumble to herself before I finished her sentence.
"-Asshole? Jackass? Loudmouth who doesn't care enough for others? So what? Nothing wrong with that in my opinion…"
She looked into the distance as she laid back on the couch before exhaling deeply and reaching over across from me.
She grabbed the second controller that Hideki was using and imitated my hand placements, "Teach me how to play, I wanna kick your ass."
"Oh? Are you sure you want to play, I won't hold back even if your a girl you know...not that even consider you one at least…" I said mumbling at the last part.
Bitch started to dig her heel in my left shin, "What was that? I don't think I'm not sure if I heard that last part." She said innocently.
"Oh, it's nothing your pretty little head should worry about...Bitch…" I said in the same innocent tone she had until I mumbled the last part again.
"Pretty? Oh, you're so generous when it comes to compliments...Jackass…" Bitch said as she imitated me and dug her heel further in my shin.
I finally did the smart thing and removed my shin away from her heel and actually taught her how to play the game.
After 1-2 games of me showing Bitch how to play with the basic controls, we started playing a serious game on which I still won.
Hideki came back and watched us play, both not paying attention to the game and giving Bitch some hints about the characters we were using.
She at least gave me a run for my money as she did get me towards 20-25 hp, but I can still clutch in MK.
Sayori came back a little later with not only a phone charger and a much warmer sweater, but also a pencil with her notebook for poems.
"You're seriously gonna write poems while you watch people brutally murder each other? You've got some weird tastes…" Hideki commented as he leaned in closer to Sayori's notebook.
"I'm just experimenting on this! Don't judge!" Sayori said as she probably was sticking her tongue out from within the mask.
Sayori started writing as she half watched the game and wrote down ideas for her poem.
After another 27 minutes of playing Mortal Kombat, the pizza finally got here.
And in standard Hideki fashion, he asked for a pizza with Pineapple and Pepperoni with a side of Buffalo Wings.
I've got no hate for Pineapple on Pepperoni. It tastes ok. It's not bad, but it's not good.
But I really start to hate it when it the 3rd time this week we've ord-, no, He ordered it for everyone to eat.
I still can't tell whether or not he's just trolling us or if he's actually doing this because he's an asshole, either way, I'm sort of sick of it.
Hideki brought out the soda's we keep in the refrigerator and handed them to us as as we ate.
But as we ate, Bitch spoke up, "So...How far are you with your poems?" she asked while taking another bite of pizza.
Sayori swallowed her bite of pizza before responding, "I'm not that far, just writing out some ideas and things I might wanna add in later." she said.
"Have you ever wrote a poem Rika?" Sayori asked.
Bitch looked a bit in thought as she tried to think back, "Hmmm...I don't think so…" she said.
"Great!" Sayori said happily, "Let's make one right now!"
Bitch looked a bit surprised as she heard Sayori, "W-what? Like right now, right now?" Bitch said not feeling confident in Sayori's suggestion.
"Yeah! There's no harm in trying! You're just starting out, so writing anything counts as progress." Sayori said.
She brought out her notebook and flipped to an empty spot near the back. She handed Bitch the pencil and turned the notebook towards her.
"There's no right or wrong answer when you're writing a poem. Just write the first thing that's on your mind and go from there." Sayori said.
Bitch picked up the pencil gently and was about to write something down before hesitating.
Bitch said in a low but gentle voice as we watched her "C-can you guys give me some privacy for this...this feels a bit...embarrassing…"
Sayaori looked like she was smiling behind her mask, "Of course, writing out poem takes some time." She said as she left the table and went towards the couch, "Come on guys! I wanna play this Street Fighter you guys talked about!"
"Alright, I'll go swap the game." Hideki said as he sucked on his fingers getting the last flavouring from the pizza crumbs.
"I guess I'll go too, Can't really help since I'm trash at poems." I said as stood up and drank the last of my soda, "Don't think too hard on this, it's just a poem."
I left Bitch to her poem as I watched Sayori and Hideki play Street Fighter V.
For the next hour, Sayori and Hideki were on an even playing field as they both won and lost 6 games.
"Stop doing that bullshit combo!" Hideki said as he was blocking Chun-Li's jump attacks.
"Come on, Come on, Come on, Come on, Come on!" Said mumbled as she was focused immensely on the game.
Hideki continued to be on the defence until he somehow managed to get an uppercut in making Chun-Li fall to the ground. He then got in close and started going relentless as he didn't let Sayori get a chance to fight back with his low sweep kicks and occasional Sonic Booms mowing her health down to red until he ended it with a Sonic Vortex, his super.
"K.O!" The announcer said loudly.
"Nooo!" Sayori said loudly
Hideki launched himself off the chair and fist pumped the air, "Yes, Yes, Yes! The cycle ends here Sayori!"
"Ahhh! I was undefeated for 3 matches! How could you do this Hideki?" Sayori fake sobbed as she said back onto the couch.
"I'm surprised you got 3 in a row, but thankfully the cycle has ended. We can now live in peace…" I said trying to monologue to myself.
"U-umm.." Bitch spoke up from behind us.
She had Sayori's notebook in her hands and was blushing lightly as she faced us, "I...I think I'm done...with my poem…" she said in a low voice.
Sayori's eyes beamed brightly as she jumped off the couch and went up to Bitch to congratulate her, "Really?! That's great! Let's read it!" she said in a giddy tone.
Bitch's face grew even brighter than before as she heard her, "W-what?! N-no! I can't! That's really embarrassing and…. my poem isn't good…" Bitch said going from embarrassed to doubtful.
"It's alright if your poem is bad! It's your first one! Since your in the literature club, we can help make your poems even better than before. Besides, your can't be as bad as Jun's!" Sayori said trying to reassure Bitch while also taking a shot at me.
You know... I'd argue back but Sayori does have a point, my poem was pretty bad, so Bitch really can't get this one wrong.
"A-are you sure, you won't make fun of me for this?" Bitch said slowly coming out of her shell.
"Of course we won't! We'd never do that!" Sayori said positively "Jun, you stay quiet for a while..."
I didn't even get to say my piece and I'm already silenced…
Smart move Sayori...Smart move…
Bitch's hands were trembling as she was trying to find the courage to speak up and read her poem.
It took a minute, but after 2 different breathing techniques, she was able to read it out in a clear-ish and slightly loud voice:
Rika Takahashi Butterfly
Roses are red,
Violet's are blue,
I don't like what I write,
And neither should you.
Everyone around me sucks,
and there isn't even one person who cares.
Everyone always acts so fake,
Including my friends and the money they take.
There's no one who see's me for who I am,
and I try not to be as lonely as I can.
When I'm always alone, I try not to cry,
but it always hurts when I try to keep it inside.
And I want to change, for the better and not worse.
I want to change, and forget the person I was and be someone new.
But no matter how hard I try, I'm not given a choice and I can never choose.
And I'm trying with all my heart!
I'm not a follower, a sheep, or someone who just doesn't think!
I'm just a no one trying to be a someone, so take a look at me!
Am I just a cocoon in the making, never to be born?
Can I not spread my wings be a butterfly and fly free?
Can I not be my own person and live the way I want?
It's like I don't exist and my fake smile is all I have.
And I hate it cause it's all I had and myself even more since I embraced it.
I'm no different from those I hate,
Because just the same, I played the game.
I don't deserve a name,
Cause it's wasted on someone like me.
I'm shouting and pounding just trying to escape,
and trying to let someone hear me.
Because deep inside, no matter how much I stay quiet…
...I'm shouting for someone to help me.
Just help me...
Bitch exhaled deeply as she stopped trembling and had tears slowly falling down her cheek.
I'll admit it, I was a bit surprised to hear Bitch's poem.
Mainly because it started off simple and went somewhere, maybe because it felt more personal to her than we think, either way, it was a damn good poem.
Sayori went up to Bitch and helped her wipe away the tears, "That was a good poem, It speaks to me on a level I never knew existed. Good Job." She said as she moved her mask and showed a very warm smile.
"Man...that was some pretty heavy stuff, Made me tear up. Are all of your guys' poems like this?" Hideki asked as he wiped a tear away from his eyes.
"Haha, not really no. This is a first for me." Sayori said as she was giving Bitch a small hug, "How about you Jun, How'd you feel?"
I thought about for awhile, and I guess all I could say was-
"That was pretty damn good…" I said without thinking at all.
Both Sayori and Hideki looked surprised.
I don't blame them though. It's been a long time since I've acknowledged something with such high praise (If you can even consider this "High Praise.") It's even more surprising since its a poem/rap, something I really don't pay attention to at all since I'd rather ignore them than write them.
"R-really?" Sayori said trying to see if I was actually serious or not.
"Yea, it's pretty damn good. Even for someone with my kind of attitude, it was a pretty good poem." I said actually being serious for once.
"See? Even Jun acknowledged your poem! You've struck gold with this poem! Monika will be ecstatic about this!" Sayori said as she continued to radiate positivity.
Bitch stopped the waterworks and was able to talk for a short time, "D-don't go p-pitying me…" she said in between sniffles.
"Oh please, I don't care enough about people to give them a shred of pity." I said as she looked at me with teary eyes, "I may be a complete and utter asshole when it comes to things/people I won't care about, but that doesn't mean I'm going to ignore quality when I see it. The poem you wrote, although could use a couple of touch ups, is something I consider quality. At the very least, be grateful to yourselves for writing our something good."
Bitch looked at me with he teary eyes and asked, "You're not making that up, are you?"
I sighed as I started to revert back to my normal self, "Sheesh, if you can't accept the only compliment I'm gonna give you, then I might as well take it back…"
"Hmph, I don't need your charity now, don't I?" Bitch said as she tried to form a smirk while still wiping some tears.
"I don't know about that Chief, that depends on you and your sensitive mind. If you continue to cry and breakdown over every major thing, you're really gonna need it." I said as I looked at the time, 6:46…
"It's getting a bit late, unless you want to stay over and Deal with even more of my bullshit you should go home before the railways get claustrophobic." I said.
"Oh? What's this? Is the Jackass actually being considerate of me for the first time?" Bitch said trying to be snarky.
"Nope, not at all. I'd rather have you leave now while it's still daylight, than have me walk you to the line at night." I responded deadpan-like rejecting all kinds of thoughts Bitch had on me.
Bitch sighed, "Fine, you're right, I'll leave before the tram gets crowded. Thanks for inviting me over Sayori, Even though this was a pretty intense day for me, I still had a bit of fun. I'll talk to you later." Bitch said as she headed towards the front doors, but before she left, she turned around and flipped me off while sticking out her tongue.
Yeah, pretty expected of her to do. Not really surprising.
But before she left…
"Hey...come here for a moment…" Bitch said as she hung around the front door.
With a bit of caution, I walk towards her and asked what she wanted.
"What? Are you too scared to go to the station by yourself?" I asked jokingly until I stopped acting like an ass when I saw her serious face.
"I...wanted to apologise. You know, for blowing up earlier." Bitch said as she somewhat struggled to actually apologise, "B-but, don't get me wrong...I still don't forgive you for what you've said yesterday." Bitch said she gave me a small glare, "I'm not gonna quit anytime soon, even if I make friends, I still want to stay in the Club."
I looked at her with a bored expression as she talked.
Bitech notice this, "What, don't believe me?" She said as if I was antagonizing her.
"No, not really. But if you say you're gonna stay in the club, even after you make some real friends, then go ahead. Prove me wrong." I said as I "looked down" on her.
Bitch's glare went from a small glare to a somewhat determined look with a smirk, "Alright, I'll take you on, on that bet. Get ready to eat your words, Jackass."
"Whatever you say, you Bitch." I said as I started to walk back to the living room.
Bitch left the house and went back to her home, and I went back to the living room and hung out with my Brother while Sayori went back to her room before it got too cold outside.
I'd say this was a somewhat normal Saturday…
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Before you go onto the next chapter I just want to say 2 things:
Shoutout to my man Butterfly from Devilman: Crybaby for the poem inspiration, he didn't need to be done dirty. If you don't know him, I'd recommend listening to his rap on YT, make sure its the Dub vers.
Pineapple and Pepperoni is good on Pizza, fucking fight me.