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Silence surrounded us as he jumped up off the couch and slowly walked towards me.

"I think we need to talk" he said, sternly.

"I suppose I should put some coffee on then" I huffed.

As I filled up the kettle, I dreaded sitting down with him.

It wasn't his presence that frightened me, but I was terrified of what was about to come out of his mouth.

I could feel his eyes scorching into my back as I poured the boiling water into the mugs. I added milk and sugar and tried to compose myself before turning around to face him.

I had hoped that he hadn't picked up on my silent sobs as I wiped away a few stray tears.

Placing both mugs down on to the kitchen table, I took my seat directly opposite Jacob.

We sipped in silence for a what seemed like a lifetime before he finally spoke.

"How are you?" He asked, staring into his coffee cup.

It seemed like small talk was going to be the way forward for the two of us.

"I'm good, thank you. Um, you?" I replied nervously.

He shrugged and took a large gulp of coffee, wincing slightly from the temperature. I watched as the liquid slid down his throat, causing his adams apple to bob a little. There was nothing I wanted to do more than lick it at this moment. Obviously that wasn't an option.

"Things going okay in LA?"

"Uh, yeah I guess so" I muttered.

The awkwardness was almost painful to endure. What happened to Jake and Bells? We never used to be this uncomfortable with each other.

Things change. That's what he'd said to me. I guess I just didn't know how much.

"And uh…work?" he asked, sounding pained.

"Its steady, its good" I answered.

"That's…well you know" he mumbled, taking another sip.

I couldn't take this. Somebody had to start a proper conversation, otherwise we'd still be here six hours from now talking about the weather. Not that I minded bathing in the beauty that he was radiating.

"Why are you here, Jake?" I asked him.

His head snapped up at my question. I was just as shocked as he was at my confidence.

"I heard you were back. I guess I didn't believe it. I just had to see for myself" he replied, studying my face yet again.

"You said you wanted to talk" I stated.

"Yeah. How long are you here for?"

"Ten days. After that I have to leave for Hawaii." I retorted bluntly. Two could play this game.

"Hawaii? Oh…Work of course" he stuttered.

"So…" I urged.

He shot up from his seat as fast as a lightning bolt.

"Don't push me Bella! I had prepared myself to never have to see you again and you just show up here out of the blue!" He whispered harshly, gritting his teeth.

"Its my Dad's wedding. I had to come. You must have known that one day I would come back?"

"You weren't so bothered about Charlie when you were running off to LA! Did you even think of how ashamed he'd be? How humiliated?" He raged.

I had a feeling that Charlie wasn't the only person he was talking about now.

"I made a choice. I had to deal with it" I answered shortly.

"Typical selfish Bella Swan" He laughed humourlessly.

"What the hell is wrong with you? If all you came here for was to take jabs at me, you can leave" I told him, angrily.

Wow, I really was outdoing myself tonight. I knew that I had hurt him and I could see it in his eyes that he was still hurting, but he had no right to come into my home and abuse me like this.

"Do you have any idea what you did to me when you left?" He asked, edging closer to me with every word.

I stood up slowly from my seat and backed myself into the corner of the room, gripping the worktop for dear life.

"I'm sorry" I whispered.

No amount of apologies would make up for what I did to him. It wouldn't be that easy with Jacob Black.

"Sorry? That could never cover it Bella. You left me so you could run off to the other side of the country and take your clothes off for trashy magazines" He seethed, still edging closer.

"Hey! They aren't trashy!" I defended.

That was one thing I wasn't. He let out a small laugh before looking me dead in the eye.

"You've changed. I cant see you anymore" he said solemnly.

"I'm still me. I just have bigger boobs and different hair" I tried to joke.

"Yeah, I did notice" he replied, turning away from me.

I studied his back like it was the Da Vinci Code. His shirt was drying a little but it still clung to all the right muscles. Hell, with Jacob there were no wrong muscles.

"I don't know what you want me to do Jake" I told him honestly.

"I don't know what I want you to do and that's worse, believe me. Things have changed Bella. You left and I'm a different person now"

It was true. I couldn't see my Jake anymore. My sun had disappeared.

"Its fine. I never expected anything from you. Ill leave in ten days and then you wont have to see me again" I told him.

"That's just the thing Bella. Now that you're here, I don't know what the hell I want" He whispered, turning back to face me.

"Is there anybody in your life Jake?" I asked him cautiously.

He didn't give an answer. The silence spoke for itself. I watched as he slowly walked towards me.

I shuddered as he pressed his palms against the counter either side of me.

"You've blossomed" he whispered as his gaze wandered over my face, my neck and my chest.

"Yeah, well I had a little help with that" I giggled nervously.

He lifted one of his hands up to my face and tucked a few stray hairs behind my ear. His touch was warm. I felt my entire body change temperature. I felt my heartbeat quickening as closed my eyes.

"Your beautiful"

I couldn't help the small smile that graced my lips as he spoke those words.

"Bella, open your eyes for me" he urged.

They flickered open involuntarily. My body was at his command. It always had been. Now that he was standing in front of me, I would do anything he asked with no question.

His deep chocolate eyes captivated me now, just like they always did. His perfectly chiselled jaw was better than the work of Michael Angelo.

"You didn't answer my question. I asked if there was anyone in your life, is there?" I asked again.

I watched as he clenched his eyes shut.

"Its okay. You don't have to tell me, I already know the answer" I whispered. Placing my hand on his chest.

I could feel his heart pumping fast beneath my fingertips. I felt him shiver at my touch.

He was so close to me. I could feel his hot breath on my face. It was torturous.

"Its so hard to be around you" he whispered.

"Maybe you should go"

His eyes shot open any tore right through me.

"No. I didn't mean that. I just…I want to touch you so badly and I cant" he replied.

"I wont stop you" I panted.

I knew it was wrong. I knew that if he had moved on, it wasn't fair to whoever he was with now. It wasn't fair on him to walk away from him again after starting something and it wasn't fair to me either. I didn't want to be the other woman. I couldn't help wanting to break the rules. This was Jacob. My Jake. Jake and Bells.

I throbbed with anticipation as he trailed his index finger slowly down my arm. I had missed his touch so much.

I relaxed as his free hand traced circles across my collar bone and up towards my chin. I couldn't think of anything that would feel better.

"So soft…" he whispered.

I looked up to find his eyes staring straight into mine.

"This is wrong"

"So wrong" I whimpered.

"I should go" he spoke softly.

"Okay"

I caught his eyes flicker down to my lips and back up again. I subconsciously licked my lips in anticipation of a kiss that I had hoped would follow.

"Do you know how long I've dreamed that you'd be standing here in front of me? Offering yourself to me?" He spoke with heavy breaths.

I felt his feather light touch on my collar bone, moving further down.

"Hmmm…." I moaned gently.

His touch was like nothing else. Nobody would ever be able to touch me the way he did and nobody ever had. Even such a soft stroke could set my pulse racing.

"I'm sorry Bella"

I felt the cold washing over me as his touch subsided. I kept my eyes tight shut praying that his gentle hands would return to my body, but they didn't.

Instead I heard the front door click shut softly. My eyes snapped open at the sound. He wasn't there anymore. He wasn't my Jacob anymore. He belonged to someone else.

Someone else got to feel his touch and have his arms wrapped around her. Someone else was lucky enough to have his lips on hers. Someone else was lucky enough to hold his heart. And it wasn't me anymore.

At the realisation of my loss I collapsed to the cold stone beneath me and sobbed uncontrollably. Until now, I hadn't quite realised what I'd given up.

*Flashback*

"Your not enough for me anymore" I told him sternly.

"No, Bella I know you don't mean that. You said you loved me? You said you'd love me forever" he sobbed.

The sight before me was breaking my heart.

My beautiful, strong Jacob was falling apart before me and it was my fault. I knew I needed to get away from here. From him. Every thing I had told him was lies. He was perfect for me, it was I who wasn't enough for him. He deserved everything. Jacob deserved a girl who could give him the world, the moon and the stars. I wasn't that girl.

"I'm sorry Jacob, you need to let go" I replied, softening my tone.

"No" he cried.

"You'll move on. Your going to meet a nice girl and settle down with her. We would never have lasted" More lies.

"I cant believe your saying all these things. How could you? If you leave, don't you ever come back" He said forcefully.

"I wont"

*End flashback*

I remembered that moment like it was yesterday. I had told him I wouldn't return and was just another thing I couldn't give to him. He didn't deserve to have me come strolling back into his life like nothing happened.

As much I wanted to let my love go, I just couldn't. I knew he felt the same, I could feel it in his touch. He wanted me just as much as I wanted him. I would make him see it. A bitchy move I know, but something had to be done.

With that thought, I dragged my ass back up to bed and tried to salvage some sleep before the obviously hectic day that would follow.

Sue and Charlie's wedding day.

"Bella!" I heard an annoying squeal coming from above me.

"Hmmph…Go away" I grumbled.

"Nope. Up. Its my Moms wedding day and we need to get you ready!" Ugh, Leah.

I begrudgingly sat up in bed and wiped the sleep out of my eyes with the backs of my hands.

"You know, you could have woken me up a little more gracefully" I mumbled.

"You think I didn't try? You were out cold. I was close to pouring water on your ass so I'd be thankful that all you got was screeching" She laughed.

"Whatever…I need some coffee and a shower" I stated, hopping up out of bed.

"You handle the shower and I'll get the coffee" She offered before bouncing out of the room like tigger on crack.

I quickly showered and washed my hair, scrubbing so hard I nearly ripped a layer of skin off.

"We need to do your hair Bella, come on!" I heard Leah wale.

"Alright! Jesus!" I shouted back.

It was safe to say, I definitely wasn't a morning person.

I walked back into my bedroom to find Leah, Sue and a young girl I didn't recognise.

"Bella, this is the third bridesmaid Kim" Sue introduced us.

"Hi Bella, I've heard so much about you. Its nice to finally put a face to the name" she smiled genuinely.

"Hey" I smiled back at her.

Leah playfully pushed me down into the make up chair and started to comb through my wet hair.

"I brought a dress with me, I think its nice enough" I told them.

Sues eyes lit up as she rushed out of the room returning moments later with a beautiful deep red dress.

It looked like it would come to just above the knee, the skirt ruffled neatly and was held in place with a small crystal broach on the hip. The top half was an elegant bodice. The neckline was encrusted with beautiful crystals. It was low cut, but not enough to take away from the sheer classiness of the dress. It was just my style and would go perfect with my new Louboutins.

"It gorgeous! How did you guess my size?" I exclaimed.

"Bella, we do get Playboy in rainy old Forks! I got your measurements from there" She laughed.

I blushed a little knowing that she'd seen those shots. I wasn't ashamed by any means but still, it wasn't ideal that my soon-to-be stepmother had seen me naked.

"Oh right. Of course"

Realisation hit me as I suddenly thought that other people might have seen those same shots. Charlie. My old friends. Jake.

"Hey, um, do you know if anybody else has you know….seen them?" I asked shyly.

"Bella, I cant answer that question for you as I don't have the answer. I will tell you that every magazine that you've posed for, to my knowledge, is available locally" Sue answered sheepishly.

All of the blood in my face rushed to my cheeks as I thought of seeing them all later on in the day.

After an hour of being tugged around by Leah, my hair was finally complete. She had styled in up into a loose chignon. It was pulled to the side and my side bangs were held perfectly in place by a bobby pin.

"Perfect" I smiled, looking into the mirror at Leah.

She nodded and shoved the dress into my hands. I laughed as I walked into the bathroom to change.

I took my make up bag out of the bathroom cabinet. I applied an even coverage of foundation and added a little pink blusher to my cheeks. I finished off the look with a few lashings of black mascara and a small amount of clear lip-gloss.

As lifted the red material over my head, I wondered if I'd ever be the bride. I knew I didn't want to be married unless it was to Jake. No man would ever compare.

I zipped up the dress at the side and made sure that I wasn't showing too much cleavage. Thankfully the dress covered me perfectly. It fit like a glove. A very beautiful, stylish glove.

All I could here was coos and compliments coming from the room across the hall. I could only guess that Sue was finally ready and raring to go.

I was right and she looked breathtaking. She was dressed in a stunning silk, ivory gown. It was simple and strapless with a small train that flowed behind her. Her raven hair flowed down her back in loose curls and her make up was light. Never had a bride looked better.

"Oh Sue…You look amazing" I whispered.

Her head popped up and she smiled.

"Leah. Kim. Do you think you could give Bella and I a moment. I'd like to talk to her" Sue asked politely.

They both nodded before leaving the bedroom, closing the door behind them.

"Sit with me for a moment?" She asked, patting the space beside her where she had just sat.

I nodded and sat next her.

"I just wanted to let you know that I'm glad to become a part of your family today and you to mine. I also wanted to tell you that I'd never try and replace your mother but if there is anything you need at all, you can always come to me" she told me, her eyes shimmering with tears.

"Thank you. From what I can remember my mother was a wonderful woman, but I know that you will make Charlie just as happy as she did. I'll be proud to call you my stepmother" I replied, placing my hand over hers.

She pulled me in for a gently hug before releasing me and composing herself.

"LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD! WE'RE GONNA BE LATE!" I heard Leah holler from downstairs.

We both giggled and made our way out of the bedroom.

The ceremony was perfect. Charlie and Sue married in a small Quileute venue on First Beach. They exchanged breathtaking vows and promised to love each other for an eternity.

The reception was being held at a local beach hut and it was fantastic. It had hand built by the tribesmen around eighty years ago. It was large and spacious and had been decorated perfectly.

"Bella!" I heard a familiar voice shout.

I spun around on my Louboutin heel to find the one and only Embry Call racing towards me. He had been Jakes best friend from when they were kids and as far as I knew he still was.

"Embry!" I squealed excitedly as I leaped towards him for a hug.

"You look fantastic Bella" He whispered.

"Thank you Embry, you don't look too bad yourself" I laughed as I pulled away.

"How've you been?" He asked me.

"I've been good, yourself?"

"Yeah not bad. Me and the guys opened up a garage a couple of years ago, things are going well" he beamed.

By the guys, I knew he meant Jake. I knew he didn't want to bring him up and make me feel uncomfortable.

I hadn't seen him yet. I couldn't bring myself to look for him as I walked down the aisle.

"How's work?" He asked, wiggling his brow.

"Oh god!" I laughed, slapping my hands across my face in embarrassment

"Can I get in on the joke?" I heard a husky voice ask.

My entire body froze.

As I peeped out from behind my finger tips I saw Jake standing next to Embry. He looked mouth watering in a simple black suit, a white shirt beneath and a matching black tie. I always imagined that's what he'd wear if we ever got married.

My thoughts we marred however when I spotted a stunning Quileute woman making her way over to him.

She smiled at him as he wrapped his arm around her waist.

I swear my heart fell to my stomach with that action. I realised I was still holding my hands to my face and dropped them down to my sides immediately.

She was perfect. Her jet black hair fell over her shoulders and her chocolate brown eyes were complimented by thick long lashes. Her figure was something to be envied. She wore a simple, yellow bandage dress with a pair of strappy heels. Just as I thought it couldn't get any worse, her legs were long and slender. Nothing like mine. She was nothing like me. She was perfect for him.

Jakes eyes met mine and I saw the awkwardness in his face. I was doing my best to hide mine, but I doubted I was doing a good enough job.

"Honey, aren't you going to introduce me?" She asked, her voice soft and sweet.

He shook himself out of his trance and nodded.

"Megan, this is Bella" He told her.

She looked over at me with a genuine smile on her face and held her hand out to shake mine.

Jake looked over at me with apologetic eyes before speaking.

"Bella, this is Megan. My wife"

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