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"There's been nobody. Nobody since you Jake. I could never….I didn't want to give myself to anybody else. I didn't want to wash your touch away" I said gently.
His eyes softened at my confession.
"Don't play with me Bella. Are you serious?" He asked.
"Deadly" I whispered.
With that, his beautiful lips crashed down to mine. He kissed me with passionate abandon. The taste of rain and salty tears surrounded my senses.
Before I knew it we were on the ground and there would be no stopping us now.
As his lips collided with mine, pleasure ensued.
I had been dreaming of this moment for years.
My body was enveloped in his. Our limbs were tangled together as we fought for dominance in our kiss. His tongue snaked across my bottom lip begging for access. I opened my mouth to him immediately, feeling his warm tongue wrapping itself around mine.
"Only me…" he panted against my mouth.
That's when it hit me. I wasn't the only one for him and that killed me. What on earth was I doing?
I, Bella Swan, was not a home wrecker. I didn't do this kind of thing, whether it was Jake or not.
He continued to kiss me as his hands softly ghosted my neck.
This wasn't right. It felt so damn good, but it was wrong. I couldn't do this.
I pressed my palm to his chest and gently pushed him away from me, breaking the kiss.
"Jake, I cant. We cant do this" I whispered.
I didn't dare to look into his eyes, afraid that I'd melt into him all over again.
"What?" he asked, dumbfounded.
"We cant do this. Your married now and I don't do this kind of thing. I wont be the other woman" I replied, tracing my finger over my bottom lip.
I was aching for more but I wouldn't let up. Jacob Black was the love of my life but I wouldn't be the his mistress.
"Right…." he mumbled as he scrambled up to his feet.
I looked up at him as he shuffled on his feet uncomfortably.
"I'm sorry I just cant" I whimpered.
He shrugged and stepped back inside the truck. I couldn't believe his attitude towards me. My Jacob would never act this way.
What the hell was wrong with him?
I jumped up to my feet and stepped into the passenger side.
He started the engine and drove away in silence. We didn't speak a word to each other on the ride back to my house. I would occasionally look over at him but his eyes stayed firmly on the road ahead of us.
We pulled up outside my house, silence still surrounding us. He shut off the engine and leant back into his seat.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.
"Its fine" He said bluntly.
His attitude was infuriating. I had done nothing wrong. If anything I had done the right thing. I would not cause a married man to be unfaithful. Sure, I wanted him for myself but at the threat of breaking somebody else's heart? I don't think so. Not for all the love in the world.
"What is your problem?" I snapped.
His head shot round to face me. His eyes showed just how angry he was.
"My problem? Are you serious?" He scoffed.
"Yes, what the fuck is your problem?" I spoke a little louder.
"Get out Bella" he ordered.
"My pleasure asshole" I seethed, jumping out of the truck.
Just as I slammed the door shut he sped off as fast as lightning.
I stood there speechless. What the fuck just happened? How did it all come to this?
As the rain started to pour I span on my heels and ran back to the house. As well as everything else that was going on, I didn't want to catch pneumonia too.
I closed the front door behind me and made my way up to my room.
I changed into my flannel pyjamas before snuggling underneath my duvet. After sending Rosie a text telling her to let herself in, I closed my eyes.
I would not let this eat away at me. Now I knew the truth about everything, I couldn't hold on any longer. It was all on Jake now. If he wanted me enough, then he'd have me. I wouldn't be the other woman. Ever.
He knew that if he wanted me, he had a choice to make. I was pretty sure I already knew what his choice would be.
I cleared my mind of it before drifting off into a peaceful sleep.
"Belllaaaa" I heard a sweet voice coo.
My eyes flickered open to see Rosie standing above me grinning like a Cheshire cat.
"Hey Rose" I mumbled groggily.
"Hello sleepyhead. Nice nap?" She taunted playfully.
I poked my tongue out at her and sat up in bed. I patted the space beside me and she plopped her butt down on the bed.
"So, I take it we have a lot to talk about" she urged.
I groaned loudly and nodded my head.
She leaned over the side of the bed and pulled a bottle of Jose' from her handbag.
"Spill honey" she said, taking a large gulp and passing the bottle over to me.
I took a few swigs before speaking.
"He's fucking married Rose. Married. I'd prepared myself for him to have moved on, but to be married? That never even crossed my mind" I sighed.
"Does he still feel something for you?" She asked.
I didn't answer. Instead I took the bottle from her and gulped it down. At this point my throat was stinging from the rawness of the alcohol.
"So, Ill take that as a yes" She giggled.
"I met him tonight, after I left the wedding" I confessed.
Rose looked over at me and raised her eyebrows. I rolled my eyes and laughed lightly.
"So, what happened?" She asked, nudging me gently.
"We kissed" I whispered.
I heard her let out a low whistle.
"I know! I know. Bad Bella" I huffed.
"Hey, this isn't your fault. He clearly expected you to just spread your legs and let him into your head again. He's got a wife Bella, he cant just expect you to be okay with that" She told me.
"I know. I stopped him, I swear. Its just that after all this time, his lips…." I trailed off, lifting my finger to trace my bottom lip.
"Oh dear, I need to meet this guy. He must be hot if he's got you flustered like this from one kiss" She laughed.
"Hot isn't the word Rose, he's breathtaking. Haven't I ever shown you a photo?" I asked her, sure that I had.
"Nope" She replied, popping the "p".
"Oh, I thought I had. I don't have any here. I took them all with me" I muttered.
She handed the bottle to me and I took another large swig. I was feeling the effects of drinking too quickly.
"You know what we need to do?" She asked me excitedly.
"What's that?"
"We need to go out!" She squealed.
"Are you serious? Do you know what time it is?" I asked her, dumbfounded by her spontaneity.
"Oh Bella, its only nine thirty! Don't be such a downer! Come on, get your ass up and put some clothes on!" She encouraged.
"Yes Major Hale" I laughed.
I wasn't too worried about showing off my curves at the best of times but in hindsight maybe I should have rethought my outfit.
Port Angeles wasn't exactly a party town.
I had on a pair of wet look leggings and a tight midnight blue tube top. All topped off by a pair of six inch black Louboutin pumps. My hair was still in the messy chignon from the wedding, but the roughness of it added to the charm.
Rosie look stunning as usual wearing a tight, red dress. It came up mid thigh and tied around her neck. She was wearing a pair of red wedge heels. Her hair flowed down her back perfectly, as usual.
I had tried to explain to her that we were a little overdressed for a night out in Port Angeles, but she was having none of it. She insisted that we go out to lift my spirits.
"Rosie, I have no idea where you want to go" I huffed.
"Oh ssshh. Anywhere with shots, I don't care" She laughed as we carried on walking along the sidewalk.
We walked for a few more minutes before Rosie pulled me to a halt.
"We could go in there" She suggested, pointing to the bar in front of us.
It looked a little run down from the outside, but I guess appearances weren't everything right?
"We may as well go in for a few beers! Come on Bella!" She shrieked, pulling me towards the entrance.
We strolled straight passed the bouncer. The eye-fuck he gave us didn't go a miss.
As I suspected, the bar was small and a little rundown. There was one large bar, a few booths and a large pool table in the corner of the room.
"Well, this is fine" Rosie shrugged dragging me over to the bar with her.
It was pretty dead. There were a few guys drinking at the bar and a handful of people occupying the booths.
"What can I get you two, ladies?" The bartender asked.
I'd take a guess that he was around thirty. He was a little larger, his short hair spiked up. He seemed nice enough.
"Two bottles of beer and four shots of cherry vodka please" Rose asked politely.
He nodded his head and smiled at her before going about his job.
"Jesus Rosie, I'm already a little drunk. What are you trying to do to me?" I giggled.
"We are on a mission. We are going to make you forget Jacob Black, even if its just for one night!" She shrieked.
We paid for our drinks before taking a seat at a table in the corner of the bar. Music filled the air, Muse's "Plug In Baby" if I'm not mistaken.
"Ready Bella?" She asked me, sliding two shots of red liquid over to me.
"What the hell" I shrugged, necking the two of the quickly.
"So, you want to talk any more about it or not?" Rose asked me, taking a swig of her beer.
"I could talk about it until I go blue in the face but that wont help matters. No, I want to forget just for one night. Jacob Black is an asshole, end of story" I stated, slamming my fist down on the table.
"Yeah, I've known the dude all his life. Asshole pretty much sums it up" I heard someone say.
I turned my head to see Embry standing there with a guy I didn't recognise. I leapt up out of my seat and gave him a bone crushing hug.
"Embry! What are you doing here?" I asked him.
"Just out with a few friends, who's the pretty lady?" He asked me, nodding towards Rose.
"This is Rosalie Hale. Rosalie, this is Embry Call. Who's your friend?" I asked.
"Oh, this is Jared" He introduced.
"Nice to meet you Jared" I smiled, giving him a quick hug before taking my seat.
"You wanna sit?" Rose asked, gesturing to the two empty chairs.
Both shrugged and sat themselves down at the table.
"So, you know Jacob huh?" Rose asked them.
I kicked her sharply under the table.
"Jeez Bella, calm yourself" She hissed.
"I just don't want to talk about him" I muttered.
"Well, in that case we say no more about him" Embry smiled.
I mouthed a thank you at him before taking a large swig of my beer.
"Man I love a woman that can drink beer" Jared laughed.
"Well, you've hit the jackpot then buddy" Rose joked.
We spent the next couple of hours laughing and joking around. It felt good to be happy and just forget my problems. It was fair to say that by this point I was pretty drunk. We had finished off a whole bottle of cherry vodka between the four of us. For some reason, neither guys seemed effected by it much. It was just Rose and I that couldn't hold in our giggles.
"So one of the first shoots Bella ever did, well its probably the funniest thing I've ever seen. She was like naked with whipped cream over crucial parts and this photographer was a little too excited" Rose giggled.
If was sober I would have been mortified by this conversation, but at this point I really didn't care.
"He was literally sweating, it was hilarious. If she'd have put it all on a plate in front of him I think he would have pissed his pants!" She was laughing uncontrollably now.
"Oh god, Rosie!" I shrieked, feeling the blood rush to my cheeks.
"God Bella, that's so funny!" Jared laughed.
"Yeah well, luckily I've had the same photographer for a while now. No more uncomfortable moments, thank the lord" I told them.
The laughter died down as we carried on drinking our pitcher of long island ice tea.
"Seriously though Bella, you sound like you've had an incredible few years" Embry said.
"Yeah, its been great. I feel so lucky. I know most people would frown upon my choice of career but it really has helped me grow. I'm not little Bella Swan anymore" I replied.
"Well I for one am proud of you honey" he smiled, pulling me in for a hug.
"Thanks Em"
I heard the door swing open behind me but paid no mind to it at all. Clearly by the look on Embry's face, I should have done. I chugged the rest of my drink down before shrugging at Embry.
"What's wrong with you? You look like you've seen a monster" I laughed sheepishly.
"Oh Bella, I think I have" he muttered, looking straight past my head.
"Wow, who's Mr tall dark and handsome?" Rose asked, eye-fucking whoever was behind me at the bar.
"Uh Bella, I think its time to go" Embry urged.
"What the hell are you talking about? I'm having fun! What's wrong with that? I came out with Rosie to forget all about Jacob fucking Black!" I shouted.
Embry winced at my words.
"I'm glad that I'm so easy to forget"
Shit. Double shit. Scrap that. Fuck.
I daren't turn my head around. I already knew who was standing behind me.
"Not talking? That's becoming a bit of a trend these days" He sniped.
Before I could answer, Rosie piped up.
"Who the fuck do you think you are asshole? We're just trying to have a little fun"
"Feisty. I see where Bella gets it from now" he jabbed.
"Jacob Black. I expected more from you from what Bella told me. Have some respect and leave us alone" She ordered.
Ah, I loved Rose.
"If Bella wants me to leave, then I'll leave. What's it to be, Bells?" he asked.
I shivered at the nickname. Why did he insist on calling me that? I was sure he knew what it did to me.
I took a deep, deep breath before answering.
"Free country" I muttered.
He took that as a clear invitation and pulled up a chair beside me.
"Play nice and everything will be fine" Rose told him, sipping her drink.
Jake smirked and took a swig of his beer.
"So, carry on with your conversation. Don't mind me" Jake urged.
"We were talking about Bella's uh….you know….job" Embry stuttered.
"Carry on…I don't mind. I'd like to know more" He told us.
I looked over at him and raised my eyebrows. Jake just smiled and shrugged.
"Okay….Any questions?" I asked them.
"I've got hundreds Bella, but I don't think many of them would be appropriate" Jared laughed.
"Well, pick out the clean ones and ill do my best to answer" I said, pouring myself another glass.
"Okay. Ever been to the Playboy mansion?" Jared asked.
"Yep. I've been a few times. The parties at that place are mind blowing" I told them.
"Oh man, your so lucky. I'd give my right arm to go to one of those parties" He sighed.
"Well, I cant promise anything but you may just get your wish one day" I suggested, laughing.
"Are you serious?" Embry's eyes lit up.
"I can try, I usually get a few guest passes"
I watched as Embry and Jared started whispering to one another. They looked like a couple of horny teenagers.
"Uh, Bella. I'm gonna go to the bathroom, you gonna be okay here?" Rose asked.
"Yeah, ill be fine" I replied honestly.
I took a large gulp of my drink as she walked away from us.
"I'm gonna get another drink" I mumbled, standing up.
"I'll come with you" Jake said, jumping up from his seat.
I shrugged and walked over to the bar.
An awkward silence ensued as we waited to be served. The bar had filled out a lot since we'd arrived.
I caught Jake staring at me out the corner of my eye.
"Do I have something on my face?" I asked nervously.
"No. You just look gorgeous" he replied, running his tongue along his bottom lip.
I swear I gushed into my panties at that slight movement. He didn't even know what he did to me. It was bittersweet torture.
"Uh, thanks" I giggled nervously.
"Just speaking the truth like my Dad taught me"
At the mention of Billy my whole body tensed up. I gritted my teeth together as hard as I could.
"What's the matter? Something I said?" He asked, sounding concerned.
I wanted to tell him, so badly. What would he say? Would he even believe me? I doubted it but then if we were really supposed to getting over this, didn't he deserve to know the truth? I didn't want to cause trouble between him and his father. I knew that Billy still relied on Jake a little because of the wheelchair.
"Bella. Your worrying me a little, what's the matter?" He asked, placing a warm hand on my shoulder.
Was it worth it? Was Jake worth it? I didn't even have to waste my time thinking of the answer.
"Jake, there's something I have to tell you"
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