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It only took a couple more thrusts before I was falling over the edge, straight into a black hole. This orgasm more intense than the last. I could feel Jake pulsing inside of me as he threw his head back in ecstasy.

"Oh, I love you" I sobbed, letting pleasure wash over me once again.

"I love you too".

Jake rolled me over onto his chest as we tangled ourselves around each other. Our bodies sticking together from the moisture we had created.

What I had imagined with Jake, hadn't even come close.

And I had been right all along, I wasn't ready to let it go.

It hadn't taken long before Jake fell asleep in my arms. However, I wasn't as relaxed as he seemed to be. The only thing running through my mind was how amazing my night had been with him.

How was I supposed to walk away from this now? There so much he still didn't know. I knew that telling him about Billy was necessary, I just didn't know when.

Realising that there was no chance of me getting to sleep, I untangled myself from Jake and rolled silently out of the bed. I needed time to think and I didn't want to wake Jake in the process.

Fresh air, that's what I needed. I tiptoed out onto the balcony, the cool city air hitting me like a tonne of bricks. Jogging lightly towards the hot tub, I snatched up Jakes dress shirt and slipped in on over my naked shoulders. The scent of him still lingered on the collar.

"What have I done?" I sobbed silently to myself.

In hindsight, walking away from him after what we just shared would be impossible. I should never have been so selfish. Of course I didn't regret a single second of it. Giving myself to Jake had been the most sensual, passionate thing I had ever experienced. It was perfect.

Now, the thought of leaving him lingered on my brain like a cancer. I couldn't just leave here without telling him all of the facts. Sure, he'd be furious with Billy but what else could I do? If he found out from somebody else in the future, how would I explain myself?

The only sound filling the air was the echoing of sirens and the light breeze. I sat there for god knows how long, thinking and crying. Tears had been falling from my eyes uncontrollably. All I could think of was my dishonesty and slowly it was tearing me apart.

"Baby? Are you out here?" I heard Jake call.

I frantically wiped my eyes with the collar of his shirt, praying that he wouldn't notice.

"Yes" I called back.

Jake wandered around the corner of the building in nothing but his underwear and even in my sorrow, I couldn't take my eyes off of him. He noticed my puffy eyes immediately and rushed to my side.

"Bells, what's the matter?" He asked desperately.

I couldn't hold it back any longer. I collapsed into his arms, clinging to him desperately as I sobbed. Tears flowed freely down my cheeks as I thought about everything I needed to tell him. He was my sun and I was about to eclipse him.

"Ssh honey, just tell me what's wrong" He begged.

"I…cant" I stammered, trying to regain control of myself.

Jake pulled me onto his lap and began to rock me back and forth slowly. This was my Jacob.

The Jacob that had come out tonight was the man I fell in love with.

Sweet. Caring. Kind. Sexy. Heart-stoppingly beautiful.

"Baby, you can tell me anything" He cooed into my ear softly.

He was right. I could tell him anything. This was the only secret I had ever kept from him and it had been eating away at me for three years. He had to know, even if it turned our whole world upside down.

Here goes everything….

"Jake…I…I lied to you" I whimpered.

I immediately felt his whole body tighten.

"About what?" He whispered, his teeth clenched shut.

"Why I left…"

Jake slowly lifted me off of him and walked over towards the wall. I could see the muscles in his back trembling.

"I knew it, I knew you lied to me" He muttered to himself.

"I'm sorry…." I whispered, hoping he'd hear me.

He turned around to face me. He had his fists clenched at his sides, his jaw was twitching. I could tell he was desperately trying to hold in his anger, but I highly doubted he'd expect what I was about to confess.

"Tell me" He ordered.

All I could do was nod as I wrapped his shirt around me protectively.

"I didn't want to leave you Jake. I….I was forced away from you" I stammered, staring down at my feet.

"Who the hell by?" He seethed.

Damn, this was going to tear him apart. How would I be able to live with myself knowing that I was about to rip his relationship with his father to pieces?

But I was done hiding it. I need to let it out.

"Billy…" I whispered, tears stinging my eyes.

I heard him take a sharp breath, and then nothing.

"Jake?"

He was staring straight through me. The emotion in his face was evident. He looked murderous.

"Are you serious?" He asked through gritted teeth.

I simply nodded, wiping a few stray tears away from my cheeks.

"What did he say to you Bella?" He asked desperately.

I started to sob a little, unable to speak.

The next thing I felt was Jakes hands gripping my thighs.

"Bella, what did he say to you?" He asked again.

"That…That he wanted you to find a Quileute girl and settle down" I whispered through sobs.

"That I wasn't strong enough to stand by you"

I couldn't hold back my sadness any longer. I began to crumble as my mind wandered back to that day. How had I let him do this to us? I would have been Jake's wife by now. We could have had it all.

"That bastard…." He trailed off, pacing the ground in front of me.

"I knew there was something going on, he kept telling me that you didn't care enough to stay. I started to believe him Bella, that's why I had to move on"

Hearing his words, I scrambled to my feet and raced over to him.

"No Jake. I never stopped caring for you, there wasn't a day that went by that I didn't think of you. It wasn't over for me then and it still isn't over for me now"

I was begging, pleading for him to believe me but he couldn't even look me in the eye.

"Jake, please"

Still he wouldn't look at me.

I fell to my knees in front of him and cried. I couldn't have him believing I didn't care. Hell, there was nothing else in this world I did care about.

"Ja….Jake. Please, I feel like I cant even breathe" I begged.

"I cried for months, every night before bed I fell apart. Life without you was worthless, there was no reason to get up in the morning. I busied myself with work and tried to push you to the back of my mind but I just couldn't. You should see my apartment Jake, pictures of you and I everywhere. I used to kiss each on every single day. Please Jake, I cant live without you" I cried.

With my desperate confession, he swept me up into his arms kissing every inch of my face.

"I'm so sorry" He whispered over and over again.

I clung to him for dear life. I could never let go, physically or emotionally.

"I should have waited Bells. I should have come for you, I'm so sorry"

If only he had. I didn't want to hear him apologise, I wanted him to show me how much he loved me.

"Jake, no words. Just please make me forget that your not mine" I begged, gripping his face with my hands.

I didn't need to say anything else. Jake lifted me to his lips and kissed me ferociously. I hopped onto him and wrapped my bare legs around his waist, grinding myself down onto his erection.

"Oh god Bells…I love you" He whispered against my mouth.

I couldn't even find the words to reply, I just found myself nodding as I continued to kiss his beautiful lips. My hands worked their way down his chest, caressing every inch of his golden skin.

"Please Jake….Just take me" I begged.

Apparently that's all it took for him to lose his shit. He cupped my ass and pushed me back up against the brick wall. His lips trailed down my neck, biting roughly while one of his hands came up to squeeze my breast.

I reached down beneath me to shove his boxer shorts down past his glorious ass, dragging my fingernails across it firmly.

"Fuck me Jake" I whispered to him.

He didn't hesitate as he ripped my panties from my body, leaving them in tatters on the ground. Jake pushed both of my hands up above my head before lowering me down onto his cock.

The feeling of him filling me was enough to bring me to climax as it was. I could never get tired of it.

"So tight…." He grunted, thrusting himself inside of me further.

"Harder….Please" I pleaded.

Jake happily obliged as he slammed himself into of me, hitting me at my sweetest spot. I was biting down on my lip so hard I thought I was going to draw blood.

"Fuck baby…You like that?" He asked, his voice husky and full of lust.

There were no words, all I could do was show him. I crashed my lips down to his, taking his bottom lip inbetween my teeth and tugging at it roughly. My actions erupted something inside of him as he began to pound into me even harder.

I felt my whole body tingling.

Shaking.

Throbbing.

We kept our lips locked, both of us panting like rabid wolves as he slid me up and down onto his hardness.

"Jake…I'm gonna come baby" I cried.

This only caused him to go faster. I could feel the blood rushing to my head as the pleasure washed over me like a thousand tiny electric sparks. I felt my muscles tighten around him as my juices gushed all around him.

"Fuck Bella….So wet…I'm coming" He panted.

Jake pummelled into me twice more, releasing everything he had into me.

He slowed down, but kept going.

"Open your eyes" He begged.

I did as I was asked and looked straight back into his. We were both visibly trembling, covered in sweat and locked together. He released my hands and I wrapped both arms around his neck, burying my face into his skin.

"Amazing Bella….Fucking amazing" He whispered, peppering my neck with kisses.

With my legs still wrapped around him, he carried us back inside the hotel room and into the bathroom.

"I don't know how and I don't know when, but we will be together Bells. I promise" He told me, looking me dead in the eye.

My heart soared. I couldn't control the smile that crept upon my lips.

"Really?" I asked hopefully.

"I wont break another promise to you Bella. You're the one, you always have been"

Jake set me down onto my feet as he turned on the shower, placing his hand underneath the stream to check the temperature.

Turning to me, he slipped his shirt off from my shoulders and ushered me into the shower closely following behind me.

The hot water gushed over my body, warming me instantly. I looked over at Jacob to find that he was a sight for sore eyes. His hair, now flat from the water fell down onto his forehead. Every inch of his body was soaked and I couldn't help but stare.

I hadn't noticed but he was staring just as intently at me.

"Do you have any idea how beautiful you are, Bella?" He asked me.

I blushed a little before shaking my head.

"Your absolutely breathtaking" He whispered before placing the softest kiss onto my moist lips.

We made love in the shower three times before finally admitting defeat. I was exhausted and so was Jake, but I was torn because I didn't want this night to end.

Where did we go from here? Would we still see each other behind Megan's back?

I should have felt terrible for what we had done, but I couldn't find it in me to feel any remorse. This was how it was meant to be.

Just Jake and Bells.

We crawled into bed together, holding each other tightly. Like we never wanted to let go.

"I love you Bella" He whispered to me, sleep claiming him.

"I love you too, so much"

The ringing of my cell phone startled me. I shot up from the bed, snatching it from the nightstand.

Leah's name was flashing up at me from the screen.

Of course, it was her birthday. How could I have forgotten?

"Happy Birthday, Le Le"

"Thanks Bella, where were you last night?"

"Uh, out of town for the night? Why?" I asked her cautiously, surely she couldn't know.

"No reason sweetie. Rose and I had a blast in PA!"

"Ah, I see you met her then. I knew you two would get on like a house on fire" I laughed.

"Definitely. I can see the three of us causing a lot of mischief tonight!"

"What did you have planned?"

"Seattle. Dancing, drinking and a lot of flirting"

"Oh Leah, how did I ever manage without you?"

"I often wonder the same Bella. Anyway, I'll meet you and Rose at your place at 8. Don't be late! I have a lot planned"

"I'll see you then birthday girl!" I giggled, hanging up.

I placed my phone back onto the nightstand, laying back down into Jakes waiting arms.

"Good morning" He mumbled, his eyes still closed.

I rolled over to face him, our faces centemetres apart.

"Good morning to you too" I beamed.

He looked adorable first thing in the morning. His eyes were still puffy and his hair was dishevelled.

Fucking perfect, that's what he was.

"I love waking up to you" He whispered, his eyelids flickering open.

"Its not so bad waking up to you either" I teased.

Jake sat up, stretching his arms above his head. I would never tire of ogling his amazing body. I had come across hundreds of men with fantastic bodies, but not one of them even came close to Jake.

"I'm starving. Wanna order breakfast?" He asked me, sliding his boxer shorts on over his legs.

"Sounds good" I replied, hopping up out of bed.

I grabbed my night bag and made my way to the bathroom.

I washed my face, brushed my teeth and fixed my hair. I threw it up into a messy bun.

I slid on a pair of tight, stonewashed jeans and a loose fitted black tank top. Before leaving the bathroom I added a little blush to my cheeks and a few lashes of mascara.

"Breakfast will be up in a few, Bells" He told me, taking hold of my hand.

Jake led me out onto the balcony, the sun blazing down on both of us. He had dressed himself in a pair of loose fitted jeans and a tight white shirt, accentuating every muscle on his torso. Was it possible to lust after one person this much?

As we looked out over the city, he stood behind me with his arms firmly holding me against him. In a short while I would be leaving him.

"Jake, where do we go from here?" I asked nervously.

"I'll be honest with you honey. Leaving Megan will be hard, not on me but on my family. They pushed me to be with her so much after you left, they kept telling me how good she was for me. I refused to date her for such a long time before finally agreeing to it. Even then I wasn't into it, but I guess I just went with it in the end…" He sighed, trailing off.

"Its okay Jake" I whispered, urging him to finish.

"There are some things I need to sort out before I can even attempt to leave her. I understand if you cant see me again until then, but I don't know when it will be baby. All I know is that I love you, more than anything" He assured me, placing a kiss on the nape of my neck.

A mixture of emotions ran through me at that moment. I was unbelievably happy that he wanted us to be together after all this time. I was disappointed that he couldn't leave her yet. I was angry that his family loved her after what Billy did. Of course Jakes sisters, Rachel and Rebecca, didn't know anything about that.

I had always been real close with the both of them. Of course the only reason I started going over to Jakes was to spend time with him, but once I met his sisters we were inseperable.

Now I dreaded to think what they thought of me. They probably hated me, just like everyone else who didn't know the truth. I needed to know what Jake was going to do with the confession I had made to him.

"Jake, are you going to confront your father?" I asked timidly.

He took a deep breath before answering.

"Not yet. It wont help to do that now, but when its time you'll be the first to know" He replied, squeezing me tightly.

"You know I have to leave don't you? I have to go back to LA when I get back from Hawaii" I reminded him.

I felt him sigh against my neck.

"I don't know how I'm gonna cope, Bells. Seeing you, being with you and then losing you again. Its gonna be hard. I know it'll be a while before we can be together, but promise you'll wait for me? I want you to promise me that you will never let go?" He begged.

I turned myself around to face him, his eyes shimmering with tears.

"I promise" I whispered.

Leaning in towards him, I placed the sweetest kiss onto his lips before wrapping my arms around his neck.

"I don't think I can wait all of that time before seeing you again" I whispered against his beautifully soft skin.

"Whenever you need me, just call and ill try the best I can to be there"

I lost myself in him as I savoured our last hour together.

Leaving would be awful.

Seeing him with her would be hell.

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