so here is the 1st chapter that I have been able to revise thanks to some of the comments. I really appreciate that. so here it begins.

The curtain rises...…

People are monsters. Source ? Me. Out there in the real world there's little that can go right, and so many things that can go wrong. People are more than happy to use someone as nothing but a scapegoat and left them there, or betray one's friend in their moment of weakness. People are all about survival therefore there is only one rule in life. Survive. Even today right here in Japanese society there are still similarity to that place. Even when I'm so far away from the snowy mountains I once lived. Even when I'm so far away from my baptism of fire. Things never change when there is people around. People will be selfish, people still choose themselves over other and would not hesitate not be afraidto use others as tools just get an easier time in life. Just like back there,, know I left that life behind, but I know that one may escape their past, But they will never outrun their sins. What am I talking about ? Well...

Yui:: "Hikki ! Wait up !"

This... the familiar pink buns of my club mate Yuigahama yui. She off course is after me Hikigaya Hachiman. Off course she only knew me as a club mate and really I feel it is best to keep it that way. To what I am referring too? Well it's a long story so I'd rather not talk about it here. She may see me as a friend but I knew deep down that one day I might have to disappear from her life. Right now we are heading to our usual after school club setting.

Hachiman: "Hikigaya: "I told you I'm waiting here outside the door."

Yui: "Oh! Ok then let's go i would not want Yukinon to be waiting."

She soon skipped to the room. That room to me is a place of rest but also of peace. It became a home away from home after a while. As we arrive at the club room we open the door to a sight of the usual raven hair girl that we all know as the ice queen. She sat alone in the chair she always sat in and in people's eyes she is the untouchable girl.

Yui: "Yahallo Yukinon !"

Hachiman: "Yo"

Yukino: "Good after noon Yuigahama-San, Hikigaya-kun."

Hachiman: "Empty request as per usual ?"

Yukino : "Yes nothing off note has happen."

It was just 3 weeks after the trip to Kyoto where I did my job. I sacrifices my social standing to get the job done. This is nothing new to me. To me this sacrifices is nothing compare to what I've seen. This does not effect me at all. The sacrifices I did was an atonement for my crimes and as long as I live these sacrifices are nothing compared ego those who lost it on that snowy day. I pick up my head phones and turn on my music. I choose an old song that I know clams my soul and the only one that I can sleep to. The song "the journey home" came on and I soon I lay my head on a nearby table to take a short nap. Just before I do I looked out the window. The open blue sky, a place I feel the most freedom. As I close my eyes the dream replays itself.

Pixy : "Look at the view .There's not that much difference between those countries form up here."

The dream of me in a cockpit seat. Once again soaring through the air at high speeds. I look out and see the setting sun. It painted the sky orange and while the dark blue of space hangs above it was more beautiful than anything I remember. Looking down I can see the endless oceans that stretch into the horizon. To The left I can see the high mountains peaks of snow with lush valleys of green. While I soar through the sky I look to my left and see a familiar sight. It was not a bird but an F-15C. It has only one red wing. It belong to an old friend. Even when he betrayed me I knew he had his reasons. I didn't forgave him until that documentary came out. I wrote him one last letter forgiving him and in the process, atoning for my own sins. Even when he betrayed me he finally found where he belongs and where he should land. I'm still wandering the endless skies, I know that I can't land here not yet and until my sins are atoned I will keep on going.

Iroha: "Senpai !"

A loud annoying voice bust through the door and as per usual I woke up immediately. Seriously what does this sly fox want ?

Yukino: "Isshiki San please knock and also why's re you here ?"

Iroha: "Yukinoshita-senpai ! I have a question to ask you. What do you know about the most recent wars ?"

!? What ? Why would she ask about that ?

Yukino: "Well the most recent conflict is the Belarusian war in 2016 almost 3 years ago."

Iroha: "I'm doing a project in history class about the conflict. And something odd came up."

Yukino: "What can that be Isshiki-San."

Iroha: "Does the name "Demon lord" Ring any bells ?"

Ok maybe she heard of that legend from the documentary.

Iroha: "The thing is Yukino senpai while doing research. I found this newspaper article."

She pulled out an old newspaper about the war. It was release about the same time, it was in English and on the cover is a picture of glam team before it everything went down. The face of one of the pilots was block out by a cap but the height gave clue to the age of the pilot being very young. She pointed at the pilot in particular.

Iroha: "I just learn about this pilot and this seems to be him."

Yukino: "I... I don't think I know who that is I'm not specialized in military history."

Oh..so yukipedia don't read up on this stuff. That's good.

Iroha: "Well this team is called glam team of the polish air force 6th air division, 66th Air Force unit. During the war this team became legends because they took part in almost every operation that happen during the war. The most famous is the large air battle called operation battle axes over the area known as the round table near the German Belarus border. They were the ones to down 2 super weapons !"

Yui: "The Belarus super weapons ?"

Iroha: "Yeah the Laser tower Excalibur, And the super massive command air cruiser XB-0"

those things ? I guess they really reveal almost everything on that 2018 information release.

Yui: "Oh yeah I saw it on the news about the Excalibur too. I'm still having a hard time believing it. I mean it's super weird and hi-tech and, like all sci-fi and stuff."

Yuigahama added to the conversation. I can't blame her I mean even I was shock to see them too.

Iroha: "Yeah."

The room went silent for a while. Isshiki was eyeing me for something. Lady do you think I know what you want ? Isshiki finally saying something I did not expect.

Iroha: "Senpai...how long are going to keep quiet about this."

I look up immediately.

What ?

Hachiman: "What are you talking about Isshiki ?"

Iroha: "Senpai... my dad work in the JASDF. He knows about you... about who you were 3 years ago."

Hachiman: "Isshiki what type of drugs are yo-"

Iroha: "Senpai !... tell me the truth... all the files I've gathered. All the information I found. All the clue only points to you."

Her eye were actually tearing up. What the hell ? I just sat in silence. Everyone was in silence. Guess I need to work on getting rid of my trails. How the hell did she found out. Her dad ? I though this was about an assignment

Iroha: "Senpai... or should I call you "Cipher" "

That was the breaking point. How the hell did she know that ?

Hachiman: "OK I get the point. I know about my short career as a mercenary I get it."

Yui: "Hikki ?!"

Yukino: "Hikigaya Kun explain Now !"

Hachiman: "Long story short. I went through some shit. I was adopted and try to find my real dad. Found out my real dad was a bastard and was lost. I choose to become a mercenary in order to do something meaningful for once. And then the shot had to hit the fan at Belarus."

The girls obviously was shook I mean obviously. It's not everyday that you club mate reveal that he was a former Mercenary.

Yukino: "I want to know what happen."

Yukinoshita straight up just ask

Yukino: "who are you ? Are you really Japanese ?, and are you a threat ?"

She was wary makes sense.

Yui: "Hikki that was 3 years ago you would have been.."

Hachiman: "I was 14 when I 1st got in the plane and after months of non-stop training, day in day out. My the time a month have passed I have around 120-125 flight hours."

Once again the whole room was silent.

Hachiman: "Listen as much as I want to brag about this shit believe I don't want to talk about it at all. I'd rather forget about it for good reasons."

I stood up without bother asking anyone to leave and prepare to walk out when the ice queen pops in

Yukino: "Tomorrow we are having a full time service club meeting. I want to know everything that happen and in detail. Who you are what happen and everything in between."

I was about to speak up when she interrupt me

Yukino: "I will talk to sensei about this and make an exception of allowing you to bring evidence and even alcohol to cope with the details but all I want to know is what happen."

Her glare when I actually see it was pure fucking ice death glare and I shit you not I can feel the lasers coming out of her damn eyes.

Hachiman: "You have a report on this subject and want point of view of a soldier or something ?"

Yukino: "No I just want to know what is going on. Hikigaya-kun if I know what happen to you maybe I can fix that rotten personality of yours."

Hachiman: "Yeah last I check you ain't a therapist."

Yukino: "That's why I'm allowing alcohol."

Of for fuck's sake she trying to get me drunk.

Hachiman: "How will I get back to my house ? Last I check I can't exactly bike home intoxicated."

Yukino: "Sensei will drive you home."

Fucking A.

Yukino: "In return we promise not to speak of this outside of this very room. This include you too isshiki-San"

Isshiki: "Senpai you can trust us."

The problem is not about trusting you it's about what happen if someone finds out.

Y'know what ? fuck it I'll brush it off till tomorrow. I walk out off the room and head off home on my bike for the day. Was I mad ? Yeah I was mad. The fact the foxy kouhai was able find out about my identity made me made because if she knows, then who else know. I did not forget what happen to PJ's widow after the war. Fucking hell if that happens here then I'll have to move and I can't just leave Komachi here either. Hell of someone knew my last name then we as a family have to move and I refuse to let them go through what I did. When I arrive back home I head straight upstairs. I didn't need dinner, I don't need my sister so worry about her oni-Chan. What I need to do is just relax and forget all that just happen.

My room is as expected full of stuff you'd see in a teenager's room with an odd exception. On the shelf above my closet is a safe. I open the safe with the code I know best 1401. Inside was my old M9 service pistol from my air force days, an old dog tag with my name and affiliations, my old training helmet with my emblem on it. Finally the patch of my squadron, polish air forces 6th air division 66th Air Force unit. To think that was only 3 years ago. That night I try to sleep. But all I see are giant fireballs.